i slipped up
after a really great day yesterday at around 11 i got some not so great news (just casting stuff nothing major) and it messed with me so much. i went to a pi-yo (pilates yoga combo) class that morning and done an hour of warmup/cardio/stretching. i had been up since 7:15 that morning. and it broke me down completely because i had just had an acting teacher say something about how 80% of your casting is based on looks. so it just all hit me like a hurricane.
i went and bought two large fries and a soda from wendys which i ate. then i proceeded to, though i was instructed not to by both my fiance and my best friend here who was busy at the time and probably would have stopped me if he hadn't been, to drink then go out to a club with some of my friends and then come back and drink more, none of this was alone it was all with a group. not the best choice, but well, it's college. anyway, i found myself at 7:40 with my alarm going off, still dressed up from the night passed out sideways on my friends sofa. i made it to my 8 am and all was well.
honestly the drinking isn't the issue, i just shouldnt have with the 8 am class and feeling depressed. it was the fact that my first instinct was food. and food to cure body issues is not good. i am proud of myself for not having thoughts of meal skipping now or of purging earlier and i am headed to the gym for weight lifting and then a yoga class soon. i plan to keep on my plan, and i feel better than ever knowing that i can get back on the horse.
here's my thing, how long till i start seeing results? i can feel myself being more energized than ever, which is saying a lot as i'm a person with a lot of energy usually and i feel stronger. but i'm so desperate to start seeing a difference in my body physically, i don't have a scale in my room and the one at the gym here is a little wonky but it's not even the numbers. i just want to see a change and have other people see it too.
so thanks for reading my long rant, here's my point: how do you keep yourself going while waiting to find physical results?
Last edited by broadwaydreamer; 01-15-2010 at 10:41 AM.
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