*~*~*~Weekly Chat, 4/4-4/10~*~*~*
 

Hello 20-somethings, just starting the new chat thread for this week. Hope everyone's doing okay and staying sane.

Southern Japan is in the height of cherry blossom/sakura season. I succeeded in not boredom-eating or drinking myself into massive guilt at the picnic on Saturday. I thought it was going to be a potluck event so I brought 4 huge bunches of bananas, but it turns out everyone just brought their own stuff. Wound up throwing bananas at people and having a (literal) bunch to bring home.

Yesterday I had the best day ever with my boyfriend. We woke up at 11:30 and just spent all day going at it like teenagers, with a mall date and everything. Spring has finally sprung and I feel totally sane about food and eating after just a week or so of trying out intuitive eating as my only "plan."

I did cave and weigh myself this morning, which was unplanned. I hated the number but I liked what I saw in the mirror, and decided the latter is more important for now!

krampus The date in the heading confused me so much haha, so many fours! Sounds like you had a good weekend, and you're right, what you see in the mirror is more important than the number I think!

I'm going to try to start fresh this week and see if I can kind of keep up a bit - I think with the different times and the fact I won't be able to post during the day I might find it hard...and personals will suffer, but I need to keep accountable because I am still a little stuck - though not so bad as I was!

I have my last day at my retail job tomorrow (Tuesday) and then Wednesday I'm at my new job again! I have Wed and Thurs as training and then Friday I'm on my own. It scares me, as I said last week - I have been making notes I'm just so worried that once the girl training me whose job I'm taking over goes, I'll forget things and my go-to person to ask for help is the big boss - which is kind of intimidating - he's a really nice guy, but I hate to think of disappointing people by asking for help!

Anyway, my weight also has been moving, which I'm pretty happy about. I'm down to 61.5kg / 135.5 pounds. I was at 61kg / 134.4 pounds yesterday... but I'm sure it will be back soon enough.

In the past week my mother and I have spent probably over $2000 on clothes and shoes for the new job - I feel like most of them can be easily taken in or still worn (just a little lower on the waist) if/when I get smaller - and I'm a little freaked out about getting much smaller because I'm already wearing the second smallest size in a lot of places...which is kind of bizarre - makes me wonder where tiny people shop!! I am enjoying making outfits of office-appropriate stuff that still has some personality (I hope) and I'm actually really excited about this job.

I feel like this year is going to be a good year.

Rainbow- they shop at asian stores :lol: Like AJPop! do you have one near you? It has super cute stuff, but ive never dared go in

Icon OH you totally just reminded me. I remember when I started all of this in July, I was with my boyfriend in MidCity on Queen st - you know they have all of those Asian stores in there! SUCH cute dresses and stuff, but I've never even bothered as I know they wouldn't fit - I guess I could take a look now! Oh I meant to say - thanks for the kind words about my job in last weeks thread, you're right, I am pretty happy! And I'm jealous of your 3D DS. I have a DS but I guess I don't use it enough...

Yeah those asian stores are so cute! I am jealous of their shoes though, no matter how much weight I lose, I think my feet will always stay the same. They havent really changed size, they just flatter and wide now rather than fat and wide :lol:
Get a 3DDs....you know you want to

Have a great week everyone!

Icon I can wear the shoes! I once bought a pair...but I've bought 6 pairs (yes, I went crazy) in the past week so I can't justify any more for a good long while now. I can't justify the 3D DS either - I bought a new Wii game 2 weeks ago and haven't had a chance to play it yet!

Good morning
I’m up 3 pounds since last week, my fault for eating crap all week. Ugh This is a start of a new day I’m sure it’s all water weight I need to lose anyways. My weekend was alright Boy came over Friday and hung out until Saturday evening. He wanted me to come over later on but I crashed and decided to go to bed early and then yesterday I wasted more time hanging out with him. I finally watched the movie the tourist with Angelina Jolie and Johnny Depp…I was very disappointed I love AJ and who doesn’t love JD! But seriously…..BORING and you usually can’t have me bored in an AJ movie doesn’t matter how bad it was.
I have a stupid exam thing to write for our company it’s useless and the only thing the exam looks good on is your resume. It actually has no hold to the job because it’s OPTIONAL but it’s being forced upon us and I have to waste MY time on Thursday to write this crap instead of allowing me to waste their time on Thursday to write it, (they better be paying me the 3 hours I’m wasting…) they’re the ones forcing us to write this crap which I’ll fail because it’s over 350 questions and a 4 hour long exam good luck having me sit there concentrate on this ****. Ah well I’ll used my 8 hour shifts the next 3 days to study, or I should say 4 since I have to come into work and work the morning and go waste my afternoon writing it.
I’m miserable today…really need to clean out my diet again I’m going back into sleep all day pattern and being just a pissy pants. :P

