Just a little update, I had a dream last night that Jeff was cheating on me and then trying to explain to me why it was okay for him to do so
Clearly, my subconscious has not settled, but I think it will in time. My best friend from high school was also in the dream, and I think both are pointing to another personal issue of mine: caring too much. Well, maybe not really caring too much, but caring more than the other party in a relationship, ya know? My best friend and I were attached at the hip in high school. Then I went away to college, and I would keep in touch throughout my freshman year. After that, we hardly ever talked, and I now haven't seen her in probably over 2 years. I miss her dearly and try to contact her sometimes (emails and cards and stuff), but I feel that my efforts are never reciprocated. I have had this problem many times, but with her, it was the most evident. It's like I try so hard to make things work and make everyone happy, and it makes me feel like I care about that person more than they care about me. Does that make sense?? So I guess that was another issue I was having with Jeff, hence the dream. I spent a lot of today questioning every little thing he did (in my head, not out loud). I also spent a lot of today justifying and convincing myself that I was crazy--he HAS to love me. We met when I lived in Va Beach, and he lived in MD, yet we both made the trip every other weekend to see each other, and then when I lived in Manassas, he still drove the 2 hours to see me every weekend, and now we live together. His longest relationship before me was 6 months, he has never lived with another girl, and we have now been together for a year and 7 months and have been living together for 2 weeks (he's never lived with anyone other than family before). He bought his car brand new in May of 2004, and it now has about 40,000 miles on it
thanks to me living so far away all the time. Now, tell me that's not love! 
I can't imagine why he would cheat on me with someone else and still go to all that trouble to be with me, so despite my subconscious sending me depressing dreams, I am sticking to my original reaction to believe him, trust him, and love him until he gives me absolute reason to do otherwise 
So, I spent a lot of today over-thinking and over-analyzing everything (as I often do), and then I cried for a while, and then I talked to him a little, and now I'm back to being happy. I think a major part of why I am so emotional about all this stuff in my head is that my TOM hit today--what timing to be hormonal! The poor guy--I apologized for my behavior (the crying) and assured him that I really don't normally cry over something every other day
). Ahh, the wonder and beauty of the female body 