-Fear of breaking chairs

-Avoiding my reflection (still kinda do sometimes)

-Being called fat to my face and trying not to cry

-Failing and crying over being called fat :/

-Wishing I was invisible

-Feeling like I was invisible (hey I got my wish...why doesn't it feel good)

-Clothes shopping/fitting room mirrors/nothing fitting

-Trying on a million items of clothing before finally deciding on one that makes me least unhappy

-Getting winded walking up stairs

-Feeling envious of in shape women. I still admire/envy them but now I know I will get there :D

Eliana, I had a similar experience this weekend. We went to the waterpark and I remember being fat and thinking how the three worst things about going to the waterpark would be being seen in a swimsuit, having to climb all of those stairs, and worrying about flying out of the slide because I was too fat and gained too much speed. This weekend, none of those things mattered and the best part of all was being EXCITED to go up the stairs and even running up them some because it didn't bother me at all.

I don't want to forget trying to calculate whether I was the fattest person in the room.

I don't want to forget buying clothes because they fit, not because I actually liked them.

I don't want to forget being so stinking hot that I would never want to go do anything outside, ever.

Eliana - I love your post! I love your post!!! What a beautiful thing!!!!!!

I didn't see this thread when it started, but it's great!

>>>I don't want to forget being so stinking hot that I would never want to go do anything outside, ever.<<<

The above quote is me right now. It's a beautiful summer day out there, but I'm so constantly hot that it's just miserable.

Hopefully, by next year I'll have a few "I don't want to forgets" to add.

I was thinking of this very thing JUST today!!! Out for lunch and a group piled into a booth and I didn't blink. The OLD me broke out into a sweat at the idea of new places, in case I didn't FIT!! It always shocked me that at McDonald's the fattest place on earth, their tables were so tiny! my boobs rested on the table LOL

But more than all the fun things, I'm glad to be SANE for once in my life, to tell FOOD that I'm in charge, not it. That it holds no more mystical POWER over me. I don't freak out if i don't have enough chocolate & diet coke to last the weekend; I don't think about the order of my snacks (let's see...sweet first, then salty... and finish with some toast!), I don't lay out a plan with military precision of fast food places to hit and get home while it's all still hot LOL the time and effort WASTED makes me a bit queasy, but if that's what I need to live thru to get to the other SANE side, so be it ;)

Being congratulated for taking the bar exam while I was pregnant (I wasn't)

Buying my own seat belt extender because I was afraid I would miss a business meeting if the plane forgot to pack one or didn't have enough

Spending tons of money on plus sized clothes that looked half way decent

Not being able to keep up with people walking

Being in pain in the seats at Fenway Park

Insisting that we park as close as possible to wherever we were going because walking was hard

Guys not flirting with me

Not wanting to go out in public in a bathing suit

Even at my current weight, things are SO MUCH BETTER!

I love the OP because there is so much more to life than dieting! I want to lose weight for many reasons but a huge one is just that I want to live life and look back and say that I had a good life and I was productive person who made a difference in other peoples' lives. I just don't want the weight to stop me from this anymore. Her post was so touching because it really outlines what life SHOULD be like. I feel all warm and fuzzy inside now. :)

I have experienced so many of these fears, embarassments, etc. I'm just re-starting my journey (again)...but I will get to my goal weight, and I will get fit, strong and healthy...because life is too short to be limited by immobility, embarassment and fear.

What a great thread! I hadn't really thought about these things until now - I don't miss:

+ needing and extension seat-belt on a plane
+ people asking to change seats on a flight (I fly often for work)
+ the doctor's office not being able to take my blood pressure because the "big" armband isn't big enough.
+ my doctor being an *** to me and blaming all my complaints on my weight
+ daily:degrading remarks from strangers (infrequent now)
+ needing to take a break climbing the stairs to my 2nd floor apartment
+ needing to take lots of breaks carrying groceries to my apartment
+ leaving the house as little as possible to avoid the stairs
+ avoiding outings that require too much walking
+ avoiding outings where I have to eat in public
+ general anxiety in social situations
+ stinky sweat from anxiety in social situations
+ sleep apnea
+ high blood pressure
+ high cholesterol
+ feeling sickly everyday (from eating bad foods)
+ low self-esteem and feeling worthless
+ foot problems
+ skin problems
+ attitude problems
+ being too self-conscious to exercise where people might see me

Wow! What a great exercise!

I always think I've come a long way with my lifestyle changes, but evidently I haven't even considered the half of it! Wow! Wow-wee!

Thanks to the OP for this thread! It's so good to reflect!

Bumping this amazing thread!

This is an amazing thread, it really should be pinned still.

Bumpity.
This thread is amazing. Can we add to it?

Of course you can add to it! Threads are not meant to be static unless they are locked.

Then I shall!

I never want to forget how I was terrified of going to college because I would have to, gods forbid, WALK EVERYWHERE.

I never want to forget how I would always decline going to conventions to meet my friends due to my weight.

I never want to forget how I could never wear shirts that people would get me as souvenirs.

And above all I never want to forget how my feet and legs would swell SO BADLY at night, even if I’d taken my blood pressure medication. Also, the fact that I have to take them when I’m in my twenties is noteworthy.