I think Oprah would call this a lightbulb moment. 2 weeks ago I got off track when Jacob got sick. And honestly I haven't been on track since. I have tried, but with very little success. I have been sinking fast into my old habits. No exercise, little water and lots and lots of food. For the old me, this would have been the beginning of the end of "this" diet cycle. I lost 42 lbs (that seems to be my limit) but no matter what I couldn't seem to get back on track. I could see myself falling into my old habits. Gaining back weight, posting less. If I held true to form in a matter of months I would gain back double what I lost. Usually I don't see the distruction until it's much to late. Why?? Because I am happy. Happy to be free of the chains of my program. Free to eat whatever, whenever and not count anymore. Free to sit my butt on the couch and not "have" to exercise. But this time, I wasn't happy. I was rather depressed actually. During a conversation with a dear friend, she asked me what was keeping me so down. The answer suprised even me. I was headed down a familiar path. But this time, something was different. This time I wasn't happy. It was no longer OK with me to be the person I used to be. Something deep inside me has changed. And it has changed for the better. I no longer accept my previous behaviors...and that's good thing. I believe this time I will be successful. There is no going back now, I no longer like the old me, I am too in love with the new me.

I am going to WW tonight. I am going to face the scale and I know the gain will be HUGE. (PNG - I know where your 10lbs went!!) then I am going to move on, without beating myself up. And continue my journey.

Thank you to everyone for always being there for me.

Love, Hugs and Kisses

JacobsMommy

You are going to do it this time ~ you have a great attitude ~ you will succeed!!! Keep up the good work!!

glynne

so well put!

print your message out.. and re-read it to yourself when ever you need it

Dana
235/227/212 10% mini goal

Thank You Glynne and Dana for you support. It means a great deal.

Went and faced the scale, not good...but I had a perfect OP day yesterday and am working on another.

Thanks Again!

*HUGS SANDI*

Everyone struggling should read you're post. YOU are as inspiration to this group, wether you see it or not. I am rootin for you girl!

picking ourselves up and starting over is what it's all about. and your tag line says it all: persistence, not perfection.

you're doing the right thing, and the fact that you're viewing yourself and your decisions in a completely different light is just the ticket!!!

let WW work for you. and make sure you give yourself enough non-food treats to keep a smile on your face.

and don't let yourself suffer. there's no point in it.

you can do it, you can do it, you can do it!!!!!!

I am SO proud of you for going to WW when you knew it wouldnt be pretty! I am telling you I dont think I could. What's done is done and now you are back on track and that's all that matters.

PS-I finally beat my 40 pound wall a while back (since we both had that 40 pound wall problem!) I am now at 44 down. My mom is such a cheerleader for me. She says "how many more pounds to 50 do you have?" not how much more to get to your ideal weight?? which seems like a million pounds not 100!!

keep us posted-were on your side

lorelei