new year new hope
hey everyone...I hope your Christmas and your New Years was fabulous!
I haven't been on here for over a year or so and it seems like I keep getting on the band wagon and then falling back off...on off, on off...when it comes to losing weight. I'm at my heaviest I've ever been. The wopping 2-0-0!! Yikes! I promised myself that I would never get that high, and I finally did.
I want to make this year, the year for me. The year that I can be comfortable with myself, my weight, my body. It's a shame...I've been married to my husband for almost 6 years, but with him for the past 8 yrs. I am still uncomfortable with dressing in front of him or taking a shower with him in the same room. He tries to take a peek, but I certainly try to hide myself. When I put lotion on, I first put on my comfy clean clothes, then I put lotion on underneath it. My husband finally asked me why I did that and that I need to get comfortable with myself.
I realized then that I really need to work on myself and start loving myself and my body. So this year, I am going to work so hard on losing weight, eating right, and sticking to a consistant work out schedule.
I hope that I can do it...i know i can do it...not to mention i'm suppose to go to tahiti with my hubby in August...so please pray for me and pray that I can do this! I pray for each of you and hope that you all have a fabulous day!
-schmootspoo-
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