Depression and Weight Issues - November 2009 Chick Chat - Come Join Us

Morning Ladies

Happy November 1st... I still can't believe its already November. I think I missed most of Octover... The month seemed to just fly by.

Alot seems to have change in the last. But then alot has stayed the same...

School is getting harder and harder... I have more homework and have study alot harder then I did last term. There is so much I have to remember. Tonight I have to spend most of it studying. I have a midterm in Medical Terminology 1. Right now I think I have a C in that class... which I am really not happy about. I have to past every test with an 85 or above to pass with a higher grade.

I went to the see my doctor on Wednesday.. finally. I was out of meds completely. He put me back on Lamictal 400mg and added celexa..
Which seems to be helping.

As I said... I threw my ex out two weeks ago and it feels so good that I finally feel alot better... And my self esteem is improving. I also met someone else.. The down side is that he is in the army and currently in Colorado. He gets out on Friday and goes home which is in Michigan. Which is 4 hours from my daughter. But as I am living in Massachusetts its a little hard. My brother knows him... and we talk alot and I've opened up with him which is weird because I always keep everything to myself. I will see him in about 2 weeks and he is going to be going to college which is only 2 hours from me... So it is a new experience. I am not sure how it will turn out... but even if nothing happens it will be good to have a friend that I can talk to without being afraid.

Other than that things are improving for the good... eventhough I have alot on my plate right now...

I am also doing good on the weight loss and exercise... I have lost 4 lbs which I was shocked by when I looked in the mirror and got on the scale...

Have a good day ladies....

Purefire, glad you are feeling positive and congrats on the 4 lbs! That is great!:cp:

Today was a pretty good day. I saw the Michael Jackson movie this morning with a couple of good friends. I loved MJ dearly as I've said on here before. It was like seeing an old friend. After we went and had some great thai food. I did have to work for about 3 hrs because we are short on coverage and I couldn't get the whole day off. It was slow though so I mainly just sat and talked to a co-worker the whole time. I really needed the time off this weekend.

I had a bout of smothering depression late last night. I've been fearing an onset lately. I'm thinking I need to take some proactive steps to head it off. I'm thinking I definitely need to start working out even if it's a couple of times a week and I'm going to start a gratitude journal again where you have to list 5 things daily you are grateful for. I have such a tendency to focus on the negative in my life more than the positive. The thing is when I hear about other people's lives I wonder what all my whining is about. :o I just need to remember how lucky I am in many ways.

Good night all

vermont-this is from the end of the oct forum since it is closed..but thank you for your love and support in this time. i am trying. my mom came to church this morning and i didnt think she would but she broke down crying and of course i did too...it will be a long week. my uncle is flying in on tuesday. but that you for caring.

good morning purefire, hope4me and momof4 :)

mom, continues :hug: to you and your mom is handling your gram's passing.

Purefire, wishing you good things in the potential new friendship.

hope4me, I would also recommend some exercise to shore up against a potentially bad episode, especially if you feel it coming. I haven't had a bad bout in a long time, which I am VERY thankful for!! I use my light therapy each morning, and work out almost every day, it must be working because I haven't felt really bad in ... well, I don't remember how long, I guess since last winter! so that is good.

Good morning ladies!

Pure - I'm glad you're feeling better, and congrats on the 4lbs

Mom - :hug:

Hope - VT is right, exercise helps. Have you ever seen Legally Blonde? There' a wonderful quote about endorphins making you happy in it :)

Have a great day ladies!

Good morning, chickies - and what would I do without you all!

Hope, I'm so sorry you're feeling blue - and I can relate to the never wanting to go out thing. I'm sure I'm the biggest bah humbug ever - but I can't help it. And if I do know I'm planning to go out, I get anxious for days before hand.

I've also been concerned about a relapse lately. While I'm generally ok, I'm finding myself crying a lot, over nothing. This isn't usual and normally my first sign is not sleeping, which hasn't been a problem. I'm also managing to stick to plan quite well. I just feel a bit like I'm on the edge, you know? It's been two years this month since my last major breakdown, and I'm concerned. If I do crash again, where do I go? I'm already maxed out on my meds, and I can't go back in to that circus of trying to find something that works.

So, I get where you're at - hang in there! Feel free to PM if you ever want to chat! :hug:

Mom - there are no words. I sat with my grandmother the same way, many years ago. With each breath a part of you wants it to be the last, for her sake. And the other part prays she'll hold on for a while longer. I'm a big believer that older folks decide when they're going. When they've had enough, and they feel that we, who are left behind, can cope, they just let go. I am sending lots of mental hugs. You are strong enough to get through this, for you and your mom. :hug:

Vermont - thanks so much for the congrats on my little success. It means a great deal. I've been sticking to plan pretty well and lost 4lbs last week, which feels amazing. I called my DH in Lebanon with the news :o, I've got 154lbs to go so I'm sure I won't call him with every few pounds, but this felt good.

Pure - SO many kudos for sticking with the kicking! :D You did a good thing getting rid of him, and you're obviously feeling better for it. The school stuff will work itself out - I remember my first economics classes at university, just feeling like I'd NEVER get it - and then one day it just pops. And think how much more it will mean when you graduate and you've worked so hard for it! And good luck with the new beau - as an ex-military wife (ex-military, not ex wife) I can assure you, they're not bad and they adapt to change well! ;)

Leenie, hope all is well at work!
Lost - hope all is well with the move.

To everyone else....:hug:
Happy November, chickies!

hi everyone,
sorry for introducing myslef and then disappearing for a bit. i've had a crazy little bit.i've lost a tiny bit of weight which i'm excited about and seem to be sticking to my diet and exercise plan. but i can feel my problems creeping up...i've been super anxious lately; panicky and worried about everything and anything. and way too stressed and nothing seems to releive it. agitated and snapping at the boyfriend. and at the same time completely unmotivated to do anything! (other than a bit of exercise, which is wierd for me, but not school, socializing, anything..)i'm trying to push through it though.

momof4under5- i'm so sorry to hear about your gram. i know how hard losing someone close to you can be and i wish you the best.

happy november everyone!

thank you for the support

Havish- I believe my gram waited for my mom to leave to go so my mom didnt have to see her go. She struggled all night breathing. My mom woke her up and told her she was running some errands and would be back my gram nodded her head. My aunt was sick with a cold so she sat downstairs. My parents had only been gone 5 minutes and my grams dog just start flipping out barking and barking my aunt ran up the steps and gram was gone. So she just waited for my mom to go so my mom didnt have to see her go.
Thats crazy how dogs can sense something like that...really crazy. I never knew that they could and would react like that. Hopefully the dog makes without my gram. ok i need to go..

I'm so sorry! <HUGS>
I've been there too...

Good Morning,

The sky is beautiful blue today. You know it can be very cold or very hot... as long as the sky is blue I'm ok.

Mom sorry to hear about your G'ma :hug: its so sad. Hang in there hon.

Jiggles welcome back... we all have days when we don't post so don't apologize, we understand.

Pure YEAH on the self-esteem.. and 4 lbs to boot, how exciting :D

Hope sounds like your doing the right thing, self positive talk is so important...yeah you. I've heard the MJ movie was wonderful.

Holly (cupcake ;) ) Marbear :wave:

Havisham how are you feeling today :hug:

:welcome: BethC

Nothing new here, which is a good thing. Just been a little run down but thats b/c I haven't had my monthly visit from aunt flo ... its been over 2 months and when that happens I lose all energy. Oh well, I'm sure she'll come a knocking soon lol.

Have a wonderful day ladies :hug:

Leenie

Good Morning chickas,
Today marks 2 goods things:
1. I'm officially down 16lbs :D
2. It's my 2nd anniversary :cool:
I may be back up a lb or two as we're going out to eat tonight, and I can't control sodium. Plus I may have to eat dessert. Haha, not that I'm going to eat a 7,000 calories dessert - but you know.

Mom - I hope you're hanging in there. :hug:

Havish - 4lbs is amazing! I'd call hubby everytime I lost 4lbs ... but I guess that would depend on what type of longdistance plan you had. I made a 8 miinutes phone call home from Prague once that cost $60!! :o

Lennie - I love midol - it's got caffeine in it for a reason ;) I suggest a few of those and a cup of swiss miss diet hot choclate. 25 calories, and the combination is enough to make me happy for days... The sky is blue here too, and it's chilly. Just the way I like it!

Jiggles - post whenver you can, as long as you come back - that's all that matters :)

Pure, Budly, VT Mom, Lost, Hope :wave:

Have a great day ladies. enjoy the sun if it's shining where you are. And if its not, do what I did - print a picture of the sun out and tape it to your office window.

good morning Pure, Buddly, Lost, Mom, Leenie, Havish, Jiggles, marbear :wave:

Hey marbear, big congrats on being down 16!! and - HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! :carrot: and this is so kewl - it is our anniversary too , 'cept this is our (gulp) 30th :cool: I hope you find a delicious dessert to savor tonight :)

the weather in NJ (where I was born and grew up) was very mild this time of year, and there was still color in the trees, so it was still pretty. I had a bouquet of yellow mums, and my mil made my gown, it was very simple but pretty.

I hope everyone has a great day :)

Good morning, all you wonderful chickies....which makes me realise, if anyone called me a chick anywhere else, I'd be offended....but here, I wear it with pride! :D

The weather here is gorgeous, too - sunny and cold - my favourite. I love this until the snow flies, and then I suddenly feel very English, and can't fathom how I survive this every year.

So, the big 4-0 looms in the very near future...but I'm hanging in. I asked my family back home (the UK) not to call...not sure why. I'm possibly going to Quebec to the casino with my son (he's 18 so he's able to go in to the casino in Quebec)...but then that monster nudges me and says "come on, do you really wanna drive all that way and you won't enjoy it" - you know the voice. Anyway, we'll see.

Marbear - congrats on the 16lbs and the anniversary! My 4lbs seems like a tease as it's all over the place now...but this is a journey, not a destination, so I'm sticking with it. And yes, the LD plan is vital....sadly Lebanon is not on any LD plan I've found - I guess no-one wants to call there! ;)

Vermont - if that is you in the pic, how on earth have you been married for 30 years???? You'd have had to be an infant bride!!! My 20th is next year...time flies, eh??

Mom - Hope you're hanging in. The funeral will suck, as they all do - mainly for the effect it'll have on your mom, since you seem to be very well adjusted. Watching ones parents in pain is the worst. My mom's mom died in the July and her dad died that same December...at his funeral she couldn't stand, she just sat and sobbed. She said it all just rolled in to one and she couldn't cope. That's when you just hold her hand and be there. It helps more than you can know. Hang in and know we're thinking of you. :hug:

Leenie - thanks for the check in - not too bad so far. How's things at work? When aunt flo goes missing, it's so draining...you have my :hug:

Lost, Jiggles, Hope - Hang in and keep posting when you can. :hug:

Happy Tuesday, all!

VT - Happy anniversary to you as well :D I wouldn't gulp before saying 30 years, being married 30 years is something to seriously be proud of. Congrats!

Marbear & Vermontmom: :yay::yay: Happy Anniversary!! :yay::yay:

Vermontmom, I thought just what Havisham said, did you get engaged straight out of the womb? :lol3:

Marbear and Vermont Happy Anniversary!!

Marbear, Havisham and Pure congrats on the weight loss!!!

Mom:hug:so sorry about your Gram. I've heard that it is very common for people to wait until they are alone to pass on.

Hope hang in there :hug: I've been feeling myself sinking, but I'm trying to fight it.

Hi Leenie, Beth, jiggles, Raven, Sassy, Liz, Cathy, homebound, and everyone else :hug:

Sunny and cold here as well. It was raining last night and then froze, so my van was a little frozen this morning. Thankfully the roads weren't bad. I still haven't gotten back into that exercise thing. DdB started an early morning babysitting job so we are establishing a new routine here, always hard. At least this week is a lot quieter than last, I felt like I was living in my van with all the running around I had to do.

Take care everyone and have a great day,
K

aw, thank you everyone! I was VERY young, I was 18 when we married, DH was 21. Yes I'm sure my family was groaning and weeping for the inevitable tragedy :devil: but we showed them :cool:

Havisham, how soon is your b-day?

Hello everyone. Wow, it's November already, October seemed to fly by for me. I am pretty stressed out lately. Seems to be a combination of job burnout, issues with my grown son and his gf, my bf being quite depressed for several weeks and my step dad is in poor health right now.

I am waiting to see a new tdoc. My old one has to take an extended medical leave to have her hip replaced. I feel like I can handle most everything going on but I find myself getting snippy with people. I am pretty sure I am having anxiety symptoms. I don't see my pdoc for a few weeks and I am just trying my best to relax, take it easy and do things I enjoy. So far, so good.

