[blondebombshell]

So... yesterday. I didnt just "fall" off the wagon, I freakin CATAPULTED off that s.o.b.

Breakfast: perfectly portioned fiberous bowl of kashi cereal with rice milk. Yay! Good job me! Determined to get in a good work out today since I ate out and was horrible in ordering lobster ravioli in vodka sauce Whats that? 64 oz of water by lunch?! Awesome! Wait.... phone call!



I got an extremely upsetting phone call. My brother is being deployed overseas. I went into complete hysterics. Bawling, vomitting, I left work early because I just couldnt get my composure together. Since I hadnt had lunch, I immediately went and scarfed down a ham calzone (light on the cheese). 2 diet cokes. 1 Almond Snickers bar. A mango smoothie, bag of chips, and Frontega Chicken Panini from Panera Bread.

Yup. Definitely gained 2 pounds last night (thanks scale, for reminding me!) and am now so freaking stressed out of my face. I'm so discombobulated I can hardly articulate when people ask me questions. I am quite liberal and was upset that my brother joined the military when he did knowing we were under the kind of leadership we are currently under. My family is very close and this is just a complete blow for me. I am proud of my brother for being an incredibly intelligent, hardworking man. But I am so furious that he is being deployed and right before christmas.

Despite this novella of a post. Im at a loss of words.

Someone padlock the refrigerator and hide my wallet.

[nancylmrn]

It is good of you to let it all go here and yes you had a very bad day and yes you ate and yes you gained a bit of weight ....

now that the rant is over.....Hug your family, kiss your brother and tell me...how did that snickers bar really taste?

[ghost]

sh!t happens. At least your destructive behavior wasn't binge drinking and then driving drunk and killing someone. Now, get control of yourself if not for you, for your brother. Two lbs, thats probably all the food still in your guts and water retention from all the sodium in restaurant food honey, how many calories did you eat? Maybe 3500? thats one lbs, you can lose that in four days. Now ask yourself: Did binging and eating make the situation any better? Did it make you feel better? Next time ask yourself those two questions before the binge.
And, if you have trouble dealing with these emotions there are a miriad of crisis lines you can call, with professionals on the other side of that line who can talk you down off the Panera Bread ledge. And what you are experiencing is A CRISIS. It is a situation you are not capable of dealing with because you lack the tools to deal with it. There are people that can help you gain these tools.

[Lovely]

My eldest brother is in Iraq now. He was over in Afghanistan as well. We're not close or anything, but... it's still hard knowing he's not home.

Yes, you're hurt. Yes, you ate.

And it doesn't change anything.

Throw yourself into anything other than food right now. Even if it's just planning all the letters & e-mails you're going to be sending to your brother while he's overseas in order to help support him and what he's going through.

[belezura]

Yes, you fell off the wagon... so what?
Who never done that??? I’ve done it so many times, and here I am happy to know those moments only made me stronger. It is not a shame to make some mistakes here and there. It would be a shame make those mistakes take over your life.
Stop and think: To eat will change anything? beside the # on the scale? Will it fix all your issues?
So, keep that in mind and appreciate all the good work you’ve done.
Need some motivation? Grab a new smaller cloth you bought. Or a huge one doesn’t fit anymore and put right in the kitchen, somewhere where you can see from the fridge. Or just hang a pic of you when you were heavier at the fridge door. And before you reach for anything to eat, look at that and ask yourself if you want to look that way again.
Put the pic on your wallet too and do the same thing before getting to the money whenever you go get something to eat.
Be strong...Be strong...
and if you see there is no way you will be far from food, binge on fruit.
It isn’t right to binge at all... But at least will be a lot easier on you when you get on top of the scale again...
Hope it help you
Good luck to your!!!