A couple of years ago I was involved in a
GREAT youth group. My grandmother would take
me to church every Sunday, I had fantastic pastors,
and I loved the support I felt in my church.
But then my youth group leaders moved to
a different state and the youth group broke
up, sadly. My grandmother also moved away
which only pulled me further away from the church.
My mother isn't religious, the rest of my family
isn't religious, and soon my relationship with Christ ended.
My faith has been tested in ways that has
brought me so much sorrow and for the last
two years I've been a mess; disordered and lost.
Here I am now, 16 years old and ready to
rekindle my love with the Lord and the church.
My friend is helping me through this; sharing
with me daily bible verses, openly talking to
me about my struggles, helping me build this
ever-lasting relationship with Christ
that I desperately want and need.
I'm still hanging on God, trusting You.
I am a Christian, I sin. I struggle with
my faith even though I know God is
always there. I have doubts, anger,
grief but I also have love, forgiveness,
and compassion. I get lonely even
though I have a God who loves me,
willing to meet me at any given moment.
I have a testimony even though
sometimes I forget how much Christ
truly saved me. I am scared of the
future even though I have a promise
he will always be with me. I have been
given more than I will ever deserve yet
sometimes I focus too much on what
I don’t have. I am called to be Christ’s
hands and feet though sometimes I’m
too wrapped up in my own world to notice
someone else in need. I’ve been known
to speak hate instead of love. I am
guilty of seeing someones flaws first
instead of looking for the beauty. I am
a Christian, I sin. I am such a mess.
But I am God’s mess. That gives me
hope, the fact that through all my
shortcomings He still claims me and
speaks love over me. The fact that
in my sin He still calls my name.
Tonight, for the first time in two years, I will pray to Him.
Wow, for being so young you know some things that took me so many years to figure out.
Quote:
I am a Christian, I sin. I struggle with
my faith even though I know God is
always there. I have doubts, anger,
grief but I also have love, forgiveness,
and compassion. I get lonely even
though I have a God who loves me,
willing to meet me at any given moment.
I have a testimony even though
sometimes I forget how much Christ
truly saved me. I am scared of the
future even though I have a promise
he will always be with me. I have been
given more than I will ever deserve yet
sometimes I focus too much on what
I don’t have. I am called to be Christ’s
hands and feet though sometimes I’m
too wrapped up in my own world to notice
someone else in need. I’ve been known
to speak hate instead of love. I am
guilty of seeing someones flaws first
instead of looking for the beauty. I am
a Christian, I sin. I am such a mess.
But I am God’s mess. That gives me
hope, the fact that through all my
shortcomings He still claims me and
speaks love over me. The fact that
in my sin He still calls my name.
May I ask, besides writing this beautiful post, what other steps are you taking towards God? And how can we help you?
Wow, for being so young you know some things that took me so many years to figure out.
May I ask, besides writing this beautiful post, what other steps are you taking towards God? And how can we help you?
Love, Kelli
Right now I'm taking my time to
build my relationship with Him.
I'm becoming aware that He is with
me always and I'm gaining support
through the church and, of course,
the wonderful people here.
I'm also going to read the Bible from
cover to cover. I never have and I'm
going to! Please, pray for me.
SIERRA ~ I agree; this is a lovely post! I think most, if not all Christians, know exactly how you feel. I was just thinking about how some people expect Christians to be perfect. Christian just means that we are followers of Christ; and we have joined GOD's family. The label Christian doesn't change the fact that we are human with flaws & shortcomings; but thank the LORD, we are covered by HIS GRACE and His righteousness (it is not of ourselves, by any means, as you already know).
I read the bible daily (morning & evening); I do a small devotional (DAILY BREAD) in the AM that starts with a bible verse and related reading. They teach me so much and don't take very long (about 5 minutes). I do my morning prayers starting with the LORD's PRAYER from Matthew & Luke; and prayers for my family, friends, and special prayer requests like yours.
In the evening before bed sometime, I read a PSALM; many of them are so very comforting. Often, I will also read 1-2 Chapters of a specific book of the bible that I want to study at that time -- i.e. one from the New Testament. When I was young in my Faith Journey, I started with the NEW TESTAMENT, then branched out to the books of the Old Testament like Psalms, Proverbs, etc after that.
I also like to memorize short, favorite verses so that I can recall them at any moment. I say the book, chapter & verse, before & after; and this helps me recall it better. I still remember verses that I memorized when I was young to this day ...
Will gladly send up some prayers for you too ...
Last edited by Justwant2Bhealthy; 02-24-2011 at 07:40 PM.
Thank you, both of you, for your
words of wisdom. <3 I'm terribly
sorry I have not been on lately.
I'm going through so many things
right now that I've lost track of
time and I've not had the time
to get on the computer.
Things have been up, down, sideways,
in circles, but I'm getting there.
I'm making little progress, but progress
none-the-less.
I will definitely remember what you
two have said and work more on
developing a close relationship with Christ.
I'm ready, I'm doing this for me. :)
Please, pray for me. 