I am off work tomorrow and I plan to take a walk with my bf, maybe at a local park and take some pictures. I also need to stock up on produce and protein. It's odd, I used to dread grocery shopping but these past few months I enjoy doing it.

I hope you all have a good night and a good Wednesday. :grouphug:

just touching in real quick..tomorrow is the viewing....I dont know how I am going to do..I am afraid that I have not yet grieved for my gram yet and seeing her might i dont know push me over the edge...i have been so concerned for my mom. I am at peace with my gram passing but still doesnt mean I wont miss her
Then I have one of my youths mother driving me crazy because on sunday when we were leaving for a revival service a car flew past the church van and ended up hitting a car full of girls that turned infront of him on a blind hill. The one girl was killed so the mother is kinda lecturing me why i didnt show sorrow and advise the kids to go to grief counseling and all kinds of stuff...when I do feel for the families and I have gotten address for the youth to write the girls and the family of the girl that passed...i have sent text out to my youth. The kids were not allowed to go over to the accident while my husband and youth parent went over to help. But grief counseling is not really what they need because they are not grieving over a death of someone they knew...they are all getting a wake up call that these girls were doing nothing other than getting groceries to go home and make supper. They didnt know they werent going to make it home. I really think some of these teens needed to realize how precious their life is. Yes they might need counseling to talk about it and sort their thoughts out. I dont know I was very aggrivated because I was being judged on what i did or didnt do without the parent even asking me what i have done to help the kids...for crying out loud i bend over backwards for these kids...I am feeling guilty for going and staying at my grams funeral tomorrow night and not being at youth with the teens.....I guess to some people nothing is enough for them. ugh...sorry its really bothering me....theres more than just that she going on about but thats the jist of it...
oh yeah not to mention for some reason I am almost 230 again...and I havent really changed my eating paterns that would cause it to go down so I guess its time to do something because if not I have to go buy more pants..and I cant afford that with christmas...ugh....talk about depressing...just a downward spiral with weight...im gaining weight so lets eat more junk because i feel bad...UGHHHH...
ok well im going to bed..sorry cant do personals just cant get to it...thanks for the comments, support, and prayer!

Oh, momof4, you have so much going on now poor girl! :hug: I don't think you have anything to feel guilty for, you do so much for the youth group and it's stinky of that woman to criticize you when you do so much, AND when you're already dealing with a family death. You just hang in there and know we're all around you, especially at the viewing :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: <---all of us hugging momof4!

thanks vmom...we will see how tonight goes..that parent wants me to call her but she is going to just have to wait for now!! I need to go do school since i have th funeral tomorrow wont get much done!!

A plus- I did go on live strong my daily plate and update it and figure out how many calories I need to lose weight. I wrote out how many calories then accordingly for each meal so I know what I need to stay in. It worked before and I can NOT hit 230 I refuse to...so I guess its time to change something...bad part is I am motivated and in the mood to excercise but i MUST do the boys school...*sigh*

Happy Wednesday, Chickies,

SO disappointed today as my weight is going UP. I'm going to have to kick myself in to gear, here!

Mom - there just are no words, but you have to give yourself a break. You do an awesome job with your kids and with the youth group, but you can't please all the people all the time. At the risk of being a b***h, the only response to this other mom is "bite me". She wasn't there, she didn't have to deal with it, and it sounds like you have your head screwed on right. The kids aren't grieving a loss, they're dealing with a shock. And you're right, this is life - it's not always pretty and it's not always nice, but it's what it is. What you did show them was strength and compassion, which is exactly what you should have shown. You weeping and wailing (which sounds like what this other woman would have done) wasn't going to help them.

Take a breath - if the boys school doesn't get done for a day or so, that's not the end of the world. If they went to regular school, you'd probably have pulled them out for a couple of days while you went through this - I know most parents do, so if they miss a bit it's easy to catch up. You need to do something just for you - if you give all you have away, what's left? :hug:

Vermont - my b'day is Nov 19th. The big 4-0. I had planned to go to Quebec with my oldest son, but I realised I was just stressing about it and it would end up being more of a pain than anything else. Not to mention that it's a $1000 weekend, when that $1000 could buy new snow tires or something. If DH was home, we'd go, but for just me it's not worth it. So, I'll probably just hang out. No-one ever remembers to do anything for my birthday - I'm the one who sets up other's b'day's so when it's mine no-one thinks about it. Still - it's just another day, right? :) Oh - and I can relate to your marriage story - I got married at 20 after less than four months of knowing my DH - and we're still married almost 20 years on. It's not always easy, but we're still hanging in there! :D

Hydra - Sounds like we have some stuff in common - the older kids and their woes, job burnout...I think two weeks in Hawaii sounds like heaven right now - who's in??? :) I've also felt more snippy and anxious lately - as I mentioned earlier, I'm hoping it's not a relapse. hang in there!

Buddly - thanks for the congrats - although right now I'm wondering what I'm doing wrong! :)

Getting colder here - dustings of snow on the cars last night. I'm tired of everyone asking why I'm still in a t-shirt and aren't I cold. I'm FAT, people - I have layers of warmth to carry around with me. Not to mention, I get in my car in the garage, turn on the heated seats, drive for 50 minutes in the warm (and I can't bear driving with a coat on) and then walk from the car to the office - it's not like I'm traversing the arctic in shorts and a tank top!!

I have my nice, healthy (and delicious) pasta with me, but someone in the office just ordered in Chinese. It smells SO good. Oh, the sacrifices!! ;)

Jiggles, Beth, Leenie, Pure - big hugs and waves!

Hello Ladies....

Its been a frustrating week already with a midterm on Monday in Medical Terminology which I got a 92 on.... a quiz on Tuesday in Anatomy and Physiology which I am not sure if I passed or not. A quiz this morning in Medical Terminology which I know I passed... Tomorrow I have a quiz again in Anatomy and Physiology... but I swear... I don't get that class at all.. I studied and studied... so I don't know.. Luckily it is the last day of classes for this week...

Going to get some sleep...

Have a good night ladies..

Momof4 :hug::hug: many prayers coming your way.

Pure, glad this week is over for you, sounds like it way too hectic. Good job on the grades.

Havisham, I know what you mean. I'm always hot. Sometimes I shower twice a day if I'm active b/c I feel dirty or sweaty and I can't stand that. The slightest thing gets me out of breath and overheated.

Hydra, sounds like you have a lot on your plate too. That's a lot of stress to deal with. I hope it lets up soon.

I'm off tomorrow but have a lot of studying to do. Hope you all have a good Thursday.

Good morning ladies, thinking of momof4 :hug: and of course everyone else :) Purefire, congrats on that 92!

I helped a friend pack and move yesterday (well, got her started) for 6 hours, my biceps are sore! and she lives in an upstairs apartment, so lots of up and down. And something very funny happened -

Girlfriend had checked with the store owner next door and got permission for us to look in his cardboard dumpster for boxes. We lifted the cover from one side, and got some good boxes, then saw others on the bottom, on the other side. GF gave me a boost up, and I rested my waist on the top of the dumpster and bent down and was able to reach the boxes, but 2 quarters from my jacket pocket fell out.

Now, come on...why did I think it was worth it to get those quarters?? But I did. I got boosted up again, and two GF's held me by my ankles and I reached way down to the bottom and got the quarters :rofl: :rofl: I was able to pull myself back up by using abs (Now I know why I work out! :D) and it was pretty funny.

I hope everyone has a good day :)

Hehehe.
VTMom - your dumpster story made my morning :D

Hope & Pure - I hope you both do well on the tests you have taken/have left to take. Pure - congrats on the 92.

havisham - I'm always hot, and I've always sweat alot. I was the same when I was under 150 as I am at 210. I have one friends who's always cold who bigger than I am. I say this because I dislike the "I'm fat" answer. You should tell them tha fabulous people are always warm isntead :D

Mom- :hug: You and your family are in my thoughts...

Leeni, Bud, Lost, Hydra, and anyone else I forgot because I smell - :wave:

Have a great day ladies.

I'm a little nervous posting here since I have a few folks from real-life who now come to 3FC too ... but they probably already know that I have issues so ...

Let's start with, I take 10 mg paxil for social anxiety and periodic depression. Like many of you, I original went to the doc to get something to relax me, stop the panic, help me sleep. He wouldn't do it. Told me it caused depression-like moods. He wouldn't even consider xanax to help me stop smoking.

We perservered and now I do very well on my paxil.

The only bad situation I still have is the dentist. Doc does allow me to take ativan (lorazepam) before I go. Since I had a few, I took some the night before my appt, some before the appt itself (Wednesday) and ... since I had leftover ... one last night.

I'm irritable, I'm weary, I can't get started doing anything around here. I hurried to the post office and straight back feeling anxious to be back home. I'm uneasy ... nothing is wrong, I just feel uneasy.

It's like I've never been on the paxil. This is how I used to feel.

And!!! I'm retaining fluid ... badly! My face and hands feel huge. My eyelids are actually fluidy looking. I did a little research and fluid retention is a very common side-effect.

I must remember to discuss this with Doc the next time I go. I never thought I'd have to worry about drug interactions if I only took two ;)

So why am I posting? Many times in my life, I've come to realise that if I'm struggling with something ... I'm never the only one.

Vermont - thank you, your story made me smile and I needed that today!

Marbear - I agree on the "I'm fat" thing, and I like your answer. I've always been a warm person and I'm like Hope in that I am obsessive about being clean. I shower every morning and bath most nights just because I feel so concious of the heat. I always have this secret fear of being the fat smelly girl. :o

Pure - I can so remember those days. When I was doing finals at uni, a girlfriend introduced me to a product called "Rescue Remedy", it's a Bach's Flowers product. All natural herbal blend. You either drop a couple of drops under your tongue, or in to a glass of water and it relaxes you. It helped me enormously, took the edge off, helped me focus and had no negative effects. The only warning I'd have is, if you're planning on having a glass of wine after an exam, do so at home. Nothing major, but you'll just feel extremely happy. Not drunk or high or anything, just very happy. I noticed it driving home - one glass of wine after an exam and I was sat in traffic smiling to myself and singing. Again, not drunk or anything - just very happy. ;)

Mom - I hope the funeral wasn't too horrible. Have a hug. :hug:

Leenie, Buddly, Lost, Hydra - Hope all is well and you're quiet becuase you're out living your life! :)

Very down the last few days and I'm not sure why. I'm sticking to plan but still gaining weight. I blame IBS so I'm sticking with it - one day I'll have dropped like 10lbs over night. :p

Really worried that I'm starting a slide - I so don't want another breakdown. My meds combo is good and it took me years to find it, and I can't face going through all that again. I'm hoping it's just that it's my b'day and DH isn't here and there are no plans to do anything....I'm probably just feeling majorly sorry for myself. Got home last night and yelled at my oldest DS - so tired of teenage BS, you know? It's when you ask for a simple thing to be done - sweep the kitchen, vaccuum the rug, whatever, and it's all just too much work. So I get in at 6pm, have to make dinner, then do all the jobs he's either not done at all, claimed to have done but I'm not sure, or done but done badly. And he's been home in front of his computer since 3pm. This is one of those times when I'm weary of being alone. So I had a good cry and phoned and woke up DH to cry to him...then I ate a tub of frozen yoghurt. At least it's fat free and high in fibre.

Sorry - needed a little pity party for a minute there - no hard feelings if you all changed post mid-way through. :D

thanks for listening!

I'm a little nervous posting here since I have a few folks from real-life who now come to 3FC too ... but they probably already know that I have issues so ...

Let's start with, I take 10 mg paxil for social anxiety and periodic depression. Like many of you, I original went to the doc to get something to relax me, stop the panic, help me sleep. He wouldn't do it. Told me it caused depression-like moods. He wouldn't even consider xanax to help me stop smoking.

We perservered and now I do very well on my paxil.

The only bad situation I still have is the dentist. Doc does allow me to take ativan (lorazepam) before I go. Since I had a few, I took some the night before my appt, some before the appt itself (Wednesday) and ... since I had leftover ... one last night.

I'm irritable, I'm weary, I can't get started doing anything around here. I hurried to the post office and straight back feeling anxious to be back home. I'm uneasy ... nothing is wrong, I just feel uneasy.

It's like I've never been on the paxil. This is how I used to feel.

And!!! I'm retaining fluid ... badly! My face and hands feel huge. My eyelids are actually fluidy looking. I did a little research and fluid retention is a very common side-effect.

I must remember to discuss this with Doc the next time I go. I never thought I'd have to worry about drug interactions if I only took two ;)

So why am I posting? Many times in my life, I've come to realise that if I'm struggling with something ... I'm never the only one.

Hi, Susan,

First, anyone IRL who posts here is already a great person - and let's face it, we're all having some issues. ;) You are definitely not the only one.

