[Garnet2727]

I confess that I've been thinking lately that I may be done losing weight. It's been such a struggle for me this year that I'm about to give it up.

[thewalrus0]

I confess that I often regret not trying harder when I was younger to find a WOE that worked for me. I spent so much time trying to starve myself and throw up food. I often wish I had started loving myself sooner and trying to lose weight the healthy way.

Now I'm looking at not being in a normal weight range until I'm 24.

Of course it isn't an old age, but sometimes I just think "If only I'd figured all this out last year."

I confess I've found an amazing WOE that helps control my binging and leaves me full after dinner but something inside me keeps worrying that it'll be just like all the other times that I've tried and failed.

[findingfawn]

I have to confess that I have dieted my way up from 220 just 4 years ago to a high of 284, last fall I lost down to 250 then this year went up to 276 before I caught myself again. I had sworn when my now 4yo was born that if I wasn't at a healthy weight by the time he was 2 I would go for lapband. Obviously that hasn't happened (because I believe I can do this without the surgery). I discovered the other day that I think I self sabotage for many reasons, a leading one being afraid that I will be covered in horrible loose skin... and there is no way on earth we could ever afford for me to have it removed. I started to panic over it the other day, and realized that this thought gets the best of me often. I have to find the courage to put that in the back of my mind!

[Elladorine]

I want to get back on the wagon. Right. NOW.

[ILoveVegetables]

I just completely ruined my streak of eating less this week by having the chinese food that my family ordered. I ate less than I normally would, but more than I should.

I've also been neglecting my exercising which I used to do everyday, and need to find a way to get back into it.

[lanabug]

I may still have almost 50lbs to go, but I can hear onederland calling my name!

I wonder if I've been self sabatoging recently also.. I know I'm not doing as good as I could be. Maybe it's because I haven't been this low a weight in SO many years?