First I want to express my thanks for all your thoughts, reflections and feed-back....this on-line diet coaching thing really works!
After mulling things over, I would like to share with you my plan of action.
Kim's comments about food being everywhere really got me thinking....and reminded me of something Eckhart Tolle wrote in his book, A New Earth.....one year of paying attention to your breathe is more valuable than any retreat, seminar or book one could ever read....and yet, it is simple, free and everywhere!
In reading Beck's Anti-craving strategies, I did notice that she also recommends Relaxing with breathe....and this reminded me of something I learned in a Leadership Training course (also based on CBT) I took 2 years ago but never implemented called an "Instant Better Feeling Maneuver"
A. Think "I am breathing in" and slowly breathe in 6-7 secs
B. Think "I am breathing out" and slowly breathe out 6-7 secs
C. Pause. Close your vocal cords so that you stop breathing and think "I am relaxing." (6-7 secs)
Repeat the process for a total of 4 cycles.
When you start noticing that you're feeling more relaxed, maintain the rhythm and repeat to yourself (an affirmation.....it was a faith-based leadership course, so the following was suggested, please take or leave according to your own beliefs ...that is, if you take it at all! Faith issues can be as highly charged as finances and sexuality!)
"Lead me, Lord. Guide my thoughts, words and actions in this situation."
(According to Louise Hay in her book, How To Heal Your Life, she suggests this affirmation for weight loss: "I am protected by Divine Love. I am safe and secure. I am willing to grow up and take responsibility for my life. I forgive others, and I now create my own life the way I want it. I am safe."
On this first day of winter, I am commiting to practicing this technique so that it will be second nature when I need it. I shall read my ARC and do the Instant Better Feeling Maneuver every night around 9 pm. (this will take approx 5 minutes time....so very doable no matter what!) Once done, I shall put a blue star on my calendar and no eating after 9 pm. This is my commitment until the first day of spring....March 21.
Please indulge me for this long post but I feel this is so important..... I need to get this! It is so key for me!
I recently heard a health expert talk about the hazards of nite-eating...she said that is how sumo wrestlers get so big...very few calories all day and mega-cals at night before bed. It seems that the metabolism slows during the day as the body is not being fueled so the nite-eating packs on the pounds.
I have often thought that I did not understand my weight gain as I don't over-eat calorie wise (or at least that much)....and it's been very frustrating to have a great day diet-wise and then cave in at night....this has been my cycle for years....so my frustration is at its height....I need to get this....I really do!
Does this make sense? What do you'all think?
Thanks for listening ...it is good to concretize my private thoughts by putting them out there into cyber-space...oh, and it's a little scary too...now I feel the pressure of a public commitment....eeek! What have I done...shall I delete? If you are reading this and I did hit "submit"...it is a huge very scary leap!
Oh well....there is always the edit button!
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We are off to Dallas this morning and DH is sitting next to me frowning that I am on the computer. We will have 8 days with his parents. They are lovely folks and I will LOVE getting out subzero wind chills!
A so-so day yesterday to report. Was on good behavior until we delved into a can of honey coated cashews. Should have just thrown them away. Sent to us by my DS who knows we are both trying to lose weight. Seems a crack in my environment leads to bad behavior. OH WELL but must learn to cope better from this to get ready for environmental challenges at in laws.
Rest of day was healthy eating including having cold shrimp with cocktail sauce for dinner. Did all of my PT exercises extremely well. CREDIT MOI. Result is that I am somewhat sore this am. That is good...evidence of workout but not too bad.
Thinkerbell-Thanks for sharing about the deep breathing and meditation. Night eating is my downfall too. For me it is food desire. Kudos for making a BIG committment. Hoping this new tool in your armamentarium works for you.