I was on Paxil for a few years and found it a life saver. However, I found that when I got down to 10mg and below it was like I was on nothing. The anxiety and panic attacks were crippling.

To my knowledge, there aren't any drug interactions between Ativan and Paxil. Maybe it's just where you took a few in a relatively short space of time (and I can totally relate on the dentist - I need at least 2mg to get in to my dentists chair!), and now you don't have it in your system. Little bit of a come down maybe?

That non-specific uneasiness is awful, isn't it? My family always ask what I'm anxious about - and I don't know. It's nothing, and everything. For me (when possible) that's time to snuggle up in pj's and hibernate for a while. :)

Hang in there - a friend of mine at work always says, 'this, too, shall pass' - and you know what, it will. :hug:

:hug: to all that need them and who are struggling. For those who feel they are slipping, more :hug:.

I've had a very blah day. I was off today and did absolutely nothing. After I got up I hit the couch and didn't move. I took a couple of naps on said couch but that was all. I feel like I'm in a fog today. I really needed to study but I'm barely alert enough to feel guilty that I didn't. TOM is here and that's what I'm blaming it on. I usually have one day where I'm just exhausted but dang. I feel like today has been a dream, and a lazy one at that. :dz:

Catch y'all tomorrow.

hi girls...working on boys school...had a break down yesterday before funeral...explain all later

Mom - :hug:

:hug: Momof4, how are you doing?

Just a quick hello, I've gotta go into work and close. I missed my test this a.m. I've been in a fog the last few days. I just couldn't concentrate to study. I couldn't even make myself pick up my notes to study and can't afford to bomb a test. I'll have to make it up. I'll check in with you chicks later. Have a great Saturday everybody.

Good Morning,

What a busy day. DD and I are heading to bed so I'll catch you all tomorrow, I mean later on today lol.

Hope & Mom :hug:

Luv yah !!

good morning everyone :)

momof4, :hug: and let us know, when you can, how you are.

hope4me, best wishes to your head clearing so you can study :)

:wave: to everyone else!

it is sunny and 48 degrees here, which is warm! I work 11 to 6 today, so I will enjoy my m'cycle ride to work, and just be careful in the dark on the way home (small critters and big ones, like deer)

hope everyone has a good day. Remember to do the things that we know help us 'get through'.

Good Morning,

Holly have fun and yep watch out for those deer, my BIL hit one not long ago.. the deer was fine but he was all banged up and his bike totaled.

Its warmer here today as well.... Time to take down halloween stuff and put up christmas lights... I hate doing it when its 30 degrees out and my fingers get numb lol.

Got some salmon for dinner .... the world is good :D

Have a great Sunday everyone.

Leenie

Cant be long cause my 3 year old is sitting on the couch pouting because she wants to sleep with papa and she is just being stubborn so I am going to have to take her upstairs.

The day of my grams funeral my sil who was to watch the kids kinda stood me up. She said I didnt say for sure and her and her fiance fought and she left and didnt take her cell...so i was left 20 mins before i had to leave to find a place for my four little ones. I was very angry but I have calmed down because I know it was a misunderstanding. But at the time I broke down crying just couldnt do it. Then at the funeral I cried the whole way thru the service because I held it all in until then. Most girls are daddies girls but my dad was always the authoritarian. his way or the highway. He would do anything for me now and still gets me stuff and takes me places, watches my kids, takes my kids places, gives me money...everything and i love him to death but when I am upset its like I cant be with him...i have been trying to figure it out but I think from writing this I did. When I was growing up I always held my emotions in when he would scream at me or swear at me or not let me go anywhere (they were afraid of my biological mom kidnapping me since she made threats too...I suffered for it) I would cry pretty much every night but even if they hurt my feelings by making fun of the way I sang or my butt (he would call me bertha butt sister) or make fun of other things about me I would just laugh and shake it off but it killed me inside... I wouldnt cry until I went to my bed or room...I didnt like letting him see me cry. I didnt get emotions back until I got with my husband (shortly before when i started to heal emotionally) My dad would always be like knock it off i was just kidding with you and make it like it was no big deal...but I think that might be why i cant cry on his shoulder or run to him when I am upset...he tries to be there and makes sure I am ok but when it comes down to it...its like a wall flies up so fast I dont know what happens.. But my mom i just could go to her and cry and be open with her...ok so anyways blah blah blah
just been getting thru this week hoping to have a little bit of a more normal week. i need to do lesson plans but my stinker is probably not going to give me a chance.

OK SO WHY IS IT....i only got 4 hours of sleep last night but I jumped up when the boys woke me up put the music on bumped it up loud, got everyone breakfast, got the kids dressed, showered, and got out the door without much of any problems (except a missing 3 yr olds shoe..LOL) But when I get 7-8 hours of sleep I am so tired I cant even get out of bed and then when i drag myself out I feel like absolute crap and the day is going with out me....not me running my day the day is forcing me to exist??? WHAT THE HECK IS THAT???

Ok gotta get this girl in bed she is overly tired and I will pay tomorrow since we got home late and its past her bedtime!!
thanks for listening..i will try to catch up on post tomorrow when its kinda normal again!!

Good Morning Ladies.. :wave:

Mom ~ :hug:

Havisham ~ thanks for the remedy tip. I will look into it when I get home from school.

unfortuately I don't have alot of time to post... I just remembered I have to go feed my dad's cat. My dad, stepmother and son are all in Florida for the week.

So hope everyone has a decent monday and I will post more later..

:hug::hug:

good morning ladies :)

momof4 - :hug: and I don't know why it is that when you get hardly any sleep you're Superwoman :) but more sleep makes you tired..I hope you get everything you need done, and then have some time for yourself.

Hello to everyone else!!

I hopeyou all are having the beautiful weather that we have had for 2 or 3 days, I rode to work yesteday, and will do same today :bike: and sorry to hear of your BIL's crash with the deer, Leenie, yes that is my number one concern (well, that and MOOSE)

Good morning, Chickies,
Very mild here in Sunny Ontario, which is nice. I like being able to have the windows open.

Mom - I think we're all like that - I can function on 3 or 4 hours of sleep, but die if I only get 7. I think it's to do with how deeply we sleep - like we know we only have a limited time so we don't get as deeply asleep - or something like that. And I'm sorry the funeral was so tough, although I'm glad that you had a good cry - it's so cathartic.

Vermont, Leenie, Buddly, Hope, Lost and everyone I've omitted to mention because I'm crap - have a fabulous day!!

Found a couple of delicious things out - one: Perrier has less sodium than regular bottled water (it's like a quarter of regular water) :carrot: This is great for me, as I don't really care for plain water, and Perrier with Lemon juice is awesome (and excellent for your digestive system).

Two - made this dish the other night that I thought I'd share. I don't often really enjoy my own cooking, but everyone else loves it. But this I loved, don't know if it will work on anyone's diet plan, but I thought I'd share:
Cut up chicken thighs in to bite sizes (you could use breast but the thighs are more tender)
Cut up peppers, onions and zucchini, and cook all through in olive oil and garlic, with herbs of your choice (I did basil, oregano, thyme and bay leaves) and with the chicken.
Add plain tomato sauce (not ketchup - just like spaghetti sauce but I used just plain tomato)
Simmer through for a while.
Serve over pasta - I actually did a lot of sauce and cooked the pasta through in the sauce - makes a one dish meal and makes the whole thing so delicious, without any fat at all. By cooking the pasta in the sauce, it makes it feel almost creamy - without any of the downs of cream.
Anyway, just wanted to share.

Still a bit down, but I'm hoping it's just the birthday blues and it will pass.

Hope all are well!!

good morning everyone :) Havisham, that recipe sounds great! thanks for sharing :) and isn't this mild weather fantastic? So very unusual for us 'up here'.

have ridden motorcycle to work 2 days in a row, and hope to do again today :bike:

DH hasn't bagged a job yet, but I'm okay with that, we're getting by fine on UI and of course my working fulltime. However he is getting antsy and wants to jump on in on some things that I don't agree with. I can see how this situation would make for some tension in relationships.

Have been using my Happy Light religiously each morning. I don't have proof positive that it works but anything that is supposed to help, I will do. Especially in these dreary-for-me months!
:hug: to everyone

Hi ladies - I'm going crazy! So much to do! I wanted to check in to let you know I'm reading the posts despite not posting ...:hug: to all who need it!

Can't stay and play. We had our first round of layoff's yesterday, yadda yadda yadda. Its quite sad here, but we shall over come. So far I'm ok.

Will talk later... :hug:

Hi everybody,

I'm off and just now getting motivated to do something. I'm getting ready to wash the pooches. See you later...

Leenie, :carrot: so glad the lay-offs missed you! I pray they continue to do so.

When it rains it pours...I managed to have a carb overload last night actually made me sick...was stressing over foster daughter knowing we have done all we can do and it was time to say ok but not wanting to...this morning when I found a foul foul note about her wishing to kill me and she will still walk with and F*** her boyfriend..she skipped school with him yesterday and never came home I had to go find her...she said as she went up the steps past my 6 year old she was going to hang herself and she wanted him to know she loves him...like enough is enough...not to be selfish but my kids come first and kids come into the system this way but shes been with us for almost 3 years and last week she stopped doing anything in school and has all Fs constantly late getting home cause the boy walks her home...dont care what we say....not much we could do so the county has given her chance after chance and right before school started she was told they were sending her to group home well I called and saved her from going but I wasnt going to save her this time because she didnt want the help and didnt repsect us.. So i cried today especially when she was saying by to the kids...she wouldnt even look at me or anything...It was the easiest descision I made but the hardest to follow thru with...still crying off and on...my heart is breaking even though I know that it is best for her and for me...she only has a year and a few months until she is 18 hopefully hopefully this will help her in some way...

sorry I am so down and hurting I am trying to get on track but with the funeral last week and then them removing her this week I cant even see the tracks....

Wow Momof4 :hug:, didn't know it had come to this. I can't imagine how hard that was for you. You are right though, you have to think about your kids and what is best for your family. It sounds like you did all you could. I'm so sorry. :hug: Things will turn around.

Havisham, did we miss your birthday? Or is it still coming? I know 40 is coming, right? I've got 1 1/2 years to go and it is stressing me too a little.

Marbear and Vermont :wave: Buddly, Heather- would love to see you...

I got the dogs washed and all of their bedding and such. I vacuumed and did some other things. It's funny how you still dont feel good about what you did unless the whole house is clean, at least I don't. I worked so hard and still there are plenty of spots I wouldn't let anybody see. I really need to get this house in order because it's just weighing on me heavily for some reason. I also want to decorate for Xmas soon while I'm in the mood. I didn't do anything last year and I don't want to do that again. Better get in bed.

momof4, that is so sad :( but it sounds like you have tried your best and all you could do was let her go :hug:

I have bookmarked in my head that Havisham's bday is the 19th :) so we will be sure to give her lots of balloons and flowers and hugs and virtual birthday cake that morning :)

hope4me, know what you mean about the housecleaning - I do one thing, and it makes everything else look worse :rofl:

Hi :wave: to everyone else :)

We did try anything. I called the county caseworker last night and she said when kaci is ready she will contact us..she said she knew we werent keeping Kaci for the money that we loved her...I know Kaci well enough to know she will miss it here because we were her family for three years. In her journals from the last group home it was only like 10 days after she was taken that she started journals and she was missing us and wished she had listened to us. She forgets how bad things are in those places and does whatever she wants but she wouldnt even look at me or say goodbye i didnt expect her too but it still kills me...so we will see how long before she contacts us. I cant write her all the time like last time she was in group home because I have 30 other teens in my yotuh group I have to take care of and boys to home school and kids to take care of...but I can write her occasionally...speaking of things to do I got a plate full today and all the kids and me sleep in today which is very very unusually. I got rooms to move around to move furniture to other rooms curtains to hang bathrooms to clean, school to do (missed yesterdays) dishes to do (missed yesterdays..lol) Ughh so much ok I need to go thanks girls... I know this too shall pass!!

Hope and Vermont - how amazingly lovely that you remembered I have a birthday coming up!!! Vermont - I'm not sure my family would remember the date, so I'm totally flabbergasted. Colour me humbled, ladies! :hug:

Hope - I can definitely relate to the cleaning. If I don't do all of it at once, it feels almost like the bits I haven't cleaned are oooozzzing in to the clean bits. :D

Mom - I'm so sorry that all this is happening to you - there's a special place in Heaven with your name on it. And I suspect all your kids will be there eventually and they'll be waiting on you hand and foot!

Leenie - SO glad you escaped the first round of cuts. I'm keeping everything crossed for you. Keep me posted - if it does come to anything bad, I'm in the same field and I can see if I have any leads.

Anyone heard from Lost since the move? She's been quiet a while.

So, to anyone I've missed...:hug:

Thanks, all for keeping me motivated.

