Marbear and Vermont Happy Anniversary!!

Marbear, Havisham and Pure congrats on the weight loss!!!

Momso sorry about your Gram. I've heard that it is very common for people to wait until they are alone to pass on.

Hope hang in there I've been feeling myself sinking, but I'm trying to fight it.

Hi Leenie, Beth, jiggles, Raven, Sassy, Liz, Cathy, homebound, and everyone else

Sunny and cold here as well. It was raining last night and then froze, so my van was a little frozen this morning. Thankfully the roads weren't bad. I still haven't gotten back into that exercise thing. DdB started an early morning babysitting job so we are establishing a new routine here, always hard. At least this week is a lot quieter than last, I felt like I was living in my van with all the running around I had to do.

Take care everyone and have a great day,
K

aw, thank you everyone! I was VERY young, I was 18 when we married, DH was 21. Yes I'm sure my family was groaning and weeping for the inevitable tragedy but we showed them

Havisham, how soon is your b-day?

Hello everyone. Wow, it's November already, October seemed to fly by for me. I am pretty stressed out lately. Seems to be a combination of job burnout, issues with my grown son and his gf, my bf being quite depressed for several weeks and my step dad is in poor health right now.

I am waiting to see a new tdoc. My old one has to take an extended medical leave to have her hip replaced. I feel like I can handle most everything going on but I find myself getting snippy with people. I am pretty sure I am having anxiety symptoms. I don't see my pdoc for a few weeks and I am just trying my best to relax, take it easy and do things I enjoy. So far, so good.

I am off work tomorrow and I plan to take a walk with my bf, maybe at a local park and take some pictures. I also need to stock up on produce and protein. It's odd, I used to dread grocery shopping but these past few months I enjoy doing it.

I hope you all have a good night and a good Wednesday.

just touching in real quick..tomorrow is the viewing....I dont know how I am going to do..I am afraid that I have not yet grieved for my gram yet and seeing her might i dont know push me over the edge...i have been so concerned for my mom. I am at peace with my gram passing but still doesnt mean I wont miss her
Then I have one of my youths mother driving me crazy because on sunday when we were leaving for a revival service a car flew past the church van and ended up hitting a car full of girls that turned infront of him on a blind hill. The one girl was killed so the mother is kinda lecturing me why i didnt show sorrow and advise the kids to go to grief counseling and all kinds of stuff...when I do feel for the families and I have gotten address for the youth to write the girls and the family of the girl that passed...i have sent text out to my youth. The kids were not allowed to go over to the accident while my husband and youth parent went over to help. But grief counseling is not really what they need because they are not grieving over a death of someone they knew...they are all getting a wake up call that these girls were doing nothing other than getting groceries to go home and make supper. They didnt know they werent going to make it home. I really think some of these teens needed to realize how precious their life is. Yes they might need counseling to talk about it and sort their thoughts out. I dont know I was very aggrivated because I was being judged on what i did or didnt do without the parent even asking me what i have done to help the kids...for crying out loud i bend over backwards for these kids...I am feeling guilty for going and staying at my grams funeral tomorrow night and not being at youth with the teens.....I guess to some people nothing is enough for them. ugh...sorry its really bothering me....theres more than just that she going on about but thats the jist of it...
oh yeah not to mention for some reason I am almost 230 again...and I havent really changed my eating paterns that would cause it to go down so I guess its time to do something because if not I have to go buy more pants..and I cant afford that with christmas...ugh....talk about depressing...just a downward spiral with weight...im gaining weight so lets eat more junk because i feel bad...UGHHHH...
ok well im going to bed..sorry cant do personals just cant get to it...thanks for the comments, support, and prayer!

Oh, momof4, you have so much going on now poor girl! I don't think you have anything to feel guilty for, you do so much for the youth group and it's stinky of that woman to criticize you when you do so much, AND when you're already dealing with a family death. You just hang in there and know we're all around you, especially at the viewing <---all of us hugging momof4!

thanks vmom...we will see how tonight goes..that parent wants me to call her but she is going to just have to wait for now!! I need to go do school since i have th funeral tomorrow wont get much done!!

A plus- I did go on live strong my daily plate and update it and figure out how many calories I need to lose weight. I wrote out how many calories then accordingly for each meal so I know what I need to stay in. It worked before and I can NOT hit 230 I refuse to...so I guess its time to change something...bad part is I am motivated and in the mood to excercise but i MUST do the boys school...*sigh*

Happy Wednesday, Chickies,

SO disappointed today as my weight is going UP. I'm going to have to kick myself in to gear, here!

