Need To Be Accountable Oct or something:)
 

hahaha A little joke in the title to start off our Oct ladies!

Hehe. I like it. "Or something" is something I say far too often because I'm so indecisive!

I'm sorry your daughter is sick sun! I hope the antibiotics start kicking in. Also I hope your weigh-in isn't too bad and you haven't done too much damage. I definitely need to start off this month freshly because my birthday was definitely a huge calorie day and I was so happy to have finally dropped on Friday last week - now I seem to be back up to 77kg/169.7 pounds! I hope it's not true...I will not change my ticker unless it sticks for 3 or more days.

I'd made a mini goal of reaching 75kg (10kg/22pound total loss) by my birthday, and I didn't get there. It's ok! I was only 2.2 pounds away. I've made a new mini goal of 72 by the end of October. I know it's a huge stretch but I'll see how I do.

Lets make October a great month!

rainbow Thanks for the love. You basically made your goal! Proud of you! I like setting high goals so I keep pushing. you can do it!!!!

stargzr I know what you mean about loving a running body. Way to go on getting back on the horse...I also get lazy and try and justify why I am not running! But I just have to start and then I get into it.....will have to do that today as I feel lazy after a wekk off being sick. I am there wit you on making this month stick...I have a wedding at the end! yikes!

So good morning and I hope evryone had a nice weekend. I am jumpstarting my hiatus with shakes and hardcore exercise. haha Its easy enough to type now lets see if I can make it stick! lol well I will check in tonight and we shall see if I made it through day one of 26 till wedding

Stephanie Yeah he made the whole cake! It was actually 4 whole cakes, each cut in half across (to make thinner cakes) and then icing between every layer - then he carved it (for about 2.5 hours hah!) and then my sister helped him ice the outside and decorate it to look like Totoro! Yay on the run from the other night! I hope you got to go on the other one - allergies suck, I always forget I get hayfever until Spring appears and I get sniffly. Urgh. Go the good food!

sun I believe you can do it! Go the hardcore exercise!! Whose wedding?

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Have decided the cake needs to be thrown away. I'm doing fine at resisting it but my boyfriend has eaten so much of it over the past few days. We had some friends over last night to eat some and I forced them to take some home with them haha...but there is still so much left, and I am not eating any more of it. So it's going. After work today, while my boyfriend is playing squash at uni, I'll dispose of it.

I made awesome mini turkey meatloaves last night, they're soooooo good. We also went for a bike ride! It was awesome. We used to go earlier in the year at the end of Summer (around March) and it was really awesome last night to see how much my fitness has improved! I wasn't all red in the face and huffing and puffing and sweating profusely! I had a bit of sweat and I was breathing a little heavier, but I was much better and found it easier to ride!

Today is going to be a challenge. I'm finding my job less and less inspiring and kind of hate being here at the moment. After work I have to go buy ingredients to make a stir fry, get some gas for my car, get some exercise in and cook dinner...but I'm home alone til 9 so there's no one hassling me for dinner so I think it will be fine. It's just the exercise I'm worried about, 3 days off and it's so hard to get back in! Wish me luck! And sorry for the lengthy post!

stargzr how did your run work out? Hope you feel better. I am suppose to run today..we shall see..

rainbow how did your exercise and evening turn out? I know what you mean about cake laying around. I ahve been chocolating for a week now! AGH


what a day yesterday turned out to be! I was at the doctors all day;... my poor baby had to have blood taken and a urine sample taken with a catheter and now she is cranky and sore I am sure. Won't let me put her down even for a moment on top of having walking pnuemonia and a UTI. Sigh life is so hard sometimes.
we shall see if i get a run in today....very stressful even just getting the house clean for my husband coming home.

sun Oh man, I am so sorry your little girl is sick! I think in circumstances like that it's ok not to exercise, for me, I just try to focus on making sure I'm still eating right.