BBE-WTG on the shovelling. I know, I know, snow does provide for great exercise. BUT, I still hate it. Give me warmer temps and nonslippery ground to walk on. So, WI winter means endurance for me. Wow, hot chocolate is that calorie dense. Amazing. I enjoy it occasionally....but now it will be VERY OCCASIONALLY.
onebyone-Your christmas response to family sounds perfect. I had forgotten your mom is 82. Mine is too. I remember when she first starting forgetting my birthday. First is was no gift, then it was no card. Then, it was no phonecall even. That was the point that I thought she might not care any more. Next step, she did not seem to care even when I told her the day was my birthday. Now, she sometimes forgets who I am when I call, and that she has two daughters. That is the progression of dementia. So, I agree, your mom deserves special indulgence.
Kim (aka bennyhannahmomma)-Kudos to you for keeping up with the logging even though not perfect. It is hard because counting makes you want to be exact about it and be good. But it does take time. You have inspired me to work on logging my food this next week even though on the road and will not know exact amounts and counts. I may not be able to use the internet, but I have a copy of fitday on my PC. It works, just have to use it. WooHoo for that 5K hustle...and a better personal time on top of that!
RobinW-I am enjoying your posts! WooHoo for salad eating! This from a gal who thinks salad is what food eats. Yup, when the plows come thru they mess up the end of the driveway....so another round of shovelling.
maryblu-We, in Wisconsin, are declaring that snowfall is now over for this winter. Last year we had 109 inches of snow even though our average snowfall is a measly 49 inches. So with what we have already had...we can not have any more. The math simply will not work. Actually, we should have had negative snowfall this year....hmm, maybe next year. Hats off to MN on election behavior. WI always respects what MN does....well, except for the wrestler governor. Never did understand how Minnesotas decided that. They are usually exemplarly about everything. Enjoy warming by the fire!
Anne-Continuing to send wishes for family recovery. It will pass, just feels like forever.
Gotta get moving. If I don't make it back posting...have a great week! Hope today/tomorrow is a very Happy Hanukkah. And sending a very Merry Christmas in advance for Thursday!
Im starting my post at 15 min to noon....so Good Morning
Lots and lots of snow, Im going to go out and shovel the 8inches that has fallen so far. Id rather shovel 8 inches 2x than 2ft once!!
Yesterday's food and exercise was 100%. However, water was lacking. I caught a chill from shoveling, and couldnt get rid of it. The last thing I wanted to do was drink cold water. I ended up drinking too much coffee, and tea. Oh well.
I struggled a bit with sugar cravings last night. I made a cup of tea (herbal this time) and rode it out. I was having overwhelming feelings about the amount of weight I need to loose. You know the feelings....and feeling sorry for myself. But then hubby stepped in and told me to not think about next week, next month or next year. Just get thru the night and it will all be good in the morning. He was right I made it thru the night and today is looking bright despite the snowstorm outside.
thinkerbell~ I dont know about the sumo wrestler thing.....those guys are huge, and it takes alot of calories to maintain that kind of weight. I cannot image eating that much in one sitting...or even thru the evening.
Bill~ a nice idea on the hot chocolate. Thatsa lotta calories for 8oz!! She must be drinking the good stuff
Im off to shovel, then I'll tredge over to the market (I can walk) and pick up a few ingredients for next week's lunch soup. Then I'll get busy in the kitchen. There is no way we are taking the focus out in this weather!! We wont get off the street!
It's very wintery out there. We are in for 20cm of snow today and I'll bet it'll be twice that. It's been snowing very heavily since early this morning non stop. And the wind is howling blowing it all around. The BEST part is it's winter solstice and we start off winter and head toward spring. Yeah I know it's crazy to think spring at the beginning of winter but a girl can dream like this--> <-- this is me getting on that bike this spring--I sense a New Year's Resolution here...too early for that just yet.
