Depression and Weight IssuesHave you been diagnosed with depression, are possibly on depression medication, and find it affects your weight loss efforts? Post here for support!
"I have had depression before but have no insurance to see a doctor..."
I wanted to tell you that I don't have insurance either. 2 years ago at my annual Pap, I busted out into tears about how unhappy I was. She prescribed me an anti-depressant. You can go to any of your Dr's. My annual visits are usually around $100. (I always pay out of pocket) Maybe you can save up a little bit to see someone like that. They even have generic anti-depressants that are only like $4 a month. You have to take care of yourself even if it is something you have to save up for. You are worth it.
angelmom..you gotta take care of you my dear..you gotta take care of you! I can feel it in your post. If your husband isn't telling you what you need to hear you get up tomorrow morning, take a hot shower, do your hair and face and tell yourself, "I LOOK PRETTY!" Repeat this again and again, day after day as you start moving and start making healthier choices with your nutrition. You will transfer into a hawttie in no time. As for your depression, do daily fish oil, get some exercise and get some sunshine. Fake it till ya make it. I have to at times.
If you need a change, then give yourself one. Change up the house using stuff you already have, become a vegetarian, do something out of the ordinary and out of your comfort zone. I don't like sittin' around gettin' stale either! I know where you are coming from.
Nothing will make a hubby go "hmmm" like seeing you transform--I reached the point you are at now last Spring and decided nothing and no one would come before me and my nutrition, sleep and exercise....I quit asking my hubby how satisfied he was with me and quit OVERCOMPENSATING in all areas of my life and focused on ME....good luck..let us know how things are going ok?
If your husband isn't telling you what you need to hear you get up tomorrow morning, take a hot shower, do your hair and face and tell yourself, "I LOOK PRETTY!" Repeat this again and again, day after day as you start moving and start making healthier choices with your nutrition. You will transfer into a hawttie in no time. As for your depression, do daily fish oil, get some exercise and get some sunshine. Fake it till ya make it.
I love that, Thighs Be Gone.
I think that could apply to nearly any married women at some point in their life.
Thank you for that.
Angelmom, you are NOT alone and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL girlfriend! I know you already know this and I agree with many of the comments, mostly to spend time on yourself. It makes sense that if we have to care for others we should make ourselves an equal priority... it would be hard to care for others if we let ourselves get in poor condition (even self-esteem-wise).
Good advice, ladies... I'm soaking this up too. Thank you all. I said a prayer for all of us. God bless
Isn't coming to a safe forum to vent is great! I think it's wonderful that you're helping yourself in this way. We all need a safe way to deal with anger. It keeps us from knocking on depression's door.
I've had times in my life when I couldn't get help with my depression issues and I had to learn to manage my depression without meds. Doing that actually led to me taking care of myself a lot better overall and changing my outlook on myself.
There are factors that affect our emotional well-being that we have to manage for ourselves. Getting adequate sleep is very important. That's 7.5 to 8 hours, and going to bed and getting up at the same time every day. It gets your body's rhythm straight, which includes your appetite and energy levels. Once you hit a groove with that, it really helps your outlook. You probably know how "sane" you feel when you haven't had enough sleep.
Getting outside for a solid dose of sunlight is important. An hour everyday, no sunglasses, rain or shine. Even on cloudy days, enough natural rays come through to make a difference.
Good nutrition is crucial to maintain mental health. There are beneficial fats from avocado, nuts, fatty fish that help brain function. Whole grains feed good moods. Filtered water doesn't have toxins that may cause depression. Fresh fruits and vegetables provide lots of minerals and vitamins for health and well-being.
And finally, consistent exercise gets those endorphins going and are a great way for a quick pick-me-up. Exercise begets energy, which will only fuel you feeling good about yourself.
Feeling good about yourself doesn't just happen. Make a choice, everyday, to do something that helps you feel better about who you are. Self-image and body-image are two different things. Don't confuse them. If you look in the mirror and don't like what you're looking at, fine. That's just your body, and you are taking steps to do something about it. And since you are taking steps to do something about it, then you can feel good about who you are, making a good choice and taking solid action to care for yourself.
