Weight Loss Support - 300+ and Ready to Try Again... #190

07-15-2002, 01:22 PM

We are a group of people working together to lose our excess weight.
We are on different plans and are of different sizes.
We want to invite everyone to join us in our journey.
We share laughter and tears.
We share what works for us and what doesn't.
We recently started a Topic of the Day.

Monday........Motivation Monday
Tuesday.......Tuesday Tips
Wednesday..... Weigh ins / Wacky/ Way to go Wednnesday
Thursday......Thankful Thursday
Friday........Friday Facials, Fingernails and Fun
Saturday.......Sit-up Saturdays - any physical activity
Sunday.........Soup and Salad Sunday - recipes

These are not required topics ...just ideas to share. We have found them very helpful. We also share heartaches and fears...joys and celebrations.

Please feel free to jump right in with us.
And be sure to check if there is a second page. We don't want anyone to miss any posts.


07-15-2002, 01:44 PM
Andria come to my house when you get done! Mine needs a pulling apart and putting back together too! Badly! I tried to get 2Cute to come but she wasn't buying it!!

Baylee...don't you hate those nights? I hate it when I am up all night and then just when I get back to sleep the darn alarm goes off!

I had a pig out day yesterday...all good for me foods but way over my points range so I am doing some reverse banking this week.

For lunch today I sliced 2 small zucchini lengthwise and marinated them in some ff italian dressing and grilled them. If you cut them on the thicker side they don't get dried out. I also grilled some fresh pineapple. Though I wasn't impressed with them...they tasted like alcohol...I did eat some of it. Its a taste you have to get use to I guess! I also had some tuna mixed with a tablespoon of low fat mayo and a tablespoon of plain ff yogurt with a tsp of relish. Not bad at all for 5 points for the whole can!

Well I guess I gotta get out of here and get the little guy to take a nap so I can! LOL We are joining a mom's group tomorrow so he can have some kids to play with and so I can have some adult coversation!

TTFN Michelle

07-15-2002, 03:01 PM
OH I'm back...but not for long...on the way home from work this morning, a cop pulled me over...(gee, did I flash back to my misbegotten yourth when I saw those flashing lights! What'd I do? What'd I do?) He was kind enough to tell me that my tire was going flat...Nice young fellow. So I was able to get the car home and figured I'd deal with it when dh got home...I know I know...I am woman, hear me roar...whatever...I DON"T WANT TO CHANGE A TIRE! DH (at work, of course...couldnt be on nights this week) told me to get the air compressor and fill the tire with enough air to get it to the gas station...I feel like the kids when you tell them to do something they don't want to...you know, the knees kind of buckle, the head goes back, the grimace on the face...I HATE DOING CAR STUFF! Yeah that's right, I'm a big fat baby...I can accept that. Anyway, I DID it...we're taking it over now...I just have to call my sis to pick us up there...then we're going swimming...so that's not too bad...I guess...

I'll check in later...

07-15-2002, 05:13 PM
Kat...I was checking out www.Dennysrestaurants.com and I have my meal all planned out! Yeah...right..for now anyway...at least until I get there! They even have a boca burger on the menu but don't let them restaurants fool you...that boca burger comes out to be over 16 points! Geesh...when you think you are eating healthy and they throw that at ya! And that oreo cookie pie...uh...I ain't gonna tell you what kind of damage that will to do ya!! LOL

Thin...I missed you on my last post...you are always so busy we don't see you anymore! Take some time for yourself and US! We miss you!

Ok gotta get the boy some dinner going. He is a bear if he doesn't eat by 5 !

TTFN Michelle

07-15-2002, 06:26 PM
Only $546.14 later...4 new tires, an alignment and we're good to go! The guy took one look at the tire and said, "Oh yeah, these Firestones were recalled because of the treads breaking down like you have here..." Funny how, when I took the car back to Costco to have them checked when they had the recall, they told me these weren't the recalled models...GRRRRR....All I can say is THANK YOU GOD this didn't happen on the NJ Turnpike or the NY Thruway or one of the many interstate roads we travelled these past three days...a guardian :angel: is definitely watching over me...someone has to!

