I'm back....
Wow, it's been a long time.
And, to be quite honest, I cannot even bring myself to look at my ticker of my previous stats. Back when I frequented this board every day, and learned so much, and dropped the weight off to at least halfway to my low goal weight.. I was doing so well. And now, I come back, a gut wrenching amount of pounds heavier. The heaviest I have ever been in my life. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought I would be known as the "fat friend". I now at my weight find it hard to do my same hobbies on weekends that involved moving my body in a faster speed such as showing my dogs. I can really truly feel the difference in the quality of my handling performance because I am carrying a lot more weight on my body. I have stretch marks in places I never thought I would have until I had a baby in the future. I am just really upset and mad at myself. I need to change my habits and health not only to change my figure and gain back my self esteem, but for my overall quality of life.
Sigh, sorry for the soap opera. I am just so stinkin' mad at myself. But I am here. I haven't even weighed myself yet. Last I checked several weeks ago I was up to 216. I never thought I would see the 200's. EVER. And here we are.
Ladies, you will be seeing my here often.... and I will meet my goal this time.
Looking forward to the inspiration I am always able to find here. <3
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