[remydey]

hello everyone... about 3 weeks ago i posted on here about how i had let myself get to the point of not being able to walk more than 20 steps or so without having to stop.. well, i didnt change the way i eat or drink at first, i just started walking... first i walked down to the tot lot.. about 200 steps.. took me ages, and i had to stop many times on the way.. it's amazing how angry you can get at yourself for letting this kind of thing happen... anyhow, after a few days of that, i walked around the tot lot (its circular) and counted the steps (100 for me)... as of now, i can walk to the tot lot, and do 20 laps around it, then walk home.. i only stop twice during all that for literally only about 30 seconds to catch my breath and i trudge on.. im sooo happy.. it's really amazing how resiliant the body can be..im going to keep it at 20 laps until i can do it without stopping at all, then i'll go to 25 and so on..
also starting last tuesday i started the food, drink part of my lifestyle change... i have tried to figure out how i have gained so much weight when i only eat once a day and then not huge portions.. the internet as well as this site have shed some light on that for me tho i think... i never moved.. which is sooo bad... i drank about 2-4 liters of coke per day ( which is bad ), and by only eating once a day, my body was in starvation mode and held onto the calories.. at least that's my take from what i read.. i wouldnt eat till 9pm at night( when hubby gets home from work), so all day long i guess my body was holding tight to the fat thinkin i was starving it..anyhow, i have giving up the soda.. i have been drinking 2 liters of water per day.. when i get up i have a cereal bar ( best i can do as im not hungry in the am's), cause i read you jump start your metabalism by eating in the am's....im averaging about 12-16 hundred cals per day now depending on what i eat.. but im doing better.. im eating lots of small meals.. granted i have about 3 cereal bars a day as theyre little and since im not used to eating much choking anything down is hard.. but i have definately noticed some changes... i have lost 5 lbs this week.. most water weight gain im sure.. i feel soooo much better... i didnt realize how sluggish and lazy i felt till i started eating and moving.. i feel 25 again and ive just started lol..
i mainly wanted to thank each and every person on this site for posting their threads... i have learned soooooo much from reading the posts here...me in all my ignorance thought eating once a day would help me lose weight lol.... so thank you thank you thank you

[Vortex_VVV]

Congrats! Little steps are so important to get started. In my experience, every time you make a step forward with your mobility, it'll feel as encouraging as these first steps.

[gggirls]

Great start Remydey - keep it up - everything starts with baby steps - I'm still there in many areas of this journey, including exercise. Thanks for keeping us updated.

[Heather]

Wow, I'm so impressed and SO happy for you!!!

It sounds like you're reclaiming your life AND starting to make reasoned food and exercise decisions. You are literally taking "baby steps"! Keep reading and learning more and you will continue to evolve what you do so that it works for you and your body!!

[azcyn]

WTG!!! your are doing great!!! yep just start with little steps and go from there. I am very very proud of you!!

[CatherineM]

I completely understand exactly how you are feeling. When I started walking again, I looked like a toddler or Frankenstein's monster. Nothing would bend good when I walked. The day I walked 2 miles for the first time, all I could do was fall to my knees in gratitude. Sometimes I still watch my feet when I walk in amazement. Plus, sometimes I still zigzag a bit if I'm not careful. I also wanted to beat myself up on a daily basis about letting myself get into the position of not being able to walk. I know that part of it was because of a knee and back injury, but neither would have put me in the wheelchair without the weight. I finally realized that I wasn't healthy. Healthy people don't have the need to hurt others, or themselves. I hurt myself with food so badly. I had to realize that taking responsibility for what I did to myself, and taking the responsibility of doing something to change it, doesn't mean I have to punish myself indefinitely for something I did to myself when I was vulnerable and unhealthy. Accepting responsibility, but also learning to forgive myself for what I did to myself were critical first steps out of the deep abyss. Every step you take is one away from the person you were, and towards the person you want to be.

[Breathless in NJ]

Nice job remy! I agree with Catherine, every step forward is one more away from the person you were and towards the person you want to become! Keep on working thsoe baby steps and before you know it, there will be giant leaps! You go Girl!!!

[NotTheCheat]

That's what it's all about!!!! I am glad you are feeling so much better and seeing such amazing progress by starting from what you can do and building on to it.