:yawn: Long day, check in tomorrow.

havish-thank you..you made me smile and i needed that

So I didnt want to go to youth tonight because just getting a teen removed then being around a bunch of teens..just didnt think I would make it but since I missed last wed for my grams viewing and my husband had all the teens by himself last week he wanted me to go. So I went got there right at starting time but of course a kid was at the door waiting for kaci and was like where is kaci..I just kept walking...then the girls flocked to me to tell me about their week they all fight for my attention...one broke up with her boyfriend..another one is giving me ideas for drama...another one is telling me about a girl that moved...at the end when some were singing its like these girls dont get attention at home..its sad they hang on me and just want that love and acceptance.. I had one on each side of me with my arm around them and another one came up behind me she was crying (has a rough home life)....i wonder how much they feel loved at home....Sometimes some of those girls I think try to think of something to tell me just so they can come talk to me to have my attention for that 1 minute...its almost like my kids at home...just they are older...they just want someones attention...breaks my heart to know there are girls that dont get that love and attention without having to earn it or work for it.... So for right now I guess to fill my time (as if I have extra..LOL) I am going to try and write each of them as I feel lead! Someone needs to encourage them and push them and tell them they can be somebody...it dont matter what their past is or what they have been told...They are not bound by that...whatever they put their minds to with Gods strength and endurance they can do it and more...

ok well guess ill jump off the soap box...i did end up crying because my husband was mean after I made myself go he just expected me to put on that happy face and be ok...but Im not like that..I dont wear my emotions on my face but this is almost like grieving because shes not going to be in our life for a long time if at all...she is gone...hes like well your all gloomy...i really wasnt i just wasnt all jumping and smiling and happy...MY HEART IS BREAKING for crying out loud....He did apologize but still it made me cry instead of holding myself together....ugh...men

well i did ok eating today but I am sure all I did burnt some calories...I moved her bed out of her room and put the girls toddler beds in there (had to tear the one apart and put back together) moved dressers around cleaned it aired it out, swept it including dust bunnies, hung clothes, put clothes in dresser, set up the spare room with the bed a night stand and dresser (maddies old room) then I cleaned my bathroom which was WELL over due...cloroxed it scrubbed baseboards, floors on hands and knees, shower even with tooth brush, walls, then finished up some dishes and got ready for youth....long day everyone is sleeping gonna probably go read cause I got 4 different books i have been waiting for ALL last week and of course havent had time to read them...so sorry its so long night!

hello everyone, momof4 I wish your DH would have understood, that was one time you just could not put on the happy face just for appearances :hug:

I am fighting, fighting a major depressive state, it just comes on so unexpectedly; i spent most of yesterday, my first day off, in bed. I was ashamed of myself but not so ashamed that i didn't do it. Today, I got up on time, but went back to bed but then forced myself up at 10:30 and worked out; then have been so-so. At least I showered, put makeup on and went to town and got my snow tires put on. A small accomplishment but it helps.

Back to work tomorrow and that's good because I have no choice in the matter, I have to go.

Hope everyone else is doing okay.

Good afternoon, chickies,

Mom - you have to remember that, as Hermione says in Harry Potter, most men have the emotional range of a teaspoon. Smile thinly at him and remember that you are woman, therefore superior in every way - and he is merely a man, and deserves our sympathy and compassion. I mean, come on, it's been scientifically proven that they can't even do more than one thing at a time - we have to feel bad for them! :D

Vermont - I'm so sorry you're down. I can relate - well, I'm sure we all can. I could say motivational stuff like, 'do some cleaning, cook a lovely meal, read a book' but you'd just be thinking, "oh, sanctimonious bi**h, like it's that easy". Realistically you just wanna curl up in bed with some chocolate and be left alone...it's human nature - it's practically why God gave us chocolate. Since you ROCK 360+ days a year, why feel bad if you spend a day in bed??? Lay around and enjoy it till you can't bear your own smell any longer. Then have a good long bath - put on some happy music and turn it up LOUD. I've discovered it's physically impossible to be depressed if one is singing at the top of ones voice. It's also invaluable in the car - when doing the commute - SING - and I like to add in the head motions and the arms - who cares if the guy in front of you thinks you're certifiable - he's a guy - see my note to mom! You are woman, hear you roar - Tomorrow. :hug:

Marbear, Leenie, Hope - hang in. :hug:

I feel like I've had this week of constant meetings, one after another - and not actually accomplishing anything....in fact,as I write this I'm on a telecon...I'm SO bad! :carrot: Sometimes you have to have these little rebellions - it's like wearing a business suit with a sexy red thong underneath! I'm so easily pleased! :D

Thanks for being there and keeping me motivated, ladies!

Since you ROCK 360+ days a year, why feel bad if you spend a day in bed??? Lay around and enjoy it till you can't bear your own smell any longer.

:rofl: that was great!! and a good point about being pretty good most of the time. I have never missed work because of an episode; my worst days have been when I have off. why is that, do I pick and choose when I 'can' withdraw? who the heck knows. I just know I feel better today.

Husband had an interview yesterday, and another one today.

Hello to everyone :wave: and :hug:

I am having alot of trouble getting to this site and posting successfullly, anyone else?

Yes! Major trouble logging on here! It's been killing me. Wanted to let you all know that I've been trying faithfully though. :) Looks like by the activity in here others have had some trouble too. Gotta be at work at 6am. :p I hope I can check in later. Have a great weekend girls.

yeah I have to keep retrying it to get in.....
still here!!

Ahhhhhh finally we can post :wave: Glad to see everyone is here.

Mom :hug:

Hi chicks, just glad I could get in here! It's good to be back.

What's on everyone's agenda for Sunday??

good morning, hey a quick connection! :carrot: Sunday's a regular work day for me, that's okay. Pretty wet and dreary, I couldnt do anything outside anyway.

my brief 'very down' episode is already over, yay :) Hope everyone is doing well :hug:

Hello Chickies!!!

Gasp! I know! I am here! :) I am just catching up with even a little of the posts! Wow, you guys have been busy! Mom....awww...so sorry hon...big hugs to you!

I only have a minute, I have to run out and do some errands. I just wanted to give you a brief rundown. DH had a clean MRI done on Oct 30! (Happy Dance!) I have a new doggie client that I am LOVING! He is Duke, an american bulldog, and I love love love him! DD just had her 18th bday! I have decided to try Progesterone cream for my hormonal problems...bought a book on a drs. advice and it has only been a couple of days but I already feel better. (not sure if that is in my head though?) I had some bad times food wise, stress possibly, had went back on sugar for a bit, my symptoms got really bad, now I am back to being cut down, I haven't even been drinking coffee the past couple of days... Back to exercising full strength again, going to power pump weight training class twice a week, and DH is meeting with a personal trainer tomorrow...I am tagging along... :) I am so proud of him!

I am sorry I don't have more time for personals...Hello to all the new faces (new to me anyway!) and all of you that could use a hug, you have it!

Raven! Yay! So good to see you. I've wondered how the hubby was doing. So happy for you both. Sugar is evil, that's why it tastes so good. It's true though, the more bad stuff you eat the more you want. Take today for example, one thing just kept leading to another...

Vermont, I'm glad your down time was short. We finally had a sunny day here in VA, the first in about 5 days.

Buddly, you doing ok?

I really need to change my life, I mean my weight, but why can't I even get started, maybe even half-heartedly do anything? I see the success stories on here and I know how much things can change for the better yet I just don't do anything. Why?

Well, I'm going to clip my coupons from the Sunday paper and finish watching the Colts game. I actually have no choice since that is df's team. ;)

well tom came today....I was feeling crappy this morning and just off but after church I went to the grocery store. When I was leaving the parking lot there was this lady with a cart full of groceries and she had pushed the cart thru the grass to the street and was trying to go up a HUGE hill but the cart kept going the wrong way and she was having a heck of a time. At first I kinda chuckled because it was a site to behold the cart was doing its own thing then I was like i need to see if she wants a ride for real that has got to suck. So i went over and she looked at the cart and then was like yeah I guess i can. so we loaded her groceries and I am telling you it wasnt a lite cart she had like 4 big jugs of hawian punch 4 or 5 things of soda tons of meat, can stuff. well she lived up the big hill then turn on a street and up another hill....when i was helping unload i felt tom come thundering in like a hurricane...UCKKK i hate that feeling...but I shoulda guessed two nights before i bought fudge rounds...the only time i buy fudge rounds is close to tom i dont ever want them any other time..
So am getting better dealing with all this..right now i am scrubbing carpets doing laundry and decluttering as i go and getting ready to start the dishes...yeah it sucks cause im probably only going to get a few hours sleep but you know what it will be all worth it when I get up in the morning with NO DISHES, Carpets not only swept but scrubbed, laundry all washed just needs put away, everything all nice and tidy....what more could a mom ask for on a MONDAY morning...like hello....then I can just work on the boys school.

Ok a side note I know a lot of people dont care for the biggest loser but....i filled an app out once two seasons ago and then threw it out and was like no I am doing a diet and I can do this here....well almost a year later here I am weighing slightly more than I did then and got no where. I think I just might go crazy and fill out another app and make a video this time...I am thinking if I do it this once then it wont bug me cause i have this nagging voice in the back of my head to do it...so if I do it that will go away...They always have a mom with tons of kids on there...LOL...I am not only a mom with several kids but a foster mom, a youth pastor, a childrens church teacher, a drama teacher....clearly I have put everyone else ahead of me and cant seem to get the order straightened out....oh who knows its a shot..atleast that voice with stop nagging me to send in an app....HAHA...Ok please dont you all think I am crazy or atleast if you do keep it to yourself...LOL

Yeah i have had 5 mt. dews in less than 24 hours and I hadnt drank any in like almost 2 weeks...AHHHHHH

ok those dishes arent going to do themselves!!!

Hi everyone:wave:
Sorry I haven't been around much, been riding that emotional roller coaster, but doing alright. Its snowing again, so a little concerned about driving first thing in the morning. As is DdA. She and her dad put her snow tires on this afternoon so she should be good if she takes it slow and easy. Good advice that I will have to heed myself.
I went and saw the ear, nose and throat specialist yesterday and he wants me to do a sleep study to see if I have sleep apnea. But at least after the exam he did say the tonsils can be removed, should be interesting to see where this all goes.

Hope you and me both on that change thing. I have to get back exercising, but I keep saying "tomorrow"

Raven great to see you. I'm so glad to hear your hubby had another clean MRI, that is such wonderful news.

Mom wow you sure got a lot done today. So sorry about your foster daughter. :hug:

:wave:Vermont, Havisham, Leenie, Sassy, Kathy, Liz,Marbear, Heather, Hydra, Purefire, and everyone else :grouphug:

Take care everyone,
K

good morning everyone :) momof4, yes you should go ahead and apply! With all that you put ahead of yourself, i sure hope they see that you are a candidate. You know we would cheer you on :carrot:

I hope everyone has a great day, or at least a good day :cool:

Hi Kids :hug:

Love you all ;)

gotta run........

lol thanks vermont!! I filled the app out last night and my friend is bringin her camcorder cause mine is not working right at the moment!

so i got to bed at 5 n back up at 9...but everything is soooo nice and clean...still have living room and entry way carpet to scrub but everything is clean and ready to just run the scrubber!! decluttered and reorganized stuff...i LOVE sitting in a nice freshly cleaned house!!! EVEN my computer desk is cleaned...my husband actually made fun of it last night cause there was a pill on it that fell off and I put it back on and he was like here put a toy on it to hold the stuff down...lol...its clean now!!!
ok boys schoool, lunch, then some reading and NAP!!! YA....love nap time!!

Hi everyone, I wanted to share something that I did this weekend.

I went to a workshop called Yoga to manage your mood. The leader of the workshop is named Amy Weintraub, she was incredible! I bought her book - Yoga for Deppression and it was like she was talking directly to me.
She talks about breathing to help with anixety and deppression. I'm going to try a CD she has called Breathing to beat the blues. Especially at this time of year, every little bit helps!

Have a good day everyone!

I'm completely, entirely sick of closing shifts at work. I hate getting home at 9:30pm. OK, moving on.

I've been a bottomless pit the past couple of days. I ate so much yesterday I'm surprised I didn't get sick. Tomorrow I'm having lunch with a friend and dinner with a few co-workers so that shouldn't be much better. I know how to make good choices out but I don't think I will.

Buddly, glad you posted, I've been wondering how you were. I cant believe you are getting snow but I guess it is November. I know a few people with sleep apnea and after they got a cpap machine they feel SO much better, much less tired during the day.

Beth, the yoga for depression sounds interesting. Every little thing helps, especially anything physical.

