mar, the raiders have been so crappy the past few years, but i have to stand by my team,,,when youre loyal through the bad times, the good times are that much more rewarding

So no exercise yesterday. I had to run up to Columbia, and by the time I got back it was too late and I had major cramps. I had a light dinner and read all night. I'm going to need some butt-kicking to go today, but I am at least prepared!!

I have to fess up. I have been horrible and I mean horrible. And now the guilt has set in and I need to get it off my chest and confess how bad I have been (this is where the Catholic guilt needs to come in for me).

My family came in town this weekend and we ate out for breakfast, lunch and dinner. And.....I didnt make healthy choices whatsoever. Oh, and I haven't worked out at all. I was doing so good, but ruined it with one bad day, then one bad weekend and now I am struggling to get back on track. I took Monday off (and I can't start back on track when I am at home all day) so it has been a downward spiral ever since.

I am going to stop whining and complaining now, but needed to get that out.

TODAY IS A NEW DAY!

Today IS a new day. So you went off plan - it sounds like you're plenty guilty about it - you know you did wrong, and you know how to fix it, so I believe that you'll do that and get back on track!

Nicole - Put the weekend behind you and move forward. it's won't help feeling guilty about it, it will only make it harder. I realize that's easier said than done since I do the same thing myself - but it's what you have to do.

I have a lot of cleaning to do tonight, since we have guests coming this weekend. Anyone have anything fun going on?

I'm going to an aquatic park on Sunday to take pictures of water lillies. It seems like people would be willing to pay for my pictures, so I'm trying to build up a portfolio.

nicole, thats the beauty of this website...weve all been there...ive learned not to beat myself up...."i aint trippin" has become my mantra when i stray from the plan....i know you can do it, You know you can do it, remember youve got all the time in the world...just learn to forgive yourself

Nicole : I agree with everybody else, just put it behind you. Everybody has bad days. Just focus on TODAY, that's all that matters. Like David said, you have all the time in the world. This isn't a race. And there's no rule that says you can't jump right back on the wagon if you fall off. :-)

Stellarosa : That's awesome about the photos! I'd love to see some of your work, if you have any online!

Me : I'm having a great day so far! I did an hour of cardio, even managing to run for about ten minutes (might not seem like much, but a few months ago, I could barely run for 30 seconds without turning blue). I'm also proud of my food choices : yogurt, veggie omelet, spring salad... Yay me!

Good job, Cara!

This is the link to my photo journal: http://jdelia43.shutterfly.com/

I take more pictures of flowers than anyone needs to, I think.

today is a craptastic day for me. as you know i'm on vaca with the fam, and just getting over a breakup with the boy after almost 3 years. well i've been pretending to be ok all week because i didn't want to ruin anyone's vacation and today i snapped. i've been locked in my room crying all day, terribly nauseous. i can't pretend to be ok anymore. i backed out of parasailing, even though i've been waiting to do it all year, because i'm just not in the emotional state to do it. i know i have to eat, but everytime i think about food i'm back in the bathroom feeling like i'm going to hurl. i think i'm just ready to go home and get away from everyone where i can deal with my emotions instead of having to pretend like everything's good. that way i can cry when i need to, and then be ok and go out with friends, and maybe, dare i say it, eat. ugh, sorry . i just needed to vent.

sounds like everyone could use a hug today... *HUGS ALL AROUND!*

I've lost almost 5 pounds, but have not lost any inches whatsoever. FRUSTRATED. want to give up...

Oh Amy, I'm sorry!

/hugs

When do you go home?

Well today has been ok for me so far. My baby is 2 today! I've eaten so much watermelon this week that I'm glad here in south Ga we only get it during the summer! But I love it!
As for the upcoming weekend I hope I can be strong! We have 4 birthday parties to go to. One is my sons, and the others are family, and one of them I know is having chocolate cake so ill be good there since I don't do chocolate or caffiene!
Hope everyone gets to feeling better!