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Krampus – Sometimes the mirror is way better then the scale! I like how I look in the mirror most of the time then what the scale says!

Rainbow – It’s going to be a good year! Don’t stress too much about the job you are going to do great. New jobs are always nerve racking but within the week on your own you will know most things and be able to do it with or without any help.

Ericna - You too!

From the last thread:

linalin - YES! Weigh yourself naked, then put your clothes on. I bet you anything they weigh 2lbs.

Krampus - I want cherry blossoms. I wonder if they're blossoming in DC yet... I might have to make the 7 hour trip down there.

Rainbow - my last day of my reception job was Saturday... it was weird! Good luck at your new job, I'm sure you'll do well! Also, office-appropriate attire is ALL I shop for now, it's just automatic. Too bad all I'll be wearing to work from now on is khaki pants and black polo shirts.

MiZ - I've been eating like crap, too, the last 2 weeks or so. I'm surprised it isn't worse. I'm afraid to weigh myself this morning.

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First official full-time shift! Which is fun, 'cause I get to close with Kevin, the kid who is now our new framing manager. I went out to Express yesterday and got their new womens perfume, Love Express, as my reward for breaking into the 190s, which I haven't quite done yet... but now it's sitting on my shelf and I'm trying to tell myself not to use it until I get there. Only 3 more lbs, so I'm pretty excited. I love how the girl who rung me up was trying to explain the Express Cash to me, and I was just like "Lady, I don't fit into the clothes here... so i really don't care". Shut her up right away :P

i had some success and am trying to keep going.
so far i've lost 5 pounds by keeping with better choices
i hope y'all have a good monday

hey guys.

i'm new here. joined in jan but have had a semester from f'ing HELLLLL. but it's calmed down now.

also, today's my b-day. makin' some low-cal versions of high-cal goodies.

that's what i love most in life. good food. good sx. & good sleep. lately, i haven't been getting any of these 3. :censored: L...O...L.

hope you guys are doing well on your journey. :yay: if you wanna add me to facebook, just p.m. me.

Ugh - my trainer weighed me/measured me (on a surprise so I wasn't prepared lol) and I was still hovering at the same weight. So I gotta step things up - more in the food department but I gotta exercise more too. I want to kick *** and put a shocker to his face for next weigh in and actually lose something!

My car has been acting up... well it has been for awhile. My engine light came on in November and I had it read it and said "speed sensor". I said **** it - I don't got the money/patience to look into some speed sensor. Then when the snow came and it was icey, my traction control light came on. So right now both my engine light and trac off light are on. I talked to my bf's mom's bf (lol) and he's a mechanic and he explained to me the speed sensors are highly related to the trac control (and more detail that made sense to me but I don't wish to explain lol) so that explains why they are both on. Eh... still not a total "safety" issue to me so I'll have it looked at when I have the time/cash. A month ago, my engine light break stayed on and it continues to be on even tho the E-brake isn't engaged. Around that time, one of my break calibers leaked and my boyfriend replaced and bled the line. I've been reading on the internet the light could mean a number of things and one being low break fluid.... so "maybe" it has something to do when my boyfriend replaced it and "maybe" didn't top it up enough... I'll get him to check it when he gets home from work today. I hope it's because of that as the other options of why the light is on are quite pricey/serious so I don't really have a choice to not get it seen.... arg. And if I get the breaks checked - may as well get all my other problems checked - which will end up being $$$. Effing cars - and not to mention I got stuck in the snow TWICE yesterday... SNOW IN APRIL! makes me sooo angry; the second time I got stuck was quite serious and it took me forever to get out. 3 neighbours helped, 1 man who stopped, and my boyfriend came with his SUV to tug me out....grr.