Mom, yes, a clean house is wonderful to wake up to. Nothing makes you feel better when you get up in the morning. It was great of you to help that lady. I'm sure she was most grateful, and surprised. I'm totally supportive of you applying to TBL. I'm a faithful watcher. I don't like everything they do but that's true of anything. I'll be tuning in tomorrow night though. ;) It would be cool to see one of our own on there!

Vermont, how did the hubby's interviews go? :crossed: for both of you. Thank you for posting daily. I'm so glad when log in and see people in here faithfully. I really count you guys every day.

Leenie, I know you've been busy. Any word on any more layoffs? Hope not.

good morning everyone :)

I forgot to comment upon momof4's VERY nice act of helping that lady. It is a sign of a compassionate and aware person to first notice something like that, then make the decision to help, especially if it takes you out of your schedule, time, effort, etc. Kudos to you :) ! After my grandma passed away, I became very aware of older folks and try to be there to open doors for them, be especially patient with them at the store, etc.

thanks for asking about DH's interviews, hope4me! He just has to wait to hear from them (2 in particular) so another week or so. Having him jobless is not the horrible thing I thought it would be at first. The UI is about $300 a week less than what he was making...but about $100 of that was put into health insurance, so it 'seems' that it's 'just' about $200 less. So if I try to forget that we don't have health insurance now, it isn't that bad. And he has been doing home improvement stuff which is great.

sorry that you've been 'a bottomless pit' I think we all go through times like that. I hope you have a nice lunch with your friend.

BethC, sure hope that CD is good for you! :)

momof4, will you come to my house and do your magic?? :D

I have been working out every day but been eating BAD stuff to negate it :rolleyes:

hello to everyone else and have a great day :hug:

Hey all - it's been a few days since I've stopped in as I've been working 12 and 14 hour days. There is nothing as sucky as being on the phone with work at 10pm on a Saturday! I'm finally taking a 'me' minute now because otherwise i'm going to go insane.

Sooo fed up - the weight is coming off in tiny, tiny increments. Like creeping down - depressing when I'm sticking to plan. But I'm hanging in and trying to look at what I'm eating again to see where it is. I confess last night I had a crispy crunch blizzard - and man, it was good!!

Mom - you make me ashamed about every complaint I ever make about being overworked! But I do understand the LOVE of being in a clean house - ah, the peace.

Vermont - glad you're over your little down session. And I'm keeping everything crossed for DH.

BethC - I love yoga - I need to get back in to it, as it's definitely very centering. I've got a yoga for weightloss DVD that I need to tackle. Keep us posted on how it's going.

Buddly - glad to see you back!

Hope - I'm so sorry you're down - that pit just feels endless, doesn't it? Just hang in there - this, too, shall pass. :hug:

Raven and Leenie - :hug:

Anyone heard from Lost?

:hug: to all!

If brownies are the devil :devil:, and they are, then french silk pie is definitely a first cousin. :mad: Just sayin...

Hi everyone,
Looks like everyone is keeping busy. I'm actually working four days this week as well as next, its different when you are use to only one or two days a week.
We got quite a dump of snow yesterday, thankfully things were better today. Between the shoveling and scraping the grill at work my arms are getting a bit of a work out.
It's 12:30am, so I better head off to the land of Nod. I'm going to try and attach a couple photos of my front yard from this morning. I took them with my cell phone and they are oddly blue, but I think they look interesting.
Take care everyone.

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Oh, Buddly - that is a horrific site - although beautiful!! Please, please keep it at that side of the country - here in Ontario, I can wait for another month or two - really, I don't mind!

Gorgeous pics, though! :)

buddly, thank your for those pics, they are both beautiful and also :yikes: to me at the same time :D Is this about the time of year for you to expect a dump of snow like that? We are VERY lucky that we are still having daytime temps in the high 40s to low 50's (um, I guess that's 9.4 to 11.11 C :D)

Well as my DH was terminated, our health insurance was also lost, so now I have to pay for my Wellbutrin XL...I had to fill my prescription yesterday, and wrote a check for $135.99 :eek: and that is for a generic substitution!! I am trying to keep positive, that at least I have a job to pay for it but it seems that just when you think you have a handle on things, something else comes up. Guess that is Life, huh :dizzy:

Hello :wave: to all you great chicks and hope you have a good, manageable day :)

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Buddly, I'm so jealous, how beautiful. I hope we get a snow like that this year. We usually get cheated.

Vermont, yikes, that's not cheap. I hope you both get insurance soon.

Today was ok but I'm glad it's over. I'm doing so-so mentally but I catch myself having very negative and hopeless thoughts though I seem to be fighting them fairly well. Hope you all are staying positive.

ok-so been kinda blah for the last little bit and doing awful with food which is making my body react to the overeatting..so there for two days this week I felt like i couldnt do anything but today I felt better and I know tomorrow will be even better!!!

SO THE NEW NEWS HERE:
On monday night I went to the store to return the scrubber when i got back my husband is like WHO WAS ON THE TREAD MILL LAST.... i was like I think Kaci and he turned my son around and his whole back was amess...here they went to the basement to wait for my dh to lift weights and while they were waiting my 5 year old was on the treadmill (conflicting stories of who turned it up) and they turned it on high (older version so it goes real slow to start) my 5 year old decides to see how long he can hold on...then goes flying...luckly it wasnt as bad as it coulda been he had marks on his legs, arms, shoulders, and back. We have had it for 4 years and always unplugged it but also corrected them if they were on it at all....so yes I guess it is true boys are going to be boys and try anything esp. when their 6 yr old brother is telling him it will be fun do it!! This child has already been to the hospital and is one of those kids who just seems to attract injuries...UGHHH...WHERES THE BUBBLE TAPE!!!HAHA


I am ready to tackle some personals since it has been FOREVER and everybody was so kind to do personals and help me thru these last few crappy weeks!!!

HOPE4-that really stinks with the neg thoughts..I'm glad your trying to fight them...thats the only thing we can do is go down fighting!!! YES SILK PIE is very very close related!!! Working sucks period at times but if we didnt work we would be bored outta our minds right...LOL...when I dont work i am like i should just go work then when i am working i am like I WANNA STAY HOME..lol...us woman cant make our minds up!! So yeah I didnt really think I had a chance at BL but I cant get rid of the nagging voice to turn it in. Then I thought about it every season they have a mother on there...so why not try im not just a mother I have more stuff than that....That would be cool!! Who knows!!

VERMONT-WOW that is the script I take and that is ALOT....but what do you do??? cause withdrawl symptoms from wellbutrin are BAD!!! I think it was how I was raised. My dad can be a harsh man but he was one of the most giving men I knew. He would stop and help people (of course back then you could stop almost for anybody...unlike now days). All growing up thats what he did and I was so proud of him for helping people. Its just natural of me to do it. I know last Christmas I was with my 5 & 6 yr old boys in walmart and there was a mom and son infront of us and they had taken something off there bill and when they got to the end they were still short and were trying to figure out what to take off. The mom made him take off the dog food and he was upset..so I got an extra twenty out when i checked out and hurried out the door wouldnt you know they were parked almost right across from us. I had my 6 year old run it to them because I want him to learn now that God wants us to give and help others when people are in need. Well here months later I get a card in the mail and it was from them..they musta got the liscense plate and looked us up. But i never did it to get a thank you i would just spent the twenty on junk food we didnt need when i am sure their animal needed foor and they had other things they probably needed!! AND YES I will be at your house in no time!!! I actually LOVE cleaning others peoples houses...probably because I dont see it get trashed infront of my eyes like here!!

BUDDLY-def. miss your regular posts on here...you were always on here....i hated having to shovel snow when I worked esp when it was coming down so fast you would turn around to see what you just shoveled covered in snow!! I love snow but wish we could just have it for the month of dec. and that is enough!!lol

HAVISH-me time is very important part of keeping your sanity, and we are woman we wouldnt stay alive if we didnt "vent" (complain ;) )

Leenie- I think your the busiest woman I know!! it makes me laugh its like your running by the "room" waving thru the glass...ok yeah I am a visual and creative person...lol



Ok well all have a great night!! catch you all lata!

good morning....and HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAVISHAM!!! :bday2you::gift: I know your DH is far away so that must make you lonely; please visualize that we chicks here are going to pamper you today, you don't have to go to work, all your food is calorie free, you can be a no-responsible kid today :D

momof4, owies to your little guy who experimented on the treadmill! and wow to the people who tracked you down to say thanks for the money, that was so charitable and thoughtful of you :hug: and I hope you are all over the BLAHs today!

Hello..I used to come here every now & then. But I'm back now.

For a little update..

I was taking Prozac since last October I think. I'm also taking a daily anti anxiety medication as well. However..Prozac was majorally killing my sex drive. So a few months ago, I went off of it. I was tired of being on an anti depressant. I also stopped taking the anti anxiety meds too. But as soon as it was out of my system..I had an attack. I had to take my last Xanax, and went back on my meds. So far, no anxiety. My sex drive also came back (sorry..TMI), but that's a good thing.

Anyways..I have a new weight loss plan for 2010. So hopefully that will help with the depression, which btw..hasnt been too bad. I had to get rid of someone negative in my life. But I feel like so much weight has been lifted off my shoulders because of it. I do have some major mood swings that arent PMS related..but I'm trying to keep that under control. I mostly just tell my hubby to stay away from me when I'm going through one, lol.

So ya..hope everyone is doing good today.

Good morning, Chickies!

Vermont - thank you SO much for the b-day wishes - the cake is awesome. You have the best emoticons!! My kids got up and made me breakfast before work which is a major event. A little icky because I normally don't eat till mid morning, but the thought was so great. DH actually called on my way in to work, which was nice - he even sang a little. :D

I hear you on the cost of drugs - I sometimes wonder what I'd do without my drug plan. I work for the company that makes Wellbutrin so we're fully covered for that, but if I had to pay (I take 450mg as well as Celexa) I'd be in serious trouble. Hang in there - I'm sure DH will find something with excellent insurance soon! :hug:

My sister in England sent me this amazing hardcover book - one of the fancy ones - of all the Winnie the Pooh stories and poems. I nearly cried!

Mom - your story of giving those people money was so inspiring. I always try to give something away, especially when I'm really broke. If I'm down to my last $20 and it's a few days till pay day, I try to put some of the change in to a charity box. It makes me realise that 'broke' for me isn't really broke. Plus I believe in karma.

Your story also reminded me of going through an ATM drive thru one morning on the way to work and asking for $20, and getting $40. They were folded and stuck together. I was only billed for $20. All day I was wracked with guilt (the bank wasn't open when i went thru) and felt just terrible. So on the way home, I stopped in at the bank and explained to the receptionist what had happened. She was stunned. She kept saying, "are you SURE? Because there's no way we could confirm that - we'd never know - it happens all the time and there's no way to know who got extra. Are you SURE?" She was obviously amazed that i was returning 'free' money. Who knows, maybe she slipped it in to her purse, and maybe she shared the tale of the 'crazy English girl', but I felt better.

Leenie - I had to laugh at Mom's description of you running by - it's very apt! Hope all is well! :hug:

Buddly and Shopaholic - Hey!! :)

BethC - how's the yoga going?

havish-I have been the same way...the one time we got out to our car at walmart and after I got the bags and everythign out of the cart there was a small tube of cream that was probably less than 2 dollars but I couldnt even put it in the car I had to take it back into the store...one time my foster daughter and I was at the grocery store and someone had put their cart in the thing and it still had a case of mt dew under it. She was like free mt dew..then I was like no if it had been us that left it there and called to see if it was there and someone else had taken it i woulda been upset since I paid for it...she was like wow we cant take it then...i was like NO.....LOL
My boy took tictacs from a store and when we got home he was like can I eat these...I about flipped I took him straight back to the store and he retured it. I know someone people are like its just .79 cent thing of candy it dont matter...well if I let them get away with something that small they will push it and keep going bigger. OH YEAH HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Vermont-How the heck did you get that cake?? Crazy.. I am outta the blahs but still draggin its rainy and I hate that cause it makes me feel that way!

shop- WELCOME BACK!!! hopefully things go better for you!