Anyway my food is getting a bit loose. I need to reign it in. Still doing the vitamins, fibre, small meals thing, just not keeping track so I'll take the time to write it down. I can feel my attention drifting. Can't afford to do that. I have a 5lb loss to maintain. And the past two days I didn't get on the mini trampoline because the top of my right foot is paining me again. I did get exercise by walking a lot two days ago but not yesterday, so time to get that done today.
shrinkin Your description of your mom is close to what it's like now with my mom and me, but our relationship has been unpredictable for most of my life. I was raised by her parents, my grandparents, apart from my siblings so there is another layer of complexity amongst us all, but sometimes I think I am the only one who carries that. Well, I know I carry that. Don't know about the others. She's always reacted with forgetfulness when stressed out; and she was often stressed out. Why I think it'll be different now is truly my problem and no one else's! Thanks for your support and.... Bon Voyage! Hope you have a great holiday and soak up as much sun and warm air as you can. DH just informed me we may have the $ to take a trip and boy, do I want to go south this winter... but I equally want to go to San Diego to the San Diego Comic Con this summer so I may have to bask in your report and trust that right now there are some places in the world without snow. Enjoy your time away and PERSIST IN VICTORY
thinkerbell I do enjoy your searching posts. I was looking for a winter solstice ritual last night and stumbled upon lighting a candle and meditating. I lit my beeswax candle and did just that. I used to do it all the time. Funny how when I meditate I really wish the world well and everyone in it! I, like you, want to keep doing that. Interesting how we were both mulling the same things over. I too "need to get this" and CHANGE MY WAYS. At 45 I'd like to "be changed" by 50. This sounds nuts to me writing it down like this but yeah, by 50, I want the challenge of "maintenance of a goal weight" and not the challenge of "getting the weight off". Enjoy the ever-approaching Spring (lalalalalanotlookingatthesnowstormlalalala)
BillBlueEyes I never think of moderation as a response to anything! I alwys think "how can I have more?" So half a cup of cocoa...nah...pshaw... never work..really? it does? Go on! Congrats on the snow shoveling. Methinks we will all be shovelling experts by the end of this winter.
maryblu Sorry to hear you are tangling with the Nova virus. That came round here last year. Very nasty. Take care and enjoy the snow shovelling!
Nice to hear from you. BTW are you the state where Al Franken may win? Can't even imagine the story behind all that...
bennyhannahmama Nice to read your post too. You seem to be doing very well. Life is busy at this time of year and you're getting much done. Big kudos on a good run beating your old time! Fantastic. (hmmm... and in the snow??? I think that may qualify for BIG kudos.
RobinWWay to go dealing with Christmas dinner #1. I wanted to ask, have you gone to any OA meetings? I've decided to return to program when the bus strike ends. (yes they are still on strike. ) I think I need the fellowship. The program will grow on me too I am sure... but really going to be with others is something I need right now. You are doing really well. (we must have been posting at the same time and getting the same storm!)
wndranne Hang in there.
angelmomma210 Thinking of you and DH and wondering how things are. Pop by if you get a minute!
Feeling really crummy right now (PMS), so I think I'm going to get some sleep. Just wanted to check in and say hello to everyone. I made sure to log my potato latkes and 1/2 a doughnut I ate. And now, I should go to bed before I start raiding my cabinets.
I'll be at work tomorrow all day, but hopefully tomorrow night I can get to personals.
Diet Coaches - Happy Hanukkah to all you guys who celebrate it. It's certainly one COLD Hanukkah - cold enough to need to concentrate on the joy that today is the first day to be longer than yesterday, LOL.
After another bout of shoveling, this time with wet snow, I tried the fancy hot chocolate for myself in a four ounce serving. Absolutely to-die-for. CREDIT moi for only a 50% obscene indulgence. If you're curious, it is the high end stuff - simply shaved premium dark chocolate to be mixed with milk as described in this food porn site for LA Burdick which doesn't directly tell you that the twelve ounce, $18 bag with the free whisk makes only four 8-ounce cups of 500 calories each (plus the calories of milk, or, since you're in so deep anyway, the cream, LOL).
