Thanks, I come from massive stock with massive wrists, although grandmother was tiny. This must have been waaaay too big for her. But hey, it's a normal size like you would buy in any jewelry store. For years my mother always ordered jewelry off QVC for presents for my sister and myself because QVC has extended sizes...now all those giant rings and bracelets are too big!
I went to visit my parents this weekend which meant 8 hours in the car on Friday and again on Monday. This always causes edema in my legs. This morning I decided to go ahead and weigh even though my legs are still visibly swollen. I expected a temporary weight gain from fluid but, to my surprise, my weight was 212. This means I should have whoose in a couple of days!!
I don't have the tools at my parents that I have at home but I think that I stayed on plan all weekend. At least I know that I avoided all junk and ate healthy food.
Okay, so lately I've been going on about how I'm head over heels for this guy I just started seeing. Well, last night he informed me that he isn't sure that he wants to pursue things between us, and I was left feeling very much like it is not going to work out.
So that sucks. I am heartbroken, sure, but my immediate reaction was NOT to eat everything in sight. In fact, I am less interested in food now than when my stomach was constantly full of butterflies. I am still making sure I get my calories in, but all I want to do is run, because it's the only thing that clears my head for awhile.
This is the first time in my life I've dealt with my disappointment by feeling it and moving on instead of stuffing it down with food. It feels pretty good to be so strong, even if he can't see what he's giving up.
I just got a Catherine's flyer in the mail. I've been too small for Catherine's clothes for several months now, but out of curiosity I turned to the lingerie section to see their bra sizes.
They only go down to 40A.
I'm 38DD.
That means, I am officially too small to shop for ANYTHING at Catherine's. When I started this journey, I was too large to shop at Lane Bryant, I could ONLY shop at Catherine's. It's been 14 months...and I can't shop there anymore. For anything. This is kind of surreal. Guess I won't be paying that membership fee for there anymore!
I'm sorry to hear that; we could all tell how excited you were!
But BRAVO for not turning to food to drown (or bury) your sorrows
Thanks. Yeah, I feel kind of stupid about it and it was a pretty hard blow to both my ego and my heart, but it is nice to have the self-confidence to know that it's *his* problem, not mine. Because I am a pretty good catch, and it's taken a long time for me to get to a place where I can feel that way about myself. So if he doesn't see that, it's his loss.
thistoo - I am not going to tell you that I'm sorry, because I'm not. You are right that it's his loss and his problem. You are also right that confidence is a good NSV. I'm not sorry because now you will be free to find a guy who does see what a catch you are. Good for you for not turning to food when it upset you and extra bonus points for turning to exercise instead.
I decided to go someplace other than Evans today, which is the only place I've been able to shop for clothes in the UK for a LONG time. Evans charges an extortionate amount for their clothes because they know they have a captive audience.
I still had to shop in the plus size section, but I got 2 tops, one a size 24 and one a size 22 both for 17bp!!!! I was a size 26/28 when I started my journey just under 3 months ago. So being able to shop somewhere else and to have down in size so much is amazing to me.
thistoo - I am not going to tell you that I'm sorry, because I'm not. You are right that it's his loss and his problem. You are also right that confidence is a good NSV. I'm not sorry because now you will be free to find a guy who does see what a catch you are. Good for you for not turning to food when it upset you and extra bonus points for turning to exercise instead.
Thank you! You are perfectly right, of course. (That's not to say I didn't hide out at my sister's house yesterday and cry, because I did. But then I got on her treadmill.)
Here's something funny; the guy in question asked me out for lunch today. Just lunch, no big talks or anything. So maybe it's not as over as previously suspected, but I am treading very carefully. I mean, I am still attracted to him and if we move slowly and things don't work out that will still suck, but I'm pretty glad to have the self-confidence to know that it's not me, it's him.
So today's NSV is I guess the same as yesterday's. I had lunch with a guy who maybe doesn't even deserve me, and I didn't act all weird or freak out about what it meant or anything. And come to think of it, I ate food in front of him, which is something that used to be really hard for me to do. Eating in front of other people, that is. As though they couldn't tell by my weight that I ate.
I have no access to a gym in Paris(crazy expensive), so I've been jogging and walking outside in the lovely Parc Monceau. Unfortunately, it's rainy season right now. Just having recovered from a respiratory infection, I don't want to exercise in the rain and cold.
Does that mean I didn't exercise? Heck no! I put on my crappiest dance music and bounced around my room like a maniac for 45 minutes, and then did some resistance band and ab exercises.
And come to think of it, I ate food in front of him, which is something that used to be really hard for me to do. Eating in front of other people, that is. As though they couldn't tell by my weight that I ate.
I used to have this issue too. Also, whenever there would be dinner or whatever with the family of someone I was dating/married to (or sometimes even just friends) the person I was with always had to fix my plate for me. I could not bring myself to do it. They always knew not to put very much on my plate at all and then I would usually end up in some drive through afterward. Thank you for reminding me of that and making me notice that I don't do this anymore. I can eat in front of anyone now and I fix my own plate. I even discuss food and what I eat with cashiers when grocery shopping. There is one in particular who is now getting advice from me about how to eat healthier because she was inspired by the interesting things I was buying and by my explaining what I did with them (like subbing plain yogurt for sooo many things).
One of my coworkers told me this morning that I am her 'guru' now when it comes to fitness/healthy living. She requested that we have lunch together next week so she can pick my brain about her diet. That was a big boost on a morning when I really needed it.
I drank half my weight in water today. I'm psyched. I used to drink a lot of water. I fell out of the habit... Now, I'm falling back into the habit. And loving it. ^^
I also finished day 2 of the 30DS. It makes me happy.
OH! And I find myself sitting up straighter! It's weird to be driving along and realize that my back is actually straight, not slouched.
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