:wave: Hello Trancedreamer! I'm originally from Kelowna BC; I was actually planning on moving to Vancouver but then $$$ brought me here to Calgary. I miss BC sooo much - I plan to move back in a year or two (no more I say!). Me and my boyfriend are planning to come to Van for a few days in June, since we are making a trip to Kelowna anyways. On my 2-do-list is hiking up Grouse Mountain!

My jaw hurts, I still have chipmunk face, and TOM decided to come two weeks early. So I'm a little cranky today. :p I'm so sick of the TOM/spotting craziness. For years I was very regular and now it's just all over the place. Bleh. At least my dr appointment is on Friday.

I had DH go out and get a child size tooth brush for me because I can't open my mouth well enough to use mine. It has Elmo on it. :lol:

I'm so hungry, and I'm craving soft, warm, comfort foods like mac and cheese, pot pies, and biscuits. :rolleyes: I'm trying to let myself have a little of what makes me feel better without totally ruining my calories. But I guess having a week or two without a loss isn't so bad while I'm healing?

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krampus So glad you are feeling better!

rainbowstripe Needing to figure out where to shop to find smaller clothes is a good problem though, right? :D

MiZTaCCen Hope you feel better.

Laneyy lol. I wish I had the courage to say stuff like that. :D

lissa9501 Congrats on the 5 pounds!

trancedreamer Welcome!

SweetScrumptious Bah! We had snow here too yesterday. I hope your car gets fixed!

Krampus: Awesome time w/ your boyfriend! I love spending that QT and special time with my hubby! It rarely happens but when it does it's great! And spring?..Lucky you! The weather here is insane. It bounces back and forth between hot & cold..it cant make up it's mind! But thats Kentucky for you.

Rainbow:If I didn't mention it before congrats! I don't know if anyone asked but what kind of new job did you get?..I just got a job in home improvement..not really much on home improving but...it's a job! LOL. As for your weight I hope it stays down for you. $2000 on clothes? Dang sounds like you went on a shopping spree!!

MiZ: Hope you make it through your exam. And yeah I'm sure the 3 pounds is water weight. It'll come right off!!

Laney: I'm sure you'll be wearing that perfume in no time!

Lissa: Congrats with the 5 pounds! :) That's awesome!

Trance: Welcome to the 20's thread!

Sweet: Urrgg don't you hate car issues? We have been having the same issue with our check-engine light coming on..and then sometimes our car will just die! It sucks but I look at it like this atleast it's getting us from A to B.

TheBrunneh: I hope you start healing soon!


Wow! I really felt like I needed to do some personals. I haven't done them in so long so I wanted to get caught up. This new job is really keeping me preoccupied and busy with it and everything else that has to be done in between! But I don't want to put my health and exercising on the back burner. That is why I'm making sure to keep myself accountable.

Weight this morning was the same as it has been for the past day. I'm hoping to see a loss but if not ..I see why! My eating times (lunch and dinner) are about to be crazy because of the times I get off work..and I'm weird about eating at work due to my IBS. I don't want my stomach getting too upset! But this morning I weighed in at 131.6. Got 30 minutes of a workout in after work and ..after I get the kids down for bed I'll be doing some homework!

The weather today was YUCCKK! Tornados and Severe Storms were everywhere and I am deff. a freak when it comes to storms. Rain pratically petrifies me. But it's all gone now! I'm hoping tomorrow will be pretty and warm that way it won't be such a BLAH day! :)

Hope everyone has a GREATTT Tuesday!

MiZ Sorry about the exam stuff, that doesn't sound that much fun at all!

Laneyy Yay for your new perfume - I'm sure you can hold off on wearing it for 3 pounds!

trancedreamer Hey there! Welcome.

Sweet Car stuff is annoying, right? I just had to do without my car for 2 days while getting it fixed - something about some steering wheel mount bushes - when they said that all I said was something stupid about there being bushes in my car haha - cars confuse the **** out of me, so I would rather just get them fixed when there is something wrong - then again my parents still help me out with repair costs so I guess it might change if I were paying for everything!

TheBunneh Oh man, I hope you feel better soon - and I say go ahead and have some of those comfort foods - as long as you can get back on track when the time comes! It's not bad needing to figure out where to shop - it's more like...I am really enjoying just buying things from normal stores and don't really want to have to go to anywhere super special...so I am at this stage actually hoping I don't get too much smaller.

