My moms friend passed this morning. We dont know any of the arrangements yet, its not looking good for me to be able to go.

I am missing my boyfriend really bad this week. I just want to hug, kiss him and go on a date, hold hands ya know all the stuff couples do. I am quite needy and I almost hate it. I am trying to get him to come in for the weekend its supposed to be gorgeous and we rarely have a weekend that we can get together and it doesn't rain. *crossing fingers*

Bee- sorry to hear about yours and your mum's loss :hug: hope it works out for you to be able to go

I sprained my ankle this week so no kickboxing or cardio :( I hope I at least don't gain this week

Taylor: Congrats on your loss! I’m in 18s right now, and they are starting to get loose. I can’t wait to go down a size! You must be extatic!

Cake: That article is amazing! I am TOTALLY going to do that when I hit the gym in the morning.

Brie: see? It wasn’t so bad! You're going to do AMAZING this week!

Bee: Sorry to hear about your mom's friend. I hope that things go okay for her family as well as yours through this tough time.

AKT: Hope your ankle gets better! As long as you make sure that your water intake is good, and that you focus on your nutrition and portion for the next few days, you should be fine! and you can always do some DB curls with canned peas or something!!

As for me, I was saddened tonight as I watched the BL. Even though I just started watching it at the end of February, I can't help but feel that Kristen was such an inspiration. My fiance made fun of me for crying at the vote tonight. Not to mention he was cracking jokes the whole show. And he wonders why I wait for him to get to bed and/or be at work to watch it without him.

Rant Warning! Rant Warning!

He was such a hypocrite tonight. He too is overweight, I'm guessing he's around 250-275 and is around 6'2. (40 jeans) I think I injured my back somehow yesterday at the gym, so today instead of strength training, I just did some cardio and my BL Yoga DVD. (Which I LOVE!) And he went on this rant about how it wasn't cardio and that Yoga alone will not make me lose weight. And I gave him the "don't you say another word or I will stab you with my toothbrush" look, and proceeded to tell him that I don't do yoga EVERY day, but I do cardio almost EVERY day and just because I change up my routine every little while doesn't make me a bad person. (In high school, I did lose a lot of inches doing yoga every morning!)

So I pat myself on the back for standing up for what I've been doing, and then got ready for bed, and he said something again, I called him a hypocrite and left it at that. If he says another word about it I will unleash my fury on him and show him my WW weigh-in book. I'm losing pounds, so obviously, I'm doing something right.

Although he does work construction and walks around all day, he doesn't do anything else. He comes home and relaxes until bed. I do ALL the housework, and cooking. So he has nothing to complain about. I try to cook the most nutritious meals possible so that I know that at least nutritionally, I'm doing what I can for him. (what he does away from home, at work, etc. are things he needs to work on)

What really bugs me is that we have this gym membership, that I pay for, that I don't need (I can get in free at the gym at school) but that I have so he could come with me. We have a treadmill at home, and a TON of workout dvds (Tae Bo to Pilates, Strip Aerobics to 30DS) and he doesnt use the resources available to him. I know that it is ultimately a decision that HE has to make, to want to be healthier, but there's a difference in WANTING to do something and actually DOING it.

End Rant.... I think

Anywho, so this week will be stressful. One of my professors has gotten Peeved that no one is showing up for class, and decides to cancel it for the rest of the semester, and we have a TON of work due by May 1st.

So I need to hit the sack now... Night ladies!!

I'll catch up with personals tomorrow, I promise.
I went the gym today, and i feel pretty good. My legs are a little sore, but in the good way. Ate on plan. I'm hoping to have some sort of loss tomorrow. Fingers crossed.
Everyone seems to go crazy at the end of the semester, so i've been dealing with a lot of drama. I'm ready for that to be over.
On the plus side, one of my professor's that i'm kinda friends with (i baby sit his son) noticed my weight loss. He said I was looking really good and healthy, which makes me so happy. Some one other than my boyfriend, parents, or gym buddy finally said something!