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Well I don't think I'd ever run but you'd see me waddle by fast LOL We had a major hit here at work, lots of lost jobs and lots of wondering people, its really sad. I'm ok for now but IMHO I think its just a matter of time b/4 they hit us too. Anyway.... ;)

Havisham HAPPY BIRTHDAY :bd: and may you have many many many more to come :hug:

Shop !!! wth girlie.. we've missed you. Sorry about the ups and downs, but I'm glad your back with us. :hug:


Mom, Hope, Buddly, Holly, Beth, Raven, LOST WHERE ARE YOU ?? a great big cyber hug for you all :hug:

:cheer3::cheer2::celebrate: HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAVISHAM!!! :celebrate::cheer2::cheer3:

Tried to go shopping for my dh with all for kids....WHAT WAS I THINKING....Grocery shopping is one thing because your moving thru the store and not standing in one place trying to find sizes and styles...AHHHH I wanted to scream...wait I did scream...hahaha...i had to finish after dh got home WITHOUT kids.....I got him a nice dress shirt at KOHL's for .80 was 10.80 on clearance then I had a card they sent us for 10$ off any purchase...what a bargain!! love them!!

enjoying the quiet...OH YES my foster daughter sent me a letter today..i was excited cause i wondered if she would or not. Her mom had called cause she couldnt find the address and then said she had got a letter today so i was like hmmm better go check my mail....she wasnt angry and wished she could take back everything that monday. She feels very alone and like she has no home. But i explained to her that they even though the wont put her back here after group home she will be close to 18 and then she can come whenever its not like we kicked her out of our family!! Tech we could fix it that her mom could go into court and hand over legal gaurdianship to me and he could grant it...its happened with kids my parents have had....so who knows...that would take a lot of thought and prayer and know weither she was going to shape up or not!! either way we will get to see her...the hardest part is the kids she loved them and they loved her...the little one would go in every night and give her kisses and they would wake her up on sat. mornings...ughhh...i wanna cry...why do people have to make choices and not think or care what the consequences are and who they are going to affect!! I dont regret the choice for her to go because she was not ready to step back and look she was just doing her own thing no matter who did what. She wanted me to send pictures of the family but I had already decided that me and the kids were going to do a scrap book for her from all of her time her. We were to do a family book (or she was) but it really wasnt done right because of digital cameras I never get photos printed I just keep them on disks..what sense does that make?? So I am going to go thru all my disks and files and get all the pictures of her with us and make her a nice scrap book for Christmas..for the kids and her it will mean sooo much more!!
I am going to do something different with my kids for Christmas anyway. We dont do the santa clause at all....we think it is a lie to tell them santa is bringing you toys ' SOOOO agree or disagree...to each their own..I am going allow each of them to get a gift for each of their siblings. They got a toy mag. from a store and circled stuff they wanted so I am going to take them and let them pick out what they want to get them from their siblings list. Was going to do it last year but wasnt sure then my 6 yr old wanted to get something for his little sister too.. i dont want it to be about they just get a whole bunch of presents from us. I want it to be something special for them and the excitement they have giving to others also!! SO I am going to give it a shot. My dh and I will put our money together and get their big gift then the other toys can come from each other!!

ok well WHY is it I ALWAYS ramble on....WHERE IS SASSY...THAT WOMAN ALWAYS OUT TALKED ME..

Hi all!!
Just a quick hello.

And a belated Happy Birthday Havisham!! I sure hope you had a great one. The Winnie the Pooh book from your sister sounds wonderful. Are you sure you don't want some snow?

I'm glad you enjoyed the photos. The snow was so wet and heavy, because it weighed down some power lines the one elementary school was closed down for two days because of no power or heat. We didn't have any problems and have actually had sunshine the last few days.

Vermont its not unusual for us to have snow at this time, it usually starts the end of October. Our temps have been going above freezing most days so that has been really nice. And wow, thats a lot of money to spend on pills. How long will that last you? I think my Wellbutrin XL is around $35-$40 a month and then I get 80% of that back through our extended health plan.

Hope I sure hope you get can get some snow this year. Last time there was el nino, we had warmer temps, but lots of snow.

Mom you sound busy as usual. That was good of your foster daughter to write.

Hi shop, I was wondering how you were. Good to hear you are getting this sorted.

:hug: and Hi! to everyone else out there.

I better go, its almost 1am and I have work tomorrow morning. Take care everyone.
K

good morning chicks! Havisham, Happy day after birthday :D That Winnie the Pooh book sounds very nice.

momof4, I made that cake image by going to www.imagechef.com and it was listed under 'videos' - obviously I can't figure out how to make it a video, but it makes a cute pic doesn't it. Make sure to tell us when your birthday is and you'll have one of the same flavor :)

wow that was an incredible bargain on your DH's shirt!

Hi buddly, we also usually have some snow by this time of year. We actually rode our motorcycles for an hour or so yesterday afternoon, it was sunny and almost 56. Today's it's 44 and raining, but this can't last forever. The snow is inevitable and once it's here, it's here til April.

oh, and that amount is for one month's worth of meds :(

yes, where is Lost? we haven't heard from her in weeks. Hope everythings okay.

Hi Leenie, that's very nerve-wracking I'm sure about the layoffs falling all around. Hang in there!

Hi :wave: to everyone else. I had a nice two days off but now today is my Monday, ugh :devil:

Just real quick. I finally had a good night's sleep. During the whole week, I slept for only 3 hours a night. It was annoying. I think I was just anxious for New Moon to come out, lol. I was like that the week of my wedding..haha!! I feel so much better after sleeping so well. I did have a panic attack yesterday afternoon though. I tried to relax, and couldnt and went to the mall..and it was too crowded and I panicked. I hate it when that happens. But thankfully, it wasnt as bad as it usually is. I'm kinda nervous about next weekend though. I'm going to NJ to spend Sat & Sun with my Twilight friends. I really dont want to get a panic attack in front of them!!!

quick touch in....getting stuff packed for tonight dh and I have a youth leaders retreat so it will be super nice to have some him and I time but I am sure before the end of the night i will greatly miss my kids...like I love them they drive me crazy i need breaks but then miss them when I have a break. . . LOL. I dont know how some people can barely see their kids and be ok with it. i had a lady I was pretty much the nanny and her 9mnth old called me mommy. I watched them from before they were out of bed till like 6 at night then some on weekends and evenings if they went out.... I know people have to work but why do people have kids and then only spend 2 hours a day with them?? How is that being a parent?? I feel bad for single moms because they have to pull extra to make it for their kids so they probably miss time with their kids because they dont have a choice..
OH WOW HOW DO I GET INTO THIS STUFF....nope you cant tell I am a sahm n have no adults to talk to daily!!!

Ok gotta go pack no more babbling for me!!! haha!!!

G'day ladies. Hope all is well. My posting has been sporadic at best - my apologies. I've been in lala land lately. Not too much here. Work, school, writing for National Novel Writing Month - my fingers are tired!

My weight has been depressing me a bit, despite the scale going down. I've been angry more than anything lately. I want to beat the crap out of one of my aunts. She called my gramma up and told her she was a horrible mother, grandmother, and person - then hung up on her. Grrrrrrr... I hate people who suffer from so much misery that they feel the need to make everyone else miserable too. Grr...

Havisham - Happy belated birthday! :) I work for a bank, and it's nice when people bring money back if they were given to much. Always made me feel like there was hope for the human race yet

VT Mom - Yikes on the RX. Hopefully hubby hears something back soon, and that it's super awesomely positive!

Lennie - :hug: all will be well!

Mom - My husband and I do not have children, but we've already had the Santa argument. He views it as lying, and I view it as SANTA!!! Haha.

Budly, Hope, everyone... :wave:

Hi everyone! How's everyone doing?
I tried the yoga CD I bought called Breathing to beat the blues... it's really amazing, just sitting and following it made such a huge difference!

Not much to say tonight but just wanted to stop by. :hug:

OH WOW HOW DO I GET INTO THIS STUFF....nope you cant tell I am a sahm n have no adults to talk to daily!!!
:D too funny! well, glad that we can be your adults to talk to :)

Hi :wave: to everyone, a very gray November day here. A good day to spend inside at work, I guess! Hope every one is good.

Hi everyone,
Hope you are having an enjoyable Saturday. Its beautiful here with the sun shining and I'm so happy I don't have to go anywhere if I don't want to.:D

Vermont that is a wicked price to pay for one month of meds, wow. Sure hope you get some coverage soon. And your hubby gets a job he'll like.

Nothing new here, will be so glad when next week is over.

Take care everyone and have a great weekend.
K

Buddly, why you dreading next week?

My test is over :carrot: and I think I did well :carrot:.

We saw a movie today: '2012'. It was a decent action disaster movie. I wanted to see Twilight but I was afraid it would be too crowded and have too many young people. We may see it during the week early in the day. I love vampire stuff :dracula: and though the first one was too teenagery for me I've heard this one is a little more mature. It seems a lot of vampire stories are set in high school but it's nice when they aren't. Other than vampires I'm usually a complete :chicken:.

I'm just glad to be home and off.

just thought Id say hi..nothing much here...great weekend with my husband... hoping this week will be better and I will have it together..going to make my video for biggest loser!! All my dh said was whos gonna take care of the kids but I figure that if it is meant to be then it will work out!! I have faith that if it is what I am to do then God will work out the childcare!!

hope-AWESOME JOB!!!

talk to you all later hope your having a good weekend

so i just learned to night that the moon is closer or something there is a shift in gravity and it cause us to weigh more this last week and this week and people with mental disorders seem to have more problems for these two weeks... not sure its all true but i am now back to my starting weight of 231 as of tonight....UGHHH

Mom, you are not alone. I'm back at my highest weight also. I need to change my ticker. I would LOVE to see you on TBL! We could cheer on our very own chick! :cheer2: I also think your husband would appreciate you a whole lot more if he had to deal with the kids all that time. ;)

Not much going on today but work. This coming week I get 3 days off though b/c of the holiday. I get tues, thurs, and sat off. Yay. I think I'm just cooking for me and df. My mom will probably come up for xmas but not both. Since I'm in retail I can't get off b/c of black friday. What are y'all doing for Thanksgiving? :thanks2:

Hope-lol thats true he would..lol i know you guys would def. cheer me on!!So I started doing some taping for it...its very hard because I am trying to be quiet and hold the camera myself. i am just going to do the detail stuff myself and then get my friend to go with me to the park with the kids and tape there...MIGHT even do some taping with my teens at youth...even though i dont know yet if i want to tell them. Only three people and you guys know I am doing this so far!* But your suppose to show who you are on the tape and my kids and my teens is who I am... ok I need to get it done so i can get it sent since the cast just started and theres no casting calls yet. if i can get it in now maybe I have a better chance!!ok lata chicks!!

G'Morning,

Good to see you all :hug: Nothing much is going on in this neck of the woods. No news is good news :yes:

Everyone getting ready for Thanksgiving? I have my tky breast but thats about it. Funny, usually this time of year I have it all together.. oh well lol.

Have a great Monday chickies.

Leenie

good morning everyone :D

momof4, THANKS for the justification of the past week; how can we fight the forces of the moon making us crazier :D , and gravity making us weigh more, and then I have TOM to add to that :dizzy::devil:

and mom, I have meant to ask, is your avatar your gram and yourself?

hope4me, we (DH and sons) have been going to friends' houses for T-giving for the past 3 years. I had to make a really hard decision not to go to my mom's house, because I would dread it and it was just too stomach-hurting.

My older brother is disabled with schizophrenia, and I don't know who regulates his meds but one year he said he was going to kill our sister, who tried to comfort him when he was getting agitated. My sister herself is hard to take, and for years my mom was an alcoholic (she has since kicked it herself, bless her) SOOO for all those reasons there were lots of uncomfortable (to say the least) memories and I had to get away from it.

We visit her on our way to our friend's house, before everyone gathers, and she seems okay with that.

I lucked out this year, in that my two days off a week are Wednesday and Thursday :)

hello to everyone else :hug:

Good morning ladies! I'm offically 205, which means 20 lbs down. My ticker says 55 to go - I'd like it to be 65... hmmm... Why am I so utterly disatisfied with loosing 20 lbs? It should be more! arg!

I really don't want to go home for Christmas. I'm in the "I don't want any of my old friends to see how fat I've gotten" mood.

Mom - I think you may be right on with the moon affecting mental disorders... sheesh. And I don't watch TBL, but if you were on it I would totally start!

VT - Enjoy your days off! That makes getting ready for the holiday much more relaxing!

Lennie, Hope, Budly, havisham, Pure, and everyone else... :hug:

Beth - has the CD made a difference in your level of fitness or stress related things? Or both? I'd love to try it if it's a stress buster. Stress is the devil!

