Katt there are no words to express the pain you must be feeling..... I have had two father in laws I helped when they had cancer so I can relate to a point. Just know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family especially lil T
Am sending up prayers for your nephew, Tyler; and for you and your family during this sad time. May God bless you and comfort you, with His love and peace ... Rosebud.
My dear Katt, I am so, so sorry about Lil T.
I wish I was near you to help you through this. As someone I know would say, "I'm with you in my heart." Please, write, email, whatever you need.
We can't know why these things happen, but I DO know that it WILL be OK for Lil T. Our Heavenly Father is right there holding him every moment and is right there with you and your family, too. We are human and cannot understand things very well that God has ALWAYS known. Have faith that HE is there, loving Lil T. holding him in strong arms and has planned a wonderfulness for him beyond any of our hopes or dreams.
I am praying that all of you can feel God's love at this difficult time.
Thank you everyone for your kind words and prayers.
Tyler Cameron Clarkson died just after midnight this morning aged 11 years and 5 months.
Im not sure how I feel now .. Its sort of a numb feeling really .. I start crying and then just stop and feel like nothing .... actually my thoughts are pretty much out the door at the moment .. I went to the supermarket today to get myself a couple of raspberry cream buns .. I know its naughty and I will regret it later .. but I was alone and just wanted something .. I went through the store up to the check out only to find I had left my card at home even tho I had taken my wallet .. so I asked them to hold it until I came back (got some other shopping too) .. but it was weird .. when I went into the store I had a thought of "do you have your card??" Of course I thought in return I have my wallet and my card is in that ... but it wasnt .. should have looked before I went in lol ..
I am trying to find positives today .. and the most amazing one I can think of came in an email.
When I was a teen .. I have 4 friends .. we did everything together .. then one moved away and the rest of us just drifted apart .. it was that ONE that I missed most and wondered how she was quite often .. out of the blue I get an email asking if I remember her and if Im the same Sarah (which is my real name by the way) .. what perfect timing, so I emailled he back telling her everything that has happened in the last 10 or so years since I had seen her .. actually its closer to 12-13 I think!
Other than my dogs, cat & sheep its the first thing to make me smile properly all week.
I think of Lil T resting now .. and I know that grandad met him, I can just feel it .. and he wont be hurtin anymore either .. he held on just long enough for his sisters birthday to pass (Amber turned 17 yesterday) but before his mums birthday on Saturday.
I wish I still had contacts in the music industry over here cos I would dearly love to donate one of my songs to a fundraiser for childrens cancer research in his name .. maybe that will be a goal for me this year .. if I can just get my mind around it.
Diets out the window by the way ... well .. not badly .. but Im not exercising enough I know that ... so many things in my mind .. .and so little motivation to do anything at the moment .. I didnt even get dressed until midday today .. not that I slept much anyway.
Love Light and Laughter everyone .. and again . .THANK YOU!
I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Its always hard to see a loved one suffer. I will keep your nephew, you and your family in my prayers. Also don't beat yourself up about the snickers. You are going through a really rough time.
Katt - I am so sorry to hear about Lil T. As you said, he will no longer be in pain. That doesn't necessarily make it any less painful for the people he leaves behind.
Katt/Sarah, what terrible news for you all, I have no words really except that I am thinking of you all at this moment and I hope that this tragedy does not completely shut out the light for you as u have so much in you.....
Oh Katt, I'm so sorry..... it feels so frivalous to write that, but I just wanted to add myself to the list of people who are thinking of you and your family and your beautiful nephew.
Katt - I'm so sorry about your little nephew. It is heartbreaking to lose someone you love, but particularly a child. I truly believe that there were many there to greet him when he arrived. When my Mom died, we read this poem at her funeral. I hope it is as meaningful to you as it was to us.
A Parable Of Immortality
By Henry Van Dyke
“I am standing upon the seashore. A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze and starts for the blue ocean. She is an object of beauty and strength, and I stand and watch until at last she hangs like a speck of white clouds just where the sea and sky come down to mingle with each other. Then someone says,
‘There she goes!’”
“Gone where? Gone from my sight . . . that is all. She is just as large in mast and hull and spar as she was when she left my side and just as able to bear her load of living freight to the place of destination. Her diminished size is in me, not in her. And just at the moment when someone at my side says, ‘There she goes!’ there are other eyes watching her coming and other voices ready to take up the glad shout,