JL It's reception/PA/sales support work for a recruitment agency, so it should be interesting! I get to put my word-processing skills to use, which is good, and it's a small team so it should be a nice place to work. Congrats on your new job too! Also I saw your recent photo in the photo thread and OH MY you are looking gooooood!!

~My last day in my retail job today. It's so quiet! The weather has turned to crap, it's the first day I've had the air conditioning off and not been super hot - it's actually cold in the store, which is weird considering usually the super bright lights are enough to keep it warm. It's raining a lot and pretty dreary outside.
I have my Zumba class after work - I feel so sleepy I don't want to go but I know I'll regret it since I'm not sure when I'll get a chance to exercise after today before the weekend. So I'll go. Then home to my boyfriend's where there will be cottage/shepherd's pie waiting (definitely a comfort food hah!) and then I am going to attempt to get an early night in preparation for my 2nd day at the new job tomorrow.
I realised this morning that the time I usually get out of bed is the time I'm going to have to be leaving for work -_-
Also, weight is now at 61kg/134.4 pounds - YAY.

I'm all bloated from TOM which is making me feel discouraged. Part of me is worried that it could be real weight puffiness, but I should know better. UGH!

I'm having a pity party for myself.

JL- I didn't realize we lived so close. I'm in Indiana. What is your new job?

Ugh - so I finally have my Colopscopy appointment this coming Friday morning. For those who don't know, it's pretty much a PAP test but more advanced. It's used when you get abnormal PAPs. I've had 2 low grade PAP results last year (one in April, one in October). So they booked me for the Colopscopy to find out what's up. It's a 6 month waiting list to get one done here so I've been nervously waiting. Guess I get to find out if I have HPV or not :?: Sometimes low-grade goes away itself so here's hoping it's done that...

Laneyy – You are almost there those three pounds are going to whoosh soon!

Sweets – Bahaha I’m surprised what happened to you didn’t happen!! :P Also your weight thing When I was with my trainer I never left my weight it stayed the same, it was weird when I took a break…which clearly I’m still on and need to get my *** moving again I went whoosh…Remember muscle weighs more than fat, you’re probably building a lot of muscle and that’s why the weight is staying the same but I bet you are losing inches.

Thebunneh – I really shouldn’t have read your post now you make me hungry.

JL – Ah new jobs that are busy, I should really switch career type jobs so I’m not bored 24/7. Good job at weight at 131.6 I think? Either way I’d love to be that weight :P

Rainbow – I should really start doing classes or something…or at least getting my *** to the gym.

Lindb – Mines coming soon I can feel it…I hate it grrr.

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Holy crap can you say movie night last night? So I dl a bunch of movies, Paranormal Activities 2 the first one sucked so why I bothered to watch the second one I don’t know, but that one was even worse. Going the distance was sooo friggen cute! I love that movie it is now my new favorite movie! Tangled and I finished watch The town….Which was really good as well. My weight is still up at 156, I finally got the nerve to dump out the pop that was in my house last night. Today I’m starting clean and fresh on my diet.

My landlord leaves laundry either in the washer or dryer this past week and it has seriously been constant I’m like wtf I need to do laundry so before I go to sweets house and we start our C25K I’m going to throw a bunch of laundry in the washer and leave it, if her stuff is still in the dryer when I get back I’m just going to put it on top of the dryer and when I’m done my laundry I’ll put it back in. It’s starting to become seriously annoying I know she’s not doing it on purpose but ALL last week from Friday the previous week…Holy

Man I have to get back on my healthy pattern I can feel my body start to drag down and I’m becoming lazy and unhappy and unmotivated.

Ah I was suppose to go for that but the doctors never actually called me. I should go back to the doctors again since I went MIA for pretty much a year now.

^ Wierd because they didn't call me either... but they booked my appointment back in November (the Dr who did my PAP test), gave me a piece of paper with my appointment information as it's done at the Women's Health Centre and told me not to miss it! So I wasn't to expect a call from them.. however I'm going to call them today to confirm it to make sure I'm still booked! Gah

Sweet - Yep because I remember her asking me how it went and I was like...umm how did what go? and then she said she was going to book me another appointment (and then I moved) but I still had my phone and after my last PAP test they didn't call me back to tell me it wasn't normal so who knows. I should go back soon...

