i have to wear skirts instead of pants because the pants are super baggy :)

I really didn't want to go to my exercise class today, especially sense I was still sore from Tuesday. I managed to get myself to class, however even standing there before class started I convinced myself to leave. So then I was standing in the hallway literally arguing with myself about whether I should go back or not. But the positive thing is, I did go back!

I went to the gym!!!!

Didn't feel like going.. decided I would "try" it for 5 and stayed for the hour! :D cardio and weights, yay me! :D

I didn't login to 3FC yesterday, so I guess I'll post an extra thing today, to make up for it! Hmm...

1. At my workplace - I work at the school library - my boss insists on taking pictures of all of the employees and posting them (with our names) in a common area, presumably so we can all get to know what each other looks like and learn each other's names. When he took our pictures last year, I liked mine well enough and didn't think much of it... But they took new ones this year, and there's about a ~50 lb difference in my pictures from this year to last year--yea! Well they finally got around to posting the new pictures yesterday, and my boss actually told me to make sure I went and looked at them, because he thought mine had turned out really well--and it did! I look so pretty (hehe), and it's 1000x better than last year's. Then later, another girl that I work with said something like "you look so cute in your picture!" That definitely gave me a bit of a boost.

2. I am really sick today, like really REALLY sick--I have the worst sore throat ever, headache, achy muscles (and everything else), fatigued, and just basically feel like absolute junk. All I wanted to when I finished with class/work for the day was crawl into bed with a bag of chips or candy... Because I always turn to food for comfort... But NOT TODAY. I went to get my dinner to-go from the cafeteria, and I sooo wanted to get some fries, or a dessert (cake or a cookie, mmm), or stop by the student convenience store and pick up a bag of Sun Chips... Or even order pizza for myself instead of eating the stupid cafeteria food. It was so hard to resist, because I'm inclined to think "I'm sick; I can have whatever the h*** I want!" But I just kept telling myself Eating junk will not make you feel better... It might lift my mood temporarily, but I don't want to encourage my body/mind to have that kind of emotional response to food. So I got a normal, healthy dinner, and I ate as if it were a normal day and I wasn't feeling awful. I think instead of overeating tonight, I'm going to take a bath, or paint my nails, or something comforting that ISN'T unhealthy. I'm so proud of myself--this feels like a big step for me. :D

an older lady at my aqua aerobics commented that they like my new swimsuit ( a speedo one my bf bought me !) and that I am so slim! whoo hooo!!

My positive thing for yesterday is that I weighed 199.2 lbs and I'm finally in ONEDERLAND!! :D

My positive thing for today is that even though I ate kind of badly last night - I know, I know, but my brother is visiting this weekend! - I'm STILL in Onederland (though I gained 0.4 lbs :o hehe)!!! WOOHOO! I was sure I would have somehow gained 5 lbs overnight...

Ooooh grats Star2B! I bet you are feeling great :)


My positive thing for today: I was really pissed and keyed up about something, and I have been able to transform that energy into doing my washing up from the last 3 weeks. I feel a whole lot better now and all my plates are clean.

I also bought some S/M size pants and they fit great!

Elwing, Excellent job converting that negative energy! clean dishes are a plus. :D

I'll list a couple positives because I missed yesterday ...
1. I got my butt into gear and jumped on the treadmill on Thurs night and did my JM shred last night even though both times that bugger in my head kept on trying to talk me out of it by listing every excuse not to do it. Ultimately it came down to me saying (to myself) that I said I would do it on 3FC, therefore i will get 'er done! funny how it does make you feel better -- even if you felt like crud before doing it.

2. I'm in briefly at work today to see a client and plan on going about my weekend errands and whatnot as soon as I get off of here, but I still treated it like a normal day food wise and made sure I brought everything I need for lunch and snacks and water with me. :D

*BONUS*: even if it's not reflecting on the scale as fast as I'd like, I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself and am sure i'm losing inches. hopefully.

i hit the 180s!! YEAAAAAH!

MEREDITH!!!!
YAYYYYYY!!!!!!

okay, my positive is that DH's students think I'm a milf.

One positive thing for me today is that I weighed in at 257!! WooHoo! Tomorrow is the official weigh in day. We shall see if it sticks!

Positive thing for me today: I took in some clothes, especially pants that I am not ready to say goodbye to (even though they were too large). They fit again! I also reduced the bands of a bra and took in the bottom of my bikini.

Gotta keep this thread alive throughout the Biggest Loser Challenge! :D It'll help even more :D

Positive today: My skin has really improved since focusing on good food and lots of water!
And! even though my scale is making it very hard for me to stay motivated, I didn't freak out at my 3 lb gain. I instead rationalized it and remembered to not flip. Just means I have to stay super focused for the rest of the week.

I'm in the 180's!

I've lost 50 lbs! woot woot!