Food has become my world.
The only thing I ever think about is food. I wake up, eat fruits and nuts, and by 3 I storm the kitchen, not hungry, just crazed to swallow junk food. Throughout every day I think today will be the first day I won't binge. But it is apparent that it is an inevitable roadblock I face each afternoon. In the time I'm not thinking about staying away from food, or shoving my face, I'm hating my body. I just can't say no to food. I don't think I could handle getting on a scale at this point. I try and exercise, but I can't help the binge, so it's impossible to move very much for the rest of the night. My weight has impacted my life too much since I usually decline social outings because I'm just so uncomfortable with my appearance. I feel that if I was thin, my life would be amazing and I wouldn't have to be shy anymore. However, I'm so embarassed about this that there's no way I could tell anyone. Especially my family since they are all skinny, so they don't have a problem with the loads of junkfood in the house. And I'm good at covering up all my fat, so people haven't noticed too much... I could really use some advice because I don't know how to continue from here.
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