Rainbow: Thanks so much! Awesome about your weight! I hope you enjoy your Zumba class today! I dred working out but when it's done I feel so accomplished.

Linds: Yeah do you live in northern, In? i live on the border of IN...real close to Evansville! I'm working at a home improvement store..just as a cashier but it's extra money so yeah! lol

MiZ: How does she expect anyone else to do their laundry if she doesn't take hers out? lol. Landlords think they control everything haha.

Hey everyone! Woke up and it's beautiful outside. Auctually got to "sleep-in" til 7! Which is I have been considering sleeping in since I've been getting up at 6. Oh well!! Going to do a bit of cleaning, workout, finish up my homework and spend sometime w/ my babies before I have to be at work at 2. We are still in the paperwork/computer work process! So I think we are getting our lockers today and working on the computer all day. I'm still a bit nervous to get on the cash register since I've done it before but it's been years! And the way technology is these days it grows fast! lol. But hopefully I'll catch on fast.

My weight this morning was 130.8! The lowest I have EVER seen. Happy it dropped but I have a feeling instead of losing 2 lbs a week..I'm going to start losing a pound..which a pound is a pound so it's whatever. I still yet to feel like I'm anywhere near the 120's. But hey my scale is proof. lol!

I'm going to end this! Hope everyone has a great Wednesday!

JL - I don't know thats what's pissing me off because she's never done this before and a day or two fine but over a week...Oh well I'm taking action today because I need clean sheets and clean clothing. Also congrats on being down to 130!!!!

JL- I live in Indianapolis...so in the middle! Hope you are enjoying the new job!

Hey ladies,
I'm back after avoiding 3FC due to bad habits. I ate horribly this weekend. I'm back at 140 today and feel like crap about it. I did make it to the gym yesterday and today but feel like I've failed pretty miserably. Roommate's birthday plus snack food everywhere lead to several heavy days. I saw my new dentist today and she was really nice. In the 6 years since I've been to the dentist I only got two cavities. I'm getting them filled and my teeth sealed along with the first two of my wisdom teeth out next Wednesday. On my walk to the bus stop from the dentist I stopped by the thrift store because my size 10s were not fitting right even after washing. I Got a pair of Express size 8s and American eagle 6s AE must have had some size inflation because they are tight but not muffin tight! I never thought I'd be looking on the racks and pass pairs of Express or Lucky that were too big for me! I'm sorry I've let personals slide but I will try to pop in a bit more regularly.

Miz and Sweet - I was supposed to go get that done too, I balked at student health doing it two years ago based on one PAP, from what I understood you need at least two abnormal PAPs before they go biopsy your cervix (aah what?!) so I said no. I am getting my checkup later this month and will ask my new non-university gyno about it. Good luck with your C25K plans!

Rainbow - Wow $2000 on clothes, I wish I had the ability to do that. I'm too much of a control freak. I feel terrible when I spend $200 so I put stuff back that was really cute all the time. Then again I am dirt poor and all my money goes to travel. Congrats again and enjoy!

Popping in to say hi!

JL Wow congrats on your all-time low! You are kicking major you-know-what! Keep it up!

Sweet Good luck at the doctor's. I know exams like that suck, but good for you for taking control of your health. I know too many young women who ignore things like that because they can't be bothered to go to the gynecologist or get follow-up exams. Will keep my fingers crossed for you.

Rainbow yay your new job!!! I didn't realize until I had my first first day of work that it's like starting a new school when you're a kid. Where is the bathroom? What if I get lost trying to get back to my desk? What do I do at lunch hour? Good thing we're older and a bit more mature so it's not nearly as scary though :)So exciting though that you'll be using your skills and working full-time though. Let us know how it goes!

Sweet I had one of those a couple of months ago. I am not trying to scare you, but be prepared for some pain and bleeding afterwards. I had light bleeding for about a week...and pain that was kind of like intense period pain for at least the rest of the day from memory...they didn't find anything but abnormal cells - what freaks me out is why can't they say what those mean! A nurse friend of mine said it basically means you have the propensity to develop cancer later in life, so they'll keep checking you - since obviously you can't diagnose it before it's happening. I hope yours goes ok!

