Well, it has been a little 'warm' here lately and I am beginning to wish that I had some of this cold weather you all keep talking about. We have just had our third day of temps above 104F. Yesterday and today were around 107F (42C). Today was our hottest March day on record. Tomorrow is going to be cooler, at around 100F, and then it is getting a little lower again for the weekend. Thank goodness for airconditioning. The 'powers-that-be' have been saying that it would be good if we could all turn our airconditioners off during the afternoon to save on the big power rush, but I don't think I could cope without some kind of airconditioning. My body has decided to adjust to my weight loss this year and I am actually feeling the heat again. For the first year or so after I lost my weight I couldn't find ANY way to keep warm, but now I don't seem to have that problem.

I wanted to mention my weekend. Neil and I went to my old home town for my old primary (elementary) school's 100th birthday celebrations. I saw people there (students and teachers) who I hadn't seen in close to 30 years! It was quite funny, because I was expecting them to not recognise me because I had lost so much weight, but of course they hadn't seen me when I was really big. I was 'big' when I left that town to train in the city, but I wasn't THAT big. Mind you, many of us still had trouble recognising each other simply because of the time lapse. I had a WONDERFUL time! This was a really special time for me, because I just know that I would NEVER have done this when I was bigger. I have always avoided meeting people who I haven't seen in a while, as I don't like the disappointed/surprised looks on their faces. So, this time I was SO confident about being there and not looking 'unusual' at all. I just spent the entire time talking, laughing and catching up on old times. Our grade has never had a reunion of any kind and we are planning to organise something once we can get a line of communication going.

Other than that, I haven't been doing a lot. I had a funny time last week... well, it actually wasn't all that 'funny', but you know what I mean... when I just didn't feel right at all. If I hadn't had TOM visit the week before I could have sworn that I was due for it. I have a feeling that it may have just been me reacting to the upcoming full moon again, but I'm not totally sure. Someone mentioned that perhaps I hadn't really taken the time to 'deal' with Dad's death as I had been racing around all over the place helping/supporting Mum and getting the funeral organised, then racing around for the start of the new school year. That kinda makes sense, but I don't even want to know what would happen if I actually just 'stopped' and took the time to think about things and where my life is at the moment. Wow... that was very interesting. I hadn't realised I was going to write that until I was in the middle of it. I actually type as fast as I think (most of the time) and my fingers just kept racing across the keyboard. I have just realised that I haven't taken the time to 'deal' with things, but I hadn't realised that before. I am wondering now whether that has been a conscious decision or whether I have just honestly been too busy. Sorry... I know I am getting a little deep with my thinking here, but I am kinda using this post as a sounding board now and I know that many of you will understand what I am going on about in some way.

Phew... that has given me something to dwell on for a while. I am actually tempted to take a day off work to do absolutely NOTHING except think. Maybe that isn't such a good idea though, so I will have to rethink that one in the morning. I have had a few days out of the classroom going on various professional development courses lately and I don't want to leave the kids more than I have to. Oh dear, there I go again, running off at the mouth. I think I will just head off to bed now and try to stop my mind racing around in this little head of mine.

Sorry that I am not including any individual replies, but I will try to fix that in the near future.

Take care all,

Zelma

Peggy -- Chili's has a "guiltless grill" menu -- a couple of chicken dishes, a black bean burger and a salmon dish (my favorite). You can actually look up the info online before you go, but the calorie/carb info is available on the menu.

Zelma-- Loved your NSV of being able to go to a reunion! I certainly have avoided things like that in the past but would be so much more confident now!

Having the time to think is a double-edged sword but I trust you will listen to your inner self and determine whether or not it's something you should do now. Good luck!!! :)

Catherine i really dont think my leg problem is a blood clot or i think it would be hurting 24 hours a day. it mainly hurts from overuse. i am going to the dr but am waiting on my hubbys new insurance to kick in and get my insurance card before i go because i am sure tests will need to be run and we know how expensive those can be!

Hi everyone...
Well I secretly weighed in today. Things are starting to look up for Fridays weigh in. After being up 2 lbs last week I needed the reassurance that this diet was working.

Still nervous about my CAT scan. I just had breakfast cause I can't eat for like at least 5 hours and my body is growing accustomed to eating something every 2.5hrs.

Anyhow, I have to lug the zoo (2 cats and dog) to the vet. Yes all at the same time. For their yearly checkup. exciting!!! Then off to clean for a bit and then my CAT scan appt. I took tonight and tomorrow off as I have time that I have to use at work. It will give me more time to concentrate on my exercise and weight loss this week.

Going to call my MIL to see if they would like to join us at the movies tonight. Have a great morning!

Brenda :wave:

Thanks to everyone for the welcomes! You are all so supportive of one another, it's great!