For all the bad I thought I have inflicted on my body, calorie-wise, I am up only 1.5 lbs. I'll take that as a small victory and RECOMMIT to good eating and lots and lots of water...geez it's hot! :devil:

Gotta run...need to get some paper work together...we are refinancing our mortgage, again (just did this a year ago, but we can get a 6% interest rate as opposed to the 7.25 we pay now.) Plus we have improved the house since then...new kitchen and bath, so the appraisal should be higher...fingers are crossed. If it wasn't such a significant savings I wouldn't bother...I hate going through all this crap. :p

See ya'll later...stay cool :cool:

07-15-2002, 09:45 PM
I just had to tell you about my roast in the crockpot...it came out sooo good. I just put 1 15 oz can of stewed tomatoes in the bottom and chopped up an onion and put that in then put the roast in and poured another 15 oz can of stewed tomatos on top then sliced a pkg of fresh mushrooms in it and sprinkled a little garlic salt and just a tad of the italian seasoning and cooked it on low all day long! It was soooo yummy! I served the veggies and broth it made over white rice. I wished I had more points to use so I could have eaten more but I will for sure have it for lunch tomorrow!

I do have to tell you about the breakfast cookies! I got them in the mail today and they are oh so good! But....whoever said they could only eat half a cookie and were full have to be those skinny little whatever you want to call them....each cookie is a decent size and thick and soft and chewy and oh so good. The peanut butter one I had today was 6 pts for the whole thing. Some of them are only 4 or 5 points. It took all I had to keep from eating another one. I got the sampler pack. One of each flavor. They say to put them in the freezer which I will have to do to control myself. I think I will have one of those in the morning with a piece of fruit and maybe some tea. They would be great for those who work and need breakfast on the run with a coffee. I will have to order more when I do eventually go back to work!

Well not much else to report here tonight. Andrew won't go to bed yet so he is outside in his PJ's with his dad watering the lawn and flower gardens.

Soooo I'm off to work on some of that algebra I have been putting off since vacation at the end of June. I am oh so far behind! Gotta catch up quickly. The week of August 5th will be here before you know it!

TTFN Michelle

07-16-2002, 12:09 AM
Hey everyone :)

Ok, the entire house wasn't turned inside out, but it looks a tad better than when we started this morning. I think I scared DH and the girls. They didn't think mommy was serious about real cleaning today. :lol:

I saw a great recipe I'm going to type out for you all, but had to respond to Katrina's post first. Would PM it, but thought there might be others of you who could benefit.

Katrina, please do yourself a favor and call that garage back early tomorrow and ask for the DOT's off your supposedly recalled tires? I sell tires all day long, and yes, we have done our share of recalled Firestone tires. Thing is, not as many of those tires were recalled as some shops would like you to think. So many places have taken advantage of consumers. Anyway, if you want to call them and PM or email me the numbers, I'll make a call to Firestone and make sure they really were recalled tires. Get them to tell you size and type as well. Telling you your tires were on a recall when you had them checked somewhere else just doesn't sound right to me.

Yes, I'm more than a bit protective of my friends. :)

And... ummm... is this where I admit to not having EVER changed a tire? :lol:

Michelle, I just ate dinner, but now I'm drooling and ready to go get a roast cooking! Thanks for the grilled zucchini idea as well. We have plenty of those around here. Probably the best reason to leave your car locked here. Someone is likely to fill it with zucchini! ;)

I'm not feeling clever enough to go back through the last thread and reply to everyone. My apologies! I'd probably end up losing everything I've written already. ACK! :)


07-16-2002, 08:57 AM
Thanks for the information, Andria, it pays to have good friends.:angel:

Michelle, you crack me up, checking Denny's menu online. But it is best to be prepared. Just remember your first choice is usually the one to stick with. Whenever I change my mind at the last minute I regret it.

Baylee, Sorry you couldn't sleep. I don't think that has ever happened to me. I can sleep anytime, anywhere. Feel sorry for me...it is suppose to be 100 over here on the West side of our state. I have the afternoon off because I work Saturday morning so I may have to be here to stay out of the kitchen. I don't have anything "fun" and cool to eat so that should help.

Well, better get to work...check you all out later.

I don't think I will be exercising until this weather "shapes up"....

07-16-2002, 09:06 AM
Hi all How are my friends today.
I am good just tired . I have to stay till 8 tonight. We are having a book club meeting in our meeting room. I volunteered to stay so Jan can pick up her kids.:angel:
I'm so sweet

Did I tell all of you that I can't wear Jeans to work when I start the new job? Oh well that gives me an excuse to go buy new clothes:D

Hope all of you have a great day It's really hot a muggy here.

07-16-2002, 12:07 PM
:D Me Again :D

Hi all, hows everyone doing, just peachy I hope. Another beautiful day, but still no rain, they say were dryer than the dirty 30's were. Going camping this weekend so I'm sure it will rain then, or maybe I should wash my car, it always rains when you don't want it to.