I'm sorry your foot isn't cooperating with your efforts right now. I know how that feels. I've got uncooperative knees and a shoulder. I've had to be flexible and creative in order to find effective exercise. These days, I am sitting on a Fitball while working at my desk, and I bounce on that thing every night while watching TV. It fully supports my weight, it helps me to strengthen my quadraceps, lower back, glutes and abs. I can use my dumbbells with it too. I burn 600 to 1000 calories a day on that thing! And the bouncing does one more thing for me...it helps drain the lymphatic system to discharge toxins that can cause stress.
So, feel free to keep venting, as needed. But I also want to hear what you're doing to help yourself, and I want to hear about your good days too! 'Cause you're awesome, Angel!!!
Thanks again to all the posters. You are all great. I am sitting here at 3:20 am in the morning and reading Georgia's post about getting into a routine (sleep) and going to bed and getting up at the same time. I AM GONNA TAKE THAT ADVICE and try it tomorrow. Since I am jobless right now, the most "honest" time I seem to have with myself is late at night after kids are in bed. However, I am gonna try to get on a more regular sleep schedule.
As for the suggestion about getting on an anti-depressant. I think I will bring it up to my doc. I am planning on going even though I don't have insurance at the moment.
Speaking of doctors, I went to the podiatrist TODAY. I forked up the office visit because I know I needed to find out what exactly is wrong with my foot so I can get it healed in order to adequately exercise. I was soooo relieved to hear that it is not a permanent injury. I pulled a tendon pretty good on the bottom (plantar fasciitis?) but I am not at the point of having a heel spur, because this was an injury from one particular activity I did and not from on-going exercise. So, basically I have to wear my good walking shoes with arch supports every time I am on my feet, even to get up and go to the bathroom at night. Doc said after about 6 weeks it should be completely healed. I was so afraid of a permanent injury! Praise God it was not!
Anyway, I also want to point out that I am not here to bash my husband (at least not on a regular basis!) He really is one of the better picks out of all the buttholes out there.
The main thing is (as some of you have said), I need to work on my own self-image and body-image. I am gonna get to the point where I am so hot, my husband will either have to be friggin blind or dead not to be all over me!
You know the funny thing is that when I was younger I would make fun of girls (secretly) who had the "I am so hot attitude..." but, heck, that is a better attitude to have than the "man I'm a fat cow" attitude!
I also feel that some of the responses you got were a little ruff
I think some folks might need to go back and look at what category they are in "weight loss and DEPRESSION".
I wish you had insurance so you could go to a therapist. I am seeing one and it has changed my life( I'm also on a mild mood enhancer).
I agree with what Twilight said about not giving out the compliments to the hubby if he's not going to give them to you. You know what they say "if you can't beat em join em!"
The thing that kills me is that I know there are men out there that have loved their wives through "thick and thin!!!"HA HA, Always giving compliments no matter what there wives looked like because basically they just love them.
I hate feeling that my husband just stays with me because he's doing the honorable thing and because its cheaper to stay married than to get a divorce!!
Anyway things have gotten better since I decided i can't worry about what he thinks. I have lost weight and am feeling better about myself. Get this.. I'm am 90lbs lighter than my heaviest weight ever and the only time he acknowledged it was when I asked him point blank if he even noticed I lost weight! He mumbled "yea i noticed" no " yea gee your looking pretty good" or nothing. Like I said "I DON'T CARE HUBBY, YOUR AN IDIOT"
If your interested Anglemom contact me through the private post and I can tell you what my therapist has done for me. I think if I can help you at all It would also help me. Its just nice to have someone to talk to that gets it!!
Hi Angelmom, just wanted to pitch in here. I've battled with depression for years, and when I'm depressed I eat, then feel more depressed about how fat I am. Lucky for me I have a pretty good husband, but if you don't feel good about the way you look and someone says you look great, then it's easy to think they are lying anyway. On the other hand, I have a mom who is somewhat chunky, but thinner than me and she really gives me a hard time about how she is more attractive than me, can wear nicer clothes etc etc...
