Well, I am starting to change the way I eat.
Finally. Some people start a diet every other day. Not me. I can never even convince myself that its worth it to get started. I spend a lot of time thinking about it and imagining what good things will happen to my body, to my mind and to those around me as a result of my potential weight loss, but then the call of fried chicken and bbq ribs is always louder than my imaginings.
I have been on two diets in my life. Atkins in 1998, I lost 30 pounds in about four weeks to get down to a size 10 and then went back to my old way of eating. I, of course, gained 60 pounds within the next two years. That sixty pounds became 100 pounds over the next five or six years and last January, I weighed in at 274 pounds. I was so depressed, I cried and my hubby couldn't even talk to me about it - he was that scared for my health. I started Weight Watchers and over the course of around 5 months, I lost 25 pounds. I didn't try very hard, really. Sometimes, I exercised and I figured out how to stick somewhere around 35-40 points a day and I lost a pound or less most weeks, very rarely 2. In my heart, I wasn't committed and when vacation time rolled around, I went away for a week with my hubby and another couple and ate whatever I chose. I never went back to WW. Within four months, I was back up to 265 and over the last eight months, the weight has crept up to 272.5.
I am ready now for a complete committment, to making changes to my diet that will last and to exercising so that my body can become fit and fluid. I am looking forward to the journey and am excited that there's a place like this where I can come for support and encouragement!
I'm Finally Ready!
