Hello and welcome! Your history sounds a bit like mine. I've always been a big girl, then I had babies and got fat. A couple years ago I lost some weight, and more importantly for me, I gained a lot of self-confidence. But, I felt so good about myself on the inside that I didn't care anymore about being fat and gained it all back and some bonus pounds, too. Anyway, I knew I needed to do something when even my fat clothes were getting too tight. I got on the scale and weighed 293!!
I've stopped and started programs over the past couple years, but never stuck with anything. I started posting here earlier this month and I've found it to be very supportive and a good place to get inspiration when the road ahead of me seems so very long. I'm two weeks into this, and have lost about 6 pounds and I feel confident I can stick with it because I know where to come when I need a boost.
Best wishes!