Chanced upon a huge stack of used cook books; only bought four, which seems like moderation, just for reading to get my head into different ways of thinking about food. The most fun reading was the Food Preparation text book - so I now have the recipe for 180 pancakes as well as for 2 gallons of brown sauce which I can then use to make the "small" sauces. The appeal of this to me is a bit of an insight into my way of thinking about food, as adeptly captured by onebyone with, "I never think of moderation as a response to anything! I always think "how can I have more?" "
Robin (RobinW) - Yay for the Focus which forces you to exercise by its threat to get stuck. Can't decide whether to admire your positive attitude or your creative math with, "Id rather shovel 8 inches 2x than 2ft once!!" Just wondering if 2 inches 3x wouldn't be better still, LOL.
onebyone - ummmm ... Only 20 cm of snow sounds like a lot less than a whopping 8 inches, LOL. Gotta get into that metric way of thinking. Neato that you may have enough for a trip - especially neat to think of a warm place when the snow is falling. Kudos for thinking about your bicycle at a time like this.
Sending you warm supportive thoughts as you work on your relationship with your mother and siblings.
shrinkin - Bon Voyage to Dallas. Yay for a warm place with no snow to shovel. Good luck shopping for a pool and eating on plan around the in-laws.
Andrea (thinkerbell) - Thanks for posting your beautiful plan using the "Instant Better Feeling Maneuver" daily until Spring. That's one cool maneuver. I'll put that on my list of things to try when in need of serious attitude adjustment.
Ouch for the night time eating; many people seem to be experiencing difficulties then. Your strategy for cut off at 9pm sounds pretty good to me, particularly as combined with the "Instant Better Feeling Maneuver" and reading your Advantages Response Card. A mood improvement should burn in that ARC for a great setup for the remainder of the evening.
Kim (bennyhannahmama) - Kudos for logging the half doughnut. Have a restful sleep.
Shrinkin ~ Bon voyage! I hope you have a wonderful trip and enjoy all that Dallas offers....sunshine, warmth and lovely in-laws...oh, and TO! He has the body of a god! You are teaching me new words....and I love words. So yes, I now have another tool to use as a resource in my quest for optimal health and well-being. Have a great trip, a peaceful holiday and a happy new year....see you next year!
Robin ~kudos to DH for coaching you thru some very common Sabotaging Thoughts....sounds right out of Day 10/Set Realistic Goals! and woo-hoo for your labeling your craving, standing firm and exercising your resistance muscles....woo-hoo for you!
Onebyone ~ I'm 46...and what to ride my bike when spring returns too! We have much in common! Very cool!
Kim ~ sending thoughts of comfort....sleep can do wonders.....so can Midol PMS! Hormones can really mess with our diets and our heads....it's real and it really messes things up sometime....be extra gentle and kind to your body....the changing tides are real!
Bill ~ keep shoveling, keep cooking, keep de-cluttering, keep choosing, keep going! You are a keeper! Not certain what your last line to me (in the above post) means...could you explain a bit more? I appriaciate all the input I can get as this is key.
My Stuff.....
1 magnificent shiny Blue Star....woo-hoo for me. Like Robin, I am going for a 21 day, er night, challenge! It takes 21 days to make a new habit and/or break an old one. One night at a time! It feels so good to wake-up knowing I kept this commitment to me.....woo-hoo! I read my ARC, did the Beck Chapter, did the IBFM...sweet success....nothing tastes as good as keeping this commitment to myself feels!
I also noticed that I did stall in reading further in the Beck book....I couldn't move on from Day 13/Overcoming Cravings as I just felt this chapter was so important for me. Since I started on Dec 1st, I liked the fact that the date was the chapter...oh well! I guess I need to trust and respect my process.....overcoming cravings held my attention because it is my stumbling block.....I felt that I had already implemented most of the stuff in the previous chapters. Day 14 is Planning for Tomorrow.....while going thru this recent struggle, I admit that this dropped out....and I shall resume it today. Writing my plan does help as it sets my intention for the day....it is an important habit.
best wishes,
Andrea aka thinkerbill
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Well, we are knee deep in snow! We walked right past all the snow and continued on to the shop Its plowed here!! Yah! Depending on who's report you listen to, we may be in for another 1-2 feet
Ok, here is the silver lining in all this. Ive been out shoveling, and walking thru the deep snow because there is no way Im taking our car out in that mess only to get stuck someplace! It's felt good!!!!!! I love the way this fresh crisp air feels in my lungs! I just love it. I come in the house and hubby thinks I look all cute from my frosted eyelashes and rosey face. Dare I say I miss that?!? Winter here is usually just a slushy mess, winters up north were "winter worthy" ....you could call them winter! I get homesick on days like these.
onebyone~ Ive slacked off a bit on my food logging, but its been because I had been eating the same things until last night. Your post was a good reminder for me to get back to it.