The exercise last night was funny. I put on my workout clothes when I got home from work (after having stopped at the supermarket for dinner stuff) and then I procrastinated for about 20 minutes before deciding I'd just skip it and take off the clothes and make dinner. I was hungry. But I didn't, I knew I'd feel worse if I didn't, so I did 22 minutes on the stationary bike which is hugely better than the 0 minutes I wanted to do. I don't know why my desire to exercise is waning so much. I'm doing great with the calorie counting and choosing good foods, but exercise...at the moment I feel like I can't be bothered and I know it's important I do it!

I feel like I won't get any done today, which is crazy as I have the day off work. It's already after midday, I had a massive sleep in and I feel VERY lazy. I'm thinking maybe I should at least try to go for a walk or a jog outside, but my motivation is just not there!

rainbow Way to go on getting atleast that much done. I have been so bad with exercising right now. Its 12 am and I think I want to to go and run right now. I went out with a gf for a movie and dinner. was fun and I am all hopped up on caffeine right now from the sodas we drank...think I'll put it to good use :) haha
Hope you ladies had a good day.

I wonder where Fashin went... haven't seen her in awhile.

sun Dinner and movie sounds like fun, I'm glad you enjoyed yourself!

I forced myself into another 25 mins on the stationary bike this morning before going to help out at my parent's work for a couple of hours. Then had late lunch with my cousin since she wasn't around on my birthday. I'm about to cook dinner for myself and my boyfriend - although he's going out for a 2 hour bike ride so I guess he'll eat later.

Kind of feeling bored at the moment, and boredom+aloneness could tempt me to eat bad foods - but then again, I don't have a lot of bad stuff around so it's ok!

rainbow Good thing you have no bad food. I am still throwing out junk my mom left behind...

I DID IT! I RAN! EVEN THOUGH IT WAS 1 IN THE MORNING!!!!!
now for bed :)

You ran at 1am??? AMAZING..and slightly crazy haha! Was it outside or do you have a treadmill? I can't imagine running outside here at that time, even though it's such a safe place!

CONGRATS!! You're awesome! I am proud. Now I'm hoping that tomorrow morning I can get up and exercise as well. I already didn't on Wednesday this week so I have to tomorrow and hopefully one weekend day as well - though I'm hoping I can make it something more fun like a bike ride with my boyfriend or a trip to the zoo (lots of walking!)

wow its been a few day ladies....the stress is really high right now. I ahve not been eating `100% but I am not doing horrible I think i am just maintaining. On the upside I was able to button my size 9 jeans! oh they are muffin topping like crazy and I can't zip it all the way..but man that felt good! I remember when I couldn't even get them over my ginormous thighs!
I hope you too are having a fun weekend! I am going to run on my treadmill and then go to my gf's house for a day of movies.....

Stephanie The cake was amazing, I did really appreciate his efforts. As for exercise...bleurgh. I hope it is really 80% food and 20% exercise haha.

sun Hope you're not too stressed out! Day of movies sounds nice and relaxing, I hope it's fun.

I'm at work today and tit sucks, the weather has cleared into a nice sunny day and it will be just my luck that when I get to leave, it clouds over. It's been like that recently. I haven't exercised since Friday and although I know I have time to after work, once again I don't feel like it at all. I know it regulates my moods and I need that because I've been feeling fairly depressed for a couple of weeks now...but I just can't be bothered. It's the lethargy and feeling that there are other things I would much rather be doing.

My job is driving me crazy I think. At the moment I dread coming to work and I don't enjoy being here. I need to make a change but I'm so hesitant to as I'm used to the normal weekly pay check I get and I know how to budget with it so changing it up is scary - that and there aren't a lot of jobs actually going at the moment.

Sorry for the rant ladies. I'm on plan with my eating and still losing a bit, but slowly. I factored alcohol into my last 2 days of calories, which is not the best, but I figure that if I'm factoring it into my limits, it's not as bad as if I were drinking it on top of my daily limit. I'm down to 75.6kg/166.6pounds today.

rainbow is there anyway to job hunt while you still have this one to see if there is anything better out there? It must be tough not being happy where u r. Good job on keeping within your calories though :) I know what you mean about feeling lethargic.

