[katrinabgood]

Originally Posted by Stinger766

He's not someone that would ever want me as a girlfriend because he wouldn't want to be seen with someone as fat as me. (He's never said that but I know him well enough to know that's how he feels).

Oh, how that breaks my heart...and PISSES me off at the same time!!! He hasn't called since July? If all he wants is what he "usually" wants, I'd tell him to take a hike. I know I don't need to put my psychologist's coat on to tell you that you are just playing out what your parents instilled in your brain. It is time to break away from that kind of thinking!!! That's where the change will occur, when you stop thinking so little of yourself. Now, come here and let me give you a {{{{{BIG HUG}}}} Ingrid, hold your head up high, be proud of yourself and the efforts that you are making. Treat yourself with respect, you deserve it!!!

Stepping off my soap box now...

Hi all...I know I've been AWOL for the most part. Just busy. Dh is still in CA, will be there til next Friday... Turns out they cancelled the surgery, which was supposed to be today, FIL's kidneys are not in tip top shape either, now they're talking about doing dialysis first, THEN the surgery. Oy. Next Friday...the day dh leaves. So Dad is being discharged today, will be readmitted next week. I just can't emphasize enough to dh (and to myself, duh) the importance of getting healthy and taking care of our bodies NOW, before they decide to get back at us later for all the abuse we've heaped on them!!!

I will attempt a few replies, but may have to bolt quickly...I need to get dinner going...tonight is karate, then a basketball game, then WORK...ugh. I'm getting mighty tired of this night shift crap. I was networking myself a bit last night. One of the nurses who USED to work nights and now has a lovely office job in Staff Development...came in last night to inservice us on some new procedure...We got to chatting and I told her if she ever needs a new secretary to give me a call. "Funny you should mention that," she replied..."There is an opening...MAYBE...and I'd LOVE to have you!!!" (budget constraints being what they are...if they can get away without one, they will.) So, I have that pleasant thought to hang onto. I know for a fact that working nights is NOT conducive to proper eating habits. Or sleep patterns. Or any semblence of a "normal" life. I'm ready for a change. I NEED a change!

Oh yeah, back to replies...enough about me...

BarbPA...Go for the massage!!!! They are wonderful and totally relaxing. I've never had accupuncture, but my granny did for back pain, related to cancer, and couldn't say enough good things about it! Go for it, baby! BTW, best wishes to Dad...hope he feels better soon!

Terry, All this boat talk is making me LONG for summer!! You guys are going to have lots of fun with your new "toy." I'm jealous!

Babysteps...Hey! Don't give up so quickly!! If you fell off the wagon, get right back on. We're all good at that here! Lots of skinned knees and bruises from that fall! Find what you're most comfy with and stick to that. Hang in there!

Lucky, Knowing that Dr Phil's earnings go to charity (i'll bet he keeps a bit for himself!) makes him slightly less annoying in my eyes. But YOU can keep coming here!! In fact, I'd like to see a bit MORE of you here, young lady!!!

2cute,

Sometimes I think I tend to be TOO compassionate and not enough honesty.

Oh, how I can relate to that one!!

Audrey, sounds like you are following a very sensible plan. Realistic. Keep up the good work!

Barbg, About those roses...my mother in law has beautiful roses...she told me once that she has just stuck cuttings in the ground and they grow! I was skeptical, but she swears it works! May as well give it a shot! I LOVE roses! Good luck with them!

Dang, there's the phone...and I was on a roll too! gotta run. Hi to everyone else, I'll catch you all later...make that tomorrow! Have a good night!

[2cute2Bfat]

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[Stinger766]

Thanks Kat.

He's actually called about 10 times since July but I haven't actually hooked up with him. He's stopped by my office twice for workish related reasons but we haven't seen each other in person in several months and haven't been together since July. I know logically that he's a loser and that I deserve better. 8 months is a long time to go without though and I do have residual feelings for him that flare up from time to time. I told my best friend that it's been so long that next time he wanted to hook up I'd say no but of course I didn't. I mean I put him off for yesterday but he's very persistant and I'm sure that he won't quit calling any time soon. I just wonder if I'll ever have a normal relationship. Most of my past relationship (well all my past relationships) had major problems too. I want a normal life, with a normal man. Is that so much to ask? lol.

Hope everyone is having a good day. I may sound depressed about the above but I'm actually really just pondering what's going on in my life and since I'm making myself physically healthier I want to be emotionally and spiritually better too.

Talk to you soon,

Ingrid