MiZ I didn't recognize your posts for a second due to your cute new Sailor Moon avatar! CUTE. Did you like Tangled?

JL Congrats on your new low! You are doing awesome! Glad you're enjoying your new job!

fromthebox You're back and that is what's important. Yay for new clothes too. As for mine, no way would I have spent that much normally - my mum helped me out a lot. I am usually a HUGE budget spender, I buy cheap things. My boyfriend was SERIOUSLY shocked at the prices of the individual items I came home with, let alone the total - he couldn't believe I'd bought some of them either since I'm usually a stickler for cheap clothes/shoes - I just decided that the new job was worth putting in some money (and of course my mum helping me out financially probably helped me decide this too) and getting good quality stuff and a few different things so I don't have to worry too much about what to wear for a good long while.

indiblue Thanks! It is pretty exciting to be actually going to work and DOING stuff, not just like...selling when someone is around, but actually having stuff throughout the day to complete. It is very busy and getting used to full time is tough....and I haven't even finished a week yet! But I think I'll cope. So far so good!

~Hey ladies! So I'm SUPER sleepy, making my part brief as I want to watch Criminal Minds:Suspect Behaviour and then SLEEEEEEEEEP. 2nd day of training at the new job today, one more (tomorrow which is Thurs) and then Friday I am ON MY OWN. Freaking out a bit on that one, but I think I'll be ok. I've made a ton of notes, redone half of them to make more sense, and I'm thinking I'll create some of them into some sort of step-by-step document - there are a lot of tasks that have a lot of steps to complete and it's basically about making sure it all gets done - I'm sure I'll learn it better as I do it more, but in the meantime it's better if I have it written down in a format to follow!

I'm enjoying it all so far, the people and environment is nice and, though I'll probably be cursing them in a few weeks, it's nice to be wearing heels to work everyday!

I have to keep on track with calories...today I ate subway for lunch and then let some dark chocolate sneak in. Overall I did ok, but I can see it becoming way easier to let things like chocolate and snacks I probably shouldn't be eating into my day if I don't plan snacks in advance...but I'm still getting used to the routine so I'm sure I can sort something out!

Fromthebox – I know how you feel, haha I can’t even get back into a routine to workout. I’m also up three pounds in weight so I’m a little annoyed about that.

Rainbow – Tangled was okay, it was pretty cute. Are you at a desk job? I find those are the hardest because all you’ll end up doing is more snacking then anything. Bring fruit and veggies and keep them at your desk to snack on them, it might help. Or some nuts, or sunflower seeds. You’ll do fine on Friday don’t you worry!

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I’m sleepy, I didn’t manage to get laundry done last night because again clothing was in the washer and dryer, so I left my basket with dirty clothing in the laundry room I was going to throw a load in this morning but I was running late and decided to stay in bed longer and snuggle with boy and sleep a little bit more because I didn’t want to get up and come to work. I have my 4 hour long exam tomorrow so I’m going to use this day (at work) to be productive and finish off the book and practice questions and then tomorrow morning review it all and in the afternoon go write the test. I’m not happy about writing in the afternoon I wanted the morning but whatever I’m going to fail this dumb thing anyways. I need to get 288 questions right just to be able to get an 80% mark. This test is a waste of everyone’s time, its useless and doesn’t even do anything for you anyways. It’s not like we’re going to be able to advance anywhere at this place or even get a raise if we pass this crap. I’ve been one pissy b!tch this week thanks to TOM who isn’t hear yet but is coming.

Happy hump day (why couldn’t it be Thursday today)

Hey there ladies :) Its hard for me to do personals during the week because I usually just have the iPad, and if any of you have used one, the typing is just not as easy. But I have been reading :) Congrats on the new job [B]Rainbow![B] Thats awesome, what kind of work are you doing? I am supposed to get a call back today by 11 for an RN job at a community health center, I have my fingers crossed. The interview went great, but it depends on the budget . . .
fromthebox when you are having a hard time with staying on plan- you SHOULD get on! Thats what we are here for, when you need us most! Its a great motivation to hop on over to the goal or mini goal boards when you are feeling tempted, puts you back in the right frame of mind. I envy your too large size 10s :)


