Thanks for the responses everyone!
I think the big problem for me is I have conditioned myself to dress poorly. I never wear makeup, jewelry, and I've only recently gotten into this idea of layering. When I was depressed, I wanted to wear something that was comfortable on top and bottom and I didn't care how I looked, so that meant sweatpants and t-shirts. These days I wear those baggy dresses (sack dresses) and leggings. Again, totally about comfort.
I've shopped exclusively at thrift stores and clearance racks for 4 years now too. Yeah you can find great things--I just tended to buy them in smaller sizes so I'd have incentive to lose weight. Guess what: still haven't worn them! Clothes in Korea are a) expensive and b) small. If I buy clothes here, it will cost me and the selection for my size will be really limited. Also customer service is insane. Salespeople will follow you around the store the whole time you're there. I'm too size insecure to handle that well.
I brought with me an entire suitcase of clothes too small hoping that not eating an American diet will help me lose weight. Well, after three months, I'm just now starting to drop lbs and inches. Yesterday I sorted everything from what's the closest to fitting and what's the furthest. There are a few things that are really close to fitting (as in I can get them on, they're just too tight for me to want to go out in public).
I've also been online "window shopping" in an attempt to get some style back. Right now I can't accessorize myself out of a paper bag. I think making an attempt to find stylish clothes I like and ways to wear them with accessories, jewelry, hairstyle, and makeup will make me feel a lot better. But mentally, I still can't bring myself to buy that stuff now... my brain needs a makeover. Maybe I should go on What Not To Wear!
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