Well I weighed myself this morning, Friday is going to be my actual weigh in day, but I just wanted to see if I was on the right track, and so far this week ( since Sat ) I've lost 2lbs, so I guess I'm doing something right. I've got watermelon coming out of my ying yang, I've eaten 1/2 a watermelon since Saturday, it tastes so good in this hot weather. I'm not sure but I think it gives you the runs,:^: well something is.

Remember me telling you lady's, that my DB started a new job, doing his first years apprenticeship for welding, well he seems to be doing great and loving the work, he's been there for about 2 months a has already gotten a 4 dollar raise, his boss is really impressed with him, he's only making 2 dollars less than the journeyman. Finally, something he likes and is good at, and it's year round work, no more worrying about getting laidoff. :D

We went to the rodeo on the weekend, and I think I have a future cowboy on my hands :p My son who is 4yrs old, went mutton busting :sheep: ( sheep riding) they hold the sheeps still and put the kids on and they take off like a bucking horse, My poor boy hung on with all his might, but the sheep tripped and fell and head butted my son giving him a fat lip, He cried for a minute, a little scared I think. Then he was asking that we buy him a sheep, and I told him Dad would have to make lots of money so we can buy a farm for the sheep, and then he say's well then we can buy a farm and buy ten sheep. He's so cute:love:

Well I guess I should go and get some work done,

07-16-2002, 03:33 PM
Since I've been on a one woman wrecking crew, as far as any dietary constraints go...I've decided to stop, take a deep breath, and start over. I will weigh myself tomorrow morning at work...
{ulp}..post the number under my name and weigh in each Wednesday hereafter...(WI Wednesday, NOT Wisconsin). I have got to get this under control... I have monster PMS this week, which is not helping matters.
:mad: :( :devil: :ink: :nono:

HELP! I feel like an addict, who just cannot get enough. I'm trying to analyze the underlying reasons for this ongoing binge...to determine what is scaring me, bugging me, hurting me...I can't come up with anything other than I am just so disgusted with myself that it's almost like I am punishing myself with food by eating everything in sight...I know it doesn't make sense. I have everything in the world to be thankful for. wonderful family, steady jobs for both of us, good health, enough money (not a ton, but enough for our needs...) It's like I feel that I don't deserve to be happy and contented. I am always waiting for the bottom to drop out...it doesn't help that I'm reading "The Pilot's Wife." anyone read this one? :cry:

Enough...I have tons to do...will put the pity party on hold for a bit. I know there's Midol upstairs somewhere...I'm going to take this one step at a time. Got to get some stuff done around here for appraisal tomorrow...like clean! And I have to go to the DMV to register the new car...fun...:p :eek: :dizzy:

Thanks for listening...like you have a choice...I should be back to my chipper self tomorrow...I hope...I love you all...you guys are my strength...so many times I will do the right thing (just not lately) so I can come back here and tell you all...gotta get back to that mindset.

OK...sniff sniff...I'm done for now...I'll be back later...

07-16-2002, 04:03 PM
Yes, Kat, I have read the Pilot's Wife....it just reinforced my belief that you shouldn't be doing deceitful things!!!!! But it is hard on the survivors. (not that Harrison Ford has that tough of a life )- (in the movies version)

I also do what you do....stuff, stuff, stuff. For me I believe I am looking for something to fill myself up NOT FOOD. I have come to the conclusion that it is love. I know people love me, but I don't FEEL it. Does anyone understand? There are things that have happened in my life, not unusual or the worst but my reaction was to shut down emotionally. It has protected me but also keeps me from truely feeling. It's funny you posted what you did and it brought all this up for me. I just moved back to this area 1 1/2 years ago. There is a person from my past that I could and would FEEL life with. We were platonic friends only because he is my brothers best friend. We have always had this "connection". We can just look at each other and know what is going on. (okay to shorten this story)

His Dad died a few months ago and he took over his business - 3 miles away from me. I meet him on the road every single day now. Bad news is he is married now, but the good news is everyday when I see him I try to understand WHY this is happening. I guess I think it is to remind me that it is possible to have such a relationship????? I would NEVER do anything about him now and neither would he because of his wife and kids but ..... life is interesting.

Anyway, that is why I believe I stuff myself....:o

07-16-2002, 09:47 PM
HELLO?? ANYONE OUT THERE? I'll be good, no more whining...

I'll be checking later, hope more come out to play!

07-16-2002, 10:21 PM
Hey everyone :)

Mind if I whine for just a bit? There have been electrical storms all around us the last few days. They started all sorts of fires, and the sky is back to being a funky gray color all day. So, not only do I not get a nice dose of daily sunshine, but I can't breathe either. It was so bad this morning that I had to stop moving during water aerobics. I got things slowed down and was able to continue at a much lower level after a few minutes, but it was upsetting that it got that bad. I haven't used an inhaler for almost 7 years now, and I don't want to begin again. Have no fear, if I need one, I will use it. I just don't want to, you know?

