Sort of...
I finished my last final today!
Yay! I survived my first year of nursing school... boy was it hectic.
I haven't posted much the last few weeks or so cuz I've been too busy with school projects and studying. Shoot, I haven't been exercising cuz I've been too busy. The stress got to me and I've been binging lately too.
It kinda stinks, but I also know that I can't change the habit during my most stressful time of year either.
So, I go with my parents to Wichita on June 6 to start Optifast. I am so excited.... I wish I could be starting right now, I am really ready to be done with food; making choices, feeling guilty, etc etc has really become exhausting.
I have been doing A LOT of soul searching and since I have made the decision to do Optifast, I have generally become a much more happier person (even my husband has noticed). I feel like, for the first time years, I am finally taking control of my life and that I am ready for the responsibility and accountability of not only weight loss, but of every aspect of my life. I also made another huge discovery.... (which I should have known this, as I tend to be very independent) I am not my marriage, and my happiness is not dependent upon my marriage. So after a really rocky summer last year, things are really back on track with us, and I truly feel revived - and these seem to be lasting feelings, not something that happens for only a few hours or days after a supposed revelation.
Anyway, now that I am done with school for a few weeks (taking a few summer classes to pad my GPA), I am going to take the time to focus on me and what I like and who I am; and make mental preparations for starting Optifast.
*I just get giddy with thoughts of Halloween coming and losing enough weight to wear my poodle skirt!!! LOL How silly am I?!
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So anyway, not much going on for the month of May to get terribly stressed over - my husband is having knee surgery for a torn meniscus (outpatient); and the week after that we are going to Kansas City to see my best friend who I haven't seen in 3 years - this will be 3 days before I start Optifast, so I am gonna thoroughly enjoy all the places we eat out at. woohoo LOL.
May = me time.
I'll keep everyone posted on Optifast and how it works out for me. Thanks again guys for all the support, advice, and encouragement!
ahhh the stress is over....
