I'm about 5 pounds away from my goal weight. I can't believe I made it all the way to 125 from 160. It's even harder to believe that this close to my goal weight, I'm going to have to put it on the back burner. But I have to take care of me. I didn't realize how little I had been eating until I started bruising. I have a bruise across my thigh that is literally larger than my hand, and other large ones all over my body. Nothing caused them-- they just showed up. I went to the doctor to find out why and was referred to a nutritionist after some odd bloodwork. I started logging my food intake more accurately and realized that what I was estimating to be around 1200 calories was actually more around 680 calories a day. A person
CANNOT live on that. In fact, my resting metabolic rate is more than twice that much at 1400 calories a day completely sedentary.
Given my long history with eating disorders, I have to take care of me and make sure that my eating habits are consistent with what I need and my emotional state is at a place where I can give myself that. And that might mean not focusing so much on the numbers for a while until I get it straightened out. I would rather be healthy than skinny and sick. My scale is going away for now, and I am taking the numbers out of my profile/signature.
I'll still be around-- probably going to move on over to maintainers for a while and of course general discussion, because I love this place and the support and sense of community that exists here.
I'd like for people to take this as a bit of a precautionary tale. If you're in doubt about what's going on in your body, please talk to your doctor. Get to know your body and its signals. Be careful with letting numbers take a central role in your life, and please remember that the number on the scale is just a measure of your body weight-- not your self worth.