Hi everyone
I am Nickie. I am a stay at home mom with 2 kids ages 10 and 6.
I'm not going to tell you how many diets I have been on or how depressed I have been regarding my weight. I'm sure there is nothing I could say about myself that you all haven't already said.
I WILL say this though. If I don't go thru with this lifestyle change this time...
Do you remember the movie "what's eating Gilbert Grape" I am not far from that point. I am 5'8" tall and, in the past, have always been able to carry extra weight without any problems. Now my feet are swollen, my legs hurt and the floors in my house creak when I walk around. The last time I weighed myself it was close to 350lbs. I know I have gained more since.
I'm not asking for anyone to feel bad for the pains I have talked about, I just need to announce to myself and to anyone listening that this is it. It's not about how fast I lose this-It's about doing this without a doctor having to rearrange my organs in order to stop me from eating.
I know there are a lot of believers in this type of surgery but it is not for me. Death isn't for me either, which is why I am taking control. I don't believe in Bullemia or eating nothing but grapefruit for months. I believe I have found what works for me-being a big girl with an oversize appetitie and no energy because of that.
You're not going to hear a drum-roll when I tell you that I am now on a low carb diet. The bad carbs I was eating was slowwwwwing me down in a big way. I'm a strong girl, I can carry this weight-but not when I have white carbs inside my body. That is all I have gotton rid of. It's been 2 days.
Would you believe that I am not tired anymore? It's ok if you don't.
It's my first milestone down this long road of mine.
Thank you for listening...and for being here.