Bliss - that's terrible! Its so frustrating when people knock what you've been doing. Maybe you can say doing something is always better than nothing!! Maybe if he knew a little more about yoga, he'd understand that it's helped TONS of people with their weightloss and changing it up is what will get you through this! I hope you decide to just get yourself in better shape, and he see's your progress soon so maybe it will change his mind! If you hurt your back you have plenty of reasons not to be doing strenous things, you only get one back and if you hurt it, you can be screwed for life! Shake it off and laugh, if you can, I know its easier said than done, but girl you deserve to be happy about what you are doing for yourself! Good luck with your class, i to am in CRUNCH time!

Bee - :hug: I hope your BF comes in for you this weekend, let him know you really need him right now!

AKT - awww, sprained ankles SUCK! Sorry to hear that, hope it doesn't cause u too much trouble!

Heather - no worries, you're doing what you need too, the weight will come off after its done fighting with you, because you are going to WIN!

Lissa - its good to let your body heal, if you don't you are more likely to fail! Remember that soreness is from your hard work, and it gets better after every workout!

Jade - YAY, people are noticing your hardwork,that's always a good feelling! Good job eating and working out!

Well I'm on early today! I had class last night and he introduced our final project, and I'm so screwed! He wasn't teaching us anything just showed us code, which i'd be better off building myself so I can see what I'm doing and maybe grasp the concept! So now I have a little under 5 weeks to build a video poker game, woowho! I'm excited, intimidated, and stressed all at the same time! I'm going to see how far I can get by Tuesday next week, and if need be I'm taking days off so I can get this DONE! Happy Wednesday ladies, i'll be back later probably!

Ugh, I'm alive...
 

I've been pretty much exercising boot camp style all day every day the last 6 days or so. Trying to keep my temper in check. My "friends" who were sworn to secrecy about the separation told and it's been nonstop, "So, I hear you're on the market now..."

1.) NO. I will never date a man in the military ever again in my life, I would rather shoot myself in the foot and then pull out all of my teeth one by one with a pair of pliers -- no painkillers.

2.) Been set up twice during 'group dates'. Was in a horrific mood during the entirety of both namely because I had no desire to be there, and no desire to have to pretend to be interested in where some dumb@ss guy i've never seen in my life works and what he went to college for. I'm at the point right now where it's like, "Okay. Skip the formalities, you whip out a 9 inch peen and we'll make some arrangements, if not you need to get the f*ck out of my face."

3.) What kind of BFF sets you up with a dude who is 5'9"? Seriously. I don't care how cute in the face he might be. I. DONT. LIKE. SHORT. MEN. If he's not pushing > or = 6'2" , stop wasting my f*cking time!!!

So we're in the bathroom at a sushi bar arguing about this, and she goes, "Well he's really sweet. You should give him a chance." ONTOP OF SETTING ME UP WITH A SHORT GUY, YOU SET ME UP WITH SOMEONE WHO IS SWEET!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??????!?!!!!! WTF, ARE YOU TRYING TO SCAR THIS DUDE FOR LIFE, OR DO YOU HATE HIM THAT MUCH?!????

Contrary to popular belief, I do have a conscience and it keeps me from dating nice guys because I am 100% aware of the fact that I am a raging, bullheaded lunatic. I admit that I probably get a subconscious kick out of driving a man to wits end, but only if he's as crazy as I am. I don't break spirits. :snooty:

So basically I hate just about everyone right now. Haven't been on here just because I didn't want throw a temper tantrum and be the venom-spitting pit viper everybody has been associating with lately when they make the mistake of coming anywhere near me. Surprisingly, I feel better after typing that out though. You guys here always make me feel okay, the aura is calming here. :hug:

Dansin -- You can do it! Coding though, I don't know how you do it. I would die of boredom. LoL. :D

Jade -- I bet you look great! It's always nice when someone else finally notices.