If I had a digital scale, I would be less than yesterday. But since I dont, I am just BARELY still 180 pounds. I am willing to bet after today I will be 179, and man am I psyched about that! Ive been making myself eat for the past few days, Im not getting hungry. I dont know why, but a few days ago when I got in bed I realized I had only eaten about 800 calories. Dont want to get in that habit, so Ive been making myself eat at least 3 meals and a snack. I suppose I should be happy about it, Im usually hungry all the time. Maybe today's run will help me out :)

I must have jinxed myself with my rant about my car. Now my traction control light is now off... and my engine check light is coming on and off. I mean, I still need to get the speed sensor looked at but at least it's not staying on like it has been for the past few months. And... now my engine break light is completely off! We did nothing to it - I had it engaged the other day and I took it off and since then, the lights been off. So it might have just been the switched stayed on and it finally got deactivated... sweet, hope it stays that way.

Had a good workout with my trainer today. Also went jogging with Miztaccen yesterday - we are attempting the C25K program as we both wanna get into jogging/marathons. I need to read it up on here and get an idea on how the program works... Trying to kick *** this month because last month wasn't that great weight loss wise. I'm also really really working on my diet as I believe that's the 80% that's holding me back :dizzy:

Hi everyone,

I'm still here, just haven't had much to say. I'm 10 days binge-free and looking to start losing again. Weighed myself this morning and I'm about 132-133 or thereabouts, right around 60 kg. I was surprised - with the way I've been feeling lately I was sure I was a lot heavier. Today I am staying calorie conscious and planning to go for a run after work. It's the first truly warm day of spring and I want to enjoy it.

I'm up in weight by 8 pounds. TOM is here and I don't think that has anything to do with that because I'm never this much over weight I don't even think my scale is affected when I'm on TOM. Maybe I've been stressing too much and not even realizing it when it comes to this dumb exam I have to write....

Boy made a really good dinner last night for me, Potatos, with chicken, shrimp, peas and tomatos. oh and I have horrible cramps today and I feel like I want to vomit. This is soo not cool.

I've seen 164 on the scale two days in a row! :D

Just needed to post that somewhere. :)

Hey guys

I'm having a really bad day. If you have time to read my latest entry in my diet blog I would really appreciate any words of encouragement.

The Bunneh--that's a great feeling I bet :D good job! keep it up :)

Mizta--Periods suck don't they? Especially when you're trying to lose weight, it just throws you for a loop. Damn uteruses..or uteri? LOL

JLN--congrats! :D

Japanophile your blog link, on the left hand side under your username, is broken. I had to type it out.... *off to go read*

Japanophile I've read your blog and I also happened to look at your stats. You are well within normal BMI for your height and weight, actually trending on the low side. I know that everyone has their own insecurities about their body image, no matter their weight/height. But I feel as if the right place for you right now isn't on a weight loss forum. From what you posted, it sounds like you have an emotional disorder associated with food; an eating disorder. I can't give you advice on what you should do/shouldn't do as I have never experienced an eating disorder, or binging/purging for that matter, so it isn't my place to advise. There's a sub-forum here on 3fatchicks for people with eating disorders and I suggest you venture on over there as these ladies (and possibly gents) may have words of wisdom and encouragement for you on how to overcome your difficulties.

Edit to add: Sorry, I actually don't think there is an "eating disorder" sub-forum here. The closest I can find is "Chicks in Control" which is about overeating/binging. I suggest googling a forum more specific to what you are experiencing in order to get your needs met.

Hi all
 

Hi all--

Japanophile---You are already so skinny---you don't need to lose more weight. If you want to feel beautiful about yourself, think of some other ways you can do it besides losing weight. Try writing poetry, reading books, get into making your skin pretty, buying lots of awesome clothing! :hug: Be nice to yourself. Know that you are the beautiful person that you are already.

crumpus- Congrats on being 10 days without binging!

Well, I am back and it's always nice to check into this group every once and a while to tell you all what's up.

This weekend, I had a 5k race---it was quite exhilerating. I finished 3 miles in 30 minutes, which puts my new running pace at a ten minute mile---woohoo!

I had a breakthrough run today, and got up to 5 miles, which was also very exciting for me. I thought about how I have lost about 5 pounds, and kept it off. This has made me very excited.