Peggy, that is a bummer about the scale but you're right in that it's just a number and just keep using that new scale, since scales will always vary from one to another anyway.

Zelma, what a great story about your reunion! I would never go to one at the weight I'm at either, and that's sad, to think about all the things we miss out on in life because of our weight. Your body could be trying to tell you something, but as wyllenn said, it will be up to you whether now is the right time to delve into those thoughts and emotions.

Brenda, I would be nervous about the CAT scan, too (anything doctor/hospital related makes me anxious), but it will be OK. *hugs*

Zelma i agree great on the reuninon. i am having a 27 year reunion in may but i wont be going because of my weight.. it is a shame weight can make you feel like if you arent the same size you were in high scholl you cant go.

Hello to everyone, I am slowly learning names here so if I screw up please correct me...lol.

Zelma I have to say your before and after pics are simply amazing, you are an inspiration to me, you are very pretty.

Brenda can I ask why you need a CAT scan?


Sorry if I don't remember who has the leg problem and I don't know what sort of leg problem, but as an LPN one test for blood clots is to lay flat and have someone flex your leg towards your chest, knee bent, and pressing on your foot like you are stretching a calf muscle, you shouldn't feel any pain in your calf. This is termed (Homan's Test/Sign). I hope it is a negative Homan's sign for you. :)

As for me I can say I am feeling better today. It's so amazing how just having someone to talk with who share the same journey can truley pick up ones spirits, I was really feeling at my lowest of lows this last couple months and now feel I am on the road to greatness....THANK YOU ALL !

Julie -- Don't worry about keeping us all straight! You're doing great, and I'm glad you feel you're getting something from this!!!

Julie thanks for the infomation i will certainly have my hubby help me do that test when he gets home .

Wyllenn, just a quick question...I put my pic in my profile but how do I add some other pics?

Lisa,~I love the idea of your marathon chart. When we get a new ink cartridge, I just might make one myself. What a wonderful brother you have. That was just precious that he gave you his "bib." It sounds like you have a good support group for in person support and of course all of us here. I'm sure you're gonna do wonderfully! :hug:

Hi Julie! Have a great day!


Mechelle~:congrat: :congrat: on your loss!! That's just great! Keep up the good work!!


Catherine~Thanks for the info on changing up spices you gave to Julie, Miss Bliss. I'm gonna use it!
:rofl: on the drag queen store. What a great idea that is .....to get shoes etc from there. I'll have to ask one of my friends if there's a store like that here. Personally, I couldn't careless about someone's sexual orientation. They're just people, like me. They certainly deserve to be treated with respect and dignity like everyone else. As you know, I'm married with kids, so obviously I'm "straight", but I have very dear friends that aren't. (i think that's enough of this subject, cuz i definitely have an opinion on it, and I could go on and on an on.):soap:


Annie~Yep, I'm lucky, :lucky: I have a great doctor. He's very compassionate, and seems to fully understand depression, ptss and anxiety. He asked me about all my feelings, and things I worry about, as of course they're ridicilous, but I still feel them just the same. I found out that all the things I'm experiencing is what happens to people with depression. Thanks for always listening. :listen:
:sorry: I'm sorry you're mouth is still sore. Abby gets hers on next month, I hope they don't bother her too much.
The gym membership sounds like a blast! :goodvibes I'll get one as soon as we can afford the monthly payment. We have an awesome gym here. It feels like a family, great machines of all kind, basket ball courts, volley ball court, an indoor track, a pool that's outside, BUT, it's covered with a dome and heated in the winter. They have the best classes I've ever seen in a gym. They even have tanning beds and a weigh in station with someone else weighing and measuring you, plus scales in the locker/shower room. When you go, you'll meet people just like us, and people who have been where we are and been successful in their journey. It's cool to still see them at the gym and working hard to keep it off. It impresses on me, that even really fit people, still have to work at it, just like me.


Peggy~Check on line to see if you can pull up a Chili's menu. :comp: That might help. Way to go on your walking a lot. And taking the stairs, man, that's awesome. :carrot: :stress: Don't sweat the 10 pound difference in scales. You're still down 25 pounds, and that's awesome. So what if you have 10 pounds more to go than you thought. You're still progressing very, very well!! :yes: :yes:


Zelma~I'm so proud to know you.:love: Your experience at your reunion is so inspiring to me. Next time our class has a reunion, I hope to be able to attend. Like you, if I"m not fit or at least close to a "normal" weight, I won't attend.
Honey, :hug: your posts always make sense and using this as a sounding board is exactly why it's here. I really believe you do need to take a day for yourself to slow down and just meditate on the past several months. It's gonna happen one way or another, and it's much better for you to experience your feelings than to pack them down again and again. (speaking from experience here) Maybe you could take a Friday off, then if you need more than one day, you'll have three days available to you. I'm sure the kids would rather do without you for one extra day instead of the stress come out in an illness or something else.
Big hugs to you. :hug: :hug:


Patti~I completely understand the need for insurance to kick in. I hope you get all the cards etc that you need real soon. :goodvibes :goodvibes


Brenda~Hang in there, Honey. It must be hard to wait for that test.:stress:
Will your animals be mad at you for taking them to the vet? :mad: My dog, Tia, needs to go and she'll be mad.:mad: :mad: She gets mad when I take her to Pets Mart for a special bath, or whatever. She doesn't stay mad long though.:)


I'm sorry for anyone I missed. But I do wish you well!
Well, last night was horrible, I couldn't sleep at all. I hope it was just a bad night and that the meds do better tongiht. :yawn: :yawn: I did manage to stay totally op yesterday and got in 35 minutes total on the gazelle. :lol:
My Nomer, my daughter that got married last fall, is coming home today from Oklahoma City. :cp: :dancer: :yes: :yes: She should be here around 10 pm. :yay: :yay: :yay: I'm so, so glad she's coming home. I miss her so much. She's even bring Rocky, the dog we got 8 years ago. He was always here dog, but we had him since he was a puppy and he lived with us til she moved to Oklahoma.
I'm very glad I'll be seeing him and Nomer. I'm also glad she has him with her cuz it's a 13 hour drive.
Well, I must get in the shower and try to get motiveted to clean a little before she gets here. AND, my nightmare sd :devil: is going to her moms this weekend again!!!! :carrot: At least Andy is trying to get her mom to take her for the weekend. I'm really not being mean, but I really, really hope she's away this weekend. She just pushes and pushes and lies and lies every day. She makes me crazy!:crazy: :rollpin:
Anyway, off to the shower, get my protein shake etc.
Hugs to all!

ZELMA-Thats great about you reunion! Good to see you post!:)

BRENDA-Hope everything turns out well from your cat scan. Keep us posted.:hug:

LESLEY and JULIE- I don't think I have welcomed you yet so..:welcome2:

JULIE-Glad you are feeling better.:) I love this site its a great support! Also thanks for sharing the blood clot test.

PATTI-Let us know how the leg test comes out. I really hope you can figure out whats going on soon.:hug:

Ok well I checked the scales this morning and I am still down 2 pounds. I was just double checking! I put it away until next week. I may have to get DH to hide it!:lol:

I hope you all are having a good day. :hug:

Sandy-We must have been posting at the same time. Thanks for the congrats! And WTG on being OP and working out. All of this gazelle talk makes me really want to buy one!:lol: Have a great time visiting with your daughter!:)

way to go on your 2 pounds Mechell i can only hope the scales will be nice this week since they were mean last week. glad you understand my inurance needs sandy! hope you feel better real soon too

Wow, there is so much going on this past couple of days!
I just wanted to thank Zelma for her post. I went to her web site and could not believe how incredible she looks! Dancing Carrots For You:carrot: :carrot: :carrot: :carrot: :carrot: :carrot: :carrot: :carrot:
I am sure you don't need me to tell you but you are an inspiration to everyone here and anyone who meets you. Thank You

BRENDA- Sometimes the waiting is the hardest part. My daughter Scarlet had a slipped hip plate (at 12) and from the time she went to the hospital until the surgeries it was only one day, but I remember it felt like a week! Good luck with your scan and hang in there, we are all rooting for you:hug:

LESLEY and JULIE- :wel3fc: I have only been here a little while and it really has helped. I never realized a support system like this could change the way I felt about dieting or fitness, but it has. I am totally hooked and you will be too. It's great to meet you!:)

JULIE-I am glad you feel better too. Some days are just icky, but the more you talk here and get up and try the better you will feel. Keep it up!:D

Michelle-:carrot: :carrot: Even if it's a double check it should still make you feel great, yay two lbs. lighter!


I know I seem to thank everyone for being here everytime I post, but I do believe true graciosness and appreciation could never get tiring.

I got on that darned treadmill for 60 minutes this morning! I was trying to split my workout up and I will when I can but with three kids still in the house that was crazy. So I just went for it this morning. I am really watching my calorie intake and food choices. I started a fit day journal for myself, I love that thing, it is so easy, and pretty charts are fun!!!! My biggest change lately has been here. Just knowing I am accountable to ya'll is helping tremendously. I tell everyone about this place, but I think until you come and try it out, you just can't know. Thanks.

I loved Zelma and Meg's before and after pictures!They were so inspiring for me that I think I am going to print out pictures of all the great success stories as they keep coming and keep them in a journal. I know just seeing all of the wonderful people just like me who were and are succesful will be a huge motivator for me. Then when I get to where I want to be I can put myself in the book too! Well, I am off to help a friend put together a nautalis type machine so we can lift wieghts!
Love Ya'll Carolyn