Bliss -- Wow, you are really nice. I would have completely lost my temper if anyone had ever tried to criticize my workout, *especially* if he was a dough boy and I was working as hard as you have been lately. Not only would he have some hurt feelings, he'd also have a concussion. You need me to come beat him up, just say the words and i'll be on the first flight. Take care of your back honey, I hope you'll be in tip top shape soon! :hug:

AKT -- You won't gain, just be sure to keep up the healthy eating habits and maybe try some stationary biking for cardio instead this week. :)

Bee -- :( I'm so sorry sweetie. :hug:

Heather -- Well at least you know what is causing it, and that you can lose it when your body cooperates. LoL.

Aneleh -- You'll be fine, you don't have to be perfect! They just want to know that you err on the side of caution and that you're not hazardous on the road. The parking and stuff comes naturally with experience, and they know know not to expect precision, just safety and proper maneuvering. So long as you signal and don't hit anything you're good to go. :D Good luck!

Luvja -- I feel the same way about the job market, but you're not alone. It's like that everywhere. :(

RHTS -- Whoo hoo, last day of school!!!!!!! :carrot: You're beautiful, and it's nice to leave without the typical college weight gain.

Ashlan -- Did you ever sort things out with the bf?

Brie -- Good luck on the homework! You're almost done, almost done, almost done. Then you can cry tears of joy at your newfound freedom, then cry tears of boredom when you don't have a darn thing to do anymore. LoL.

Nish I adore you. Don't ever change.

*Pokes head in*

HIII

I am sorry I haven't had time for real personals. I feel SO BAD when I don't address everyone but let me get through this week of **** and then I will be much better.

I am so close to meeting my goals for April. I have yet to eat out and I have worked out 4-5 times a week so far. I am really proud of myself. -- I am even cooking dinner tonight for people so I can keep my goal of no eating out!

This week I had to switch a few things around to get 5 workouts in but I really want to. Like today for example I have to go to school and get home at 2:30 workout for an hour and then be ready to meet my dad at 5:30 to go to an honor roll induction for Chris....

I am working out 5 days in a row because sunday we are going to a rockies game and I have church and a family dinner.

Not that I am complaining because my life is filled with beautiful things right now but I will squeeze "my time" in even if it means going some where with my hair in a pony tail.

So there these size 18 pants which have ZERO stretch in them and the are "small 18's" due to the dye, the cut...or my @ss...whatever. So I try them on last night, lay on the bed to get the zipped but I did it! WOO! I can not sit, bend over or breath but they are on! My next goal it be be able to wear them comfortably by the end of the month.

I love you girls! Off to class, the gym and then meeting my dad.

So I got up and did my hour of Tae Bo today! woohoo I am very sweaty now. Just got done eating a delish lunch and am going to get my clothes together, hop in the shower and get ready for work. TOM still hasn't shown its face, today should technically be the day but my body never wants to work like its supposed to. BLAH

Lets hope that Friday morning I am down under 173....sick and tired of this CRAP.

On a positive note it is supposed to be 70 on friday and saturday so maybe I can start running if I get this tire fixed on the stroller...yay! My finances are in rough shape though so I really need to be careful

Have a GREAT HUMP DAY

Afternoon girls!

Its been a high work day for me. I am finding little things that i have done over the last month at work that I have to go back and research because I didnt get it right the first time. Ugh. However, my billing that I am working on right now has pretty much taken me all day, which I exepected it too. Who knew it would be so cumbersome to bill out crap. Otherwise its a great day here.

I can not wait for the weekend if I stay home. Its supposed to be like 80 and sunny and fantastic for anything outside. Eeeee!

Nish - WoW your friend was only trying to help, but obviously doesn't know you very well, I mean I even know if you said keep it on the DL and swore to secrecy you MEAN IT! Sorry girl! I'm a total computer nerd, but it's just what I understand, like you and your big words!! I totally had to look words up the last time you posted with your DH dilema. :hug:

Taylor - YAY you only have like a week left...are you planning a celebratory dinner out on the town somewhere, or are you going to keep it up? I know you said you want to keep it at maybe once a month or something! I'd have to go for SUSHI! :D YAY 18's...You have been doing so good this month, even if you can't fit them by the end of the month, it will not be much longer than that! WORK IT girl! :D

BL - YAY you got the Tae Bo in today! Congrats girl! Awesome weather coming up too, I hope you get to run, I realized I love running out side much better than on the treadmill! Hope work goes well today!