Well today has been ok for me so far. My baby is 2 today!still no loss yet. I've actually gained which sucks. Does it matter when you weigh? I've eaten so much watermelon this week that I'm glad here in south Ga we only get it during the summer! But I love it!
As for the upcoming weekend I hope I can be strong! We have 4 birthday parties to go to. One is my sons, and the others are family, and one of them I know is having chocolate cake so ill be good there since I don't do chocolate or caffiene!
Hope everyone gets to feeling better!

brandy...bring gum to the parties:) i know, gum is my solution for everything. haha. happy b'day to your baby!! and happy baby b'day to you, since you probably did much more work during the birth than your baby:)

twinkie-congrats!! 5 lbs calls for a celebration. do i hear mani/pedi on the way?

as for me, today, somehow, managed to turn into a pretty decent day after all. i was a hot mess until about 4 when i finally went upstairs and was able to eat. i realized that no matter how hard i have it there are so many people that have it so much worse and i need to quit *****ing cuz, i mean, i'm in the freakin outer banks....SO we went for a HUGE sea food dinner, totally off plan but MAN it was good. i know it's not healthy but that surf 'n turf healed my heart pretty quickly (though it probably clogged my arteries hehe). to top it all of, we did some shopping. i had been bikini searching before coming down here and couldn't find any tops that fit or made me look remotely good so i came to the conclusion that i couldn't buy one until i lost more weight. well my cousin and i were in a store and she found tops that were DD and dared me to try it on, and HOLY CRAP it fit!! so of course, i bought it. it's the first bikini i've ever bought in my life...and my stomach was bloated from dinner and i still looked 1/2 decent. so i'm super excited. someone up there must be lookin out for me, because each craptastic day i have somehow ends up good. the universe works in mysterious ways.

amyleigh - PICS!!!

oakfieldmama - I think you deserve to go off plan for one small piece of birthday cake at your son's party!

amy so glad you crawled out of that funk cuz all i could think of was "make the best of it" or "hang in there" and i didnt think those would do much good...im going to lake tahoe tomorrow and i cant wait!!

amy - Yay! I think that going off plan was a good swap for not being so upset anymore.

mini - nicely done!

I didn't get up an exercise this morning. I got home from work last night and immediately started cleaning - didn't finish until 9:30 - and I was so wound up I couldn't fall asleep until almost midnight. That is not helpful when you have to get up at 5am. My guests arrive between 5 & 6… and last I heard they planned on making us dinner tonight and taking us out to dinner tomorrow. Eeek. I may be a very sad and off-track chicka on Sunday!

I haven’t seen my therapist in like a month & a half because of vacations, visits, etc… I have an apt at 5 tonight (my husband will have to babysit the guests until I get home). I have to give her what I have written so far on this stupid story. Ugh. I wanted to write a book, because my brain is filled with… ridiculous nonsense. (Seriously, I’m just way too weird sometimes.) Anyhoo, what seems to come out is something based upon my grandfather dying when I was in middle school. SO… apparently I need to “get it out of my system”. Goody! Now I get to write and proofread what I went through when I was 12 and lived with someone slowly dying for 2 years. My husband read it. He said it was “Beautifully written but horribly depressing.” Haha, ya think? This should be an interesting appointment…

Amy - that's great! :)

Marbear - good luck tonight! I can't imagine how difficult that must be to go back and re-read that. I thought about doing something like that after my grandmother and mother died, but I'm not ready (I can't even go to the cemetery). If it makes any sense, I'm "afraid" to get it out of my system.

I did not exercise yesterday - not in the conventional sense. I had a rocking migraine, so I skipped the gym. Sometimes caffeine helps, so I had a soda and bam, went right away. I had lots of stuff to do, so I cleaned part of my house, did laundry and went to the bookstore. I <3 WW because this so counts as activity. I left my food tracker at work so I accidentally ate under points, but whatever. I'm so freaking excited its Friday...

mar if they make unhealthy foods, think about portion size then you wont be so sad about what you ate, stella my neice died in a car accident 4 years ago and her mom still cant completely clean her room out, shell go in and straighten out some clothes or something like that....the point is everyone has their own ways of coping, theres no right or wrong...and by the way, i lost 2 lbs

Stellarosa : Love your pics! You've got real talent there.

Marbear : Hugs! Hope everything went ok.