No, I havent gone to any OA meetings yet. Im still pondering it. I need to find a few meetings that dont drag me down. Sometimes I come away from there feeling so helpless and depressed. I'll let you know if I get there.
Bill~ like my math?? That 2ft, was more like the "feels like" 2ft Because the more you leave it, the bigger the pile gets. It grows by the foot not the inch ya know!?!
thinkerbell~ KUDOS for starting your 21 night challenge!! You can do it!! Just do it one day at a time. I have to remind myself too often than I care to, that it's just for today....no for 21. I have it marked on my calendar, and Im trying to not focus on it. Jan1st will come fast enough for me. Oh....something else I'll do to occupy my mind when Im wanting to eat at night, is I'll load up dd's sims game and play that for a while, or I'll play mah jong tiles. It keeps my brain busy and stops the food thoughts. on your bluestar!!
Food is 100%, exercise is about 75% (didnt shovel as much yesterday) water is down, but I'll load up today.
Somethings Ive noticed....
Ive cut out the sf caramel in my coffee. Im no longer craving coffee in the afternoon, and drinking herbel teas instead.
I cooked up 2 big pots of soup yesterday, and 2 meals for the freezer. I didnt feel the need to pick or test at all while I was doing all this.
Ive noticed my serving sizes have been getting smaller. I had been leaving food on my plate because I was full. Now I just dont put as much...even if it is mostly veggies, and its ok to eat lots of them.
The sugar and potato chip cravings are gone. What I get every once in a while is the feeling of entitlement. Angry because I cant have it anymore etc etc. But hubby has been helping me thru these.
I dont want to be the fat mom that looks like she's 20 yrs older than everyone elses. Its bad enough Im about 8 yrs older (really). I want to be the mom that can go out and have snowball fights with my dd and sgrandkids. I want to be the mom that isnt afraid to get on the rides at darian lake with dd (k, even skinny Id be afraid to get on some of them!)
So........Im keeping positive and just getting thru today
It sounds like everyone has been doing a lot of positive things, food/exercise-wise anyway.
We are still struggling with the sickness. DD has been throwing up for almost a week. The ped is telling us to wait it out, unless it goes on for another week or they start to get dehydrated. I'm a bit stressed.
Ducking back out, since DS is in need of, dunno, something. I keep thinking this will be over soon.
Diet Coaches - Just got an email from Amazon that they had shipped the new Beck book which, I thought, wasn't going to be released until after Christmas. That's good, even though it's right into the massive backup of Christmas packages sitting in UPS trucks trying to get through narrowed streets with little room for maneuvering and no room to pull over. Travel well my Beck book, but don't kill yourself, I'm not in a big rush for your arrival.
Did my second yoga class on Sunday. CREDIT moi. It went a little better, which is encouraging. Lots of tight muscles, so there's much opportunity to improve. I like that. It's easier to keep interested while getting better. I can imagine that maintenance yoga might be hard for me to stay with. Still am not committed to adding yoga into my life, still at the flirting stage.
And did another session with my trainer at the gym on Monday. CREDIT moi for continuing to work on the tight muscles. Double CREDIT moi since working on tight just isn't as much fun as working on big for me. Maybe that's just a guy thing. Had to work my lunges in full view of a not-particularly-young woman who was on her mat in a split position. Caused me pain just thinking about it and she was calmly reading a book. Ouch and Oh Well.
Robin (RobinW) - That's pretty interesting that cutting out the SF caramel reduced your cravings for morning coffee. I have to see if there's a lesson in that for something I'm doing. I do suspect that sugar cravings are behind a lot of my own food cravings, even in things like certain salad dressings.
