Whatever it takes... That was pretty much my mantra at the very beginning. I was shocked, shocked to see how much I actually weighed, and I knew that I couldn't continue like that and remain healthy. I decided that I had to do "whatever it takes to lose the weight". I didn't have a scale at home that went over 300 lbs, so I bought a scale that went up to 330 - the highest I could find at the time. The weeks that it took for me to lose from 346 - 330 were painfully long. I had no idea if what I was doing was working or not, but I told myself to give it a couple of months, and if it didn't work, I would have to do something different because I had to do whatever it takes to lose weight. I literally cried when the scale changed from ERR to 330 lbs. I was probably more emotional than the day I reached "one-derland".
After those 16 lbs came off, I was able to start envisioning myself at a smaller weight. I would visualize how great it would be to wear a smaller size, to see a smaller number on the scale, to not be embarrassed to wear a swimsuit with my children, to be able to walk a distance without getting out of breath, to be able to feel feminine again, etc. Just seeing myself do this in my mind was a huge part of being successful in the early part.
I am concerned about gaining the weight back. I've never really lost much weight before now, so I don't have the experience of losing and re-gaining. I have spent a lot of time reading in the maintaining forum on this board and I feel like I have learned a lot about the LIFELONG effort we will have to make to keep the weight off. BUT it will be completely worth it and I believe that I have the power to make it happen.
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