I don't understand why it is so hard for me to stay on track. I'm just so frustrated with myself because I feel like I am doing what I am supposed to, but I am not seeing that much of a difference. If anyone were to ask, I think losing weight is the BIGGEST hurdle to jump over and maintain. I dunno, I just feel like I could be doing something more, but I dont know what. I think it would be so much easier to stay on task and motivated if I had someone actually doing it with me.......UGH I'm just frustrated right now
*hugs* Joy. All I can do is sympathize with the frustration. You are not alone. Especially here!
I tried a "diet" buddy and felt like the diet police was there 24/7. The obnoxious little kid that lives in my head wanted to find ways to eat what I wanted.
I'm eating healthy today, but it was hard to walk past all the candy in the store aisles this afternoon. When stress builds up in me, I know I eat.
Believe me Joyathrt, I'm in the same boat you are.. I ate fantastically today.. until the peanut butter frosted brownie called my name and somehow made it's way too my mouth. If you ever need someone to talk to/vent to, feel free to send me a PM. I need all the support I can get too!
I understand completely! I have one good WI and completely fall off track. Gain. Get back on track and start all over again. I hate this yo-yo stuff but I do it all the time. Don't give up! Eventually, the good outweighs the bad, you get in the groove, and it works!
Okay ladies. Let me tell you something. Yesterday I did very well until the afternoon. I ate probably 3000 calories. I don't know why I did it. Am I under stress? No. Did I have a craving? No. Was there something that was tempting me? No. I just ate crap I didn't even want. Today I am pondering my actions and trying to determine what exactly made me do it. I didn't even eat anything tasty--just crap.
We all have days that are harder than others. Yesterday is serving as a reminder to me that I don't have this food thing figured out yet. It still has some control over me that I can't understand. There is some element inside of me that hasn't made the commitment to a truly healthier way of life or else I wouldn't have done such a horrific thing. Yuck. I can't believe the utter garbage I ate--one whole box of Special K bars--which I never, ever eat or even purchase--that was 540 calories. Then, I ate these morbidly horrid animal crackers (again that I never eat or purchase)--and I do mean I ate a ton of them. I would guess it was 4-500 calories.
Thank you for being my support ladies. I wish you the healthiest life today. Hugs.
ETA: The scale went up 1.5 pounds today. I know it's sodium but it still doesn't keep me from feeling like a pig.
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Joy, I don't know if you're an avid reader or have time to polish off a very intense book but if you can make time, do so. "Evolve your brain-the science of changing your mind" by Joe Dispenza went a long way in getting me to change what I do. See, change is scary. Change freaks our mind out, freaks our body out. We are upsetting the apple cart and the biology inside us doesn't like that too much and so it'll do anything to feed what is familiar, even if it is destructive. Vamp didn't know why she ate the brownie, well she ate the brownie because it re-enforced a very strong connection in her brain. Many of us have emotional/chemical ties to food and the memories they bring, the feelings they foster. When we do things like eat the brownie, it makes those connections stronger. Sounds impossible to beat right? It's not, the brain is the most powerful organ we have and the wonderful thing is we can change it. We can install new memories and connections and make them stronger than the old ones. It takes work, it takes commitment, it takes understand, but it can happen.
Truth is, I choose to get myself into this. No one put a gun to my head or forced food down my mouth. Now, I choose to get out.
I ate these morbidly horrid animal crackers (again that I never eat or purchase)--and I do mean I ate a ton of them. I would guess it was 4-500 calories.
mmmmm I love animal crackers! (w/cold milk) Don't feel bad TBG if they were in my house I would have demolished them.
I can't even keep anything like that in my house at all... at least for right now anyways. I have NOTHING sweet in my house ever. If I want a cookie I will have to go out to get it. It's the only way I can deal with it right now.
Well, today I talked to a friend of mine because I was really feeling down about myself and my weight. She was helpful in getting my spirits up and is going to start working out with me. Tomorrow I am going to go to her house after work and do out biggest loser workouts and go walking. The plan is to go by her house every day after work. However, my finacee and I have decided to downgrade and sell our house and move into an apartment for now.. So we will be moving either the first or second weekend in april. So I dont know if I will be able to do it every single day with all of the packing I am going to have to do. I have so much crap....maybe I will have a huge yard sale and only move what I dont sell.....not a bad idea. Anyway....Guess what!! I finally got my fiancee on board!! yay!!! He is ready to start this journey with me. So after I leave my friends house, I will be coming home to walk with him and our dog. NOW....If I can just get the food thing under control I will be good. Thats my biggest thing...Its not even something that I want to eat, but I still eat it. I think sometimes I even eat when I am bored and I know I eat when I am depressed. And that is just about all of the time.... The depression has been getting better though because my doctor has put me on Cymbalta and I have also been talking to someone about issues that I have with my dad whom I dont speak to. But anyway,.....today has been a much better day. I think I am going to place pictures of different wedding dresses all over the house...this way when I want something to eat, I will see the dress and either go on a walk or find a projefct to do instead of stuff my face! : )
I am not sure if this ever will become a new healthy habit. Food planning 3 days at a time. For me it literally exercise and head games has to be one day at a time.
I knew it would be hard - never knew how much of the crap is in my head. My "coach" is now like a therapist and she shows me how I beat myself up about stupid stuff.
I am doing good and definitely better than the eating habits that got me here!
The plan is to go by her house every day after work. However, my finacee and I have decided to downgrade and sell our house and move into an apartment for now.. So we will be moving either the first or second weekend in april. So I dont know if I will be able to do it every single day with all of the packing I am going to have to do. I have so much crap....maybe I will have a huge yard sale and only move what I dont sell.....not a bad idea. ! : )
Hey Joy--it sounds like you are a bit more encouraged than a few days ago--GREAT. You can do this. You are doing the right thing by establishing a support system around you. You are setting yourself up for success and I have found this oh, so important.
Okay, with all due respect I am going to give you unsolicited "advice." You put YOURSELF, yep YOU on the very top of the list. LET NOTHING/NOONE and I do mean NOTHING/NOONE come between you and your healthy weight goal. First, above all else, place your nutrition, exercise and sleep. It doesn't work the other way around. Your health needs you to do this for YOU. Everything/Everyone else WILL fall into place--including the move and the yard sale and etc, etc, etc.
Okay, off my soapbox. Stepping down and away from it now.
Hi Joy! Welcome and the one thing I love about the people here is they let you just vent your feelings, worries, and well just tell them about your day and your struggles. Then they offer such a big foundation of support, understanding, and problem solving to keep you motivated.
I agree with putting you at the top of the list. I find that I often do not do this and that is when I really struggle. When I put everyone else in front of me, I dont' take care of myself. We should be top priority..i mean it is our bodies and life, not someone elses.
UHG.....Why is it so hard!?!?!
If you ever need someone to talk to/vent to, feel free to send me a PM. I need all the support I can get too! 
I understand completely! I have one good WI and completely fall off track. Gain. Get back on track and start all over again. I hate this yo-yo stuff but I do it all the time. Don't give up! Eventually, the good outweighs the bad, you get in the groove, and it works!
Don't feel bad TBG if they were in my house I would have demolished them.
