Hello everybody!
Hope everyone had a good weekend. I did-- I won't bore you with more about my closet cleaning achievement, but I keep walking in there and just staring. It's a beautiful sight! I went to a party Saturday and my friend knew I was working on my weight, so she had healthy things there for me. It was really nice of her and kept me on track. I then saw my parents for the first time in a few months and made dinner for them for their 39th anniversary. Both of them called me later to ask if I had lost weight and said I looked good. I think they were afraid to ask me in person. They must be wary about what happened last time (gaining it back). Perhaps they were just going to save their compliments for later to make sure I follow through this time! That sounds meaner than I intend it to, but it's interesting doing this for a second time in 3 years. I feel more embarrassment about the loss somehow. It's so humiliating to wage such a private battle on the outside where everyone can see it. It's like wearing your shortcomings and weaknesses on the outside for the world to examine. I'm so self-conscious, too, that I imagine that everyone is asking themselves, "I wonder if she'll be able to keep it of this time?" Or thinking that somehow the work is less meaningful because I've done it before. I attribute those thoughts to the same inner voice that tries to get me to eat ice cream
, and I'm doing my darndest not to listen to it!
Anyway, other fun things... I went looking at model homes!! I am in love. I have some serious thinking to do to figure out what I really want to do... Whatever the outcome, it's been hours of fun daydreaming about the possibilities, though!
Janet, I climbed into my jammies and into bed when I got home from work tonight (I'm so tired), but I think I will go take a walk. If you can go out in 40 degree weather, I can get my rear in gear too! Thanks for the inspiration
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SheriaVa, how much do you LOVE Target!?!?!? It's one of my favorite stores. I end up leaving with a whole bunch of things I didn't need, but I always feel happy after.
Kathy, you poor thing. I hope you get a day off soon. Working that hard isn't good for your mental health, though unfortunately all too necessary sometimes. Take care of yourself! Any more PT? Are you finding it's helping you at all? I was thinking about your WW meetings... If you don't have the money for the meetings, use us! You can weight in and report it, tell us what you're eating, and we can put our heads together to support you through any roadblocks you stumble upon. We'll be your very own personal WW group!!
Regardless, just be accountable to yourself. That's more important that anything you can get from a room full of fellow dieters or us.
Okay, take care everyone and have a terrific Tuesday!
(P.S.- I'm down another 1/2 pound!
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