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Originally Posted by fatsincebirth
i can't f'ing win, it's like i'm supposed to live in this body that i hate so much. i feel like such a failure. I have no friends because i refuse to go out anymore for the last 2 years and they have given up on me since i feel so uncomfortable but i cant stop eating and i cant work out. I just dont know what to do anymore.
I don't think you need to feel this badly about yourself because of your weight. My stats were a lot worse before I started and I never felt like that. Don't get me wrong, I was pretty darned unhappy about my weight, but I wasn't self-hating and self-punishing about it. And you don't have to be. For one thing, I'd say you should look around and see that this is hard for an awful lot of people. You are not in this situation because of a personal failing. You are here because your metabolism is what it is and you live in a society where food is what it is and those two things are not meshing well. You haven't yet figured out how to make it work for yourself, but if you keep trying (and maybe keep failing for a little while) you will figure it out.
One thing that really helped me feel better about myself and my body was reading up online about the fat acceptance movement and Health At Every Size. I discovered it several months before I started losing and I don't think it was a coincidence that I started losing after that.
Also, you mentioned that you can't stop eating and you can't work out. Well, I haven't been doing an exercise so far on my weight loss journey. I'm not sure if you were just referring to your downstairs neighbor or if it is a more global problem with working out. If it is, then maybe you should see what you can do just with the eating part of things and save the working out for some point in the future.