I am exercising but not being good with food. Sleep deprivation has thrown my whole body clock off and I can't get back on track. I need caffeine to get through the day and I am not drinking enough water,,,, I know I need to just get on with it but I have no energy.....
I hope Lali gets better soon as I can't actively lose weight like this., Sigh
I guess you have great times and rough times..,, I am so close to not looking fat anymore that it really fustrates me that i am a comfort eater and can't bring myself to not eat while I am waiting for my sick child to fall asleep at 2 in the morning. ugh sorry for my rant... just had to get it out cuz I am so mad at life sometimes

sun I really hope your daughter gets better soon, I can only imagine how much extra stress that is. I am also guilty of not drinking enough water, I find it hard because I just don't feel thirsty all that often. At least you are still exercising, I commend you on that. Don't apologise for what isn't really a rant - don't even apologise if it is a rant! That's what we're here for.

I have been browsing job websites to see if there is anything interesting...but the truth of the matter is that there aren't a lot of jobs out there at the moment and I'd rather stay in one I don't enjoy that much than move to one I enjoy even less and get less pay for. I think I need to get back into my painting and try to work towards exhibitions again. Right now I don't feel like it but I know that it is what I want to be doing once I can motivate myself to do it.

I guess I have to admit that my depression is back and it's hard to do that. Urgh. I cannot believe it's Monday. Also from now on my boyfriend will be doing 12 hour days at university, so that makes me a little more sad. As harsh as it sounds, I think I'd rather that if he was doing that, I was alone at home waiting for him rather than with his parents. I just feel like I still have to make an effort to be sociable rather than just doing my own thing in the evenings.

rainbow Oh I am so sorry you are feeling depressed love....it must be hard feeling like that and still having to "act" normal around you bf's family. Just make sure you are getting 1/2 hour of sunlight a day. it will help I promise. I am depressed right now too what with lali not getting better and not knowing what she has...but I caught myself today and am restarting after a bad week of not caring. I am so close and I will not let this backslide. I hope you do start painting again.

So as for me..... my neighbor and I are banding together to get me through this month and she is holding me accountable with my eating and exercising. we are around the same weight and we are going to make it a friendly race to the end :) I truly need this as i am slacking and there is a wedding at the end of the month. A good 5 more lbs off would look awesome!
Hope you all had a great weekend!

Hi ladies! I'd like to jump in if you don't mind :) the title is exactly how I feel lol

Sun, I know exactly how you feel about exercising but not doing good with food. I have been engaging in self destructive behaviour, like trying to limit myself too much. Then the evening comes and I mindlessly eat :( DH has been messing with my gym schedule. I can't blame him, he's had job interviews and the like to do. Then when I take my son to the Y with me to get some "unscheduled" exercise in, I find child watch is closed early on Saturday. Bummer. And I had a major AF fake out, I have only had 1 PPAF, and I thought I had lost enough weight to bring it back, but it was spotting at the most, but all the crabbyness and bloating a girl could want.

I just need some accountability! I have downsized my food journal to a pocket notebook that way I can keep it in my back pocket :) The little things are starting to add up, then I pretend I haven't been grazing all day and rationalize that I deserve a "treat" or a bigger meal then I do. LeSigh. Anyway, new week, and back on the wagon sort of, can't go to the gym today, DH is at another interview :( I do think I am going to dig out an exercise video and at least do that :) My son thinks it's funny when mama works out, and he makes an excellent Kettlebell

Sorry to unload on you ladies, and for the long post, I guess I needed to get some of that out! :dizzy:

kriket84 welcome! I am sorry your workout is getting put on the back burner. Its hard when we have to take into account other people's schedules and kids :)

We are usually on here daily but I guess we are all busy,
I am in the hospital right now while they test my daughter to see if we can figure out why she has been so sick. So far it doesn't look like she has seizures but I hope we can find some answers/.... I look like I am a hundred years old due to lack of sleep. I can't even imagine what she feels like.
Needless to say my exercise is on hold and my eating habits are whacked out... I had 4 slices of pizza for dinner plus a candy bar. ugh

sun Oh dear, my thoughts are with you and your family, I hope they can figure it out and get her better soon! Don't worry about the eating and exercise, it's important to be where you're needed right now and you can get back into it when you can. I hope you are ok.

kriket Hey there, you're most welcome to join in. I hope your exercise dvd went well the other day.