Bee - I'm on weekend count down too! Yay good weather! Is your boy coming out? You should show him how babies are made for real, i think he needs a refresher! :D

Ashlan - how are you girl? Hope you are getting better love from your man, or maybe you finally set GET OUT! :hug:

Alana - hope you are getting your homework did!

UGH so the BF came back last night and now he is sick! I hope I can stay away from that nonsense I have work to do!!! I can't wait to get off work, I forgot my USB today and now I can't work on my homework, which royally blows!!! Oh well, gotta do more work at home now! Woowho, about an hour left!! Happy day to you all!

AKT- sorry about the ankle :( Injuries suck, esp when you have plans to work out

Nish- those people sound pretty damn crazy to me. Who breaks a vow of silence they make to a friend? Seriously? I say pick the most obnoxious guy and use him to make a scene and teach them a lesson :P

DanSin- w00t poker game! I dont know how you can code either xD My boyfriend's a software engineer and i have no idea how he can bear to code all day long, if i just look at it i can feel my sanity slipping away :dizzy:

Taylor- w00t you got them on! So exciting :carrot:

As for me, im still sick so taking today off from the gym too :( Im down 200g though so i think thats pretty good right? Considering im sick and a few days away from TOM? >.<

It is looking like I am going to Indianapolis for the weekend to go to the funeral and etc. I am really kinda freaked out because I just don't do funerals. I want to go to say goodbye and hang with the family. I know hanging out with dead people isn't high on anyone's list however I cant get within 15 feet of a coffin without sweatin' bullets and shaking.

Cake, I'm here!!! Still alive! :)

Ya'll I just haven't been in because I've been busy/tired. This personal training is whipping my but into shape. My thighs are so sore. But I'm sticking with it. I didn't eat great when I was in Nashville this weekend, but it definitely wasn't as bad as it coulda been. I've been at this really cool workshop for using entertainment health messages. We had producers from Grey's Anatomy and Law and Order speak via satellite. Very cool.

So I also have my Certified Health Education Specialist (CHES) exam this Saturday and haven't studied. I need to get it together. I heard it wasn't bad, and a lot of the questions are scenarios, so I'm just gonna skim one of my old books and hope for the best. Oh, and I told the guy I didn't want to talk anymore. It didn't go well. You would think a person would just take it and move on. If I don't want to talk to you, why would I want to have a conversation about not talking to you?

I skimmed the past few pages...

Cake: Hope everythings cool with you and your boyfriend now.

Nish: A maneater with a conscience. I love it! Poor little nice guy though.

Bliss: Good for you for standing up for yourself. He just has to make the decision to change on his own. I think he just may be a little jealous.

Bee: Sorry about everything that's happening. We're here! :hug:

So tired... going to bed. I'll try to keep up with the posts for the rest of the week.

Hi girls! I don't get to this thread as much as I'd like so I'm totally lost on personals. (Makes me feel like a bad chick sometimes :( ) But I miss you guys!!! It's hard when you work full time both at work and at home. Sometimes I don't get to log on until midnight!!!

I had an odd experience tonight. I was at my mother in law's house, in the restroom, changing my clothes (we run c25k on her treadmill most of the time) when I noticed in the mirror that every time I moved my arms, I could see my ribs. IT'S FREAKY. I don't know how to handle it. LOL. Speaking of C25k. I hate it. I hate running. I don't want to do it anymore. But I keep on doing it anyway. I'm hoping that one day, something will click and I'll start to love it.

Tomorrow is my friday and then i have a 4 day weekend! But I am going to visit a good friend so I'll STILL be busy hahaha!