Enough whining!

Day has been good, food has not. I'm going to call this a blow off day for the week and make sure no other one gets this bad. Seems I've been treating myself all day long. A little bit here and a little bit there have all added up to more than enough. So, I'm going to make a nice dinner with lots of roasted veggies and make myself stop before this gets out of hand.

Here is that recipe I promised yesterday. It is from The Pampered Chef.

Southwest Turkey Salad

2/3 c. mild salsa
1/2 c. sour cream (I suggest FF or plain yogurt)
1 Tbsp. cumin
3/4 tsp. salt
1/2 tsp. ground black pepper

1 can (15 ounces) kidney beans
1 can (17 ounces) corn kernels
2 cups (8 ounces) cooked turkey, cut into 1/2 inch cubes
3 celery stalks, diced
8 lettuce leaves, shredded
2 c. unsalted tortilla chips

In 1 3/4-Qt. Bowl combine all dressing ingredients; refrigerate. Rinse and drain kidney beans in 1-Qt. Colander. Add corn to Colander; drain well. Cut turkey into 1/2-inch cubes. Combine turkey, celery, beans, and corn in Bowl. To serve, divide lettuce between 4 plates. Top with turkey mixture; garnish with tortilla chips. Serve dressing on the side.

Yield: 4 servings

Nutrients per serving: Calories 434, Fat 11 g, Sodium 1,680 mg, Dietary fiber 13 g

11 grams of fat is high for one meal for me. Changing out the sour cream will reduce that number drastically. Leaving out the tortilla chips would lower it as well.

Time to get out of here. Have a great evening! :)


07-16-2002, 10:28 PM
Hey Guys Thanks for all the prayers. My friend is out of CCU and in a room. they took out her feeding tube and IV. I love you all.

07-16-2002, 10:29 PM
I heard you calling Kat....

We had a busy day today...well semi busy! This morning Andrew and I went to the Playground to check out the mom's club and he had a ball playing with all the kids. There were so many of them. He did get knocked down by a kid on a swing but not very hard. I think it scared him more than anything. He fell down on the sidewalk while he was running and skinned his little knee a bit..nothing bad just a light abrasion!! Poor little guy. After lunch he took a 3 hour nap he played so hard. I am trying to get him to go to sleep now. He keeps rolling around in his bed yakking! After his bath he went outside with his dad to water the garden and he played out there for quite awhile so he is really tired now!

Not much else to report here. I did manage to bank 5 points tonight even though I ate 3 of those breakfast cookies throughout the day. They are just soooo good! I had one before dinner and wasn't hungry afterwards but I did eat some mixed veggies so I wouldn't pick later on.

Baylee you are lucky you don't care for sweets. I'm not a real big sweet fan...like you I would rather have pizza, french fries, mashed potatos, bread and butter and meat. But every once in awhile I go through a sweet spurt! I'm excited about meeting Kat too. I wish more of us lived closer so we could meet!

Lucky I am an emotional eater too. I need alot of attention and if I don't get it then I turn to food. Comfort food and if I am stressed I do the same. GOtta work on that part!

Kat I like your one woman wrecking crew! LOL

Duckie glad to hear things are looking up for you!! Kids are so much fun aren't they???

Mary...dressing up does make us feel good about ourselves! You may be on to something there!!

Andria send some zucchini this way! I didn't plant any this year and I am kicking myself. Got a late start with the garden and lost interest. I have tomatos, grape tomatoes and one pepper plant that made it and a couple of eggplant that are hanging in there! With the drought we had it was tough trying to keep up with the plants. I think I have some cherry tomatoes that reseeded themselves from last year too! Pretty soon I will be all tomatoed out but leaving them in unlocked cars is something to consider!

2Cute, Tina, THin, THERESA, Jen...where are you all??? Susie you too and Sara and Malia! Come out and post and let us know whats up with you all!!

Well I will get off here and get some more algebra done! Playing catch up really stinks!!

TTFN Michelle

07-16-2002, 10:59 PM
A friend just sent this to me, and I wanted to share it with all of you. It is a paragraph out of a Chicken Soup story.

I believe that each of us lives in a prison of our own

making. We can allow ourselves to become prisoners of our

own hearts and emotions - restrained by the chains of

unfulfilled goals and dreams that have dissolved. Four

walls alone does not a prison make; it can be a place, a

condition of life, or even a holding pattern - a place

where we merely exist.

