I hear ya, Rosinante. Misery loves company and there's nothing like understanding a depressive spell to make you less interested in trying to change anything.
Nae borra, pal. V glad the text arrived at the right time.
I have to collect a bag from the menders today so I'm going to park a Long Way Away and walk. I want to be out in the brightness, even if it's raining. Meet you there?
Last edited by silverbirch; 02-28-2011 at 01:06 AM.
wow. I'm SO glad I weighed yesterday - I have 'Gained' 3lbs overnight!!!!
Yes, I know it's not 3lbs of fat but I think if I'd waited until today and got that result, it'd have sent me screaming to the cookie jar!
Sit doggy!! STAY! Ok that was as much for my german shepherd puppy as your dog, but hopefully they'll both listen. I'm pretty sure mine won't though. sigh.
I'm so sorry you are going through this! I have a close friend who is affected by SAD, and it really does have a huge effect on her life. I just wanted to ask you if you have any help with this?
I know my friend used to go several times a week to light therapy, until her father kindly helped her buy a "sun lamp" of her own.
You shouldn't have to struggle through this on your own, and most of all, don't beat yourself up over things you do when you are affected by this.
I think it is a huge accomplishment that you seem to be able to separate yourself a little bit from your illness (I hope I don't offend you by calling it that) and realise that this is something that happens to you, not something you choose, or something that is symptomatic of failure or weakness.
I can very much understand the stress emotionally of having your geriatric dogs, both the lack of sleep and the worry that brings.
Just wanted to check in to wish you well, Rosinante. I went to a conference in Scotland in July once and noticed how few hours of complete darkness there were compared to back home, so I can imagine that the flip side of that (light deprivation in the winter) would be pretty tough.
The vernal equinox is in less than 3 weeks. Hang in there!
Thanks, guys.
I definitely am, slowly, emerging.
Weightwise, I'm at least recording all my food - next step: bring those calories down!
Exercisewise, I'm still getting a daily walk in as a top priority.
Dogwise (the real ones), they're ok-ish at the moment.
Depressionwise, it's not been the best day today. My head's not bad but I'm struggling to escape from the sofa, I just want to lie and sleep. I've lost count of the moments when I was going to go do something 'after this programme'/'after this coffee'.
Healthwise, because my food choices aren't good, I feel nauseous and lethargic and bloated.
TBH, I suppose today is a bit of an 'on the cusp' day, I could go forward or roll back. I should just get up off my bhind, go feed the dogs, and then go do some Arabic studying. I'm joining a Level 2 class next week, and the Level 1 workbook just arrived. I have 8 days to do 10 units... Yalla bina!