Have a great day ladies...

vermont mom-yeah thats my gram and I..its actually the last picture of her alive at the end of Aug. I have been trying to change it but it keeps saying upload failed when I try..our puter has been acting weird lately even after my dh crashed it..so i dont know...bout TG-sometimes you just have to do things that are best for you...I know we feel like we have to go to my moms because we have been going there for years...every year we are like WE WONT do this next year...yet we do..i dont wanna hurt my moms feelings but weve wanted to have our own and my dad is the type of person hes had tG at home all these years hes not having it anywhere else...go figure old men...haha...

mar-thats awesome your 20 lbs down....sometimes it is hard to celebrate when you look at how much you still have to go and then 20lbs dont seem like much i know what you mean!!!

so I am going to have my friend do some taping of me with my teens on wed night then me teaching drama also me doing some drama and then me playing with my kids at the play ground. I did a clip of me and my info but I dont want the tape to be boring and just watching me sitting there talking. Ive watched some auditons of ones that got on the show and other ones...The ones that got on took them thru their daily life and doing things...the ones that didnt just sat infront of the camera and talked...boring...LOL...I will hopefully have it done and ready to send out by monday!! I am excited even if I dont get on cause its something I have never done so for once I am doing something different than I normally do!!!
I want to be on the show to learn the healthy eating tips and for me but then if i can get the right tools and take the time out of my business to change something then I can change others. There are sooo many teens in this area who have eating disorders. I can help these girls in most every area except this. i can tell them what to do but i dont have a healthy eating pattern I binge eat at times or I eat with my emotions...it is really hurting my body the same as them cutting with their emotions....I have managed to conqueror so much thru my life and used it all as stepping stone and its like this one is right at the top of the mountain but I cant find any ledges to push me there! I help my family, the teenagers, foster kids and fellow church members but yet I still deal with this issue...We live in this city and we are working on a community center for after school programs and more and this could be a way to reach out to this city even more!! To reach that teenage girl that struggles with her weight and tell her if I can do it sooo can she and be the one there believing in her even when her parents and friends dont....but right now I allow my weight to hold me back soooo much!!

OK JESSICA OFF THE SOAP BOX AGAIN...for real you guys are going to vote me off fat chicks soon..i know it...LOL i just know I haven't been so excited bout something like this before!! I try to figure out in my mind who can watch my kids the boys school etc...and really why worry bout it cause I know God will make a way where there seems to be no way (right ? for all you christians out there)

im going to watch a movie, the kids are napping and I did cleaning last night so i didnt get to watch my movie!! Ok lata ladies!

Gosh, I should really be in bed!

I'm off tomorrow but I have a lot I want to do. I need to do my Thanksgiving dinner shopping, not all of it, I just need to get my menu together and see what I don't have. Of course, I need to clean the house. What is a day off without cleaning? I need to pick up some mascara and foundation that I'm almost out of and I need to do some school work. I need to have all of this done so I can go out to dinner with some friend's from work and be home in time for The Biggest Loser (future show starring Momof4!!).

Vermont, yeah that sounds like a lot to deal with on a holiday. I have an aunt the has schizophrenia and there have been some interesting situations with her in the past. I feel so bad for her because they really can't seem to get all of her meds right, and boy does she take a lot of them.

Marbear, :hug: I feel exactly how you do most everyday of my life. In fact it's pretty much all about avoidance for me. Don't forget though that 20lbs is an awesome accomplishment, one that I'm quite envious of right now. I know it's not all you want before you see some people again but try to feel good about that for yourself. Will you definitely run into these people? I know I can go home and just see family and pretty much avoid the rest of the town. Is that an option for you?

Leenie, at least somebody else hasn't done all of their shopping!

Ok, gotta hit the hay so I can get up and tackle the day tomorrow.

good morning everyone :) today I get to make a choice and be an adult about a situation....I usually get paid on Fridays but i haven't received a check yet...I KNOW the payroll arrived because I saw the big envelope from the payroll service arrive last week...one should NOT have to ask to have their paycheck!! grrrrr.

and if I don't get it today, then the next possibility will be this Friday which will be a full week late. If any of you are small business owners (this business has 5 employees) I would love a different perspective...I make an effort to always be at work if not on time, even early...and I make an effort to do what is expected of me and beyond.

Okay thanks for listening :D I hope everyone has a good day :)

Vermont, did you get your check? I think you have every right to ask for it if you didn't. You and your employer have an agreement. If you do what is expected of you, then you receive compensation on X date monthly/weekly. That's just the way it works. They need to keep up their end of the the agreement.

Today I did my shopping and some cleaning. I feel down tonight though b/c I ate so much this evening I felt ill. I thought I was just going to break down and cry from misery (mental and physical). I don't know how much more unhappiness I can take with this weight problem. I'm missing my entire life hiding and binging. I don't know how to get out of this cycle. :(

wow vermont i would def be asking!! or hmmm you just might not have gas to make it there until you get a paycheck...wink wink...LOL

hope-this too shall pass...i hope cause it sucks when you get feeling like that and having to hide it really does suck.....atleast your not hiding from us!!! YAAAAA

nothing much going on....for some odd reason excited for the holiday dont know why?? for once i am not even stressing over christmas at all even though we lost money i had planned on from foster care...I had arranged it so that extra money coming in dec was for christmas...but Im not worried it will work out and hey its just christmas not the end of the world...not like the electric, water, heat...so we will be ok!!

Quick FYI I hope im allowed to mention this on here..sorry if I am not...I wanted to mention to those looking for income or extra money I did find a legit and good mystery shop place by the end of the month I will have made $74 (includind reimb. & comission) for 5 jobs. If you want to know pm me your email and I can refer you. Its a nice way to get a little extra money and its places you shop (pizza places, aero, bed bath and beyond, lowes, kmart, exxon....etc..)

so yeah let me know...there are other ones that i have used but they dont have many varieties of places or anything....ok lata ladies!!

Hi everyone,

I keep thinking its Friday, boy this is going to be a long week. I usually only work one, maybe two days a week but this is my second week of having to do four days. Thankfully I have tomorrow off before going back to do the next two, my wrists and back need the break. Our new schedule comes out on Thurs and I'm curious as to what I'm doing next. The pay cheque will be nice tho.

Hope :hug: I'm in a similar boat, I keep saying I'll start tomorrow and of course never do. I was looking at some posts in the mini goals and goals sections and I'm so happy for these women as they've worked hard and are doing so great, it also really depresses me as I see these women are doing it so why the heck can't I get my act together.

Vermont I hope you got your pay. Years ago my husband was working for a small company and his cheque was usually late and more than one bounced, thats a period in our lives I never wish to repeat.

I should head off to bed.

Take care everyone :grouphug:
K

good morning friends :) I'm so glad I didn't make a big scene about my check, because dopey boss *thought* he gave it to me last Friday...he started pulling out counters to look to see if it had dropped behind somewhere...then went back to the office to call the payroll service to stop payment on that one and get me a new one...and he said "and I looked down at my desk and there it is!" and then he just tossed it onto a pile of wrapped tortillas.

Ya know, I didn't ask about it the first, second, or third day because last year he would be late in giving it to me all the time, so i never really knew what day was payday. NOW I will ask if I don't get it on a Friday.

SO at least I have it to put it in the bank today, and hey, because it was so late, golly I get another one in 2 days :rofl:

hope4me, big :hug: to you. I don't know what to tell you, except that I am sure you will have a 'click' moment when you will be able to take hold and overcome.

Hope - I fell into that same place late September. I kept my posts from that day and the day after tagged, as well as my blog entries, adn I reread them frequently. Knowing where I was and how horrible I felt keeps me from letting myself slide back there. I'm not saying I'm perfect - I had snafus - but it keeps me from sneaking off to Mcdonalds and acting towards a big mac the way I would act if I was cheating on my husband. Perhaps blogging would help you? There are some great ladies that blog through 3FC, and many of them are on the forums too.

VT - I'm glad you got your check!

Budly - Yes on the LONG *** week. Sheesh.

Mom - Christmas will work out, stress isn't needed - so I'm glad you're feeling relaxed :)

Not to much here. I love coffee. Truly. Oh, andI almost blew a gasket last night (wait - I DID blow a gasket) because it was basically inferred that I shouldn't like IQ tests becase I'm an artist because IQ tests ony test reading and math skills. Really? I'm not even going to get into that here. Seriously - I know I'm smart, so why do I let these things bother me?

Hm... my throat hurts so I just looked in a mirror... if memory serves me correctly - white spots are bad...
Sigh.

Have a great day ladies.

mar-white spots are bad...usually strep

Not feeling like saying much...after not taking meds from fri till tuesday night I feel pretty blah. i had to send the kids outside because I knew it was better for them and for me....just blah..think im feeling over whelmed because there is soo much laundry and some other cleaning and I feel like I never get caught up on it so why bother trying...really..its frustrating...then I feel bad cause i know I can work harder here at home but theres only a few days outta the week that I am extremely motivated and kick butt and then the rest I do what I have to...ugh...thats all

was just thinking how much i dont like myself because I cant make myself do what i need to do...like my boys school was going very well until the week of my grams services and I cant seem to get back to it and do it right....i know sooo much is crappy and not right but I still dont fix it...can someone just hit me in the head with a pan PLEASE!
ttyl

all that being said I went and put the clean clothes away for the kids and cleaned their rooms and changed sheets...man the boys sheet musta been on there for a while I dont know how it snuck by me cause that is usually a pet peeve of mine I hate there being dirty sheets on the beds...I actually made my husband get up the other night so I could change the sheets...lol...but theirs looked NASTY..ok maybe not that bad but nasty to my standards...kids eating lunch then I really need to work on the boys school...ok thats bout it!

So glad I could finally log on to say:


Happy Thanksgiving!!!


:thanks2::turkey::turkey::thanks2:

this is in the evening but I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving :turkey:

momof4, you might not actually see all that you DO accomplish...I hope you get over your 'blah' feeling soon! I tell ya, when I read of you cleaning until like 4:30 or so in the morning so you could wake to a fresh, clean house...I was like, 'she is my hero!'

marbear, it is very obvious you are a smart chick :) I hope your gasket got repaired :D :D and uh-oh to white spots on a sore throat...:(

hello to everyone else :hug:

DH has had a few interviews in the past few weeks, but hasn't heard back from anyone yet.

back to work tomorrow, why do days off go SO much quicker than work days!

i have been having issues trying to log on the last two days something with a busy server???
anyways....Happy Thanksgiving

vermont-You know I dont know what you said that clicked something in my brain but after I read your post I thought about it and I guess i cant expect myself to be like other together moms not dealing with depression cause of course they dont have to fight as hard to get stuff done (atleast not all the time). I get mad at myself because I can NEVER get the energy to get the stuff done but when I do I GO crazy...its like I am in zones and I have my cleaning zones and I whip thru tons of it but then when I am not in a motivational cleaning mode nothing happens... I dont know...but thank you for your encouragement

So my mom is taking me black friday shopping which shes the one that said she would NEVER go..lol...plus my dad wants to give me money to get some shopping done..so cant turn that down...he is like an m&m hard on the outside but melts on the inside...LOL

So finished my taping for BL...I cant believe I am actually doing it really I cant.. I have to put the program on the puter and put the tape together probably sat. cause tomorrow with shopping and getting the christmas tree at the tree farm AND putting it up there wont be much time and I am sure ill be pooped since I need to get up in 3 and half hours...AHHH...lol its ok about 4 hours of sleep I am superwoman remember...

So down thing from the day...when i was making breakfast my six year old jokingly said to me you fatty cause I was in his way...I coulda spit fire at him...and my husband laid into him because even if it is the truth its rude.. Then i was laying on the floor at my parents playing with my 2 year old and the cars and dad walked by and kinda kicked me with his foot playing so I rolled towards him and pushed his leg against the wall and he was like Wow its like a steam roller....My dad always joked like that growing up and i had a lot of emotional issues from him making fun of my butt, boobs, singing....which I have healed from...but really it was like all in one day everyone reminded me of how fat I really am...
I told my mom about the BL...i had to make her swear to not tell dad and not not yell or be neg about it....which she really wasnt. I told her said Really I am not losing anything to try...shes like true!

I just might just might just might lol post it on youtube for you guys to watch once its done but only for a few days for you guys to watch then take it back off!! just so I can see your thoughts...but i have to think about that...LOL

Ok I HAVE TO GET TOOO BED!!! NIGHT

Momof4, how did the shopping go? Did you get some good deals? I would love to see your BL video. That would be cool.

Black Friday wasn't too bad at work. We opened at 6am and the bulk of the madness was over by 7am, then we were just steady after that. I had some leftovers for lunch and took a nap when I got off at 3. Not much else going on here.

yeah i did get some good deals...I got the girls character shoes at 50% off and bikes at 50% off then some other bargain stuff I found along the way....My mommy bought me some shoes that actually fit..I cant wait until tomorrow to wear them!!
We got our tree yesterday it was very could at the tree farm...but we got a blue spruce and decorated it blue...its very pretty and BIG...probably our biggest tree we had to trim the top cause the start would go on it cause it was hitting the ceiling...

Doing much of nothing now...going to go do an aeropostale shop here later then making ham and cheese sandwiches for our youth fundraiser!!

Ok well catch you all lata! Have a good day!

Wow, all this chatting going on LOL

:wave: everyone.

Been fighting a stomach virus for the past week (ok 2 weeks). So far today, no "episodes" lol.

Thanksgiving was great.. lots of food, friends, family.

Yesterday I fell apart from all the work and preparing for the feast... I stayed home all day in my jamies and put up my Christmas tree :D I'm all set for Santa lol.

