Aw, your subject title looks like something I would have written!
I know how you feel! Last year I started out at 233 and managed to lose it all the way to 165, but then some stressful things happened, I went into binge mode and over time, got back up into the 220's.
Now I'm back on the journey to meet and exceed my previous record. I'll stay in touch with you as your weight loss buddy, if you're still interested!