Nanci McGraw

How much longer will I remain my own jailkeeper? Time to set the prisoner free.


07-17-2002, 01:45 AM
Ah, the sweet taste of freedom....why am I trapped in a world of my own making?...I'm breaking out, starting with eating healthy.

My el poocho went to the vet today for his emasculation. Poor Mikey, he knew something was happening. Looked very sad. I took him on his walk this morning. I'll miss my walking partner, bedmate, just plain old pest. Hope everything goes okay.

I'm learning simple German. Can the language be called simple?

Thin, did you see men in black II. It was hilarious. I like Tommy Lee Jones and the crickets? I'm looking foward to austin powers. Another week. Sigh....

Read your delicious recipes, dinner is calling to me. Think I'll make hot chicken salad sandwich.


07-17-2002, 04:41 AM
Gee... soooo many replys I want to post... but just too late to start. If I responded to one ... I would want to respond to all.

I did great on my food out of town !!!
I was alone with ice cream, creme puffs, pepsi, huge soft choc chip cookies.... the list goes on and on. BUT I DID NOT EVEN TOUCH any of them. :D
I was soooooo good !!! I even ordered salad at BurgerKing.
I drank water, water and more water.
It feels soooo good. :cool:

Can't stay and visit... got to get to bed. It is 3 am here.

07-17-2002, 11:21 AM
Hey where da heck is everyone this morning!!!

I tried to take Andrew to the mommy and me WW class this morning but we couldn't stay because he was running all over the place and at the door and just not cooperating very well. Oh well...maybe next year when he is a bit older and can understand that he has to play quietly! I'll get to stay at my sunday meeting this coming week because John is off this weekend.

Not much else going on except than darn algebra just won't go away. Its like those stubborn pounds that won't go away!

I;ll check back in later!

TTFN Michelle

07-17-2002, 12:06 PM
Did ya miss me?! :p

Weigh-In Wednesday! I have been VERY well behaved this week... my food was right on track and I played tennis a good 5 times (I'm actually starting to hit the ball BACK when it comes to me!) :lol: Result? 3 pound loss!...so my total since May 29/02 is a total of 33 pounds!

2cute... good job going to Burger King and getting a salad! Our lives seem SOOO full of temptation. Lately I've found that people, without meaning to be, are slightly intolerant of my diet. We tend to go out to eat a lot and there's been a few times recently that the menu was absolutely unacceptable for my diet and I chose to wait and grab a healthy sub later. I get a lot of "Look, this item isn't THAT bad... it even has broccoli... maybe you should try it." The thing is, my diet has become SO important to me for a variety of reasons and I'm not going to make exceptions every second day because we happen to be out with friends. If I was a recovering alcoholic, I wouldn't "make an exception" and down a beer just because I went to a barbeque this weekend! Whew... I've said all this to ask, does this happen to anyone else?

Andria... that was an AWESOME quote. I re-read it a few times; it's SO true. I think I'm going to write it out and keep it somewhere in my house.

Malia... hope everything goes smoothly with your pooch at the vet. I know I was so concerned for my kitty when he went to get fixed. When we got home, his butt was still frozen and everytime he tried to jump on the bed next to me, he would only make it halfway up and then his frozen butt would drag him back down. I felt SO mean for getting him fixed and started sitting on the floor with him to keep him company... but a couple of days later he was back to his old self!

I actually gotta get going because my husband wants on his computer! (I tried to use his while he was busy because it was already on instead of mine and now he's waiting to check his email.)

Sara :)

07-17-2002, 12:09 PM
I want to post before I get lost in slumber land...tried to before and actually fell asleep at the computer! What I sight that must have been! Head back, mouth open...I paint a pretty picture don't I? I had to get up and run around quickly to give this place a lick and a promise before the appraiser got here...he is now gone...we should close on the new loan in a few weeks...going to pay off ALL credit cards and the one loan we have out for the new roof...then we'll have only 15 years left on the mortgage...Looking towards the future, just reinforces the need to be healthy, so I can ENJOY my golden years...not be saddled with any the ailments that are a direct result of obesity...diabetes, heart disease, stroke, cancer...I see it all around me, every night at work...the ravages of these afflictions...I don't want to go down that road...

I'm rambling...so I'll get on with replies before I slip into total incoherence...

Michelle...sounds like your little guy had a blast...how cute, (and tiring!) running around the playground with a bunch of kids...nice for you too, to get a chance to converse with adults! I'm not sure about this weekend yet, (going to PA) I don't know if my daughter is coming home this weekend...I will keep you posted...don't worry, we WILL get together soon...I know where that Denny's is!

