help me?
I posted this in my journal, but thought I might get some help here, as hard as it is for me to ask for it:
Yesterday, I celebrated my 7 month smoke-free anniversary.
Tomorrow, I start my new, healthier living lifestyle.
I was all gung ho for it. I really was. And now that it is almost here [TOMORROW!!!!!!!], I am losing enthusiasm. I am nervous and upset and just can't find my will.
I don't want to fail again.
I never really tried to quit smoking. And when I did, I did quit. This is my second real attempt at a lifestyle re-vamp and I just don't want to fail.
I need to buy a scale. For the first time ever in my life.
I need to do some excersises. Get into yet another routine, after finally getting into a rountine for the "post-smoking."
It's odd because for a while I said to myself "Hey, it's potato chips. It's not the cancer stick. It's fine."
I know it's not fine.
So for the past 3-4 months or so, I've been eating better. Using chicken broth to cook with instead of oil. Eating chips once in a while, rather than with every lunch. eating more veggies and fruits.
It's just so hard.
I have a hard time asking for help. But I think I need some this time.
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