Anyway, 3 years ago I decided to stop dieting, get used to being fat and get on with making my life better. I STOPPED going to the gym and started going for walks in beautiful places. I didn't gain weight and I stopped feeling guilty that I wasn't getting in enough gym time. I started working one day less a week, which made sense to me because I meant I now get a proper weekend rather than a housework break. I do all the house stuff and things that would nag at me in one day (not just housework!) and I can tell myself that I am now doing work in work time rather than in my time. After years of working and breaking my neck to be there for my kids too I decided I'd earned it and that if my husband was that bothered he could apply for a better paid job.
I work hard on sleeping, insomnia is my big depression trigger. The walking helps, now I have something pretty to think about while I try to sleep.
And I started asking for help and expecting to be given it. I bet that like me you are there for your friends, kids, husband, family giving giving all the time. I was shocked when I started asking for something back. I lost what I thought was a good friendship and realised that I knew a few people who really did have time to help me out and didn't mind doing it.
So, small changes leading to bigger changes leading to huge ones. We now have a totally different life, and I'm not exaggerating. My husband is much prouder of me for being decisive and confident about my life and we get on better.I threw away my scales....and when I weighed myself after 6 months I was actually lighter! I am happier than I have ever been in my life. So, I am dieting again and this time it seems easier because I know that even if I fail I'm still O.K. Yes, I'm fat. I had 2 fat grandmothers and a fat mother, if I was a dog I'd be a Labrador rather than a greyhound and that's fine. If someone else has a problem with it, fine. I'm going to try and lose some weight because I really enjoy life now and want to live until I'm 100.
So, Angelmom, I will pass on to you the bit of advice that made me stop and think. I believe it's something the Dali Lama said. BE NICE TO EVERYONE, STARTING WITH YOURSELF.
You are a human. That alone justifies treating yourself with respect. You have been hurt and unhappy, you deserve to feel better. Good luck with your life, I want you to be happy, I don't care how fat you are but I do care how sad you are.
I think we all have a little of the hubby that eats all of his dinner without compliment, or walks around with blinkers on. At the end of the day, though, for them to see the good or lovely in you, you must feel the lovely in yourself.
Take some time out for yourself. Make yourself the focus of that time. I'll set some time aside in the day to go walking with my dog. Sometimes my daughter comes with me but mostly it's just Meg and I. If you have a favourite author, take some time out with a good book. I'm waiting for Diana Gabaldon's next one to be released. Her writing is amazing.
The thing is, you have to love yourself - even if it's only a tiny bit. A seed will grow. If you feel you have made progress with your weight (and you have) treat yourself to a calorie free reward. My next one is an Ipod. Have always wanted one and when I get to 130kg, it will be mine. A day out with the girls can make a ton of difference too.
As for not being on hubby's insurance, if his the sole provider for the family, then it's good sense to have you covered. What happens if you are in an accident or get sick. It will be more expensive then. I take it the kids are covered by insurance?
Well, it seems that no matter how unhappy you are, you need him for the moment as he is a good provider, and you do not have a means of support. Obviously you ought to find a job to try to become less dependent. I just found a job after 1 year of unemployment. I was driven to near homelessness, so it is tough out there. Don't lose weight for him, lose it for you. Sorry to any men who happen to be on the board, but men are very visual, and they often have very set ideas about what a "sexy" woman looks like, and that is usually based on porn films or popular actresses. Men also think that they are always "perfect" looking while other people are "ugly."
Obviously at one time you loved him, or you would not have gotten married (pardon me for not knowing your exact circumstances). So, possibly a marriage councellor? It is awful hard dragging your perfect husband somewhere where he might find he has flaws-- aka, intolerance, and conditional love. If you belong to a church, possibly try to get into one of those married people's spiritual retreats or something-- If nothing else try to hook him into going somewhere with you with a shared interest, from drag racing to modle airplane building, there has to be something you can do together-- voulenteer work at a greyhound rescue? Helping plant and grow food at a neighborhood garden? There are lots of free things a couple can do together. This might perk up your marriage.