My exercise is lacking...I am seriously having to force myself to do it at the moment. I also really meant to go to my studio today but I'm having a freak out about going to the doctor tomorrow - TMI warning - I have been having blood from my nether regions at times when it shouldn't be bleeding, and it's got me really worried. I have to go to the dentist tomorrow as well - looks like it will be a fun filled day! At least I am keeping my calories in check, although they aren't coming from the best places (tuna and cheese grilled sandwich for lunch haha).

The only good thing about today so far is that I jogged on the treadmill for 16 minutes straight (out of a total of 35 mins on the treadmill, 20 of which were jogging). But 16 minutes straight! Last time I only got to 8 minutes!

rainbow Way to go on the running! So proud of you! I can't wait till I can run more and then sculpt my body . I can see it happening.

So we are home from the hospital and my hubby is going to watch our daughter tonight so I can sleeeepppp. Hopefully I will have energy when I get up! Wanna run and go for a yoga class to offset my two bad days of eating at the hospital., I really ate bad! candy and pizza and soda...ugh!

Hey ladies thanks for the continual support.

sun I hope you managed to get a good rest in!

Stephanie Well done on the pizza! I don't think I would be that controlled - I think pizza could be the one thing where I'll have problems because 2 slices of store bought pizza pack such a calorie punch for so little food and I know I'll still be hungry!

I beat myself again yesterday, did 20 minutes straight of jogging on the treadmill! Followed by 5 minutes of walking. I really was so surprised, considering before all of this after 2 minutes I'd have to stop.
I can't get an appointment with a gynecologist until November 24. I'm so worried. They've put me on the "urgent" waiting list in case another appointment gets cancelled and I can take it, but I hate this waiting to find out what's wrong. I have to have a colposcopy, whatever that is. It freaks me out.
I also went to the dentist yesterday and I have to wear plastic retainers to sleep in at night to stop my jaw clenching (apparently stress-related) causing damage.

Ugh. Also my boyfriend has insanely long university hours at the moment trying to get his thesis done, which is totally fine, but I am starting to get lonely and miss him and want to do fun things! I need some sort of change somewhere to stop this unhappiness.

Anyway I better go get ready for work! No exercise today, my leg muscles are killing me from the jogging yesterday! I'm worried about caving in to pizza tonight...I know if I make it myself it's a lower calorie alternative, but I really want cheeeeesy tony pepperoni pizza from Dominos.

Oh on a plus side, I'm still losing! 75.2kg/165.7pounds - close enough, so I moved my ticker down.

stargzr HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Good job on your pizza control. Pizza is my major yummy fav.

rainbow Doctors and hospital...ugh.... I have the same trouble with clenching my jaw! I guess I need to go and see the dentist.

Well my eating is still horrible...but now that I am home I will get back on track soon I hope. Unfortunetly still feeling tired and down. I cleaned the whole house so hopefully that counts as exercise. lol.

Stephanie!! How did I miss that it was your birthday! I guess that's what I get for skim reading! I'm sorry!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Sun - I hope you feel better soon. Is your daughter any better? I'm sure cleaning the house counts as exercise!

Urhg...looks like it's going to rain and I am annoyed because I walked to work and really want to walk home again but don't really want to get wet haha...well... I've decided I'll walk until it rains, find shelter, and get my boyfriend to come get me. My work is only about 2-3 mins drive from his house, hence why I should walk more often, it's only about a 22 minute walk each way!

I looked up Dominos website online for New Zealand and luckily they have nutritional information so if pizza happens, I can sway it my way haha.

Hey Stephanie!

I thought the thread had almost died, I was a little sad!
It's definitely a colposcopy rather than a colonoscopy - to do with the cervix I think rather than the colon. My normal doctor is ok in that you can get an appointment in the same couple of days but as this is a specialist, I guess the waiting list is long. I got called up for a cancellation but I couldn't make the appointment so I'm still stuck waiting til next month. I did end up getting pizza and it was pretty good! Will definitely keep it in mind for treat evenings or times when fast food/take out is inevitable.