Amy : Wow, congrats! I've always been too afraid to even try on a bikini! You must be so happy! Yay! *throws confetti*

David : Woohoo! *high fives for the minus two*

Me : Somewhat good day. Healthy breakfast and lunch, but not-so-healthy supper (shawarma platter). And since I'm in the middle of a VERY late spring cleaning, I didn't have time for a workout. Boo. I"ll have to put in an extra-long cardio session tomorrow to make up for it.

cara-no worries on skipping the workout. depending on the cleaning, you may have already gotten it in:) as long as you make up for it today, you're golden.

david-congrats! twice as much as your 1lb/week! whoo hoo!!!

stella-migraines blow! i get them too and they knock me out for a few days if i don't catch them super early. hopefully you didn't get nausea too! i LOVE your photos-i'm semi a photographer. i've done a few weddings and minored in it in college and LOVE it. next time i'm down in b-more if you wanna go for a photo excursion, let me know. i'm all over it!

mar-i hope the therapy session went well. though it might be hard to write about it, it's probably the best way to move on. i actually haven't written in 3 years because everytime i do, it always ends up being about one of my grandmothers (i lost both of them in a matter of 13 months a few years back...one to c.dif. that she caught at rehab for a surgery and one to leukemia) i know i have to get back to it eventually to get it out, but like jennirose, i'm scared to let go

as for me...we left outer banks yesterday at about 4 and got home at 12:30 (we had to stop for the little munchkins a billion times). of course, we didn't leave without me rockin my bikini by the beach and pool first...and managed to get nasty sunburn. ugh. haha.
i jumped on my scale for the first time since we left and even with my 3 days of inactivity since sunday (2 days of driving plus my lousy day) i'm still the same weight as when i left. though i was hoping to be down a bit, equal is fine with me.
i just woke up about 10 minutes ago and am so ready go get off my butt and go for a run. yay C25K!!. the weather in jersey is fantastic

almost forgot..i posted the bikini pic under the 20 somethings photo album...i made my cousin take it as soon as i tried it on, hence the dressing room :)

Thanks Mar :)

Amy - Yes! Tell me the next time you're down here, there are a lot of fun places to take pictures.

I was a good girl yesterday and went to the gym after work, then spent the night reading. I also discovered how awesome our air-popcorn machine is (enjoying it right now as well).

Today I got up early and went to the gym, then spent the day at the pool with a little bit of lap swimming in there. The guys are going to Alexandria for the 400th anniversary fair, but I have another (*&(*^(*& migraine so I'm just going to stay in. I have to get up early tomorrow anyway. I'm going to have some more popcorn and finish my last book, then go to SLEEP.

Stellarosa : you really HAVE been a good girl. Good job. I'm craving air popcorn now.

Me : Blargh. Another bad day. No workout (again) because I went to a friend's house to help set up a mega dinner party. Then I had to eat at said dinner party and it wasn't exactly healthy : lots of meat, fried potatoes, biscuits, meringue pie... I tried to hoard as much of the green beans as possible, but I don't think it made a difference, in the long run. Oh, I fear the scale tomorrow.

Ooh Cara, how did the dinner go?

I had a ridiculously productive day for a Sunday. I got up at 7:30 and went spinning, then went out on a hiking date (there's nothing to tell, it was our second date and he was REALLY quiet...kind of odd) but I took lots of pretty water lily pictures. I finished the last Sookie Stackhouse book (I'm sad) then decided I wanted to paint, and Michael's was having a sale, so I got 2 pieces of canvas and did some food shopping on the way home. While my camera uploaded I made chili, then I just spent the last 2 hours painting.

Now I'm just having some chili and am anxiously waiting for TrueBlood and Entourage tonight. I feel like I deserve a nap...

i ended up not running yesterday, but i did go to the gym to lift...for the first time in ages. i talked my gym buddy and bff into doing c25k with me and we did the first run together today. i'm going to repeat week one since i didn't make it all the way through a single run last week. haha. she's quite a bit faster than i am but she's ok with going slow for me:) she kept me super motivated, and because she was going slower than her pace, talked the whole time we walked, which made it go by so much faster. i like that so much better than when we hit the elliptical and she zones out to her music.

i also decided today that i'm only going to weigh myself on wednesdays, rather than everyday like i do now. i stowed my scale under my sink. we'll see how long i can keep it under there. haha. i think i may be slightly addicted.

