Hey, sorry I have been MIA for a few days, had to deal with a few hard challenges and strong emotions. I want to apologize before you read my post because its going to be long and I totally understand if you want to just skip it, I just need to get it all out.
I had an extremely stressful weekend with my husband who had to complete something that was 205 pages for school, it was pretty intense and was due on the 2nd and it drained me working on that with him. I dont know if it was the stress from that, that caused the down hill spiral but it couldnt have helped. I dealt with some intense cravings, and made some choices that I am not exactly proud of. We both over ate during this time period, thats just a cold hard fact that I have to accept. What didnt happen though was the fast food trap, the chowing down on a whole bag of lays potato chips (tho I did consume 4 servings of Kettle cooked organic salt and vinegar chips in one sitting
), and we stayed away from unhealthy processed foods. I did eat my calories in dark chocolate, eggs, veggies, and home-made salsa and tortilla chips. It was a small comfort to be able to turn to better choices this time but next time this happens (I know it will because life doesnt stop because you are trying to watch what you eat) I am hoping I can focus more on the over-eating portion of control. I thought for sure I would gain 10lbs but according to the scale the last few days it was around 1-2lbs.
It seems like once it rains it pours, my husband only has 3 more weeks of school and then he graduates with his Masters, and then that leaves 1 year of dissertation and 1 year of internship and while its exciting and awesome that the class portion of his degree is over, its almost terrifying. All he has known since he was 16 years old is college (he started early and has spent the last 10 years chasing his dream of having his PhD in his field, but now that its drawing near its like, what do I do once the chase is over?), and our whole relationship has been while at least one of us was in school. So its stressful trying to imagine what the new changes are going to mean for us. We also have a friend that is going through a separation and she is going to come and stay the next 3 weeks with us until her apartment opens up, and while I am not really stressed about her being here (she is great company) I feel like I may be taking on some of her stress just because I feel a great deal of empathy for her, and literally the day after she leaves my husbands family (4 members) are going to be coming to stay in our apartment (600sq ft 2 bedroom) for 2 weeks to be here for my husbands graduation. These are great people and I enjoy them and their company but they are from an island that has limited food choices and once they come to the city they enjoy eating out (they never get to at home so I understand this) but I am worried about making the right food choices while they are here, and how it will affect us financially (eating away from home is expensive). Then literally 1 day after my husbands family leaves, I have a cousin I have never met coming to visit (my mother was adopted and just recently found some of her biological family). I have also stopped taking 2 of my medicines (doctor has allowed it since they were preventative) and I have no idea what type of imbalance they can be causing. In the middle of all this a young local woman who was abducted 2 months ago was found in a local lake, my husband and I had helped in placing flyers around our town and the local city and I know I am not going through the amount of heartache that her family is going through but its still breaking my heart and I think about it often, its not the end that any of us wanted and I am feeling somewhat spiritually crushed.
*sighs* thanks for letting me get all of that out, hopefully it will help me move past these emotions I am feeling.
Still trucking along, and hoping everyone else is doing well!
mj5- your pictures are AMAZING! You are such an inspiration and thank you so much for sharing these with us! I am sorry to hear about the drama at your job coming back and I hope that it ceases to exist! I am excited for you and your 10k walk this weekend! Take some pictures! It would be awesome to get to walk in Central Park, well for me anyway!
Beverlyjoy- I love your attitude of never giving up!
Jinxy- something is always better than nothing and your stamina will catch up. recouping is good to, I feel better after having a few days of trying to get my mind back in the challenge.
Kitcherella - so awesome 23 days free! You are an amazing woman! And yay for time off from work, rest rest rest!
Elizabeth779 -
Welcome!
Lottie63- welcome back!