It must be frustrating to be maintaining when you don't want to be! You must be looking pretty great now though...just keep it up, I'm sure you'll drop soon!

I'm down to 75kg / 165.9 pounds I think. Yesterday was a little lower but now my differing scales are causing me confusion. Even the one at my parents that I thought was accurate I now think is kind of off. Urgh. Oh well. Today I'm wearing jeans that I couldn't even button up 2.5 months ago. Actually not even a month ago. I still have a teeny muffin top, and they're not the most comfortable pair of pants (too low rise for my tummy haha) but I am wearing them! I hope they'll stretch out a bit actually.

I'm getting my hair recoloured and cut today, trying to decide whether I should change it at all. The ends are looking a bit dry and quite a few are split, I'm considering 2 inches off the lot ... but knowing me I'll freak out and just get a trim haha.

I hope everyone else is doing ok!

stargzr rainbow hello my dears. I am sorry its been so long! We were back in the hospital and still idea about what was going on. We came home and literally over night she recovered and stopped throwing up and spasing. she is back to normal and things have been getting better around here. i have worked out 3 days in a row and and and am slowly getting my eating back together. i am not going to g hardcore this week cuz my anniversary is on Sunday and I am celebrating tomorrow when dinner a movie and a night in a fancy hotel with Jacuzzi in the room!
Will reevaluate on Sun and be good the next week.
I am not where I wanted to be for the wedding at the end of next week,,,but hey I have a child with cerebral palsy and other issues and I am damn well pleased that I am down almost 40 lbs since last year and not just where I was!
Hope you are doing well and lets start this thread a running again,'kisses and hugs

sun Ah I'm so glad to hear your daughter is better again! That is awesome news. Good job on the workouts too!

Stephanie I didn't get it chopped haha. I got too scared and my hairdresser said she didn't want to give me a cut that looked like I was in between a short cut and trying to grow it long. I did get some nice layering around my face though, so it's not exactly the same as last time.

I'm doing ok with food, still keeping to my calories (actually below quite a few days this week) and the exercise has at least picked up from when I was hating it and dragging myself through it. I found a zumba class right by my work on a Tuesday evening, so I did that this week and really enjoyed it - and will definitely go again next week!

I'm going shopping with my mum and sister today (Saturday), I really need a couple of new items of clothing because a lot of my stuff is falling off! I'm still losing, if slowly... I keep not making my goals haha, but I guess that's what I get for making kind of silly weight goals for dates!

I'm thinking about getting a new tattoo. I have one already and have been thinking about the second one for about 2 years now - and I said that I'd get it or at least start thinking more seriously about it - when I got down 10kg. Well...Now I'm a little more than 10kg down, so I guess I should start thinking about it? I just hate spending money when I have so little in the grand scheme of things. I've saved a lot in the past few weeks, but I should be keeping it for other things I think... I dunno.

Better go now anyway!

stargzr Ohhh I LOVE long hair! Mine was down to my waist before I had my baby; Afterwards I was loosing hair so I cut it down to a boy cut. I enjoyed the freedom but I love how i look with long hair,. Sometimes maintaining is all we can do and that is okay :) How did your pumpkin patch outting go?

rainbow YAAAY on getting new clothes. That is always so encouraging. Hmmm tattoo....so much fun! I have a lotus , drawn by my husband, on my hip. I want to elaborate on it by adding a peacock feather entwined with it when I get down to 135! Let me know how you decide!

Now for myself ladies..... not going anywhere. Just maintaining. My father in law came to visit and we have been eating alot of good restaurant food but that doesn't help anything. I am going to get back on the horse tomorrow.. been exercising just not eating well. on a happy note! my FIL bought me a new stainless steel stove and fridge! Super excited! It comes on Wednesday.
Hope you all enjoyed your weekend!
chat with you soon

sun Maintaining is WAY better than gaining!! I'm still undecided on the tattoo... I know what I want, but I'm not sure that now is the right time. I think it might be better to get it when we're not about to head into summer down here in the southern hemisphere! Might also coincide nicely with my goal if I get there around May next year, which I think is possible.

