He did do all of those things. I do feel like I'm getting over him a little bit though. I wanted us to talk between now and when we agreed to meet up because last time we saw each other, he was a complete wreck and I think he regret his decision. But, there were lots of things in the relationship that I think need to be addressed before we think about getting back together. So us talking now is a chance for me to try to address those things. And when we meet up I'm going to ask him if we're working towards getting back together, or if he sees this as us just talking. If he says it's anything other than us working towards something, I'm going to (try to be very very brave and) tell him we can't talk or see each other again.

When he broke up with me he wouldn't really give me any reasons, and said he didn't want me to try to fix it. When we saw each other for the first time after 3 he seemed really unsure. So this is me giving him one chance to fix this. I know it might be unwise, but I keep telling myself we get ONE chance and that's it.

/end hopeless patheticness

182.2 today. Ughhhhh I keep going back and forth between that and 181 this week. I want to see the 170s!

tell me about it, I'm between 161 and 159 for weeks. I did fix my eating habits 2 weeks ago and started going down a bit (0.1 by 0.1), so i'm pretty happy it's starting to go in the right direction. i started my running workout this week (for my 10k) and i hope the weight will go down now that i'm focusing more on cardiovascular taining than weightlifting.

MA, i really hope you can think about what happened during the relationship clearly. think of yourself, ask yourself what you want, what will make you happy, whan you want to happen ... take a break from all this e-mailing and talking, go to the park, breathe fresh air, go to the mall and have some fun. i guarantee you can have a great time on your own. and being independent is super-sexy to all men and super-attractive to everyone (including your girl-friends). people tend to fantasise about changing, but in reality, after some time passes by, nearly everyone sees nothing has really changed. it's really hard to change people and basically, i think that in a realtionship, you don't have to change anyone. it it's someone you get along well,there's no problem, but if you really hate some habits or try to ignore things that are wrong, or even compensate them with sex, gifts, name it, you will end up being miserable, because all this fades away with time and what's left is wether you get along well with someone or not (plus, for good or for worse!).:hug:

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I want to fit back into this red two-piece hanging in my closet so badly.

I'm definitely making sure that I take time for myself. :) And yeah, it's been a month so I've definitely thinking hard about what I want. I don't know if I want us to get back together. It's hard to miss someone so much, though.

When's your 10K? I did that same thing to boost my weightloss. I was sticking to 30 minute runs and I got stuck around 190-192 for the longest time. So, I signed myself up for a 10K and had to double my running. It worked like a charm. :) Now I'm (very slowly) working my way up to a half-marathon, and my weight is slowly creeping down. Yay!

Baker23- Here is me in the bikini I ordered- it's from everythingbutwater.com, they have some really cute swimwear! It's a bandeu style top which I like a lot.

Samantha Daisy, that is the cutest bikini ever!!! And it fits perfectly already! Damn girl, you're going to kill it when you reach your goal!!!

Samantha Daisy- OMG I love that bikini. Its so cute =D...You already look great in it. Model body =O

MusicalAstronaut- Can't really add to what others have said. Just hope everything works out for you :) Sounds like you have everything under control and are really thinking about whats best for you. Breakups suck...period...Can't even imagine how much so after 2 years.

Musical Astronaut- I am going through the same thing you are after a 3 year relationship. We've been broken up for 7 months now, and I've lost about.... 65-70 lbs since then and we both think its good for us to be single and learn to be independent from each other. Now that we're off and on talking we've decided to be serious about being friends and as much as I don't like he's seeing another girl, It's none of my business. I guess just knowing that I'm the best he's ever going to get helps too (He's told me he feels that way and that he's still in love with me, which is fine)

But ultimately, you can care about someone but not be in love with them. some separation is good, I'd recommend that if you miss him a ton, see him every two weeks or so just to play catch up. and no negativity. you both dont need it!

That stinks that someone had to ruin it for all of us newbies on the site :( but i will still do it and post my updates here each week! well for the first week i lost 5 lbs went from 237 to 232! i hope everyone reaches their weight loss goals and good luck!

I'll probably be opening up the public URL on Monday as a trial run. I know now how to restore old versions of the spreadsheet should anything go wrong. So hold tight, you might be able to join sooner than you think!

I am so proud of myself I actually went to the gym today even though all I wanted to do was home after work I went there for an hour. I ran on the treadmill for a while and did some ab work and body weight exercises. I also spent awhile stretching which just felt wonderful.

I am hoping that tomorrow morning I see a really great number on the scale!

Hi all :)
Just moved flat yesterday, I swear I mustv'e burned about 10,000 cals straight. I was cleaning for hours straight, no break lol Thing I love about this journey is seeing all physical exertion as a good thing.

Seeing good things on the scale this morning, going to try my upmost to see it again tommorrow :crossed:

my 10k is on may 19th, so i have plenty of time to improve my speed :) right now i make 6,5k in 45 mins and i would love to make 10k in 50 mins ... but this will require a lot of hard work - cant wait!!! :D

BTW, I've just had a wild off-plan day ... had normal breakfastand lunch, but the dinner just killed it - had a yoghurt that was planned but what followed was: 1 piece of pie and 2 pieces of chocolate. i feel so uncomfortably stuffed right now :(

I weighed in today and I had lost the two pounds I gained last week. I really think that this was most likely water weight from TOM but still it is always nice to see the scales go down.

Now I just need to make sure I stay focused! I have a gym date with one of my friends from work tomorrow. She lives in a really nice condo with a great gym so we are going there. We are planing on making this a regular thing which would be great because I am rarely motivated to work-out on the weekends.

Also starting on Wednesday and going to March 14th I am going to be working at least 2 extra hours a day with a student who failed one of my courses so that he can recover the credit (it's a condensed study program and he didn't take it seriously). Since these tutoring session are taking place 4-6 everyday and that's when I normally go to the gym I am going to have to be extra hard on myself to get there at least 3 times from 6-8.

I think February is going to be a difficult month for me but I don't want any excuses to get in my way. I just need to commit to this and everything will work out.