Hey all so im feeling kinda depressed today about my weight loss journey. On May 1st it will be a year since I started this crazy roller coaster. & although i know i've come SO far since then I feel like i should be at my goal, or more closer to it at least. In august i hit 175! I saw this for a week and it was gone..(i never changed my stats) lol From August to Feb 1st i ate so much food and didnt do much exercising and really just didn't give a fck! I don't know why i did this or what happened...i stayed in the 180s for a couple months then in December i saw 190s then finally at the end of Jan i saw 200 and i will NEVER be in the 200s again so I re-started my weight loss Feb. 1st & i lost like 5lbs real fast so my true weight was probably like 195lbs so i re-gained about 20lbs!!..its been three months & im doing really good and im really happy about how my bodys looking & everythings going. I only weigh myself once a month, on the 1st so last time i weighed myself i was 179lbs and we will see on tuesday what i am now!! but even though I've got back on track and re lost the weight i gained and hopefully am lower then 175! I feel like i should atleast be in the 140s..why did i have to give up for six months?? I could've been so much closer..god its BEEN A YEAR and i just feel like a total fool for doing what i did for those months and im scared it could happen again any time, that i just decide for NO reason to give up. I mean nothing happened in August, i just got lazy and didnt care anymore...well anyways thanks for reading yall. I just want to be happy about my one year coming up on Tuesday and not be all sad because im not as far as i thought i would be
ALSO i plan on finally changing my stats on the side FINALLY on the 1st when i weigh myself..that 175 has been there forever! lol