Thank you so much everyone! I'd have attempted to reply sooner but I forced myself to go to my aqua fitness class tonight. Even though I wanted to curl back up in bed and shut out the rest of the world with my blanket, lol.
But thank you for all the advice and encouragement. I won't be able to go full-on grocery shopping until Friday, when the next paycheck deposits. Right now I have just enough "regular" food to last me until then. This will give me a few days to think things over before I mindlessly grab something not on my healthy list, lol. Luckily I haven't been keeping junk food in the house, my problem lately is picking up a small thing here and there every time I hit the store (whether I actually need to hit the store or not), like a candy bar or a couple slices of cheesecake to eat as soon as I get home.
In the meantime, I'm looking back through my online weight loss journal in hopes of finding some inspiration and even took a few new photos to remind myself of exactly how far I've come. Plus I've been browsing around this forum looking at posts I've missed. I feel horrible actually . . . I avoid this site when I know I'm not doing well, which is probably when I need it the most! I'm also browsing through my facebook page to see what my old friends are up to (I also stay away from that site whenever I'm feeling down), which somehow helps me feel better.
I dunno . . .I feel like I've let myself go lately. I haven't felt like going out much, been trying to cartch up on my work at home, and have been sleeping way too much. Even though I was tired after I got home from my class tonight, I treated myself to some make-up for no particular reason other than I barely wear the stuff anymore and it makes me feel "pretty."
I think I've done pretty well with "faking it" when I haven't felt motivated . . . well, until this past month. I know I was slowing down with my progress last month, well before the vacation that seemed to knock me down. I can get back into the groove again though, I know I can. I can't let myself have any other option if I want to continue to feel better, both physically and emotionally. I was just hoping to find something that would trigger my motivation instead of having to pick up the pieces all over again.
That's right, I can't think of January as being a waste of time since I managed to stay about the same. I've still got a few weeks until my birthday, I wonder what I can accomplish by then?
Thanks again for everything . . .