Mom - there just are no words, but you have to give yourself a break. You do an awesome job with your kids and with the youth group, but you can't please all the people all the time. At the risk of being a b***h, the only response to this other mom is "bite me". She wasn't there, she didn't have to deal with it, and it sounds like you have your head screwed on right. The kids aren't grieving a loss, they're dealing with a shock. And you're right, this is life - it's not always pretty and it's not always nice, but it's what it is. What you did show them was strength and compassion, which is exactly what you should have shown. You weeping and wailing (which sounds like what this other woman would have done) wasn't going to help them.

Take a breath - if the boys school doesn't get done for a day or so, that's not the end of the world. If they went to regular school, you'd probably have pulled them out for a couple of days while you went through this - I know most parents do, so if they miss a bit it's easy to catch up. You need to do something just for you - if you give all you have away, what's left?

Vermont - my b'day is Nov 19th. The big 4-0. I had planned to go to Quebec with my oldest son, but I realised I was just stressing about it and it would end up being more of a pain than anything else. Not to mention that it's a $1000 weekend, when that $1000 could buy new snow tires or something. If DH was home, we'd go, but for just me it's not worth it. So, I'll probably just hang out. No-one ever remembers to do anything for my birthday - I'm the one who sets up other's b'day's so when it's mine no-one thinks about it. Still - it's just another day, right? Oh - and I can relate to your marriage story - I got married at 20 after less than four months of knowing my DH - and we're still married almost 20 years on. It's not always easy, but we're still hanging in there!

Hydra - Sounds like we have some stuff in common - the older kids and their woes, job burnout...I think two weeks in Hawaii sounds like heaven right now - who's in??? I've also felt more snippy and anxious lately - as I mentioned earlier, I'm hoping it's not a relapse. hang in there!

Buddly - thanks for the congrats - although right now I'm wondering what I'm doing wrong!

Getting colder here - dustings of snow on the cars last night. I'm tired of everyone asking why I'm still in a t-shirt and aren't I cold. I'm FAT, people - I have layers of warmth to carry around with me. Not to mention, I get in my car in the garage, turn on the heated seats, drive for 50 minutes in the warm (and I can't bear driving with a coat on) and then walk from the car to the office - it's not like I'm traversing the arctic in shorts and a tank top!!

I have my nice, healthy (and delicious) pasta with me, but someone in the office just ordered in Chinese. It smells SO good. Oh, the sacrifices!!

Jiggles, Beth, Leenie, Pure - big hugs and waves!

Hello Ladies....

Its been a frustrating week already with a midterm on Monday in Medical Terminology which I got a 92 on.... a quiz on Tuesday in Anatomy and Physiology which I am not sure if I passed or not. A quiz this morning in Medical Terminology which I know I passed... Tomorrow I have a quiz again in Anatomy and Physiology... but I swear... I don't get that class at all.. I studied and studied... so I don't know.. Luckily it is the last day of classes for this week...

Going to get some sleep...

Have a good night ladies..

Momof4 many prayers coming your way.

Pure, glad this week is over for you, sounds like it way too hectic. Good job on the grades.

Havisham, I know what you mean. I'm always hot. Sometimes I shower twice a day if I'm active b/c I feel dirty or sweaty and I can't stand that. The slightest thing gets me out of breath and overheated.

Hydra, sounds like you have a lot on your plate too. That's a lot of stress to deal with. I hope it lets up soon.

I'm off tomorrow but have a lot of studying to do. Hope you all have a good Thursday.

Good morning ladies, thinking of momof4 and of course everyone else Purefire, congrats on that 92!

I helped a friend pack and move yesterday (well, got her started) for 6 hours, my biceps are sore! and she lives in an upstairs apartment, so lots of up and down. And something very funny happened -

Girlfriend had checked with the store owner next door and got permission for us to look in his cardboard dumpster for boxes. We lifted the cover from one side, and got some good boxes, then saw others on the bottom, on the other side. GF gave me a boost up, and I rested my waist on the top of the dumpster and bent down and was able to reach the boxes, but 2 quarters from my jacket pocket fell out.

Now, come on...why did I think it was worth it to get those quarters?? But I did. I got boosted up again, and two GF's held me by my ankles and I reached way down to the bottom and got the quarters I was able to pull myself back up by using abs (Now I know why I work out! ) and it was pretty funny.

I hope everyone has a good day

Hehehe.
VTMom - your dumpster story made my morning

Hope & Pure - I hope you both do well on the tests you have taken/have left to take. Pure - congrats on the 92.

havisham - I'm always hot, and I've always sweat alot. I was the same when I was under 150 as I am at 210. I have one friends who's always cold who bigger than I am. I say this because I dislike the "I'm fat" answer. You should tell them tha fabulous people are always warm isntead

Mom- You and your family are in my thoughts...

Leeni, Bud, Lost, Hydra, and anyone else I forgot because I smell -

Have a great day ladies.

