Good morning, girls! It's another snow day and I *need* to talk. Bear with me, please!
Chris -- (((big hugs))) I'm so sorry about your day (night?)! I could relate to everything you wrote from beginning to end; I wish I could pat you gently on the head, as my best friend and I always say. You did well and you're back on track. I think you're my hero! God is always there even when we push Him aside; He's great like that!
I was this close to my Liberty yesterday! Went out in the snow and yuck to the dealership, filled out all the paperwork, and they were getting ready to send a couple of guys to the other dealer to pick it up and then...finance guy came in and had screwed with the interest rate and the base price of it. The payment was up over $500/month. Ummm...NO THANKS! So we walked. Our credit rating is phenomenal and there was absolutely no reason for them to jack with us like that, other than to try and pad their own pockets.
Maybe another day...
Jennelle -- Good for you with the cafeteria food! You're doing so well.
Kat -- Sounds like the meeting from *&%$! How did you remain attentive that long? Did your mind slip away to a happy place?
Sarah -- Great to hear from you! You seem so perky and upbeat...the world needs more of that!
Ellis -- Glad your meatballs turned out so well. I love to do freezer cooking like that. It sure helps out when you're having one of those crazy days. But, how often does that happen really?
I still have heard nothing from my sponsor; I'm sort of worried that something may have happened to her! Anyway, I was feeling sort of what the heck? yesterday. I didn't overeat or binge, but I didn't stick to my food plan either. And I convinced myself it would be okay to weigh. I've lost 6 pounds since I began really trying to do this. Of course, instead of being happy about that, I listen to that voice that says "Six pounds?! Good grief, you fat tub! You'll never get anywhere at this rate. You need to be doing a real diet and work your big butt out harder. Yada, yada, yada..."
Then there was the deal with the new car, no one was here (the boards) much to talk to, and my master's class was canceled due to the weather. I was beating myself up that my abstinence hasn't been as squeaky clean as it could be and I had no one to tell or help me. (DH doesn't know that I'm working on OA; probably would think I'm a little more flaky if he knew.) Anyway, to make a long story not quite as long
, I was having myself a big ol' pity party here in the boonies. I wanted to eat, but I just couldn't do it. I'm very grateful to my HP for that and hope it shows some kind of growth (maybe).
I don't know what to do about the whole sponsor thing.
I guess I don't need to email her and let her know I'm moving on since she doesn't respond anymore. I feel like such a loser.
Anyway, I'm going to be posting my food plan here for awhile until I decide what I will do about a sponsor. I hope it doesn't offend anyone if I include my food here. If you'd rather not see it, let me know!
Breakfast: egg beater omelet with turkey kielbasa and sprinkle of cheese, coffee, juice
Lunch: 1/2 can tuna with little mayo on mini bagel, spinach salad with dressing, orange
Dinner: roast chicken, 1/2 c. rice, steamed broccoli
Snack: strawberry smoothie or cucumber slices
Okay, enough of my sad story. I'll be back later with something happy and uplifting.
Hugs to all,
Christy
Daily Thread -- Wednesday, January 28th
Do you think the sleep helped? Sometimes when we're in a mess like that, our body is just telling us to shut down for awhile! I know how hard that can be when you're working and you're a mom and a wife and a friend... but you must put yourself first. You're no good to anyone if you're not well. Physically and especially mentally. Sending you lots of love and hugs and prayers... 
We're so glad you're here with us, too. You're like sunshine. 
I CANNOT cook! My family were delighted, and I've got three more batches frozen for future meals. 
I'm sorry Sunday was tough for you, but you got through it... you are one strong lady. 
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I told her I was afraid because of the nose thumbing I was doing. She told me that was a gift. I haven't felt that way or that rebellious since I have been in program. That was my gentle reminder that those bad feelings and that life can be mine again in a heartbeat. This morning I reflect with love and serenity. I am very blessed to have my sponsors. 
and God is looking out and taking care of you too!!!!!!!!! I have no problems with you posting your daily food plan as long as no one in the group objects or feels pressured by it. But here is the hard part Christy, if your going to count on us we probably need to know any deviations you make as well 
So happy your meatballs turned out lady. Have I told you lately what a sweetheart you are, look at the beautiful loving comments you had this morning. I love you girl! 
Looking at you and recieving your sweet PM make me realize I have the choice everyday to be happy and loving to those around me. 
So, I came back to the computer and logged on to a Scrabble club I belong to. While I was playing, a friend logged on, so I asked if he wanted to play when I was done. As we were playing, I wasn't very chatty and he sent me a snide message about "sorry you feel obligated to play me." Man, it just REALLY rubbed me the wrong way! I almost told him to shut the f*** up and logged off, but I kept it (sort of) cordial and didn't log off. (This particular friend can be so damn needy...he also likes to pull the head games pity card - got that from his mom. I do NOT tolerate head games. If you pull it with me, I'm likely to tell you where you can stick it.)
