Barb what's going on? Are you giving up? Sounds like almost everyone is going through a hard time trying to get our heads around even wanting to lose weight at the moment. I know I'm struggling.
I wish there was a magic wand you could wave to make us all enthusiastic and motivated, but that isn't going to happen. I'm in a petulant mood with my weight loss - I feel tired of always watching what I eat, tired of having to be strong and resist things that seem yummy. Maybe after almost two years I am experiencing a little bit of 'battle fatigue' - I'm not sure.
I am also aware that I don't have the self-belief, at the moment, that I am ever going to reach my goal. It may have been a mistake to set my end-goal so low.
I haven't gained any weight. This morning I weighed 77.9kg - which isn't worth changing my ticker for - but the scale isn't the problem. The problem is my own lack of commitment to reaching my daily goals.
OK - what to do? This is what I have achieved so far:
• Lost 27kg/60 pounds;
• Lost 27.7% of my body weight;
• Beaten obesity and become overweight.
In the process I have learned a lot about myself and changed my relationship with food. But I'm not quite there, and I don't yet trust that the change is permanent.
Maybe I should change my ticker and aim for something more realistic. I'm reasonably confident that I can get close to 70kg by the end of this year, as long as I work hard and get back on track. I'm not sure I can get below that though - it just seems like a really hard thing to do.
I'm going to try and get back on track today. It would be good to finish the week weighing no more than I do right now, but I'll see how I go. Here are today's goals:
• Eat no more than 1550 calories;
• Surprise myself and drink more than one mouthful of water;
• Make sure I include 5 serves of vegetables in whatever I shove in my mouth; and
• Reach 10,000 steps (won't be hard - I'm working) on my pedometer.
Maybe I should change my attitude a bit too - because it's times like now, when things are really tough, that will measure whether I am fair dinkum about wanting to be strong and healthy - or whether I'm a pretender.
Sorry for the self-indulgent rant. I'm just trying to find a way to get back on track - and you girls are the only people who understand what these times are like.
Ani