I'm a little nervous posting here since I have a few folks from real-life who now come to 3FC too ... but they probably already know that I have issues so ...

Let's start with, I take 10 mg paxil for social anxiety and periodic depression. Like many of you, I original went to the doc to get something to relax me, stop the panic, help me sleep. He wouldn't do it. Told me it caused depression-like moods. He wouldn't even consider xanax to help me stop smoking.

We perservered and now I do very well on my paxil.

The only bad situation I still have is the dentist. Doc does allow me to take ativan (lorazepam) before I go. Since I had a few, I took some the night before my appt, some before the appt itself (Wednesday) and ... since I had leftover ... one last night.

I'm irritable, I'm weary, I can't get started doing anything around here. I hurried to the post office and straight back feeling anxious to be back home. I'm uneasy ... nothing is wrong, I just feel uneasy.

It's like I've never been on the paxil. This is how I used to feel.

And!!! I'm retaining fluid ... badly! My face and hands feel huge. My eyelids are actually fluidy looking. I did a little research and fluid retention is a very common side-effect.

I must remember to discuss this with Doc the next time I go. I never thought I'd have to worry about drug interactions if I only took two

So why am I posting? Many times in my life, I've come to realise that if I'm struggling with something ... I'm never the only one.

Vermont - thank you, your story made me smile and I needed that today!

Marbear - I agree on the "I'm fat" thing, and I like your answer. I've always been a warm person and I'm like Hope in that I am obsessive about being clean. I shower every morning and bath most nights just because I feel so concious of the heat. I always have this secret fear of being the fat smelly girl.

Pure - I can so remember those days. When I was doing finals at uni, a girlfriend introduced me to a product called "Rescue Remedy", it's a Bach's Flowers product. All natural herbal blend. You either drop a couple of drops under your tongue, or in to a glass of water and it relaxes you. It helped me enormously, took the edge off, helped me focus and had no negative effects. The only warning I'd have is, if you're planning on having a glass of wine after an exam, do so at home. Nothing major, but you'll just feel extremely happy. Not drunk or high or anything, just very happy. I noticed it driving home - one glass of wine after an exam and I was sat in traffic smiling to myself and singing. Again, not drunk or anything - just very happy.

Mom - I hope the funeral wasn't too horrible. Have a hug.

Leenie, Buddly, Lost, Hydra - Hope all is well and you're quiet becuase you're out living your life!

Very down the last few days and I'm not sure why. I'm sticking to plan but still gaining weight. I blame IBS so I'm sticking with it - one day I'll have dropped like 10lbs over night.

Really worried that I'm starting a slide - I so don't want another breakdown. My meds combo is good and it took me years to find it, and I can't face going through all that again. I'm hoping it's just that it's my b'day and DH isn't here and there are no plans to do anything....I'm probably just feeling majorly sorry for myself. Got home last night and yelled at my oldest DS - so tired of teenage BS, you know? It's when you ask for a simple thing to be done - sweep the kitchen, vaccuum the rug, whatever, and it's all just too much work. So I get in at 6pm, have to make dinner, then do all the jobs he's either not done at all, claimed to have done but I'm not sure, or done but done badly. And he's been home in front of his computer since 3pm. This is one of those times when I'm weary of being alone. So I had a good cry and phoned and woke up DH to cry to him...then I ate a tub of frozen yoghurt. At least it's fat free and high in fibre.

Sorry - needed a little pity party for a minute there - no hard feelings if you all changed post mid-way through.

thanks for listening!

Hi, Susan,

First, anyone IRL who posts here is already a great person - and let's face it, we're all having some issues. You are definitely not the only one.

I was on Paxil for a few years and found it a life saver. However, I found that when I got down to 10mg and below it was like I was on nothing. The anxiety and panic attacks were crippling.

To my knowledge, there aren't any drug interactions between Ativan and Paxil. Maybe it's just where you took a few in a relatively short space of time (and I can totally relate on the dentist - I need at least 2mg to get in to my dentists chair!), and now you don't have it in your system. Little bit of a come down maybe?

That non-specific uneasiness is awful, isn't it? My family always ask what I'm anxious about - and I don't know. It's nothing, and everything. For me (when possible) that's time to snuggle up in pj's and hibernate for a while.

Hang in there - a friend of mine at work always says, 'this, too, shall pass' - and you know what, it will.

to all that need them and who are struggling. For those who feel they are slipping, more .

I've had a very blah day. I was off today and did absolutely nothing. After I got up I hit the couch and didn't move. I took a couple of naps on said couch but that was all. I feel like I'm in a fog today. I really needed to study but I'm barely alert enough to feel guilty that I didn't. TOM is here and that's what I'm blaming it on. I usually have one day where I'm just exhausted but dang. I feel like today has been a dream, and a lazy one at that.

Catch y'all tomorrow.