Andria...Thank you so much for your concern about me and my tires! I didn't feel "ripped off" by the guy who just sold me the new tires, more like by Costco, who didn't replace the old ones that were recalled. I don't know how much of this I can pursue, without the original receipt from Costco. This new guy said I should either buy two or four tires...I opted for four, since they were all showing signs of wear... they had about 40,000 miles on them. We're driving up to Maine this summer...don't want to have to worry about funky tires...

OK...who lives in the greater Maine area? I'm coming!

2cute...I am SO proud of you for not giving in to all those temptations! Those soft choc chip wouldn't have stood a chance, alone in a room with me! You go girl!

Lucky...I think that you and I are the the same emotional plane when it comes to stuffing our feelings. I know exactly what you mean when you say about not feeling love...I don't know if I feel it that way... I do know dh & kids love me, my family loves me, but maybe what I'm feeling is that I don't deserve it, or that if I truly relax and accept their love, it will all be taken away from me...I don't know what makes me feel this way, I have never experienced the loss of a close loved one...one more thing to discuss with the shrink...if and when I ever go.

Mary...I'm so happy about your friend! Prayer TRULY works! Have fun buying your new, smaller wardrobe for work!

Malia...how is the pooch dealing with life as a eunuch? I know he'll be fine before you know it. Sprechen ze Deutsch?? I'm just curious...(nosy)...Any reason in particular you want to learn German? I liked MIB II...love Tommy Lee in anything!

Duckie! So happy things are going well for you and your guys! What a brave little fella you have there! Congrats on 2# off! I love watermelon too...

Baylee...are you staying cool? We have had some HOT days, but the humidity hasn't been too, too bad lately...they say that's all going to change, though, as of today and for the next few day...:p We are heading down to the shore on Sunday for a few days...sis and family have rented a beach houe for the week...can't wait...I LOVE the beach.

Thanks to all who posted recipes...they all look great!

My son is chastising me for not going to bed and staying up too long on the computer? hmmm...a little role reversal?

Gotta run...I love you all...

PS, I missed weighing in this AM, will do it tonight (so it will still be on Wednesday!) Dreading posting the number, but maybe seeing it will reiforce the need to always work on getting that number down.

see you later...

07-17-2002, 08:12 PM
Kat: truly relax and accept their love, it will all be taken away from me

I forgot to add that to my post....having it all taken away. I know that is my problem...If I "get it" it will be take away. BUT with age I have learned some things....:lol: really, I have.

I have learned in my head that it is better to give and accept love, enjoy it and when it's taken away I will survive. As I said I know this in my head.....I haven't practiced it .... of course then there is trust!!!! Geez.....I sure hope I get all of this soon before it's too late.

07-18-2002, 02:51 AM
Hello friends. I am not going to be here as often. :(
It is a longgggg story... and I just don't know where or how to start. I will still post... but I am finding TIME hard to come by lately.
BUT .. I want to emphasise that I AM MAKING TIME for my recovery. I just can't do it all and sitting at a computer as much as I have been has to be replaced with some actions that are more productive.

I am gone sooo much because of my parents... and when I am home I spend hours and hours trying to catch up. My home is suffering... my husband is suffering... my recovery was suffering.

My food is GREAT !!!!!! I am following my program and I am drinking my water. I even went and made myself a salad AFTER I ate a dinner with no veggies... because eating veggies and salads are a priority for me!!! I am feeling good about my recovery again. :D

I just can't find the time to reply to everyone here and in another site I belong to.... and if I read ... I feel compelled to reply to everyone. LOL
Soooooo I am not going to stress over replying and just post when I can find the time.
I feel like I am deserting you.... but as I learned many years ago.... "I am not doing this to hurt you... I am doing this to help me." To help me get this fat off before it is too late.

I know you need and deserve a more detailed explanation... just know I LOVE YOU ALL !!!!! :love:
Now that I have said this... watch me come in more than ever. :lol:

Baylee... I do want to respond to something your said.
Quote: " It takes a lot of strenght and will power... or is it won't power?"
It is WILL power... lol
I WILL eat my veggies today
I WILL drink my water today
I WILL follow my chosen food program today
I WILL become more active today

You all know me.... I am a "POSITIVE AFFRIMATION" person.
I believe in re-wording what you say to positive affirmations.
Change "I won't cheat today" to " I will follow my program today"
Change "I won't ever eat this again" to "I will follow my program"

Progress not Perfection.... Practice makes Progress .... Today is the Day ... If they can do this, SO CAN I.

Sara... I LOVED what you said about standing FIRM for your program. If we were alcoholics we would have to say NO and stand FIRM.