As for me...bleh. I made a big slip up last night, I overate for the first time in 3 months. I felt terrible for it, quite overfull and kind of sick the rest of the night. It was a belated birthday dinner for myself with my parents since they weren't here. I had made plans on what to eat before I went, but I hadn't counted on my sister ordering dips and stuff as starters and a cheesecake slice for dessert which I couldn't say no to a few mouthfuls of even though I was already way too full. At least I've learned my lesson now. I don't want to feel that guilt and physical sickness again, and I never want to consider spewing to make myself feel better either. I thought about doing it but didn't.

Haven't exercised since Friday, it's Monday here now of a long holiday weekend. Back to Zumba tomorrow after work! Also I'm down again as of Friday, 11kg lost total, nearly 25 pounds! Feels pretty good. I hope I didn't undo it last night.

rainbow sorry you had a bad night! that must have really felt awful.,. just dust yourself off and keep going! I hope you get back into exercising soon...

I am not doing anything yet! haha lazy lazy... gonna try and run tomorrow and really watch what I am eating. going for the wedding at the end of the week.. outfit ready t o go.... I am considering putting on the belt for after having my baby so my belly is flatter... is that cheating horribly? haha its just the last time these people seen me I was 135 and looking hot!

sun I say if it makes you feel more confident, go for it with the belly belt thing. No one is going to know what you're wearing under your clothes (I'm assuming it's an under-the-clothes type thing). I hope you feel great, I'm sure you'll be looking hot!

I'm feeling better about my Sunday night over-eating escapade. I think I just freaked out a little because I've been so good with the control. The truth is, I probably didn't do any real damage (aside from eating more fat grams than I would have liked) because I had a few quite lower calorie days last week and had another yesterday (Monday) to kind of make up for it. So it all probably evened out over the week. But that still doesn't give me an excuse to do it again so I won't!

I'm going to my second Zumba class after work today, I think I need more classes hah, it feels like.. easier exercise (not physically but the mental part) if there are other people there and it's at a set time and I just go and do it for an hour and then get on with my evening rather than leaving work, going home, procrastinating, putting it off...I am excellent at doing that!

I think I'm almost actually down a little more today! It's crazy... but I'm not sure. The silly metric needle non-digital scale is extra hard to read because the needle wobbles around if I move to bend and look closer haha. I haven't changed my ticker or my side bar because I want to see it properly as below 74kg/163.1 pounds.

OHHH also. I went shopping in the weekend, finally, since I was in dire need of some basics to wear since a lot of stuff was looking too big and killing any confidence I had... and I bought some size 12 (NZ) dresses! And mediums! It was crazy! I also got some size 14 stuff... so I think that is like US size 10s and 12s... bearing in mind I would still be a 16 in some stuff as well (so like a US 14) I think. It's confusing. Anyway it felt good to be trying on and actually fitting smaller sizes!

rainbow way to go on your new clothes! also on the zumba! sounds like fun. I want to try it one day.

no sleep all night because daughter is sick again....soo tired and worn out. bleh

sun Oh dear...I hope it's nothing super serious and that you do manage to get some sleep soon. I know it is so hard to do anything when you're tired/exhausted.

I feel disheartened after making a little photo montage of myself. I feel like I have absolutely no differences in my appearance after the 11kg (24 pound loss) and even like there aren't many differences except for my face and a better hair cut with my overall 19kg loss (41.8 pounds). The photo is in the photo thread if anyone wants to see.

This is cheesy, but I'm really proud of myself today. I ate a balanced diet (no junk at all) within my calorie limit, did good weight lifting, and worked out for 30 minutes on the wii fit. I think if I'm consistent with this everyday, I may finally start to lose the last 25. Let's hope :)

rainbow darling you can see a difference for sure. It might seem discouraging because you took the photos from all different angles..from now on take them from the exact same angle. I swear you'll see the difference even with a few kilos.

elleoehell way to go chickie! its a wonderful thing to be proud of to eat properly