Cyn, I think it's wonderful that you are opening up your home to him. It's sad your aunt is going to jail, but hopefully it will straighten her out some. Things will all come together as far as having another mouth to feed and clothe. It just always seems to turn out that way. You deserve BIG GIANT HUGs for being such a great person!!!
Meta, that was so sweet how you explained your footprints in the snow. And you DO deserve a big hug from yourself, you're doing so well and taking care of you.
Battle, Ratkity, you explained exactly how I feel all the time. I gain, just to take a month to lose it again and then repeat the whole process all over again. I've weighed the same for the last two months and I know it's because I'm not in total control of my eating and still, the boredom of being alone at night sets in. The last couple of nights have been better, but still I have concern for how quickly it can go haywire. I wish I could get back the strength I had in the beginning when I first started. If you find out what the secret is...please share!!
Catherine, heck I would take the money any day!!! Have fun spending it when you can get around to it. Sure hope that foot heals quickly for you.
My Fil is doing better. My Mil called late last night and told me he had stablized but he was still in CCU. If it hadn't of been for a visiting nurse looking in on him, she said it would of been too late. So there are angels here on earth! He still has pneumonia in one lung though, but they said if he keeps improving he will be out of CCU very soon. So thanks for all of your concern and prayers...it means alot to us.
We are expecting snow tonight and Saturday!!!! WHOOOOHOOOO!! I can't wait. I just love it. I want to go out and make snowdoggies this year!!! Last year I was too lazy to go out in it. So I'm really looking forward to playing this year.
Saturday is only going to be in the low 30's and we have our annual Christmas parade to go to. I don't have a coat that fits anymore, they're all too big, but I think I might wear a couple of em to stay warm.
Doing ok OP wise and drinking my water but TOM is here. Sometimes I lose weight at the beginning of it...weird.
Have a great night
Debbie
I'm feeling pretty disgusted with myself right now. I just got done with a terrible binge where I ate a ton of leftover Halloween candy and then moved onto things like cheese and tofu dogs, of all things. So I'm owning up to the 2600 calories I've had today and vowing to be back on plan as of NOW. I got sent into this mentality from being away from my foods for a week while traveling and all it'll take is a couple of great OP days for me to get back into my groove. When I weighed myself yesterday morning, it read 287.8... most of that is hopefully water weight from salty restaurant food, but I know at least a little bit is because of the quantities I've been eating. Jed has also vowed to do better and has actually thrown away the cookies and cake he just bought.
I think I'm going to go and distract myself from eating now.
It is so true though. The more junk I eat, the more I want.
Battle - You are not alone. And in the long-term scheme of things you are still pretty new at this new lifestyle. Be patient with yourself. I struggle alot with bingeing and I finally have come to the realization I always will. It has helped me to accept that because I have stopped beating myself up or stressing out over my food transgressions. I am alot better than I used to be although far from perfect. I never will be perfect. None of us will be. You are doing great so far.
Well, I got my hair done red today. I am off to post a picture. I think I like it but I have to admit it's a bit startling to see it so dark after years of being blonde. Also, I can't figure out what colors I can wear with this new hair. I have a closet full of reds and pinks and those don't seem to work too well. Any redheads out there care to give me some wardrobe hints?
I finally posted some pics of my painting. Now I can put my house back together! Even though the drawers are in there are still piles of clothes all over the place because I haven't put them back yet.
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Nancy - Your bedroom looks great! The change in wall color makes it look so much warmer and inviting. And I LOVE the black furniture. That was brave of you to paint your furniture but it looks like it turned out really well!
Just a quickie, Xena your hair looks lovely, it really brings the green out in your eyes! I wear lots of blacks, blues, purples (this season's 'top' colour, apparently!) and I still wear red anyway. I'm naturally brunette but I 'go' redder, sometimes VERY red!lol & red clothes still look ok as long as you don't go crazy with red lipstick, fingernails & everythingxxxxxxx
Nancy, it looks great, a bit 'oriental', you should be proud of yourself, a lot of women would have to get a 'man in' to put the bed up AND paint! I bet it was tons easier now you've lost so much weight!xxxxxxx
Heather it's a relief that you get those awful cravings too! AND give in occasionally. I thought it was just me who was 'weak'! So many people who've lost weight say they never want cakes or fatty snacks any more. I LOVE the doughnut=drug, shame they aren't made illegal too! Well except for special holidays! lol xxxxxx
I have to take Aiden to school this afternoon, like in 10 minutes, for a visit, he starts full time in January! Freedom!!!! lol, well I'll be looking for a part-time job, but it wil be great to get out of the house again.