Hi girls! I am having a really difficult time as I already regained 5 pounds of the 10 pound weight loss I worked so hard for. I am a college student and find that I am eating so much with my friends or when I'm stressed. Help!!!!!! I need motivation and will power!

Good morning ladies.
Ooof. I’m totally unmotivated today. I didn’t work out over the weekend, nor did I get up this morning to do it. Saturday we took our guests around Portland and walked a bit – but it wasn’t a healthy eating day. We went to a seafood restaurant. They had 1 dish on the dinner menu that I would eat ( I don’t like seafood or steak…). It wasn’t all that healthy, but I barely ate any of it. That would normally be good, except I didn’t eat nay of it because I wanted to save room for cheesecake. *sigh*. Regardless, my scale is telling me I weight 221 now. I was 217 on Friday morning. Yes I ate terrible, but I did not eat 14000 calories in two days!! Grrr…

Anyhoo…

Stella – Way to go you! You did have a very productive day! I’m quite jealous.

Cara – Doesn’t peer pressure suck?

As for the therapy session, she didn’t read it while I was there. It’s 121 pages so far so it may take her a bit. I originally had sent it to her via email, but her printer was broken so she asked me to bring it. We did talk about some other stuff which made me start crying – Ugh. I miss not crying. I didn’t cry between the ages of like 8 – 18. Ever, including deaths physical trauma, and the like. Since I went on birth control – dude I cry watching Boy Meets World marathons – it’s horrible. I have an apt in two weeks. I asked her to email me about it so I don’t have to talk to her about it in person during the next apt. Haha, I’m such a chicken :). I’ll let you know when I get something back on it.

I have this on going debate with my Husband. He thinks The Princess Bride is not a chick flick, and my argument is that it is. On the 4th, this subject was brought up to his friends who back his opinion. They told me to watch Stardust, claiming it was also not a chick flick. We got it from Netflix and watched it yesterday. I really liked it – but my husband has no idea how his friends think it’s not a chick flick. I pointed out that’s how I feel about him and the princess bride. I’m not sure he appreciated it. In any case, it inspired me to go buy the book. The book was a bit different than the movie, but still good. I like the movie better, soley because of Robert deniro’s character in it.

Have a great day!

I LOVE STARDUST! Its the most perfect movie ever. There are princes, witches, pirates, magic and UNICORNS. Sorry. ahem. I have a thing for unicorns. All my roommates love the Princess Bride (they also claim its not a chick flick) but did not like Stardust. I didn't see PB until I was like 22, so I have no love for it, but they grew up with it. I'm obsessed with Stardust, but I've never read it.

Stardust is quite awesome, I must say :) I need to buy it! The book is much less... romantic-y. At least I think it is, still enjoyable though. You should read it.

Sorry it took so long to reply, I've been having Internet problems.

The party was fun, but it was centered pretty much around food, so it was a problem for me. There was only ONE veggie dish (the green beans) and my friend insisted on preparing the plates for everybody. So I ended up with hunk of roulade (beef stuffed with cheeses, chicken, rosemary, etc) about the size of a small child's head, a mountain of fried potatoes, biscuits and a tiny little bit of beans - all drenched in butter-infused gravy! I just about started to cry (of despair, not joy) when I saw my plate.

And yeah, I called it. The scale hates me. 1.5 pound GAIN this week. I've NEVER gained back weight since I've started (water gain from TOM doesn't count). Oh, woe!

BIG yawn.

See the other thread for me ripping my WW leader a new one. I'm a feisty Italian, what can I say. According to the scale yesterday, I lost 0.8 lbs down to 201.2 but (TMI alert) I didn't go to the bathroom ALL day yesterday, which is such a comfortable feeling, so I'm thinking maybe I should re-weigh...tomorrow...I went spinning last night, then went to HP6 last night at midnight. Awesome...then I got home at 4am and got up for work at 6:30. Today is going to be a barrel of monkeys...no exercise today - I worked it out so today was my rest day.