Ok.. off to iron some clothes, DD has a birthday party this afternoon and I'm such a slug.. I need lots of time to get my butt ready.

Have a great day Chickies :hug:

ok well just checking in...not much going on everyone must be gone, busy or depressed for the holiday..LOL...ok excited starting putting my video clips together tonight!!! almost done to send it in....lata

Hi, everyone! This is my first time in the chick chat, seems like a nice, positive thread! :D

"Oh, andI almost blew a gasket last night (wait - I DID blow a gasket) because it was basically inferred that I shouldn't like IQ tests becase I'm an artist because IQ tests ony test reading and math skills. Really? I'm not even going to get into that here. Seriously - I know I'm smart, so why do I let these things bother me?"

Ridiculous! Whoever said that to you hasn't taken many IQ tests. Sure, there's some math/reading skills, but there's also logic and reasoning, and there's NO reason people should assume that an artist doesn't have one. I go to an art school and OK, I have to admit: I'm bad at math. Whenever someone in the room needs a figure, be it division, multiplication, or even adding/subtracting, there's a moment of silence in the room and then three different answers are called out. So maybe there's a little bit of truth to artists not being great at math, but you know what? Math is one of many, many, many kinds of intelligence, and artists have in spades what many do not. Also, vocabulary comes in all forms, including visual. Next time someone gives you grief about being an artist and therefore not "smart,", ask them to draw a woman and a telephone pole with accurate perspective, shadows and reflections, and see how well they do!

Momof4, you have so much respect from me for even giving birth four (four!!) times, AND you're raising them, AND you seem to be doing a darn good job of it. Having children seems to me to be the most amazing accomplishment. If you're ever feeling down, you should just think about the fact that there are four people in this world who are who they are because YOU are there and take care of them.

I love hearing about everyone's christmas decorations! I bought a weensy tree for my roommates and I and decorated it tonight. It looks beautiful! I wanted everything to be red and gold, so I got little red (shiny, satiny and sparkly) ball ornaments, a little red-and-gold bell garland, little candy canes, red and green ribbon, a string of lights, and then I made another garland out of some crystal drops that I had. I had lots of extra lights, so I piled them around the base and put this white feather boa around it, and when it lights up, it looks like a sparkly, soft pile of snow! To top it off I wired a gold snowflake to the top of the tree, but it's a liiiittle heavy for the tree and there's a bit of a tilt, haha! It looks beautiful, though, and I got the tree and all the trimmings for under $20! :D Works for me, rent is coming up!

Good Morning Ladies...

Working on getting back into the swing of things. I've been so depressed lately and emotionally eating that I've gained back all the weight I lost and probably an extra 5lbs.

So last night I said enough is enough. I can't even stand to look at myself in the mirror anymore. So I came up with a weekly schedule and a small workout plan. to start. I want to loose 15 lbs by Christmas.

I saw my doctor on the 11th and he started me on new meds. I am still on Lamictal 400mg which I have to take at bed time and a new one which is Celexa. I've been really bad about taking them so now I am using Fitday for everything. I am putting what I eat it, what I do for exercise and that I take my meds everyday.

School is going good. I finished the second module with an A in Medical Terminology and a B in Anatomy & Physiology. which I guess I can deal with. I was almost failing at midterm so at least I brought my grades up.

I think I am done rambling for this morning.. I'm sure there is alot more to add... but Have a wonderful Sunday Ladies

alice-welcome to the chat...thank you for your encouraging post...I like it when new people come in cause then it gives us someone new to get to know since we all know each other and talk bout the same things...LOL

pure-i have issues remb. meds too...then when i forget its like i just forget competely...it drives me crazy like this morning I just realized I didnt take any meds for the last two days..UGH...

ok well nothing much going on...youth night tonight...my youth are doing a drama. I was able to sit out of this one...I could have had a part but i watched the video of the last one i did and I was so discustingly fat and I dont know how people could sit and watch without thinking about how fat i am...ughh...so I wouldnt put myself in this one!!!

Was up until 4 am doing my biggest loser audition tape...I have more editing to do cause it is 15 mins long but there are clips i still havent edited sooo I should be pretty close to the 10 they want..Like they say they want an uneditted tape but how am i to include the different parts of my life they want to see?? i didnt do anything fancy just cut the clips and put it together!!I watched other videos and they are edited to a point too sooo.....
getting kids to bed to work on more editing and leave for drama....ok lata

Hello and welcome to Alice! :) Purefire, big congrats on those grades!! :carrot: momof4, we sure hope to be able to preview your tape!

Welcome Alice. I haven't gotten out my decorations yet. Maybe wednesday.

Momof4, you are brave. I would never be in any of those dramas if it meant I would be video taped. :fr:

Purefire, great job on bringing up your grades!

Nothing exciting here...:(

hope- i only video because I want to have them for later... and cause the kids like to see their own dramas...but honestly this last one was discusting...i couldnt stand even looking at myself...I got on the scale today and I am now 232 i believe the most i have weighed....I know I never went over 240 i might have been 235....but it is still so flippin depressing...its like something snapped in my body and it quit trying or something i dont know..it sucks...LOL

Hi all:wave:

Welcome Alice I look forward to getting to know you better. Your tree does sound lovely.

Pure, congrats on the excellent grades.

Mom, I don't know how you can manage to do anything after staying up till 4am. Remember, you need your rest and have to look after you as well. I was really bad with forgetting my meds, but I got one of those days of the week pill containers from the dollar store and fill that every Sunday. I also started taking them all at once (2 antidepressants and 3 blood pressure meds) its helped me a lot. And I hope you let us see your video. I don't watch BL, but I might have to start.

Not much new here. I survived the extra hours at work, but am grateful to be back to just the two days a week for the next schedule. Today DdC was helping at the craft fair held at her high school (its a huge fund raiser for the dry grad) She was helping with parking and ended up fainting. She's been quite sick for the last week and hadn't been eating or drinking enough, mostly sucking on ice cubes as her throat had been very sore. She's actually lost 9lbs. She insists she's going to school tomorrow as I kept her home most of last week and she was feeling a lot better, but its a good thing I'll be home, just in case she has a repeat.
I picked up that monitor thing to measure my oxygen levels while I was sleeping and did that for the two nights. Now I just wait to hear from the doctor when they fax him the results. I am curious.
For some odd reason I'm not feeling as down as normal and actually want to do Christmas this year. We haven't had a proper tree in quite a few years, in part because there isn't any room in the living room and I haven't had the energy to deal with it and in part because I use to study with the Jehovah Witnesses. I haven't studied with them in years, but the teachings stick with you, even when you can't agree with some of the organization. At any rate I plan on digging out the box of decorations and I brought home some empty fry boxes from work so I can box up the video tapes and move some shelving to clear out the one corner and go from there. I'm actually kind of excited.

Well I should get myself to sleep here. I hope everyone has a fantastic week, its hard to believe its basically December already, where did 2009 go?

Take care everyone.:grouphug:
K

Morning Ladies.

Trying to get on everyday again even when I don't have to much to talk about. I slept like crap last night constantly waking up but now I just don't want to be up eventhough I know I have to be.

I did ok with the diet yesterday. Going to see what the scale says this morning.

Hope everyone has a good Monday.

:hug:

good morning, it is raining and grey but at least it isn't snowing...yet :p

Buddly, so sorry to hear of DdC fainting, hope she is better.

Purefire, sorry you slept like crap :( but hooray on doing good on diet yesterday!

momof4, oh I think we all hate to see ourselves on the harsh reality of video :devil: but it's a very kewl thing you're doing!

hope4me, I am not even close to thinking about decorations. Someone here said something like "Christmas is my favorite time of year, and it's also my worst time of year" and I am exactly the same. I have good memories of Christmas as a child, I don't know where it comes from. Maybe its the huge push on 'getting, buying, spending'.

Hello to Alice, Leenie, marbear, Havisham, lost :wave:

a personal victory for me - I exercised every day of November except for 3 days :)

Hello everyone!! I'm thankful that thanksgiving is over!! LOL!! But now I have to stress out and get the place clean and sparkling again, because our friends are coming from Georgia to visit us next week. I just want to RELAX!!!! I hate being stressed out. And I HATE cleaning. Maybe I should hire a maid?

Another thing I'm tired of, is getting sick every single time I eat. WTF is that all about? I ate a roll, just to see if I would get sick..and sure enough I did. The only thing that doesnt make me sick is drinking water. I'm starting to hate food. Even the smell of it makes me sick. My hubby was eating a turkey leg..and I couldn't stand the smell. I just wanted to throw up. Then last night..he heated up some homemade fries..and the ketchup smell got to me. Oh well..hopefully it passes soon. I'm going to try and eat some oatmeal right in a few mins.

I want to put up decorations. I've been in such a crappy mood for awhile, that I need some Christmas cheer. But, my hubby wants a new tree. I found a pretty white one with blue lights at Walmart for $25!!! So hopefully they will have it at the store. If not, then I'm gonna rush order it online. OH..I tried listening to Christmas music on tv. And it all SUCKS!!!!!!! What happened to the classic Christmas music? It's all been remade and it sounds horrible!! Such a huge let down.

Oh ya..one good thing is happening. My 5th anniversary is on friday!!! YAY!! I can't believe I'll be married for 5 years. Where has the time gone? LoL!! We're going to this tattoo place tomorrow to make an appt to get tattoos. I'm soo excited. I'm getting white hearts on my chest. Hopefully we can do something else besides get tattoos..lol. I just texted my hubs to see if he wants to go to DC..but he hasnt texted me back yet.

VT Mom, Hope4me - I don't decorate for Christmas... we always leave to go elsewhere - so what's the point if we're not going to be in the apt for Christmas or the New Year?

Shop - Congrats on the 5 year mark! Enjoy!!

Pure - :hug: hang in there. Hopefully the meds will make it easier. Rock on as far as your grades are concerned. You're doing great! :)

Mom - I'm excited for you! I'm sure the video will be great - but I know the feeling. I hate seeing myself on video too. I find watching myself from a third person point of view very unnerving... like I've lost control over myself - and I'm a control freak...so it doesn't go well!

Bud - I'm sure whatever you choose to do for the holoday season and new year you'll have fun :)

Not too much here. Super busy with getting stuff ready for the end of the semster. Getting nervous about student teaching. finding it harder and harder to care about my job, as my last day is in less than a month. Freaking out about not working for like 5 months. I feel like an idiot giving up a good job - but I need to in order to Teach - which is what I really want to do! Dah! Needless to say, my nerves are a little... on edge.

WOW everyone is chatting away...LOL


Shop-how come you keep getting sick? Are you pregnant? That is what it sounds like to me, but maybe i missed that post with my first son i got sick with almost everything

mar- it will all work out with the job and student teaching should be kinda fun...i always wanted to be a teach and I guess I am since i homeschool and teach in church...

vermont-WAY to go on the excercise...that is pretty awesome...wish i could say that...wait I ate every day of november...lol...thats probably why i weigh what i do and you are nice and thin...lol

pure-glad you come in and chat with us!!

buddly-i have the pill bottles but some days just start with the kids and i dont remember. hope your dd starts gets back on her feet and in good health. I know people that also had studied with jw and dont now but still do some of the stuff that they did. they take in foster kids and I kind felt bad for those kids cause they dont celebrate bdays and those kids dont understand that..but to each of their owns. I had someone ask me the other day if I had a tree growing up or if my family didnt do a tree. I said we had a tree. God made the trees, we dont worship the tree...lol...we decorated ornaments last yearand had happy birthday jesus on one...so I think it is really how people get into it...if the tree is a daily reminder of God's creation right in my living room...lol...Our tree is HUGE it takes up most of our living room..LOL..Ill have to take a pic and put it on here...kids put almost everything on and the cat and the 2 year old have helped take some off lol...ok gotta go trying to get laundry done

DEF. need my meds because stupid things are ticking me off to the point of wanting to punch the wall...for real...when I forget the meds the withdrawl symptoms are pretty bad...cause Ive never been one to be like that...usually if I got mad i got over it quick and never had the urge to hit anyone or anything.....so the need to punch something is not like me at all....AND I hate feeling like that...going to take my meds!!

Vermont, :bravo: on the exercising. Way to go. I think exercising daily or most days is a great goal to have.

Long day at work for me today. I printed off some stuff that I need to study for my final but I didn't get any studying in. We were busier than I thought we'd be.

Have a great day tomorrow.

No..not pregnant. But I was able to eat today, and keep it down. I didn't feel sick at all. Maybe I'm just stressed or something..I dunno..

Good morning everyone, first day of December, wow! I just finished working out. After regular job today, I'm going to someone's house to show her daughters some basic cake decorating. Hope it's fun for all 3 of us :)