Looking For Another "Mission Leader 24/7"
I am totally new to this way of communication so forgive my babbling! To describe myself: I am a 34 year old mother of 2 and I am married to a skinny dependent husband (whom I love) for 12 years. I have absolutely NO support in loosing weight. I am surrounded by people everywhere who love to eat and sabbotage all of my goals. They don't want to join me, they want me to stay with them (and keep eating). I know that I make them uncomfortable when I am trying to be healthy, but there really is a thin person inside of me begging to get out. I am athletic and very active and outgoing. I am just a very big emotional eater.
I am the "Handler" of everything. I take care of everyone else and no one takes care of me. Sometimes that makes me sad and lonely, especially when I need help. I am the Jack of all trades and I get relied on to handle everything from fixing a car to curing an illness. I am surrounded by needy people everywhere I go (work, home, church, etc)! I am independent and tired of being in charge. Needless to say, I deal with my stress by overeating. I can take charge again (and again) but I know I will fail again when I get stressed out. I have tried it all.. or say everything but actually confiding with someone who knows what it is like to be the "Mission Leader 24/7".
If there is anyone out there like me, let's be friends. I need help in breaking away from all of my old habits. I am 5' 3" and weigh 193! I am the biggest I have ever been in my life. I have tried lexapro which helps a lot with the stress but I have found that it makes me not give a hoot about my health or weight. That's not good. I am a full time environmental engineer and I work for the government. My kids are 9 (girl) and 6 (boy); and they are so great! I love my life in general and I am a Christian. I love my Jesus!
I hope to be hearing from someone who can help me out and be my friend!
Thanks!
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