I will be turning 31 in a few months. Honestly I love being 30. I'm in best shape of my life, and working towards true inner happiness, something I didn't know in my 20s. When the big 3-0 approached, I had some of the expected things done, married, kids, college (though I want to continue) but some things I hadn't, I wanted to have more schooling done, a better position in my field of study, we rent not own...
But the most wonderful thing happen at 30. Mentally it did sonething to me. I started to see life as an experience, not a race. I started to feel more like an adult, because I think the rest of the adult world thinks "kid" when they hear twenty...
It really sunk in that I will not be alive forever, and I really began enjoying my life, and searching for peace with the hardships I endured in my younger years.
I am also someone that did not peak in high school, and I would say who I am, my appearance and what I have to offer the world improves with age.
I started to feel sorry for those people that were super popular, super pretty, had lots of money (well their parent's money) nice things, and just thought they were the cat's meow in highschool and even their early 20s. Because I still know some of them now, and its like their life was so great then, it had no where to go but down. Or at least they let themselves believe that. And a few of them really do live in the past. What a sad existance to spend your life wishing you could go back to one age.
For me, I know the best it yet to come. In exchange for all life has to offer and all I have yet to see, learn, and do I will grow older, but its worth it.
I also think about the people I've known along the way that have died young. When I was in highschool, our junior year two students from our class were killed in a car crash. They were 17. I wasn't close to them, but I had a few classes with them. Sometimes I think of all the things I've lived since 17, and how they never got that chance. And I imagine all that I will get to live over the next 20 years, and I hope I get th chance to do it. I would never want to be forever 29. Growing older, to me, is a gift.
Last edited by GlamourGirl827; 11-27-2011 at 12:51 PM.
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