I just came home from the salon - spent Valentine's evening with my hairdresser...LOL. What a depressing day when you're single.
Anyway, I'm home now - changed into comfy clothes, lit the fireplace and am enjoying some Valentine's wine on my own (I know, I know...liquid doughnut, but I'm indulging)...
NE Mom - South Dakota - awesome!!! My sister lived in Fargo for about 5 years - I went up to visit her - it was AWESOME!!!! And do NOT cave!! Use the e-cig, buy gum, you can do this!!!
2FatCats - I LOVE your deal with your hubby!!! That's AWESOME!!! LOL
LindaWW - congratulations on your 3 pound loss!! WOO HOO!!!! Keep up the awesome work!! You inspire the rest of us!!!!
Well - I'm going to find a chick flick to feed my depressive Valentine's Day mood...LOL. Actually I think I'm going to watch the movie "Valentine's Day" - there's a girl on there that has an "I hate Valentine's Day" party - (she ends up meeting someone in the end - - there IS hope!! )
Healthy day. Walked in the park. I love to do that because it always lifts H's spirits. And when his spirits are lifted, mine follow suit.
Have to work early all this weekend. Oh, well. Hope everyone had a nice Valentine's day. I did okay. A co-worker brought in a whole jumbo jar of Hershey's kisses. UGH! I however only had 2. That for me was great considering anything filled with candy & open around me is usually EMPTY when I get around it.
Let me share with you some photos I took while on my walks yesterday & today. ENJOY!!!
Gotta head to bed. 6AM comes awfully early. for you all!!!
I'll catch up with you all as time permits over this weekend. BE HEALTHY! BE GOOD!
I can NOT believe it's mid-Feb already. I've been drinking from the fire hose while burning the candle at both ends. ExHauSted. Annnnd the stress is affecting my weight loss. Ugh .
Well...I had my 3 month birthday, so I spose I should pause and reflect. 20lbs lost. But all lost in the 1st 2 months; nothing this month. I'm quite sad & frustrated about that. Good news is...I am not gaining it back, and I AM NOT GIVING UP! The food/eating is AOK, but Exorcise is taking a back seat to everything else. And I know I need to alter my clock so I eat more in the morning and less later in the day. Sooooo.......
Spent VD at work until almost 10pm, early for me these days. TH bought flowers...white carnations & white daiseys with a few red carnations. I told him the bouquet looked like it was on its period. 'T' sometimes stands for 'Turdy', not 'Trophy'....like last weekend when we had a mini blowup....Over nothing....And of course, with the stress and tiredness and Major TOM arriving, I got down in the dumps more than I should have. Men . Shiela22...how you can go on a blind date ON A SCHOOL NIGHT (!) is a mystery to me. I figure, I've got patience enough for only one significant other. I couldn't bear the thought of having to train a new one! ha! Seriously, thanks for sharing your dating stories. You and Zumba keep me young! Your date sounded like an episode of Mad Men....we're into the 2nd season of that series (my only special treat these days) and we're really enjoying it. Tho, all the drinking and smoking (and sexism) on the show makes my stomach queasy. My DS12 hit the VD jackpot....(ok that does sound very very wrong!). Several valentines, some from 'Secret Admirer'. I arrived home to find him lifting weights in my room! Oh No! Heeeeere we go.....!
Glad everyone's little ones are doing better. Oh! Oh! Oh!....Speaking of vacations....I need some advice...I have a use-it-or-lose-it airline refund. Where can we go on a quick vacation? Somewhere warm and beachy, not out of the country, and not too expensive. Any suggestions? I just don't know when I will have time to even think about a vacation.
Too tired for a focused train of thought, so I'll sign off. HOLD ON TO THOSE WAISTBANDS, LADIES!!!!
UGH! Busy weekend at work...glad that is over. I was over on my eating...TOM decided to show up. Now everything makes more sense. I was craving all sorts of salt, starch & sweets. I was really hoping I was starting menopause. Oh,well.
I had my 2 days off from exercise. The way my boss has my schedule set up is that my "days off" from walking are the weekends...I have to be to work early 30. I'll get my walk in tomorrow AM though.
SeeMyFeet: Go some place you thought you'd never make it to. I'd find out what my options were, pick my favorites & go from there. DEFINITELY USE IT! I'd LOVE to go on vacation...maybe after H gets his pacemaker. I'd hate him to have issues or not be able to enjoy to the fullest extent. Let us know what you decide!!! I'm soooo excited for you!
newleaf: Old habits? Because we are human. We fall back on to them in times of stress, crisis, boredom... Forget about slipping up. Pick yourself up. Dust yourself up. Try again. Remember it's a journey.
FatCats: Like your new profile pic! I could add my Agatha to it! She'd fit right in...if she wasn't such a prima donna & didn't like to share. She'll share the bed with me for only a couple of reasons...I feed her, pet her & brush her. Yes, I am HER SERVANT!