Jennirose, you're crazy. I don't know how you do that. I'd sleep for days if that was me. Haha.

As for me, I'm pretty well into C25K now, with my workoutbuddy/my bff. On the off days for running I've been lifting. I forgot how much I LOVE the sore feeling the day after lifting. Kinda weird, I know, but I love the physical feeling of getting stronger and healthier.

I've come to the decision that, as I'm stuck on this plateau, this may be where my body wants to stay. And really, that's ok with me. I am going to keep working out and eating right because I want to be in better shape (and if I'm going to run a 5k this year, I better train!). Ideally I'll loose another 15 lbs or so, but if it doesn't happen, I'm ok with that. It's weird, this is the first time I've ever come to a point like this. Of course, if I ever see the scale move, I may change my mind. haha

I hope you're all well! Happy halfway through the week!!!

I'm seriously re-evaluating my mental health right now...especially since I made a dinner date with my college roommate for tonight.

I actually work out better with a partner as well, when I first started last year I had lost my first 25lbs with a partner. I fell off the wagon. I lost 35lbs but gained 20 back recently but Im back in and I think its all a learning process and sometimes you do lose motivation but get back in the game is what counts!!! We are all here to help

HELP MEEEEEE!!!
Dah! So my guests came this weekend, and I wasn't good. I can't start being good again. I'm not being overly bad, I'm just not counting or exercising. I was sick Monday & Tuesday - so that didn't help. I forgot how much easier my life is when I don't have to record everything I eat or get up at 5am. Meh!


My friend is coming up next week for my birthday, and realistically - I'm drinking so that won't be good either. I need to be good this weekend and next week so i stay even. Hmm...

Does anyone have a way to virtually kick my *** back into gear?

Mar - You need to be good until she comes to visit!!! Maybe even exercise a little more than normal to try and balance it out. Also, if your prone to this, make sure you don't have any unhealthy/junk food in the house so you're not tempted to go for it after the drinking. The ONLY thing that helps me to limit myself when I'm out drinking is to limit myself financially. I only take so much money and leave my credit card at home.

Now, time for me to show that I'm being hypocritical.

Yesterday - I don't even want to KNOW how many points I ate. It was bad. There was cake, ice cream, mexican food. Oof. I'm not going to say it was emotional eating, b/c I wasn't emotional, but it was definately prompted by my lack of sleep. I had serious intentions of getting up today to work out in the morning but I must have shut my alarm off in my sleep. I woke up very refreshed at about 7, but I missed my spin class :( I have plans tonight so I can't go tonight, but I think I'm going to go for a walk at lunch - weather permitting - and just really behave myself for the next few days. I have another free weekend, so I'm going to get up early and go hiking before the humidity sets in. Hopefully I can offset that disaster. Oiy.

Also, I think I'm going to try to give up caffeine for a week. I didn't have ANY caffeine yesterday and I made it through the whole day just drinking cold water and 1 vitamin water. I think I can do this.

stella - I gave up caffeine about 3 weeks ago. went from a 3-4 cans a day diet coke habit to none. I weaned myself off, though, and the first 3 days or so without any diet coke were hard, I was cranky as ****!! but afterwards, I don't miss it, I'm no longer nocturnal, I fall asleep by 1am at the latest. it's amazing! the only time I miss it is when I have a migraine. maybe after a couple months of being "sober" I will let myself have some caffeine when I have a killer migraine...

Yeah there are some migraines that I need caffeine for. I decided to say today was Day 2 since I didn't have any coffee/tea all day yesterday.

I'm okay. I just drank a lot of water and it worked. I'm 5 points under for the day and I don't have any food in the house...I may have to raid my roomie's cookies just to make up the difference. 5 is too many...

Hey everybody, sorry for disappearing these past few days.

I was in a car accident :-( No worries, I'm ok. Mostly. I do have whiplash, though, and my back hurts like crazy right now. Argh!

What worries me the most is what this is going to do to my weightloss. I can't really do any exercise right now, which isn't helping matters one bit. Does anybody know an exceedingly low impact workout that I could do without hurting my back? The pool maybe? I don't really know. I just don't want a stupid accident to ruin my efforts.