Kudos for a long list of stuff you got going there: for the tow pots of soup, for the reduced serving sizes, for more veggies. You're on a roll.
shrinkin - Waving to the warmth of Dallas - enjoy it all the more as you read about our biting cold.
Anne (wndranne) - Ouch for the continued family virus. Sending virtual chicken soup and supportive thoughts.
Andrea (thinkerbell) - Kudos for another Blue Star and continuing on your 21 day challenge. And good move to continue reading days in the Beck plan. I know that I got stalled for over a week on the Hunger challenge before I could get going again.
Re my comment: Ooops, eventing should have been evening. My thought was to suggest that reading your ARC will have a more powerful impact when in an improved mood. Just reflecting my experience that stuff doesn't go into my brain when I'm not in the right mood.
Readers -
"Common diet related sabotaging thoughts:
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It's a special occasion.
... " Beck, pg 193.
Robin ~ have you noticed any positive physical effects from you sugar/chip de-tox? I know for me, once off that stuff for a bit, my fingers are less swollen, my tummy less bloated, a little brighter mentally...the fog clears. I have noticed that even one day eating clean, I feel a wee bit more energetic when I wake up in the morning. All this has convinced me that my body does not really enjoy the sugar/white flour.....there is just a few taste buds on my tongue and a few pleasure receptors in my brain that gets a charge....all the billion other cells are not really pleased....they all prefer the lightness of clean eating. You are making so many positive choices...many woo-hoos for you....I hope that you are giving yourself lots of credit and many "good jobs!" I need also to re-commit to water....my WW leader friend swears that this is key to cravings and flushing fat away!
Anne ~ ouch on sick for a week! How can you tell if he's dehydrated? How old is your DS? Sending you many warm thoughts of wellness for you, DS and your whole family. My SILs family had the GI bug but it was 3 days per family member.
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Bill ~ kudos to you for your training and flirting! Ah, yes "evening" clears it all up...got it! A new Beck book? Makes sense that they are trying to get it delivered before all those New Year Resolutions are made....I can't wait until my New Year resolution is to maintain, and not get smaller.
My stuff...
2 glimmering Blue stars! And an extra-woo-hoo because I got a chance to exercise my resistance muscles! Got the craving about 11 pm as I was watching the Green Bay game to determine the Champion of our Fantasy Football League.....I am the defending champ and squeaked my way once agin into the Super=bowl.....time for a party in the mouth! But, I did label the craving as a craving....oh, this is just a craving....and stood firm.....after finding out I won! (woo-hoo), I did my ARC cards, practiced the IBFM, and listened to my new Nite-Eating playlist on my i=pod....which includes the song, "Music of the Night" from Phantom of the Opera and "Breathe" by Faith Hill. I am very, very proud of my positive actions.....great job! Feel like a champion....two major victories last evening...wild applause.. )( )( )( )( (this is the sound of two hands clapping!!)
Struggling with what Beck says about writing down food.....what do you'all do? I write down my guidelines everyday and set my eating plan, exercise plan and water plan.....it has been successful so far.....but I don't get specific/detailed......I am on the fence here as my system is working for me....it gives me accountabilty and flexibilty.....both things necessary for me....freedom and structure.
Have a very Merry Christmas Eve's Eve!
Andrea aka thinkerbell
A quick observation: as I keep getting called home from work, I've been eating exclusively out of my lunch box, which also contains my snacks for the day. Doing better sticking to plan that way than having free range in the house. I'm thinking of putting a container in the frig and instead of doing a snack plan, just allow myself to eat from the container. That way I can pick what and when I want, all on plan, and not have to worry about eating more than enough.
Beck 2 is scheduled to arrive today. I've been postponing BDS graduation since this sickness has hit, since I feel I need to do some reflection, so waiting for a breather.
Good Morning
Well, we dug out, and managed to get the car down the street!! yah We have lots to pick up so I can get orders done today for pickup before christmas. The snow storms thru quite a wrench in my planning. Lesson learned? All orders 3 weeks before christmas should be delivered UPS or Fedex!!