Yeah, my hubby is pretty much a year round romantic too. Not so much in gifts but in doing things for me, being with me. Did I ever mention he is an awesome cook? Yeah, he's had to change up many of his cooking ways with us needing to eat much healthier, but he's still really good in the kitchen.
Linda: CONGRATS on your loss! That is AWESOME!! Hope you enjoyed your weekend with your family. It sounds like a lotta fun.
NEMom: Don't be a slave to your scale. Remember it is a tool. You're probably thinking...YEAH! In more than one way!!! Go ahead put it away for awhile. I've given up on my scales for awhile...probably til I know exactly WHEN H will get his pacemaker. I just can't seem to loose. It's okay though! I just have to eat healthy, exercise, drink plenty of H2O & pop in here to get support & be supportive. Focus on your journey. Remember technologyu is only here to frustrate us!
'Kay. I'm really sleepy. It's only about a 1/4 to nine but I'm beat. I think it's time for a shower & bed. This means I'll be able to get up early, make H & I something heathy for breakfast, go for a nice long walk & get ready to go back to the place that holds my paycheck hostage.
BE HEALTHY!!! BE KIND TO YOURSELF!!! BE THE AMAZINGLY AWESOME WOMEN OF THE 40-SOMETHING BOARD I KNOW YOU ARE!! GO!!!! GO!!!! GO!!!!
This weekend at my folks has gone well eating/exercise wise. Not as much exercise as I'd like but we've done some walking each day. Now have to make it through next weekend (also here) then VEGAS!!
Hope each and every one of you have a wonderful day! Keep up the good work!
Everybody is so busy. I am glad you all take a minute to check in and let me know how your doing!
Thanks for your encouragement Mrs.Trying. I have put my scale away until this Friday. I was off plan for the past three days. Did not eat too bad Friday and Saturday but Sunday was awful! I am also off track on the C25K program. I did exercise this morning but did not do the program on Friday and today. I will start back on Tuesday and try for every other day this week.
We did find a house in South Dakota. Hoping to close mid April and will get to have our first holiday weekend in May there. We are very excited! It is a great place to spend time with our family and have fun.
Have a great Monday all! We are suppose to get lots of snow this week. Ick.
Friday I spent two hours composing a long, thought out post with personal replies to everyone (while watching 2 tv shows). Then one wrong click of the mouse and the tab with all my typing was gone! I was so mad & sad I haven't been back since.
This week is going to be CRAZY so I know I won't have time for personals. But know I'm reading every day and cheering you all on! My happiness is a 4 pound whoosh this morning. Well, it's been going down all week, but today is my official weigh-in. Down to 192.
I need to give a shout out to ZUMBA- Could you keep the snow where you are, please?? They are predicting 2 feet of snow here Wed/Thursday. It has been a LONG time since we have had that much snow at one time. I live in a small town and will be snowbound for a day or two. Just hope we do not lose power. Actually, I hope the storm misses us and we do not end up with that much snow.
Food yesterday was within calorie range. Completed week 4 for C25K this morning. Using the treadmill so it will be interesting to see how long I can run for when the weather is nice and can get outside and give it a go.
Not in a great mood today. Totally PMSing and in a bad mood.
I have been incognito for about 5 months . In that time I have gained 12 unwanted pounds of fat back. Yesterday I wrote a contract to myself. It is 5 pages so I wont bore you with the details. I will just say that being here and reading other stories that are similiar to mine and having a place to come and say what is on your mind is what helped me through the first part of my weightloss journey. I know how important it is for me to stay here, read here, write here, listen here. I am accountable only to myself but having you all here sure does help the process and it sure makes it easier. So here is part of my contract to myself This is my contract to myself. It is embarassing to share so much detail of what is going on in my life but I have to I have to be honest. I have to get it out there and I have to move forward....
Today is February 18, 2013.
I have clear goals set for myself this year – from today until Nov 18th. I have drive, I have motivation, I have time and I have the skills needed. This is my year to change me on the inside and out. I am done feeling sad, stuck, lonely and overweight. I only have this one life and it has been miserable lately. This year I will do whatever it takes to meet people, to make friends, to join goups. I have to get rid of Tina as a friend. She is not the type of person I need to be around. I don’t want to feel miserable anymore. I don’t want to feel like a failure anymore I don’t want to feel like a victim anymore. I don’t want to be in relationships anymore that are not mutually beneficial, I don’t want to give everything to someone and not have it given back. I don’t want to be in the same place as I am today in 12 months. I am done with all of it. I can and will make the changes that I have stated in this contract to myself. I will not give up until I have some good solid end results for myself have been accomplished. For my life, for my future. One other thing I will work on is buying a house by the water. I will own my beachouse outright on a small island where there is community where I feel like home. where I can live the rest of my life in peace hearing the ocean waves as I go to bed every night.