I've taken some time away from dieting. I've cheated here and there this whole week, and a lot of has to do with meeting my 3 miles in 30 minute goal, plus I am getting a HUGE tax refund which will go to my husband and I's student loans. :carrot: Naturally, we went out to eat to celebrate.

I've learned a lot about myself in the month that I have started 3fatchicks and lost five pounds---I've learned how much I got this! And I've learned how much I can do this! The women and men on these boards are very inspiring, and they always manage to help me find that inner strength within myself to become the woman I want to become. :)

I am getting back on the diet bandwagon here--however--I am a little less intense than I was when I started in the beginning---mostly because of how much I have learned about caloric intake, ect. I now know what I can and cannot eat.

When I go out for a burger, I don't eat fries. When my husband wants to go out to a steak house to celebrate our new tax refund, I get a tiny fillet minone. I now know that ranch dressing is a delicacy, not a salad staple--LOL. Yogurt is a good thing to have in the morning, and healthy muffins are fun to make. I now know that even though my husband will moan and groan about how I don't need to lose weight, it's not really up to him---it's up to me. It's nice to know that as I start to eat healthier, my husband, remarkably, starts to see how good healthy eating is good.

Just the other night, my husband wanted to order a pizza with his buddy. I said okay, and he ordered it, and I didn't eat any. Instead I made a nice potato soup, that he later commented at looking "mighty delicious". I will probably making him up an entree soup tonight before he eats crab legs tonight with me. YUM!

I've learned a tremendous amount.

At the spa, I meditated on weight loss. When I finally get to 150, I can go back to the spa for a facial, a salt glow, and a massage. The last time I went, I just reflected on my weight loss goals, I told myself that I need to stay on track, and make sure that I can make it back to the spa for my 150 lb weight goal---I know that I can do it. :)

I have changed some things in my life and for the better. One of my old drinking buds (I stopped drinknig) is going to start doing Bikrahm Yoga! I'm seeing a tremendous change in my personality and my ability to get along with people. My energy level is higher. It's nice!

I guess that's all there is here.

Hopefully, I'll see some of you on the weekly weigh-in board!

I appreciate you taking the time to read my post and respond. I can tell that you are coming from a place of true concern and I appreciate that. But I do think you are misunderstanding a couple of things.
First of all, yes I am aware I have an eating disorder, however, please realize that most people on this website have an eating disorder and emotional issues with food. That is why they are overweight. I know that my few pounds over my happy weight seems like nothing when compared to those people that have over a hundred. Admittedly in my case they are "vanity pounds".

I think what is alarming you is not the binging part (which in itself is an eating disorder), but the purging. The reason I joined this site was because I was simply binging on about a weekly basis and 9 times out of 10 I have just binged. When I was younger I did have a short bulimic period, but I never went below 120 pounds. Actually, by just eating healthy and around 1600 to 1800 calories a day and with moderate exercise I dropped down to 113 and I was in great shape. Thin and muscular. I haven't been exercising or eating normally consistently lately. I've lost a pound then turned around and gained 1.5 pounds. A very slow gain...but still gaining none the less.

If I was 117 pounds and muscular and fit and eating healthy (not binging) then that would be great, but I'm not...I don't know, I guess by being honest I am making myself vulnerable to attacks and disapproval, but honestly I was just needing a little bit of support. If I am not welcome here and no one feels I belong because I throw up once and a while and that puts me in a different eating disorder category than everyone else here then I won't clutter up your forum anymore. Just realize that, like I said, most everyone here has an eating disorder of some kind.

I'm not really sure what to say japanophile other than that I know how hopeless and disgusting the binge aftermath is, and I hope you find peace of mind and that peace manifests itself through your habits. Chicks in Control is a good place to find support for binging/purging and compulsive/disordered behaviors. It sounds like you're under an obscene amount of emotional stress and I hope you'll make it over here in one piece for that interpreting gig. I know what it's like to be a normal/healthy weight and still feel fatter than all the manatees in Florida; I'm struggling with that every day.

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Yesterday was perfectly on plan, first real "good day" in weeks. Food was clean and balanced, exercise great (my jog kept up for 50 minutes with a few walking breaks - not bad considering I ran once in the past two months), and I woke up the same weight as yesterday but feeling like I'd lost loads all over my body.