Bill~ KUDOS for trying out yoga again!! Here are a couple links about sugar, and sugar/sweetener cravings Ive done extensive research on this and am pretty attune to what triggers me. After my daughter was born, I had "madwoman" sugar cravings!! I drank cases of regular coke in a 3 day span, and unmentionable amounts of areo bars (Canadian chocolate bar). Absolutely no doctor was able to tell me what was going on. It was scary!! I gained over 100lbs within 5 months! I turned to alternative medicine and discovered what was going on. Ever since my daughter's birth Ive had serious craving issues with sugar. Ive been fighting that same 100lbs for over 12yrs! It was gone once
thinkerbell~ KUDOS on your 2nd blue star!! and BIG KUDOS for working thru your cravings last night
No, I dont remember to give myself credit for making it thru my daily hurdles I suppose I need to work on that.
As for keeping track of my food, I like to use www.fitday.com
As for changes in my system....it's kinda funky changes My hair gets super curly The better I eat, the more good hair days I have My skin clears up too, I have excema. So when I take out all the wheat and sugar both my excema and asthma pretty much go into hibernation.
The only other thing I notice is my sleep patterns change. When Im tired, and hit the sack Im sleeping....but when Im done sleeping, Im up! Doesnt matter if its 4am or 8am. I cant get back to sleep, and I usually have more energy.
Anne~ thats a good idea, eating out of your lunch box only during the day. That would certainly keep me out of the fridge. Im hope you little ones get better soon!!! I cant imagine how miserable they must feel.
Ok......so Im out there shoveling all the hard packed snow out of my driveway last night and Im thinking to myself. I want chocolate!! I deserve it, Im entitled to it....shoveling all this crap, Im entitled!!! Well, hubby came out and helped me (which he wasnt suppose to do) So that took my mind right off everything so I could give him **** for doing what I told him NOT to do Men! So hubby risking his health helped me keep mine on track.....not so good. I would have worked my way thru it some how.
I made it thru the day....it was kind of a downer day tho. I dont know why. Just was. Did about an hour total of shoveling, eating is 100% water is pretty good. Ive started cutting myself off by 8pm. I dont like getting up in my very cold house to go pee in the middle of the night!
Well, lots to do today. Have a great day everyone!
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Reason: forgot to mention my zipper is further away from my belly!! Yah!
My stuff
Should have just thrown them away. Sent to us by my DS who knows we are both trying to lose weight. Seems a crack in my environment leads to bad behavior. OH WELL but must learn to cope better from this to get ready for environmental challenges at in laws.
Yup, when the plows come thru they mess up the end of the driveway....so another round of shovelling.
Last year we had 109 inches of snow even though our average snowfall is a measly 49 inches. So with what we have already had...we can not have any more. The math simply will not work. Actually, we should have had negative snowfall this year....hmm, maybe next year. Hats off to MN on election behavior. WI always respects what MN does....well, except for the wrestler governor. Never did understand how Minnesotas decided that. They are usually exemplarly about everything. Enjoy warming by the fire!
Sunday during another snowstorm
Yeah I know it's crazy to think spring at the beginning of winter but a girl can dream like this-->
<-- this is me getting on that bike this spring--I sense a New Year's Resolution here...too early for that just yet.
Hope you have a great holiday and soak up as much sun and warm air as you can. DH just informed me we may have the $ to take a trip and boy, do I want to go south this winter... but I equally want to go to San Diego to the San Diego Comic Con this summer so I may have to bask in your report and trust that right now there are some places in the world without snow. Enjoy your time away and PERSIST IN VICTORY
Way to go dealing with Christmas dinner #1. I wanted to ask, have you gone to any OA meetings? I've decided to return to program when the bus strike ends. (yes they are still on strike. 
) I think I need the fellowship. The program will grow on me too I am sure... but really going to be with others is something I need right now. You are doing really well.
(we must have been posting at the same time and getting the same storm!)
Hang in there.
on your bluestar!!
We have lots to pick up so I can get orders done today for pickup before christmas. The snow storms thru quite a wrench in my planning. Lesson learned? All orders 3 weeks before christmas should be delivered UPS or Fedex!! 
