You know, given equal weight, I always much prefer photos of myself to my reflection. I've had a difficult few years, and it's coloured my view of the world. What I'm trying now is seeing the good in everything wherever possible... Not just what I SEE, but feel as well. If someone doesn't call me back, say, instead of convincing myself they hate me, I'll try and imagine what the other possibilities are. Then, when I hear from them, and they were in the cinema, I can talk to them about the film they saw and reconnect with them, and find an excuse to meet up. Just one example. I do it in my relationship a lot. I can't imagine why anyone would love me without serious effort... So I'm making that effort. So my boyfriend looks distant? It's probably because he's worried about one of his friends who's having a hard time, because he's a kind, loyal person who really cares about the people in his life.
Stuff like that. Oh, and I can't remember if I said, but I prefer photos to my reflection, because... My reflection has the eyes of someone desperately searching for flaws in what they see. Photos show the same person, but someone smiling or laughing or concentrating on what a friend is saying. Or smiling at the person behind the camera. I think photos always show much more soul than your reflection ever will. Maybe that's part of my problem? I haven't been on that side of the camera in a long time, so all I see is my unhappy-looking reflection, talk about negative reinforcement!
Here's to seeing the good in things more often. What a lovely post, it was a pleasure to read