I sat my husband down tonight and told him "firmly".....
"I do NOT want you asking me to get ice cream or candy bars or any other sugary or starchy food. I am tired of this binge buddy eating and I want it to QUIT. My life depends on it. I cannot keep maintaining this weight. I must do it... and I MUST DO IT NOW !!!!"

I don't blame him in any way. I am ...ooppss.... WAS the weak one. But I am not going to be weak anymore!!!! Since I have a problem saying no.... I am removing the temptation.

Oh I want to go back sooooo bad and reread every post and reply... but that is one of my problems. Compulsive people saver ....LOL .... like I really could save anyone. What an ego. :o
Actually... I am more of a compulsive people pleaser than a saver. But one thing I do know.... I NEED TO SAVE MYSELF before I die weighing 300++++++++.

I will be back... and often I am sure. But please understand... I need to bury myself among people on MY food plan of chose.
I keep trying to do WW and WW is not the program that works for me. Low carb works for me. In fact, it is the only program that has ever worked for me. I love all of you... but most of you are WW and I keep flipping LC/ WW.... LC/WW. It just doesn't work flipping. I need to focus on my low carb plan in a low carb site where I hear everyday how to learn to live this as a way of life.
Low carb is not no carb. It is also NOT high protein and fat. Low carb is eliminating sugar and starch and replacing with green leafy and low carb veggies. Yes we get more protein and fat than on a low fat diet... but it is by no means high protein or fat.

Here I sit... :cry: .... crying my eyes out. :cry:
This is by far the hardest post I have EVER written.
I love you alllllll sooooo much. I am still ALWAYS here for you. Send me a PM and I will get an email and I promise to respond asap. Just remember if it takes a day or so... I am probably at my parents. I hope ... no, I know ... I am always going to be welcomed here. And when I am stronger in my new way of living... I will be able to come here more often and not be tempted to do WW. But untill I get that strenghth... I am going to have to dedicate more of my time to a LC site and less time here. DAMN... this is soooooooooo HARD. :cry: I don't think you know how much I really love you guys.

I promise... my next post here will be more uplifting.
It will be sharing my GREAT SUCCESS !!! :D :D
I already have ONE WEEK as of today !!!!
I will keep you posted.... I will even copy and paste any great words of wisdom that pops out of this little brain of mine. LOL

Until later.... just remember. I really love you all !!!!
(and this was going to be short... lol ... see my problem. lol )

07-18-2002, 05:29 AM
Hi everyone,

Wow! That's some post you just made 2cute. Just know we're here for you no matter what plan we're on and you're on. It's the spirit that moves us. I'm in the same position you're in, I've lost my focus. Outside influences have overwhelmed me and it's a big disappointment. Everyday I feel the need to start from scratch. What I forget is compared to 7 months ago, I'm eating 10times healthier, drinking water, and exercising. Sure the weight is not moving, but I must remind myself daily that healthy was my goal and losing weight the bonus.

I'm a little German for the trip. It's very hard. The tongue needs to contort in strange ways. The dog will be coming home tomorrow. I miss him terribly.

Take care.

07-18-2002, 09:53 AM
2cute we will miss you but we are here for you.
I also love all of you I couldn't do this without my friends.

07-18-2002, 10:19 AM
Hello all! :wave: Today makes 2 years for our thread!!! Happy Birthday everyone! :hb: I can't believe we're on #190, that's alot of yacking! :D

I still have not been able to go back and read everything I missed. Sometimes I feel like 2cute that I spend so many hours trying to catch up and then I don't have any time to write, or that I want to write to each of you and just can't spare the time. My house has been falling apart, I'm working crazy hours and gosh, what other excuse am I going to use?

I do want to tell you that I hope the tide of new jobs that was prevelent here a couple of weeks ago will extend to my house. Maybe some of you remember at Christmas time that my DH interviewed for a job, got a second interview and was between 2 finalist for it, then no call. Well he got a call from a recruiter yesterday and that same job is being posted again, apparently the woman they hired for the job is not working out. Ladies, this is my husband's dream job. It is back in his field that he has been trained for. It is 15 miles closer to home. It's in a different direction from the house so he won't be on the road for an hour each way. Keep your fingers and toes crossed.....please.....this would make our lives so much easier. Oh BTW, did I mention it's $20,000 more a year??? When he took the job he has now, he took a $10,000 cut in pay. This job is $10,000 more than he was making to begin with. WooHoo, that would be soooooo nice. Anyway, any prayers you can send this way, please do.

