I just want to do both. Cry because I still haven't learned, and scream at myself because I still haven't learned. Right before Thanksgiving I got down to a new low of 196. Well that's gone now, I have gained inches on every part of my body and probably close to 10 pounds back. Yes that is right, in less then a month. That tells you how horrible off plan has been. I left this wonderful board, and just let it all go. Now I am trying to get back on track and I plan, and get prepared, and then fail. I cannot understand what my problem is. I don't want to gain this weight back, but I find no will power to help myself with.
Tomorrow I am committed to following through with my plan. I did go for a walk today which was really good, the sun was out. But my eating was not good at all. This time of year just stinks. Food every where, and if you don't have the strength and will power to avoid it, you are screwed! I have a lunch planned with a friend tomorrow too. Urgh. I already know what I am going to get, and its fine as far as being on plan, but still...feel like a failure right now!
I am trying SO hard...I WILL do this.