I've been down recently, found out the creative writing couse I had to leave coz of getting Aiden to nursery on time had no places AND I couldn't be a volunteer literacy tutor as I had no one to be my 'referee'. I've just been a mum in the last few years so there was no one to help me, my old tutor who I volunteered with has retired so I was really down about it. Good news though, I rang the adult education centre asking to speak to the creative writing tutor in person, he rang back and he thinks my writing is really good, so good he's 'finding room' for me in his class, even though it's officially full! He is also ging to be my referee for tutoring too!!! He's a lovely man, a 'proper' published author and he has no airs and graces about it either. I'm so happy, I feel like I can finally achieve something, getting writing again, volunteering AND, possibly getting a job too! I don't mind if it's in a shop, or anything, other than cleaning, I can always look for something more suited to me & my qualifications whilst I working.
Cyn, you are so kind, that boy will have a 'mum' & 'dad', big brother to set an example, little brother to look up to him, he can't go wrong in a loving family. I hope it all settles down soon & you all enjoy your new, bigger family.xxxxxxxxx
Meta, WOW, those sorts of 'eureka' (I had to check the dictionary for that one, lol!!!) moments are worth their weight in cakes, lol! I'm so pleased you took the time to see how far you've come, weightloss-wise, and realise that you deserve some CONGRATS!!!!!!xxxxxxxx
Debbie I hope your FIL continues to improve. CONGRATS on the coats not fitting, lol!xxxxxx
Sorry, I'm out of time but if I forgot anyone SORRYxxxx
xxxxsharon
Sharon -- I should post more of my failings here. I definitely give in! I've actually been eating too much for a few days now. Maybe it's TOM or that hubby is out of town, but I made it thru Turkey Day without gaining and then just keep eating!!!!!
My saving grace is that usually I'm not binging on donuts, but healthier foods. Usually.
I am so happy that there are people here, no matter what they weigh, that feel the same way I do. It just brings everything into perspective. The binging can really throw one for a loop, and it is just nice to know that not only are we all human, but just the thought that we are not alone can be a tremendous help. It is such a daily struggle, and sometimes I really wonder what's up with my brain!! I feel so "stuck", but yet the motivation (fear) that I had in January is totally gone. I am grateful for all the compliments I am getting from my friends, but I know that I am falling back into old patterns and am scared to death that I wont be able to stop. And what's worse is that I am using my kids as "suppliers". They support me 100%, but the minute I say lets get fast food to eat, they are out the door and in the car!! I know I am an addict, and the worse crap I eat, the more I want!! As long as I am at work I am ok, but the minute I am home all the hard work goes right out the window. Maybe it's the PMS talking , which is SOOOOOOOOOOOO totally out of control this month, but I am feeling really down right now and just knowing I can come here for support makes me feel better. I appreciate all you wonderful people so much, and just want to say thank you for being here!! (so what if I am a week late to be "thankful"!!) So a big to everyone and Thanks for being here in cyberland. (I would have said "I love you guys", but then you would have thought I was drinking!! )
Here is some to those struggling, to those who need it, and I hope you all have a Great Day!!
Hi all...thanks for the warm thoughts about me and my cousin situation. Yesterday was not a good day for me. Loong story but I binged on tolehouse cookies! UGH!! my fault they were on sale and I bought them. Came home and made them. I had 4 UGH! I have a seriously BAD sweet tooth! (maybe i should ahve it pulled) lol Anyhow going to try better today. And no money for the vending machine today! Lord help me! lol
Sharon - That is great news about the writing class and also finally having your days free!
Cyn - you did better than I would have done. If I had cookie dough it never would have made it to cookie form!
to everyone who is struggling with post holiday and other eating troubles.
Well - it is a momentous day for me because I have FINALLY passed the 100 pounds lost mark! This morning the scale read 252 and I am totally thrilled. It seems like some of the changes I have been making recently have been making a difference!