I had a real revelation last week when I went to visit my little nursing home resident. I saw myself! :( Sure, you say. Well it was a woman, probably not much older than I am, in the widest wheelchair I've ever seen. I had often thought that I hope nothing happens to me that I would ever be confined to a wheelchair because I'm sure they don't make them big enough for me. Well, I guess they do. And if I don't get some of this weight off, I will find myself in one. It was really an awakening!

Duckie: Welcome back!

You girls that are meeting, I'm so envious! It would be so cool if we could all get together, some way, some how.

Malia: Glad you're back too. You were AWOL for awhile.

2cute: I certainly understand where you're coming from. Immurse yourself in success, honey. Just know we're all standing beside you urging you on.

Mary: I'm so glad your friend is doing better. I was wondering and afraid to ask. I'm so happy that she is improving.

I know I'm missing all the rest of you, but I haven't really read, I've just skimmed. Know that I love you all and maybe my life will be less hectic one of these days and I can get here more often.

"Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it." - Goethe

07-18-2002, 01:44 PM
Hi Ladies,

Sorry haven't posted recently, but we got back from Florida last Friday, and ever since then, things have been totally frantic.

I have not read the posts and probably won't get much of a chance, but I did read the post from 2Cute. I love you girl, hope all great things come your way!

Happy 2nd birthday to this group. I am afraid that I haven't even lost 50 pounds since starting it, but I haven't gained my weight back either. So cheers....

Vacation with Mickey Mouse was great but disasterous at the same time. I walked my butt off, but I ate so much ice cream and magic cookies that I ended up gaining 5 pounds!!!!!!!! Ouch..... I am doing well back, but I am stressing about home, work, etc... as usual.

This weekend is my 15th High School Reunion, so no relaxing this weekend either.....

I am so sorry that I don't post that often. I started this post to keep me honest and meet some great people, and while I have met some absolutely wonderful people, I just haven't had the time that I need to stay active on it. I will not stop posting, but please excuse me for not posting often.

Well, I am trying to finish lunch, cause I have a million things to do before the end of the workday. Love you all.


07-18-2002, 03:24 PM
Hey all...

I can certainly relate about not having the time to keep up, esp when you are involved with more than one thread...I try to limit my time to an hour, but it's hard, when you want to reply to everyone, etc...2cute, we'll take you however we can get you...so come and see us whenever you can!

I'm sneaking this post in, actually, while my son and two nephews are busy washing the cars...I figured if I asked them to water the lawn or the the flowers, they'd groan, so I pulled both cars up onto the grass, gave em a few buckets and said "go to it." Of course, they immediately all wanted the same sponge...:p

Thin... Big GIANT prayers are coming your way for hubby's job!!! Finger, toes and eyes are crossed...see? :dizzy: We have those "WIDE LOAD" wheelchairs at work...I always cringe when I see them!

Baylee ...you are cookin' girl! WTG on all the exercise...I have been a slug lately in that dept...now that I am off for 10 heavenly days, I intend to get more regular activity of some sort in...

Malia... Thank you for pointing out the BIG PICTURE...the weight may nopt be moving as quickly as we'd like, but we are in the meantime developing healthier habits...in the long run, we are improving.

Mary... How is the job coming along?

Sarajoy... Congrats on 3 more lbs! I'd say you are the official thread "loser" this week. You are doing great...keep it up!I have found that people's "intolerance" usually stems from envy at our resolve...which only serves to make me that much MORE diligent just to PISS them off even more! (nice)

Lucky... <<"I have learned in my head that it is better to give and accept love, enjoy it and when it's taken away I will survive.">> Thank you for those words...they have been running through my mind and make so much sense...thanks for your words of wisdom...

Michelle... I'll bet you are off playing with Andrew somewhere...they sure keep you young, don't they? Still up in the air about PA...I'll PM you if there's any chance of me coming that way! LIke I said, we WILL get together!

Susie... glad you enjoyed your trip to Micky-ville...it's amazing, isn't it? how we walk and walk and walk and STILL manage to bring home a few extra lbs...Got to LOVE those ice cream breaks, though! :T

Tina and Duckie...Hey! What'going on? Pop in and give us the scoop, huh?

I just got a call from work...they have me on the schedule for tonight...I informed them that I turned in my schedule request for the entire summer back in MAY...not only am I off tonight, I am off for the next 10 days! Wild horses couldn't drag me back in there! They offered me time and a half AND $50 incentive pay...and I said no thanks...I am THIS close to that new job, just waiting to hear if they will match my salary...I'm sure they will...should start in September...keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Have a great day...

PS...see, I AM better, not as grouchy...I should be back in manic phase in a day or too...SO LOOK OUT!