Goals:
March 18th 262
April 18th 252
May 18th 242
June 18th 232
July 18th 222
August 18th 212
Sept 18th 202
October 18th 192
November 18th 182
Dec 18th 172
To do this I am committing to myself
• Follow Walk-Run Program M,W, F 40-45 min of walking running, Sat. is a long run
• T,Th Arms, Legs, Back, Shoulders through P90x
• Eat 5 bars per day Plus one meal
• Drink 1 diet soda per day
• Drink 90 oz of water per day
• I will not eat out
• I will not pass by candy in the office and say its ok to eat just one piece
• I will have self-control. I will not fail at this. I will practice self-control every single moment of every single day….
• I can do this. I have gone without sweets for months at a time at other points in my life. I have to practice control with this each time I walk by and want to grab something.
• During this time I will continue to budget my money and pay off the IRS. My goal is to get this lien off my credit this year and find a new happiness in my work. I can’t do that with this hanging over my head and need to focus on the goals I have set from Jan 31t to July 23rd. I will pay the IRS off, make a deal with them or do whatever I have to do to make this happen.
• In August I will go on a vacation
• I will not take anything from work personally. I am doing the best that I can for this job and if it’s not good enough well that is there issue not mine. Part of my problem has always been I take this **** way to personally.
Finally I will work hard at getting my business off the ground. Now is the time. Its been put in my path and I have the resources I need to get it done so I can work for myself.
Decent day. Got to sleep in! Woo Hoo! Had to walk indoors (the mall) because we were having wacky weather...rain, snow, hail even a small tornado about 25 miles from us.
H had a couple episodes today. I really can't wait for Friday to get here! It's going to be a really, really busy day that day. H has 2 appts. one with his regular physician & the other with the cardiologist. Yes, it's just the preliminary visit, but I'm hoping he'll schedule H for his pacemaker ASAP!!!
kelijpa & newleaf: That's why I share my photos. I know many of you are stuck in snow & that you are really ready for spring. If I can't send you sunshine via the internet maybe I can warm you with photos from No. CA.
sept2012: Sound like a well thought out plan! I wish you best of luck! It's great to have a plan to keep yourself accountable. Please keep us up to date on how it's going. WE CAN HELP you stay motivated.
NEMom: Ah, if only it were that easy to keep bad weather at bay. Glad you're keeping up with C25K program. Hope all is well with you & your son. Yes, spring will be here soon. Do you realize that Eater is less than 6 weeks away?? CRAZY!!!
BTW I know what you mean about PMS...mine raised HE77 with me last week. UGH!!
Moondance: Congrats on the loss!!! Time a happy dance!!!
Hope that everyone has a great remainder of the week! I'll check in as time allows! BE HEALTHY!!! BE HAPPY!!! ROCK BEING A 40-SOMETHING!!! GO!!! GO!!! GO!!!
Hi Everyone!
I got through the weekend with my kids and grandkids here. And I'm happy to say I did well for the most part on my diet. Friday night we went out to a casino for a seafood buffet, and I only had crab legs and salad. (well, and a couple glasses of wine, but I budgeted my calories for them) Boy, I guess crab has a lot of sodium, because the next day my weight was up FOUR POUNDS! The rest of the weekend I was good, and stayed within my calories, drank a ton of water, and walked an hour each day. 3 of those 4 pounds are now back off, and we managed to have just as much fun even if we didnt' eat and drink a ton. That's something I'm realizing has been so ingrained in me - family fun usually revolves around special food, and snacking. I see it now, and realize that we don't always have to have super-high fat foods and drinks to enjoy each other's company. Now to try to let my kids see that, and help them think similarly so we can all be healthier. None of my kids have weight problems yet, and I sure don't want them to. Anyway, we had a great time, and I have to tell you, my grandkids are the cutest you've ever seen!
Hope everyone is having a good week. We're supposed to get a big snowstorm tomorrow, so I hit the store and stocked up on healthy foods today. No excuses for not eating right for this chick this week!
UGH! I however only had 2. That for me was great considering anything filled with candy & open around me is usually EMPTY when I get around it.
. Shiela22...how you can go on a blind date ON A SCHOOL NIGHT (!) is a mystery to me. I figure, I've got patience enough for only one significant other. I couldn't bear the thought of having to train a new one! ha! Seriously, thanks for sharing your dating stories. You and Zumba keep me young! Your date sounded like an episode of Mad Men....we're into the 2nd season of that series (my only special treat these days) and we're really enjoying it. Tho, all the drinking and smoking (and sexism) on the show makes my stomach queasy. My DS12 hit the VD jackpot....(ok that does sound very very wrong!). Several valentines, some from 'Secret Admirer'. I arrived home to find him lifting weights in my room! Oh No! Heeeeere we go.....!
Yes, I am HER SERVANT! 
Hope you enjoyed your weekend with your family. It sounds like a lotta fun.