Debbie-He always says that he will let me spend the money to get me to do the editing, knowing full well that I hate to spend money. We’ve put 12 months worth of mortgage payments down in the last 2 months instead. We get the mortgage paid off, then maybe I’ll let my hair down some and go crazy and get cable TV or something. He’s been getting all these speeches because of the award, and that will eventually die down, so we wanted to make sure we didn’t just blow the little bit of extra money on booze. If you want some snow, I’d be happy to ship some to you. We get it for free here.
Lindsey-It takes a very mature, humble person to admit to binging on tofu dogs. If you’re going to binge, make it pecan pie. It is a change though isn’t it to not have anything worth binging on in the house, and still be able to. I think we should try to pass a law against Halloween candy before next year. Who are we kidding? Kids are barely allowed to trick or treat anymore, not that folks are having kids anyway. I think I read something that said the only groups in the US that are actually still averaging 2 or more kids where Evangelical Christians, Mormons, and Muslims, and I’m not sure any of those groups are really down with Halloween anyway. These huge boxes of candy that they sell, starting about Labor Day, are for the grown ups. We can buy huge amounts of candy without feeling funny, or having people look at us weird.
Xena-My former roommate once came home with red hair and the dog growled at her. He didn’t know who she was.
Nancy-WTG!! Now you can buy a dumbbell set for the corner that is 100lbs., and look at it every time you don’t believe it actually happened. I now know why people get fussy about making sure that stuff gets painted before they move in. I was thinking the other day that when our carpet needs replacing, we’ll need the whole parking lot for our stuff so they can even get to the floor. That means we’ll have to do it during those two weeks of summer we occasionally have. I’m thinking about cutting it up a square at a time, and just painting the concrete underneath. That would be easier. Our bedroom is such a mishmash of color. One thinks that you are expecting company to go to all this effort.
Sharon-Real authors usually don’t have airs, just the pretentious ones. When you get to where your teacher is as a proper published author, just remember how to treat the rest of us. Working in something you love is better than a CEO’s salary.
Heather-You know you’ve come a long way when your binging is on healthy foods. I remember hearing someone say that no one gets fat pigging out on carrots. You could, but it would sure take a bunch of them.
Donna-Fear is my biggest motivator. It is just impossible to stay scared forever. Falling back into old patterns is like trying to get past a skip on a record. If you try to put it in the next groove, it just slides back in. You basically have to move to the next song to keep from falling back in the scratch. Of God, I hope you’re old enough to know what a scratched record is like.
Cyn-I’ll bet you could find a dentist to pull that sweet tooth. It depends on how good your dental insurance is. On the one hand, being on crutches is preventing me from going to the store, so I can’t find great things on sale I shouldn’t be eating. On the other hand, he is doing the shopping, and that’s just scary. He thinks that Cheesewiz is a good protein source.
Speaking of himself, he will be gone today, so maybe I can finally finish this paper before it is the end of me. I really do feel sorry for my professors. It was supposed to be a 15 page paper with 5 sources. I’ve already used over 15 sources, and the length is a question mark at the moment, but my 30 minute presentation ended up being 40 pages, so I’m not hopeful that I will be economical.
Hello, I only have a second. I'm posting a link I saw on yahoo.
I found it very interesting, made me feel like I wasn't alone. I wondered
if any of you had this same issue. It's dreadful. http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/b...order-overview
Hugs,
Catherine -- If I were binging on carrots I wouldn't worry. I'm eating too much granola bars, and turkey (and stuffing -- thankfully that's all gone) and sweet potatoes (with a little maple syrup)...
As for your profs -- I feel for 'em!!! But I would rather read papers where students get overly-into the topic than the ones where they do the basics and don't try to hide their disdain!!! Have fun with the paper, if that's possible!
Catherine: I am pleased beyond belief that you would think I am young enough not to know what a record is. I actually still have my 45 of "Puppy Love" by Donny Osmond. I was convinced he would actually fall in love and marry me if we ever met. But being a 10 y/o Jewish girl living on Long Island, I soon realized that wasn't happening. Not too many Jews besides Roseanne Barr living in Utah!!! I hope you get your paper done soon, even though it seems a bit lengthy!! (and since when isn't Cheesewiz protein??? )
Nancy:
Way to go girl!! And your bedroom and furniture look great!!
Xena: I love the red haircolor!! It looks beautiful!
to everyone and Thanks for being here in cyberland. (I would have said "I love you guys", but then you would have thought I was drinking!! 
to those struggling, 
to those who need it, and I hope you all have a Great Day!! 
It looks beautiful!
